I move over to you when the human male unzips his jacket to reveal silver. I want to protect you but you push me away, telling me you'll be okay, that I need to protect Bill's human, Sookie. I make it to her just as the male pushes the button. Things explode and it goes dark, I feel a silver bullet then another one, hit me in the chest. It burns and I think to myself, at least I got to see you once more before I die.
Then I hear others moaning and Bill shouting for Sookie. He appears in front of us and I let him know that she's only in shock because I shielded her. I then tell him to go get the men who did this to us and he leaves. Sookie pushes me off her, saying that she can't breathe.
I see Isabel come out of the other room and start checking on people. You are just standing there, surveying the damage with your eyes. I'm worried about you Godric; you don't seem to be the carefree vampire that I remember. What has happened to you? I'm hurting but I know I'm starting to heal but I play it up to Sookie. I tell her that I'm dying and there is no time to get you. I know in the past you would've been proud of me for getting my way, but I'm not so sure anymore. But I know that I need her, we have to be connected. So I trick her into sucking the bullets out of my chest, making her think that she is saving my life.
I hear Isabel come over and report to you. I was secretly happy to hear that Stan was dead, but felt bad that the others, including two humans, were killed. Bill walks back over to me and Sookie. After Sookie explains to him how she was saving my life I tell Bill that she was superb. I'm smirking to myself, I know Bill knows what this now means and that Sookie doesn't, at least for now. I just lay there as Bill explains to Sookie that we are now linked, that I'll be able to sense her emotions now. She calls me a lying a-hole and I smirk. I tell Bill I believe he is rights, knowing fully that he is.
She runs over to Bill and starts to cry, telling me she'll never do anything for me again, calling me a monster. I jokingly tell her I think I am going to cry after I stand up. Isabel and this male human, Jason who is Sookie's brother, call for everyone's attention. You start to speak and I am smiling, happy to see that you are okay. You tell everyone that they might come back so that we should all head to the Hotel Camilla, saying that they have been alerted and their security has been increased. Everyone starts to leave but you just stand there, making sure that they all do leave. I'm staring straight ahead at Bill and Sookie, but watching you out of the corner of my eye.
I leave shortly before you, watching you survey the damage one last time. I go to the Hotel with you, worried because you aren't speaking. We go up to my room and the second the door is closed I pull you close to me. I tell you I love you and that I'm so glad that you are save, that you are still here. You smile up at me and I lean my head down, kissing your lips softly. You kiss me back and I reach to unbutton your shirt. You reach to undo my pants as we walk towards my bed. It's been so long Godric and I've missed you so much. We stop kissing so that we can finish undressing ourselves.
For the first time since we've started making love you allow me to show you my love for you. I've never been in you before; it feels so much better than anything. Our love making this time is slow and passionate, all my love for you is behind my thrusts. I don't bite into you like you normally do to me but I offer my neck to you. You don't take it and I'm so worried about you. I finish in you and then lie next to you, holding you close to me. Oh my dear Godric, you are so beautiful, I've missed you so much all these years. We fall asleep holding each other.
The next evening we go into Bill and Sookie's room, to have a meeting with Nan Flanagan, the women in charge of the AVL. I'm sitting near Bill and Sookie and you are sitting next to Isabel. I stare at you as she yells at us. I want to kill her for yelling at us, so I let her know it was Stan's own idea to go into the church, that none of us were responsible for it. I can feel Sookie's eyes on me so I turn my head slightly to look at her and grin to myself. Nan goes on about how Stan's nest mates and sheriff didn't know that he was going to do this and I glare at her. I can't believe she is blaming you for Stan's stupid fucking actions. Even more shocking to me is that you are just sitting there, quite and not saying anything.
I growl at her not to talk to you that way and she tells me not to talk to her that way. Godric I want nothing more than to kill this lady, but why aren't you defending yourself. This isn't like you and it worries me. You haven't been the same since we saved you and I wonder what is going through your head. She asks you how they managed to abduct you and I'm shocked when you reply that you offered yourself. She asks you why, a question I want to know as well and you only say why not. She tells you they wanted you to meet the sun and you were willing, it doesn't make sense to her or me.
But then it clicks for me and my face falls, I'm fighting back tears as Sookie looks at me. She asks about some traitor and you stand up for Hugo, saying it was only a rumor. You accept full responsibility and she says something in response. "You cold bitch," I'm thinking and somehow it slips out of my mouth. She goes off about how it's a national vampire disaster and no one has any sympathy for any of us. She cusses and tells you that you are fired and you just agree with it. You want Isabel appointed sheriff, saying that she had nothing to do with your disgrace. Isabel tells you to fight back and I start yelling that you don't have to take shit from her.
She threatens to take away my area and I just growl that she doesn't have that kind of power. Isabel tries to take the blame for Stan and your saying her name is enough to quite her. I watch all this, trying to figure out what is wrong with you. This isn't like you Godric. You voluntarily remove yourself from all positions of authority and my shoulders just slump, it's like you're giving up Godric, and that's not like you. Sookie tries to defend you and you just sit there, listening to everything she says. The AVL lady starts going off about how she has no reason to thank you and I get pissed. I find myself jumping out of my sit and Isabel stops me. But what stops me even more is when you say my name. You tell me it doesn't matter and I just stand there for a minute.
I go to sit back down, still glaring at the AVL lady; I don't even care what her name is anymore. She asks for details about the bombing and we all just sit there listening to you describe everything that just happened. I just sit there, my mind racing with thoughts of you. She asks you to come to her room to sign some papers but you admit to wanting to say something first. I can feel Sookie watching me but I'm too focused on you Godric. You apologize for what has just happened, looking at me before you continue. You promise to make amends for everything that has happened. I swallow roughly, a small part of me finally understanding what is wrong.
She tells you it's only a couple signatures before patting your shoulder and leaving the room. As soon as she is gone I come over to you. "No" is all I can say. I'm so close that I could kiss you but I don't since there are others in the room. You tell me to look into your heart and I say that you have to listen to me. You tell me there is nothing to say but I reply that there is. "On the roof" is your response before you walk out the door. I stand there until Bill walks up to me.
He tells me that we have a score to settle and I just say not now, I'm not ready to handle this. He hits me across the mouth and I spit out blood. I heal as I turn back to him and he wants to know if he made his point. I tell him it's done; I'm part of Sookie now and to get out of my way. He moves to let me through and I walk out. I have to find you Godric; I have to save your life. I can't let you do this, I can't lose you. I run up to the roof and find you already there.
I kiss you and then step back, hoping that my love is all you need to change your mind. When you don't say anything I ask you please don't do this. You tell me two thousand years is enough just as I hear Sookie come onto the roof. I tell you I can't accept this, that it's insanity and you retort that our existence is insanity. You turn part way towards me and tell me that we don't belong here. "But we are here" I yell back, struggling to keep my voice even. You reply that it's not right and I remind you that you taught me there is no right or wrong, there is only survival or death. "I told a lie it turns out" is all you say and I walk closer to you. I will keep you alive by force and I tell you as much.
"Even if you could why would you be so cruel" you respond, and I nearly lose it. I talk to you in my old dialect, knowing that Sookie is watching on and can't understand what I am saying to you. You respond in my dialect, telling me there is centuries of faith and love between us and I start to cry. I know at this point that I can't change your mind and it's nearly killing me. I beg you not to as I fall to my knees in front of your feet. You remind me that you are my father, my brother, my son before asking me to let you go. I'm still sobbing as you say all this to me, not ready to lose you. I stop crying long enough to tell you that I won't let you die alone and you tell me that I will.
I start crying again as you reach down to run your hand over my hair. I don't want to let you die alone and my heart is set on dying with you. But then you say that as my maker you command me and I just stare at you as I slowly get up onto my feet. I hate that I can't defy you, I want to die with you. But my body can't disobey you; your simple command is to be carried out by me. I walk over to Sookie, looking back at you as you look towards the east, waiting for the sun to come up. Sookie squeezes my hand softly and tells me that she will stay with you as long as it takes. As I walk down the stairs I hear you tell Sookie it won't take long.
I head to my room and curl up into a ball on the bed. I hold the pillow that your head was on last night and start crying again. Soon my shirt and the pillow are covered in my blood red tears. I can feel Sookie's fear and sadness as I feel the sun start to rise. I can also feel your joy. Why aren't you scared Godric? Why are you leaving me to live alone? Was my love not enough for you? Was I not enough? All these thoughts run through my head and I start to doze, weakened by the rising sun. Your pillow is in my arms and I feel something in it. I turned it up side down and find an envelope. I don't know when you left this but I open it. It's a letter from you; I hope this will answer my questions. I start to read it as more tears start to run down my cheeks. I love you Godric, forever.
