Author's Note: You guys are amazing! seriously! Thank you so much for reading and reviewing and liking and following the story! Also I love the my TVD readers that followed me into another realm! I know I said there would be more on the lilly kane case, but that will be next chapter, I felt this one was full enough. Also I'm glad everyone liked Logan's POV, I agree that we didn't get much of his POV on the show of why he hated Veronica. Like there was the obvious, but what about the underlining issues? Anyway I'll probably do it again since it worked very well and we get more of our questions answered. As for Veronica getting friends, she will. Wallace I'm not sure will be coming earlier than he does on the show and there will me Meg and Mac as well as Dick appearing, just not as soon as hoped for. Also as for Pep Squad I always figured she'd quit when Lilly died, so yes she's not on it anymore, but she still has the uniform. Also Veronica will not be drugged and raped in this story. Theres only so much the girl can take. So enjoy the chapter! More will be up probably after the weekened. I have a test, paper, freelance work, and I should update my other stories as well, but then again I really enjoy writing this story so who knows. Let me know what you think!
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Chapter 4 The Realization
The Monday after Thanksgiving Veronica woke up and felt worse than ever. Her body hurt, her stomach was twisted in knots, and she was feeling more tired than she did when she had gone to bed last night. She lay in bed for a few minutes weighing the options of going to school feeling like this or staying home. She technically couldn't afford the absence, but she was feeling so ill she wasn't sure how she was going to hold up in school, especially if Logan and his gang of miscreants were going to harass her.
As she lay in bed there was a soft knock on her door and Veronica knew her dad was coming to see why she was still in bed at 7:45 when she should be getting ready for school.
"Veronica?" Keith called through the door. When he heard a soft 'come in' he pushed it open and found his only daughter curled up in a ball looking sickly.
He walked over to her and laid a gentle hand on her forehead.
"What's going on, honey?" he asked looking down at her worriedly.
"I feel icky." She groaned out. She could smell the eggs he made for breakfast and they were making her stomach turn even more. She frowned wondering when the smell of eggs made her sick.
"Do you want to go to school today?" Keith asked.
Veronica stared up at him debating the question. "Honestly not really, but to maintain my stellar attendance record and getting my schoolwork done, maybe…" she said trailing off.
Keith smiled down at his overachieving daughter and patted her gently on the head. "How about you make an appointment with the doctor and stay home today? I'm sure they'll be able to squeeze you in." he said taking her cell off her bedside table and handing it to her.
Veronica nodded reluctantly and took her phone from his hands.
"I'm going to go in to work, call me if you need me ok?" Keith said kissing her briefly on the forehead and then getting off the bed.
Veronica gave him a soft smile. "Careful dad you don't want to catch whatever I have." She said half jokingly and half serious.
Keith smiled down at her. "I'll take my chances. Now I'll call the school, you go back to sleep and rest, but don't forget to call the doctor."
Veronica nodded and grabbed her computer to look up the doctor's phone number before dialing. She heard her father leave the house as she made her appointment—Wednesday morning—and then when she was finished she put her phone back on the bedside table and got ready to close her computer when she decided to 'Google' her symptoms.
She typed in 'fatigue, stomach sickness, and aching body.' Then gasped when she saw the results. She closed her computer quickly and then stared down at her stomach not believing what she had seen. Quickly she got out of bed put on the first pair of clothes she saw and then dashed out of the house trying to ignore the smells of cooked eggs since it was making her sensitive stomach even worse. When she got to the car she paused for a moment as she felt the bile claw up her throat. She ran to the front bush as quickly as possible emptying her stomach tears rolling down her face all the while.
Once she was done she slowly went back inside brushed her teeth and then got into her car to drive to the farthest drugstore out of Neptune to avoid being seen buying what she was about to purchase.
As she drove she refused to think about the possibly 'what ifs' instead she turned the radio up as loud as possible to drown out her thoughts. After an hour of driving out of Neptune she went to the nearest drug store and bought three boxes of pregnancy tests. The clerk gave her a funny look, but Veronica knew it could've been a lot worse if she had stayed in Neptune and bought them.
When she'd made her purchases she drove back home and dashed into the bathroom to take the first box. She followed the directions and then set it carefully on the side of the sink and watched as the first turned blue.
"What the hell, Veronica." She mumbled to herself before grabbing a jug of water and draining it dry before taking the next one, then the one after that and finally she had taken all of them and they all came back the same way. Whether it were two lines, blue, a smiley face, or what they were all fucking positive.
She gathered up the pregnancy tests and took them to her room dumping them on her desk. She then sat at her desk she had so often done homework at and stared at them as if willing them to change.
"I can't believe this is happening." She whispered to herself again and again her fingers tangling in her long blonde hair.
"What am I going to do?" she said curling her small body in the chair she was occupying and buried her head into her knees. She knew her father was going to be furious, hell she was furious. Why the hell hadn't she and Logan worn a condom? God that was like the first thing you learned in Sex Ed. But then Lilly ran across her head and she remembered the grief they had and how wearing a condom was like the least of their thoughts.
She remembered that night so fondly. Sometimes at night when she couldn't sleep and she felt like shit for people mocking her all day she thought of that night and how gentle and caring Logan had been. The way he touched her it was like he was trying to make all of her pain go away. He was so caring and kind making sure she was ok and that she wasn't hurting too bad. He was so…unlike his present self it was incredible. That night was the last shard of hope that there was the old Logan still inside this new monstrous one. She gasped when she realized she was going to have to tell this new terribly psychotic one that she was pregnant with his child.
"Shit." She whispered her mind going to how Logan was going to take the news. How he was going to claim it wasn't his and ridicule her and tell the whole school. She began to shake in her chair as all the terribly scenarios rolled through her mind and she wondered who hated her so much to make all of this bad stuff happen.
First Duncan breaks up with her, then Lilly dies, then Lianne leaves, now finally she was pregnant by Neptune's obligatory psychotic jackass. Like what the serious fuck did she do in another life to deserve all of this bad stuff happening? What was she going to do now? How was she supposed to tell her father let alone Logan? And what were they going to do? Her father was working day and night to keep his job and a roof over their heads and she had to graduate high school and go to college. How was she supposed to do any of this with a kid? Not to mention kids were expensive. In their health class they had added up how much kids were to ward off teenage pregnancies and kids were like, a million dollars all together with college and everything.
She didn't have a million dollars! She had nothing. Nada. Zip. And how did you raise a kid on nothing?
She put her hand over her stomach feeling an odd mix of feelings knowing that someone was living inside of her. She knew then that no matter how hard any of this was going to be she wanted the child. She wasn't going to be Lianne. She wasn't going to abandon someone that needed her. She knew it was silly and she was only 16, but she was going to do this. She didn't know how or any of the important questions, but she did know that she would do this with or without anyone's help. She was Veronica Mars after all and very resourceful. Whatever she had to do to make money that was legal she was ok with.
The only other thing she had to figure out was how she was going to tell her dad. Logan was a different problem all together, but her dad…he meant the world to her and when she'd see the disappointment in his eyes she didn't know what she was going to do.
It took Veronica a day and a half to finally be able to tell her father the truth. Monday when he had gotten home she'd hid the pregnancy tests and they had a nice quiet albeit elephant in the room type of dinner. Tuesday she went to school and tried to act like everything was fine, although every time she saw Logan she turned and walked in the opposite directions. She was so very not ready to have that conversation. Finally Tuesday night she knew she would have to tell him, her doctor's appointment was in the morning.
"Dad, I uh I uh have something to uh tell you." she stammered setting down her fork and looking across at the table at him.
Keith looked up from his plate and sat patiently for her to tell him what was going on.
"So I made a doctor's appointment for tomorrow, but I—I think I know what's—what's wrong." She stammered in the same way. She shifted uncomfortably under her father's eyes.
Keith smiled encouragingly at her. "Well I hope it's not life threatening." He half joked.
"I'm pregnant." Veronica blurted out. Then she got up and went to get the six pregnancy tests and dumped them on the table for him to see. He sat there stunned not knowing what to say as he stared at the pile then back at her.
"Please tell me this is an early April Fools Day joke." He said picking one up and staring at the blue positive sign.
Veronica shook her head watching carefully his reaction.
"Veronica…I…how could you be so stupid?" he said his voice cracking.
She looked down in foolishness and cleared her through uncomfortably. "It's not like I planned—"
"Do you know what this means? You and Duncan are going to have so much—"
"Duncan and I never…did it." Veronica said cutting off the beginnings of the rant she knew he was going to do.
Keith dropped the pregnancy test back in the pile and turned to look at her fully. "Duncan isn't…then who is?" he asked bewildered.
Veronica looked down. "Listen I know this is…a surprise."
"That's the understatement of the century." He snapped rubbing a hand across his bald head.
"Dad, I know you're angry—"
"I'm not angry Veronica I'm disappointed." He said quietly and effectively silencing Veronica.
They sat in silence for a few minutes until Keith spoke. "So whom do I have to kill?" he asked semi joking and really serious.
"After Lilly's funeral…Logan and I…I'm really sorry, daddy I didn't…I don't…" Veronica trailed off as her throat closed up and the tears began to flow down her face.
Keith sighed and got up wrapping his arms around the sobbing girl.
"It's ok, Veronica. Tomorrow we'll go to the doctor and see what's going on. It'll be ok. I mean this could not have come at a worse time, but…" Keith trailed off stroking his daughter's head.
"I know with Lilly's murder and everything." Veronica gulped trying to stop crying.
Keith sighed and kneeled down beside her. "There's more…there's been talk of trying to get me out of office." He said quietly.
Veronica looked up at him with wide teary eyes. "But that's stupid. You're the best."
Keith smiled at his daughter. "I know, but they aren't happy about this whole Kane case. We might have to move to somewhere less…expensive. Especially with the current circumstances." He said looking down at her stomach.
Veronica looked away feeling horribly.
"It'll be ok, honey. We'll figure something out, but just know that if you want to keep this kid you're going to have to work extra hard and you are going to college." Keith warned.
Veronica nodded.
"And you need to tell Logan. He's as much apart of this as you are." He added.
Veronica nodded and then gave him a watery smile. "Are you going to kill him?"
Keith smirked, "Only if he does something stupid. Now, tomorrow I'm coming with you to the appointment you shouldn't be alone." He said.
Veronica smiled and hugged him. Thinking about what her dad said she darkly thought if only you knew dad, if you only you knew.
(A/n: So what'd you think? Next chapter, doctors appointment, lilly's case, and a Logan appearence.)
