Nico's perspective
When I got down to the mess hall Leo was the only one there. I went to go sit at the table, when I got there I saw that all the plates and cups had been laid out, but it was a bit strange that no one was here. Those people were always eating. When I sat down I saw Leo was also here, crouching, fixing something i think.
"Leo, where is everyone?" I asked quietly, half hoping he wouldn't hear me.
"While you were sleeping a sea monster attacked, but we all agreed not to wake you up, because one 1) we wouldn't have been able to stop fighting to go wake you up and 2) Percy had it under control, but everyone went to sleep early. So if you don't mind you and I will be on patrol for a few hours, is that ok?" He told me, not in an angry way. He said all this in an off hand way, as if spending half the night making sure monsters didn't attack the ship with the Son of Hades didn't scare him in anyway at all.
"No, it's fine." I said. I always tried to keep it brief with Leo, something about him unsettled me a bit.
But something was off about him, but I couldn't tell what, no matter what he wouldn't look me in the eye.
My stomach rumbled and I whispered to my plate and fries and a burger appeared on my plate, and in my cup I got a coke.
After that I had realized that Leo had been staring at me.
"Umm Leo, I'm going to go sit in the nest and keep watch," I told him, refusing to meet his gaze.
"Yeah ok, I'll walk around deck to see if anything is sneaking up on us," and with that he left,"
I made my way up to my nest and saw that the sun was already setting, the sky was awash in pink, purple, and gold. I looked around me and didn't see any ripples in the water indicating a sea monster of some sort. It's times like these where I miss couch hedge and his constant yelling, but ever since I had delivered that stupid statue and shadow traveled back it had been sort of quite without his constant screaming of something needing to die. I mean I could have stayed at camp half blood but everyone had told me they would need me with the 7 to help with the battle.
I did a 360 and still didn't see anything.
I look down and see Leo climbing up to me. This couldn't be good, not at all.
"Hey Nico, could I ask you something?" he asked, sitting next to me. He had a whisky bottle in his hand.
"Sure, I guess so," I was very very uncomfortable with this. And also very nervous.
"Look Nico, I was just wondering, I mean I know I upset you and everything and I am really sorry about that but do you have to be such a jerk?" He was talking so fast I almost didn't hear him.
"You think I'm a jerk?" I asked kind of confused. He then handed me the whisky battle, and I took a bitter swig of it.
"Well I mean you're not a jerk but you get really mean and quit sometimes and I just I kinda wanted to tell you…." He trailed off. He was looking at me weird.
"What Leo?" by this point I just want him to spit it out and tell me. I took a really long drink from the bottle. And then another. I then realized Leo was drunk, his cheeks were flushed and he was slurring his words.
"Well Nico I just always thought you were kinda nice, like I know you have this hard scary outer shell, but I see you with Hazel and how nice you are to her and how caring, and I just don't get it." He look frustrated. I took another swig, my head was starting to swim.
"What don't you get?" My words were beginning to slur to.
" Do you hate me?" He said this very quietly.
" No I don't hate you." I had no Idea where this was going, but I don't really care.
" Then why do you act like you hate us all," he looked me straight in the eyes.
" I just can't let my feeling show through, don't ask me why I just can't." I was looking at him and he was looking at me, there was grease across his right cheek.
" Is it because your gay?" I froze.
" What?!" I couldn't think straight, was I having a nightmare? this couldn't be happening.
" I heard you talking to Jason earlier. I was there to say sorry, for upsetting you earlier, and I heard you and Jason talking about how your gay," He didn't look at me when he said this.
I pushed him aside and started to climb down.
"Nico where are you going?" He asked. I was silently crying. Tears were soaking my shirt. I go tho the deck and started to run. I could hear Leo climbing down after me. I was in the hall, I could hear Leo running after me.
"NICO WAIT, PLEASE!" He yelled at me. I stopped, but only to shadow travel to my room.
As soon as I had materialized in my room I turned around and slammed and locked the door.
He knew, he knew and he had probably told everyone, thats the real reason no one had been at dinner. Not because of some sea monster but because of what I am. They couldn't stand to be in the same room with me.
I heard this high pitched crying only to realize it was me, then I heard Leo knock on my door.
"Nico open up, please, I'm sorry if I upset you, open up." he said through the door. But there was no way in hades that I was going to open that door.
I took out my sword. I didn't even feel pain anymore. I felt numb.
And then I slashed down on my both my wrist's, and let the red flow. I liked the pain, I liked it a lot. I had never done this before, and now I questioned why because it felt so good.
"NICO PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR, OPOEN IT PLEASE!" Leo was pleading with me, but I would not and could not listen to him.
This was the best feeling ever. My thoughts started to get really fuzzy.
"Leo I think I'm going to die," I had said it so quietly I didn't think he had heard. But he did
"Just hang on Nico, I'm going to go get help, I'll be right-"
"DONT TELL THE OTHERS, DON'T TELL THE OTHERS ABOUT WHAT I AM," I was begging with my entire heart, my words were no longer slurred.
"I won't, just hang on, just wait I'm going to go get help," He promised me, then I heard him run away.
My thoughts were so muddled, I had no idea how much time had passed before I passed out.
