You a 28 year old woman were in love with a co-worker. "It's forbidden" You thought and you clutched the papers in your chest. You (f/n) (l/n) were in love with Erwin Smith, the blonde hair, blue eyed man. He was your co-worker at The Wall Industries. This was a company built to protect the country from enemies. Erwin was head of this organization meanwhile you where under him serving as the head lieutenant. You and Erwin were childhood friends along with Hanji, Levi and others. But ever since childhood you developed a crush on the blonde haired beauty. Everyone in your circle of friends knew this secret except for him. As frustrating as it was you learned to except it long ago when Erwin found himself a girlfriend. Her name was Claire, she had black hair going down to her elbows, brown eyes, she was often nice except when you got too close to Erwin, she loved cheesecake, basically all sweets, she loved Erwin, and she was 150cm tall. That's all you knew about her. She talked to you a lot because you were close (but not too close *laughs*) to Erwin.

A part in you was jealous of her though. You wanted to know what it was like to be in her place but you knew that was far too selfish. If that were too happen you would feel ashamed of yourself, so naturally you kept your distance. A sad distance it was.

You sat there and sighed then your phone rang. Looking at the contact you seen Hanji's name, you thought you might regret answering it because she always says something stupid, but you did. "Hey, (name) wanna go for a drink after work?" Hanji spoke though the phone, you thought for a moment then spoke "maybe another time Hanji" You said, "but (name)! it'll be fun I promise it won't be like last time" Hanji pleaded, "I hope it isn't like last time! You bought a llama, we found Levi at the laundromat hooking up with that kid Eren, and Erwin was crying on the road outside of town!" You yelled. "I still have the photo of him crying" She laughed, "why do you even still have it?" you questioned, "well black mail proposes of course" again the women laughed. You eventually gave in for the invitation of a drink.

You finally got home at 2 in the morning. "So much for *hic* a drink *hic* it was more like *hic* 15" You sat more like fell onto your couch. You looked out the window onto the city view watching the different colored lights shimmer. "My life sucks" You said aloud. You laid there for the rest of the night just watching the different colored lights and the colorful sunrise.

You got 1 hour of sleep max, got up and ready for another day of work. "(Name)!" Someone yelled. Looking behind you spotted Erwin walking towards you. "Yo Erwin, what's up?" You smiled out of command. "I was wondering if you wanted to come to lunch with Claire and I, everyone has lunch plans already so I thought maybe you would like to come since you aren't doing anything" He said "last to ask as usual" you cried inside. "Maybe I am doing something who knows, well I do I mean-" You rambled. "(Name)" you stopped, "I know you aren't doing anything for lunch besides work, I mean come on don't keep yourself locked up" Erwin smiled. "Fine eyebrows" you said earning a playful glare.

You went to The Trost Café downtown. You sat down at a booth together looking at the menus wondering what to order. "What are you going to order (name)?" Claire asked, "well I was thinking of getting the Rogue burger the colossal is a bit too large" You chuckled. You sat there talking about the normal lunch things until you just couldn't really take being around them anymore. "I'm sorry but I have to go, thanks for taking me out to lunch it was a great time" You got up quite fast and stumbled, Erwin caught you "(Name) are you alrig-"he tried to ask "I'm fine and sorry" You got up and rushed out of the place, you could hear your name being called from behind you but you just kept running until you were out of breath. You realized you were crying the whole time. You turn the corner and sat in the nearby alley and cried your eyes out. You got home when it was getting dark. Closing the door you checked your voice mail.

"(Name)! Where are you Erwin told me you ran off I hope you're safe. Call me when you get this!" Concerned Hanji you thought.

Next.

"(NAME)! Where are you! Please call me when you get this!" Hanji again.

"Hey (Name)" Erwin. "Where did you run off to. everyone is concerned for you, please call me, Claire or Hanji when you get this okay?"

"Stupid Erwin Smith" You thought.

You deleted the messages and went to bed, puffy eyes and all.

It was 8am when you woke up and realized you would be late for work. The only thought you had was "ugh". When you got to work you went straight to your office. Hearing a knock at your door you mumbled a "come in", looking to see who it was. Erwin Smith it was good old Erwin. You swore you felt your blood run cold but you ignored it. "Where did you go yesterday?" Erwin asked, "oh I had something important to do and I was really late" you smiled again on command. "What did you have to do" he pressed you again "oh I had to meet up with a friend across town" you chuckled, "who was it" Erwin asked again "it was just someone I met a while back, look Erwin if you don't mind I would really like to get back to my work" You sighed "Stop lying! All you ever do is lie!" Erwin yelled which made you jump. "Look I'm not lying ok I had to meet a friend please can I get back to work now? Kinda have to keep a country safe" You looked away from him. "Fine but if anything is wrong don't be afraid to tell Claire, Hanji or me ok?" Erwin said. Claire again I'm getting so annoyed. "Sure thing" you smiled on command.

Beep

Beep

Beep

Downstairs people were hearing a beeping noise. But didn't know what was about to happen.

You sat at your desk trying to focus on you work but what Erwin said kept running through your mind like a tape recorder on replay. "Stop lying! All you ever do is lie!". "That's true my life was a lie I guess the smiles, the laughs, every single fu***** thing." A single tear fell before the building did.

All that was heard was screams all around you. You heard rubble being moved. "Hey (name) is going to be alright I'm going to get you out of her okay I promise" You heard Hanji. You mumbled "ok Hanji ok". Soon you didn't hear anymore rubble being moved, only shallow breathing.

"Hey H-hanji" You stuttered, "y-y-es? (name)" Hanji whimpered. "I love you friend wise, thanks for being my best friend and sticking with me to the very end you made stupid jokes but I laughed" tears rolled down your face. "Thanks for being my friend, you made me happy 'cause you didn't call me shitty glasses, you made bad jokes to and thanks for sticking with me too" Hanji cried.

"(NAME)!, HANJI!" You heard the blonde beauties voice. "ANSWER ME PLEASE" He called again. "E-e-rwin over here" Hanji tried to yell. "I think I found them!" Erwin yelled to the rescue team. "Keep calling so we can find you!" Erwin cried. "WE'RE OVER HEAR" You yelled your loudest. "PLEASE FIND US please" Your adrenaline pumped. You heard the rocks being moved above you. You seen light, You seen the sky. You seen the rescuers hands coming to pick you up. You heard Erwin's voice. You seen everything go black.

-2 weeks later-

"Will she ever wake up doctor" Erwin asked. "Look son she's in stable condition but she might not" The doctor stated. After that he got up and left with tears rolling down his face. He was walking down the street when his phone rang "Hey! Erwin" it was his secretary Petra. "Hello Petra", "I called to tell you I have some important papers from the project (Name) was working on before you know" Petra said "thanks Petra I'll come pick them thanks" He said, "no probs boss" she laughed. "Where should I come pick them up" He asked, "umm how about The Trost Café?" She asked, "ok" was all he said. He retrieved the papers and looked at them one line shocked him. "Erwin Smith it's true all I do is lie, it because I was protecting a secret of mine, I love you. I have ever since we were kids but it doesn't matter anymore. The last few words hit him like a rock doesn't matter anymore. He got up and ran, he ran until his legs were burning then he realized where they took him. They took him to the hospital. The hospital where the person he also loved since childhood was kept. He ran to your floor but when he got to the room he heard a sad sound, beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. "We need medical attention!" The nurse yelled. Doctors and nurses gathered around his beloved (Name). "Ok CLEAR!" the doctor yelled and again "CLEAR!". Erwin dropped to his knees and cried.

"Fu***** bright light" you thought. All you heard was the rhythmic beep. "We saved her!" The doctor cheered. Erwin's eyes lit up again. His beautiful blue eyes.

- THE NEXT DAY -

"what's going on?" Your throat and mouth were awfully dry. You were brought into and embrace. Your clothing felt soaked. Hanji's tears on your shoulder to be exact. "(Name) your awake!", "(Name)!" You heard Hanji and Erwin's voices and instantly broke into tears. 10 minutes later everyone settled down. "What happened?" You asked. "Well someone put a bomb in the building and it exploded, everything crumbled" You gasped at his words, 'you and Hanji were trapped under the rubble and were found you guys badly injured both unconscious, linked hands" he smirked at the symbol of friendship. "Hanji was less injured than you, when I got to the hospital they were trying to bring you back to life" You felt the tears coming back, "but they save you just in time" Erwin smiled. "My mouth is so dry" You stated "I'll go get you some water" Hanji smirked. She left the room and Erwin spoke. "I found the paper" you were confused, "the paper that said you loved me" he came over to your face "hey (name) I wanted to tell you that I also love you" You broke into tears. He kissed you and you kissed him.

Hanji never did bring water. You knew she wanted you and Erwin to be together all along.

I was actually planning to kill reader-chan but i decided for no sads tonight. Thanks for my friend THATBUSHGUY for helping me write this. If you find mistakes ignore them i wrote this in the middle of the night.