Chapter four
Why is it that when you know for some obscene reason your not supposed to think of something, its all you seem to be able to think about? How come no matter how much you want something out your head, it wont budge?
I stood in my bedroom, fresh out the shower, looking at myself in the mirror as I sat on the edge of my bed. My hair fell around my face, and I didnt understand what Kieren had meant? I looked as the hair sat there limp, soaking wet, my curls more prominent than before.
I didnt ever think of myself as attractive, nevermind someone who would be able to stop a guy in his tracks. My skin was pale white, more ivory than white though. My eyes were a musky grey colouring, they had gotten me into some fights before, some people had told me that they were intimidating, that they were partially the reason that most of the school kept their distance from me.
I knew that sleep wouldnt come easily to me, there was so much going on in my head, had no one else noticed the magnificent people sitting in that lunch room? Had they not noticed them looking at me with sheer anger and pain. But why? What had I done, other than talk to their brother?
Kyle's eyes were locked in my head. Something about them made them the biggest mystery yet. And how did Kieren know I was there, and if he didn't, why was he there himself?
None of this was making sense anymore.
I lay in my bed, hoping that dreams would overwhelm my thinking and drag me into subconsciousness, but there was wishful thinking right? I heard Layla, Dougie and the rest of their friends down in the livingroom, most likely getting drunk or something, playing games and watching TV.
They were ridiculously loud, laughing, joking. Yet another thing she had that I didn't, a big group of friends who thought of her like family and would do anything for her, even put up with her ever annoying anti social sister.
I stood from my bed,wandering over my bedroom floor until I reached the window that over looked the back yard and into the woods a little, as far as the lighting would let me see. I saw someone standing there, on the very border of the woodland. He was short, pale white and I could see his golden shimmering eyes glaring up at me. His darkened curly hair hugging his cheekbones.
"HA HA, shut it you lot, i'm just going to take a piss!" I heard Danny, Dougie's best friend who had an unnecessary loud voice. I realised then that I wasnt standing at my window, but I was lying on my bed. This, was in fact, the first night I dreamt about Kyle.
I awoke, got out of bed and walked down the stairs, people were sleeping on the couch, on the floor, drooling, empty bottles and cans spread out all over the place.
It looked rather amusing, some of the people from the group I sat with at lunch were lying sleeping soundlessly, hungover. I found this funny. I had never had the urge to get absolutely wasted drunk, there seemed nothing in poisoning my body just so that I would have more confidence that I already knew I had.
I didnt see the point in poisoning myself to have a good time, when give me some energy juice and an empty room and I could have a good time all on my own.
I decided it was my turn to wake some people up, after they took me out of the best dream I'd had since the only thing I wanted was a barbie scooter.
I walked into the kitchen, Danny sleeping at the table, his head on his arms, his hands cradling what seemed to be a vodka and coke, I laughed lightly, thinking of how it smelled like paint stripper.
I walked to the CD player, and slammed in one of the best CD's in the house, Katrina and The Waves, I pressed the appropriate buttons and turned the volume up as high as it would go, so that the whole bottom floor was shaking with the bass.
"I'm walking on sunshine, wooooooahhhh" I belched at the top of my voice as I danced around the livingroom, cleaning the bottles and cans, laughing quietly to myself.
GroowyBells: Wow, I really do love your long reviews lol. I'm sure there will be something you don't like. sooner or later lol. Wow, I'm really glad that you think that my writing is better in the sense that its kind of like Stephanie Meyers books, but that it has it's own tendencies. I'm sure you will learn all about Kieren and Kyle soon enough :)
EmmettsNewGirl: I'm really glad that you are keeping reading, and I'm hoping that this fic will be able to keep your reading needs up. Should be a few chapters up today if I can help it :)
Camilla: Haha, all you know right now is that his name is Kieren, but I'm sure that you will get to know them all better soon enough. I'm hoping that you continue reading and that I hear from you soon x
Jessica: I'm hoping that you continue to read, and that you like this even more as time passes on it. x
