I woke to a white hospital light blinding my blue eyes. My head pounding and my body aching. A nurse walked in giving me a tray of food. She smiled as she saw my awkake.
"Morning Fabian" she says happily.
"Willow? Willow Jenks?" I asked getting up running my eyes seeing if I see this correctly.
"The one and only" she smiles. Still full of sunshine.
"So how is life ?" She asked obviously knowing nothing about what happened last night and what has been happening resently.
Before I can answer another body walks in. He smiles. "Hello little brother". I try to smile but it turns into a frown once again.
"I'll just leave you two" Williow says patting me shoulder and smiling at the two of us leaving the room.
Nate pulled a chair up and sat on the right side from the bed having the window light shine on his back.
"You okay?" He asked.
"I'm fine"
"Oh the lies, Fabian. It's me. You can tell me" he assures me.
"Does mum and dad know I'm here?" I asked him
"Dude, everyone knows you're here. You are freaking Fabian Rutter, reporters are waiting outside the hospital." He tells me.
"Wish I wasn't" I mutter
"What happened man?" He started. He stood up pushing his chair back. "What happened that made you break and feel like suicde is the only answer?"
I ignored the question. "What makes you think, I tried to commit?"
"Fabian"
"Nate"
"I'm serious"
"So I'm I"
"I'm about to break your neck Rutter" he threaten. I leaned towards him.
"Will you please hurry and do it"
"Is it Amber? Is that why you've gone mad? Because the breakup"
"No"
"Them what is it that Nina girl? Fabian you need to get over her. I know it's hard because you were in love but-"
"No you don't know" I state
" I don't? Well sorry I never realized that your the only one that experienced heartbreak" Nate says. I crossed the line I guess.
"I'm just saying that-"
"That you are the only one that goes though pain? Ha yeah totally, I mean everything bad happens to Fabian Rutter right?" He says. I didn't mean that.
"Woah, children's calm down" I hear. Jerome Clarke my shrink. He leaned on the door frame. He didn't look very professional as always, he wore a white shirt and blue jeans but he did wear a dress coat. His hair was as neat as it usually was, wasn't messy persay but wasn't neat.
"Clarke?" Nate asked
"Good day to you to Nathaniel" he smiled at my brother who just rolled his eyes.
Jerome walked in. And pulled up a chair beside Nates. They both sat looking at me.
"So you want to explain yourself?" Jerome asked. I shake my head no.
"Keeping those feelings of yours inside is what got you in this situation" he states.
"I tried to get out but obviously it didn't turn well" I say mostly to myself.
"Oh what a shame, The hard hard life of being a successful millionaire" Jerome says. Does he not know how to shut his mouth?
" I was bullied and beat by my own parent as child and then got disowned. Then the girl I loved teared my heart out and I was forced into another relationship a mean fake Barbie doll and my bestfriend decided on stabbing me in the back!" I blow at him.
He face remains the same like it didn't affect his opinion at all.
"And you ditched your other bestfriend. Remember her?" I hear a voice. Joy's voice.
She stood at the door frame. Her hair curly and long, it got a lighter shade of brown as it got to the bottom. She wore very little neutral coloured makeup. Dressed in a navy jumper and pitch black leggings with some leather patches. She wore high-heeled boots after all she looked really really pretty.
"J-Joy?" Was all I could manage out of my mouth.
She have me a werly smile before fulling walking into the room another girl followed wearing an outfit similar to Joys except she wore a black jumper and maroon skirt with black boots. I reconised her, Mara Jeffray. Joy pulled up a chair on my left side instead of my right like Nate and Jerome while Mara just stood beside were Jerome sat having there's no more chairs left.
"How are you feeling?" Joy asked.
"Like crap and shit and poop and all other bad things out together" I say playing with my hospital bracelet.
"Great, you two made it just in time for story time" Jerome said. I don't like him one bit.
"How do you and Nate know eachother?" I asked .
"We're best mates young one" was his answer he smiled at my brother and right que Nathaniel rolled his eyes at him.
"Don't like Rutter, you love having me around" Jerome says before turning to Mara.
The two said something to one another but I couldn't hear, then he pulled her down and she sat on his lap. Is Mara is girlfriend?
"Are you two dating?" I asked them.
"Engaged actually but continue about how your celeb life is sad" he says.
"Be nice Jerome" Mara tells him and I repeat what she says "Yeah, be nice Jerome"
He rolls his eyes and I smirk.
He asked me a couple more questions like he does in our therapy sessons. He asks me about Nina since that's where we left off and everyone listens oh so very closely as I talk about the fight that put our relationship on the highway to hell.
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"Amber Millington? Fabian, are you freaking kidding me?" Nina looks at me with such disappointment, hurt and shame in her pale green eyes.
"Nina it's not how it looks. I don't even like her" I tell her trying to hold her still while she tried to pace.
"You don't like her? So what your just kissing her for no damn reason? Wow, well that's makes me feel like ten times better. Thanks Fabian." She flashed me a fake smile taking her hand and combing it through her long wavy ombred hair.
" It's a scam Nina, for publicity" I exclaimed.
"So you're lying to your fans now?" She asked
"No, Nina I didn't and still don't want to do it" I tell her she shakes her head.
"Then why are you? Why are you doing this Fabian?"
The question stricked me. She knows why. She knows I love music and singing and the feeling I get when I sing infront of huge fans. The thril you get from the screaming crowd. One of the best things ever life can give you.
"I love music Nina, I love the thrill I get from every performance. I love strumming my guitar and hearing the music it makes. I love that panic phase I go through before every single show and the screaming that echos the entire room. I love the vibrating I feel in my feet from the drum banging on stage I love-"
"I know you love that Fabian. Music is your thing of course you love that but.. Never thought you turn out the way"
"And what way is that?"
"Like the rest of them. Hollywood. Doing whatever it takes to stay on top and get the big bucks"
"I'm not in-"
"Fabian I can't anymore, I just... I'm sorry" and with that she walked away. She left me there alone the drown in my tears.
"Wow" Nate says but I look at Jerome waiting for his rude snarky comment. He doesn't say anything.
"Yeah" I just say.
Williow the entered the room with her bright usual smile. She asks me how I'm feeling and checks my blood pressure, ruffling up my hair before she leaves the room again.
Jerome says see you tommorow and Mara says her goodbyes letting me know if I need anything call her. She was doctor, no suprise there. She left her number on a scrap piece of paper on the white nightstand beside my mechanical hospital bed. Jerome followed her out the door.
Joy, Nate and I talk for a little while after but he decided to ditch me after twenty minutes, That asshole.
Now it was just Joy and I and the popping Williow who walks in and out every couple minutes.
"So.." She sad putting a strand of lose hair behind her little ear.
"I'm sorry" I tell her. She gives me a werly smile before opening her mouth to speak "are you?"
"Yeah"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah."
"Okay"
"Okay"
She laughed "Fabian Daniel Rutter stop it!"
I chuckled a little "Yeah, okay"
Question: Do you guys even like this story? Or should I just not waste my time on it? because hardly any reviews lately for my stories on the HOA fanfics, I'm thinking on moving on to like different um topics and I'm not sure if I should even put my time into this one so yea. that's it.
