Konichiwa! I have another chapter for you! Thank you for all the reveiws! Enjoy ;)
Lens POV
Thanks to me, Rin tortured herself.
I couldn't stand this thought.
So from that day, on, I promised to watch over her.
"Rin you'll get better, I promise," I whispered to my sleeping angel.
Little did I know what was ahead of me.
(2 days later, at Rin's house)
Rin's POV
Len claimed that I was perfect. At 67 pounds, that was not true. I stuck four fingers down my stinging, burning throat. And thus doing this a few more times, I put on my fake smile. The thing was, I didn't know how to smile. I didn't know what pure joy was. But I tried my best, and they thought I was happy. I loved Len, with every single inch of my broken heart, but I could never believe that I was good enough for him.
I threw on some skinny jeans and a t-shirt, and picked up my yellow phone. I typed in the words, "On my way ;)" and began to limp down the stairs. I threw on a grey sweatshirt, with my matching fake smile.
See, my whole life was like a nightmare. I was just one off the wandering beasts. I had no hope from the start.
My life was like a play, and I was the most amazing actress. I was the one that they couldn't even tell was acting. I was the professional.
My life was like a hopeless love story. When eventually the author gave up. The never finished love story.
My life was a tragedy that nobody wanted to live.
My life was awful. I was that ugly, fat, emo, cutting freak that your parents warned you about.
My life was the perfect horror story. Everything was frightful. I didn't know what was around the corner.
As I reached the front door, I called out, "I'll be back in a bit!" The door slammed behind me, and I stepped out in to the cold air. With the wind hitting me like ice shards, and snow blowing around like the brown maple leaves of fall, I made my way over to the withering orange tree. This was the orange three going through a struggle, just like me. And at this orange tree, I waited for Len.
The snow was beautiful. I loved the little white flakes whirling around. I loved the cold. The white crystals were such beautiful things. The little snow birds flying around. Beautiful. The sweet aroma of orange and flowers, it was lovely. All the little plants were frozen over, wearing a thick layer of ice. I just loved the view. White was my favorite color. It resembled a new beginning. A new year, with a snowfall. Lovely.
Twigs and ice crackled and snapped as Len walked up to me. "You look beautiful," he said with a smile, and his fingers combing through my messy blonde hair. I blushed and grabbed his hand, snuggled tight in a black glove. He began walking with me to the nice little restaurant at the end of the block.
As we strolled over there, I began to feel dizzy. Everything was doubled, and I felt like I was in a dream. As I walked, feeling like a cloud, I couldn't think strait. I couldn't remember my name or were I was. The world spun one last time, and the cloud feeling dropped. My vision blurred, and then turned absolute black.
"Help, she fainted!" voices yelled, but I couldn't tell who.
Sirens wailed, but I didn't know what for.
Another voice cried, "Rin!" but, I didn't know who.
As I thought, I realized: I didn't know anything.
All I knew was that I was in a black room.
Running.
Running from myself.
Lens POV
"Help, she fainted!" I yelled, as Rin all of a sudden collapsed. I dug into my pocket and pulled out my cellphone. I called ambulances, her parents, everyone for help. I leaned over to her side, and slid up her sleeve. Just as I thought, fresh cuts. Really deep ones, too. They were even still bleeding. "Rin!" I cried, as ambulances drove up. Men came out and carefully set my Rin on a bed in the ambulance.
I stood by her side, the whole entire ambulance ride. But I refused to look at her, realizing that this must have been all my fault. And in the hospital, I was forced to sit in the lobby as they did tests on her. Sure enough, they came back with the results. She was dying. Dying of starvation and blood loss. Tears poured out of my eyes as they let me come into her room.
With a breathing mask and tubes in her arms and stomach, I sat beside her. "Rin, I'm so sorry," I cried, kissing her forehead. "Her mental stage is unstable," I heard doctors and nurses tell eachother. I curled up in the chair next to Rin's bed, and eventually fell asleep.
Rin's POV
"Patient Rin Kagamine is still unconscious," worried voices said.
Was that my name?
R-i-n?
The blackness flashed into painful memories.
Yes, my name was Rin.
The ugliest, fatest creature alive.
Len POV
I was in deep sleep, until the sudden screams and cries of Rin woke me up. I rubbed my eyes and saw doctors pinning Rin down. I pushed them out of her way, "WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING?" I yelled. "Rin is unstable! She's not thinking!" They replied pushing me out of the way. Rin grabbed onto my hand, and with her big blue eyes filled with tears, she cried, "Lennn! Take me hoooome!" I yanked my arm away, "No, Rin! You're to ill!" Her eyes sunk into a deep depress, "Let's just go home and forget about this!" I shook my head, "We can't just forget about this." She gasped and doctors pushed me out the door, "We can't have anyone making contact with her!" I blew her a kiss, "Rin I will take you home when you're better." I watched as she was sealed in a solid white room.
Rin's POV
After crying for hours, I stared at the white ceiling. Normally I liked white, as it was the color of beautiful snow, but not this room. This room was all white, no frozen flowers, no Len. What was I to the world? Merely just a rock in the way, or a speck of unimportance? Or a seed, just about to sprout a beautiful flower. Or had I already sprout, into a wallflower, withering away as I lied there in the room? Or possibly I was just another tear of the crying clouds. Who in the big blue wondering world knew. I deathly hated myself. What happened to the sweet, innocent, happy child I used to be? What happened to being able to smile without an effort? What happened to my pure joy? A need to be thinner.
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