Disclaimer: Amaranth does NOT own Kingdom Hearts or any of its' Characters. However she does own the story line and its attachments. She also does NOT own the song lyrics that are written in the beginnings of the chapters.
Chapter 4
There For you
Cloud's POV
There For You: Flyleaf
Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Though I wish I would be
I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
Swirling shades of blue
Slow dancing in your sky
The sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry
'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too
I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
I wanna be there for you
And be someone you can come to
The love runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you
Watching him sleep, it drives me insane. Beneath those violet purple lids, behind those blank blue eyes is a mind that has shut itself down. One that is tormented. And nothing I say is reaching him.
Four days...four heartbreaking days, I have watched my son sleep. Restlessly...muttering and moaning in his sleep. I haven't left his side. And I don't intend to. Not until he wakes up and can function. His state when he arrived was...excruciatingly painful. Blank eyes staring at me like he didn't know who I was. My hug received no response. He barely even acknowledges that we speak to him. Hearing Tifa's explanation was the hardest thing I have EVER had to do. As a father I should have been there to help him. I listen to him scream, flailing at things that are tormenting him in his sleep. I stand and walk towards him. I try and place my hand on his shoulder but he flinches away, curling into a ball, sobbing into his knees. My heart thumps painfully as I watch him shiver and twitch. Steeling myself I pull him into my arms, He fights ferociously, gnashing his teeth and clawing my arms. His struggles subside after a few minutes. His rigid body does not move, it's as if someone has injected steel into his body causing him to harden. My sight goes blurry as I remember his escape attempt.
-Flashback-
He ran so fast I fell behind quickly. I shouted for him to stop, but he either couldn't hear me...or he was ignoring me. I could hear him growling, screaming and crying but I couldn't find him. I never guessed he would be able to make the town. I searched for hours, retracing my steps expecting to find him lying in a ditch or in the cradle of tree roots. I became more frantic as dawn dragged nearer. Leon called right before I was about to head for the house and call the police.
"Cloud, I've got him. He was hiking up to Station Plaza. Fought like a banshee, bit me too. I'm taking him home. Meet you there."
I raced home expecting him to be calmer and willing to talk. Hoping against hope that he'd have snapped out of it by being around familiar things. Should've known better. Roxas was never one to take things lightly.
-Flashback ends-
Staring down at him I study his features. He's changed so much since he left all those months ago. And not for the better. His face is drawn, looking pinched. Deep, dark circles surround his eyes. It looks like he'd been starving himself and not sleeping for weeks.
The door to the bathroom creaks open. A pale face peeks from behind it. Spiky brown hair hides his dull blue eyes. In them I see the burning man. Sora, he's suffered so much for his twin. The pain he knows his twin is going through shows clearly in his eyes. I unwind one arm from Roxas, who still hasn't relaxed. Holding it open to Sora...I wait. Slowly he walks into my embrace, crawling up beside me he smoothes Roxas's hair. Tears glimmer in his eyes as he looks at his broken twin. My own overflow and fall on the bed. I watch as Sora transfers Roxas to his lap and holds him close. I envelope both in my arms squeezing so hard it must hurt, but neither protests.
Next Morning
My body is screaming in pain, causing me to wake. All I see is a forest of brown, confusing me until I lift my head. Sora and Roxas are entwined sleeping peacefully for once and curled into my body. The awkward half-moon my body is in explains my aches. I get up as quietly as possible and settle myself back into the armchair I placed there four days ago. I sit and watch the two of them, like I used to do when they were infants. Innocent and peaceful, I wish they could stay like that but I know they can't.
I nod off as the day wears on. Leon stops in and lays his hand on my shoulder. I glance up at him and sigh. Standing me up, he sits in my place and pulls me into his lap, wrapping his arms around my waist. He rests his chin on my shoulder. I lean into his body, taking strength from his presence. I have given up hope that Roxas will wake today. He slept all day, quietly with no screaming or seizure like attacks. I think it has something to do with Sora being there.
Blue eyes flicker open and raise themselves to my face. Still they burn. Filled with pain no child should ever have to face. Sora rubs his eyes and slowly sits up.
"He isn't going to wake up...is he Dad?"
I look at him and try to find the right answer. Shaking his head he rolls to his feet.
"Sora...his mind has to heal itself before he can interact with us again. He's been through a lot of trauma in a very short time. His mind has to learn how to function again. It may take awhile. But we have to be patient. He'll come back to us when he's ready." Leon said. Sora nodded struggling against his tears. Walking into the bathroom he disappears from sight.
I try and get up to follow him but Leon's arms tighten around me. I flick my head and glare at him. He shakes his head.
"Leave him alone. He has to think." he mumbles. I sink back in to his arms glaring at the wall. I start nodding off, trying to stay awake but I can't.
Later
The sound of screaming wakes me. I bolt upright and try to go to Roxas's side. The arms encircling my waist tighten yet another notch.
'Leon! DAMNIT LET ME GO!" I cry as I try to scramble away. Sora comes skidding into the room.
"Leave him alone Sora. He needs to find his way out." Leon barks. I grit my teeth and lean towards my agonized son. Sora nods his head and walks to us. I reach for his hand. He grabs it and grips it.
"Why isn't mom here? Can't she hear him screaming?" Sora asks, I bow my head wishing she could hear him. Sora sees my anger and understands immediately.
"She's already gone, isn't she." It wasn't a question. He knew what his mother was like. Tifa hated painful reminders and sad occurrences. She had left the day after Roxas had slipped into a coma. Sora ground his teeth trying to stop himself from crying.
Roxas continued screaming, but it changed. Moans became words, and we could understand the hell he was seeing.
"Demyx, please...STOP! Get OFF me!!! STOP IT!!! No...aaahhrghh. I SAID NO!!!" Sora flinched into me and I gathered him close. He covered his ears and sobbed into my shoulder. Leon tightened his grip as I shrank back into him. On and on Roxas screamed, reliving his rape.
Just when I had had all I could take Roxas changs tones again.
"Dad...I-i-i-it hurts. Make it go away. Make it all go away. Sora where are you? I'm lost. It's all dark and the lights won't turn on. I can hear you but I can't see you. Where are you?" Leon pushed Sora towards the bed. Stumbling he sprawled across Roxas before crawling in next to him. Taking his hand he pulled his twin to him and hugged him fiercely.
"There you are you silly goose! Let's go home, I bet Dad's worried." Roxas sighed and opened his eyes. Sora gulped in a sob before tackling Roxas. Leon let me go and I jumped up and flew to their side.
Glistening blue eyes looked up at me. Smile in place Roxas said, "Hey Dad."
Rufus: Hey guys....Am's in the bathroom sobbing so she can't write her own omake (this is how you spell it yes?) for you all. She greatly appreciates the reviews and support from you all! She's had a really tough time trying to be as horrible to Roxas as possible, she had to draw on so many of youtube's songs that her computer crashed earlier today.
Sora: Why...again why do we allow you and her to be in charge of everything.
Rufus: Because you know that she'll try her absolute hardest to get it to sound just right.
Sora: True...She needs a reward!
Rufus: Would you like to do the honors then?
Sora: Yus! I'll go get the ice cream!
Rufus: I meant tell the readers to review...*facepalm* Okay...help cheer Am up and REVIEW PLEASE!!!
Am and Rufus
