Chapter Four

Sesshomaru was in his office trying his damnedest to concentrate on the scroll in front of him. Ever since Rin had died he has not been able to concentrate on anything else. He put his brush down beside the ink and leaned back in his chair. With an inaudible sigh he rose from his desk and walked gracefully and tall out his office door to his private garden's. He had to see her, his baby girl. He walked to the cherry tree and knelt beside Rin's grave, " Rin this Sesshomaru does not know what to do, this Sesshomaru is trying to open himself to the Miko but this Sesshomaru does not even know what feelings are anymore. At Least not more then what you have every seen. How does one go about loving someone, as you put it so many times before?"

Sesshomaru did not expect an answer but being by Rin's grave calmed him a little. Sesshomaru rose from Rin's grave and looked to the windows of his sanctuary, barley noticeable he could see Kagome sleeping on the couch. So he started to walk over to her.

A light breeze ran down her spine and he noticed her shiver a little. His beast purred in it's cage content at seeing her sleeping before him. Sesshomaru smacked the bars to get his beast to cease it's contentment for it was unnerving for him. He did not like the feeling he was starting to slowly let wash over him but he had better get used to it. ' No this Sesshomaru does not get used to anything he did what he wanted and what he wanted was to sleep beside the miko.' Sesshomaru's eye's widened a fraction at his thought. He did not just think that. Sesshomaru picked up Kagome with his one arm and carried her to the room he himself had prepared for her.

The room had joining doors to his own room, since this room was the Lady of the Wests room, Sesshomaru's mate to be. He had promised Rin he would love her even if he had to try harder then most to do this thing called love. ' What is love? How does one show it?' Sesshomaru tucked Kagome in has he pondered these thoughts over and over in his head. maybe a good bath was in order. With that thought he left the miko in her bed and walked to the bath house across the hall.

Sesshomaru had just begun to untie his obi when he heard whimpering coming from Kagome's room. Within seconds he was by her side. She was having a nightmare that much was obvious but of what was ailing her in this nightmare of her's?

"Miko." Sesshomaru spoke gently touching her face.

Kagome had been dreaming of Inuyasha picking Kikyo. Again. She was watching Inuyasha kiss Kikyo after he had told her she was the one for him, Kagome was nothing more then a shard hunter. She had been hiding behind some bushes and shrubs. Kagome couldn't believe it, I mean she knew she wasn't the most pretty, smart or even god at a bow, but, hearing it from Inuyasha left her fighting for air. Then she heard her name being called, it almost sounded like Sesshomaru? 'But why would he call her?'

"Kagome!" Sesshomaru shook her a little harder now trying to wake her. the smell of her fear was a sickening scent. He called her a few more times until she finally awoke with a sharp intake of air.

Kagame flew up from the bed in fear and instantly clingy to Sesshomaru's hahori. Sesshomaru could smell the salt water even before she started to cry and stain his shirt.

"Why?! Why would he pick her, why am I never good enough?!" Kagame yelled tears staining her cheeks.

"Miko, you will calm yourself and stop this foolish display." Kagame looked at him tears still prickling her eye's.

"Sesshomaru." She paused trying to find any hint in his eye's he cared, but seeing his face still in its mask she put her head down.

"What is it Miko." Sesshomaru said with a sigh.

"Inuyasha will be here soon, how long would you like me to stay here?" Kagome realized she was in his quarters still and frantically added an apology for being in the West wing.

"Miko you have nothing to apologize for. This shall be your room until you wish to leave my side. To answer your question on when that is, it is never. This Sesshomaru made a promise that he intends to keep. But I will not hold you against your will, if you ever wish to leave you have but to say so. Do you understand me?" Kagome stared at him shock clear on her face, this was really happening. 'Okay Kagome think, Lord Sesshomaru made Rin a promise to keep you by his side to love you and protect you. Awesome. Plus things about this, he is strong a great protector, he is a lord so he is respectful and hold high honor, he is god damn sexy as hell. No, no bad Kagome, bad.'

'Now for the bad sides. He doesn't express feeling's well, he still call's you miko, he is not Inuyasha.'

Kagome was brought out of her thoughts when she heard Sesshomaru's voice. "Miko, I do not repeat myself."

"Sorry Sesshomaru- same I understand." Sesshomaru wasn't sure how he felt on her not using the right honorific with his name, but his beast seemed to be leaning towards pleased. Which alone, irritated him.

Kagome could feel Sesshomaru's demon trying to comfort her. She soon realized his demon being so close soothed her deep down and she liked it laying back down on the bed she closed her eye's.

Sesshomaru watched as the Miko closed her eye's and waited for sleep to once again take over her, he could ask her about her nightmare in the morning for now he will let her sleep. He rose to leave the room to go take his bath when a hand caught his pant leg. He turned to see her eye's still closed but she whispered something he had to strain to hear.

"Stay with me, please." she couldn't have her source of comfort gone. Not when the nightmares would return, surly they would once he was gone.

Sighing Sesshomaru climbed over and across her to the other side of the bed and layed down beside her. He could feel her tension leave with his presence and he too let sleep wash over him. This would be the first good night of sleep the two have had in weeks.