Author notes: Alright I'm doing another chapter update because why not. Also I'm currently finishing up part 5 and there's still part 6 the ending chapter. I kinda want to do a part 7 as a epilogue but not sure yet. Also this chapter does have some heavy angst, I apologize ahead of time. It was needed. Also Thank You for reading my story! and I hope you enjoy it!

Alright without further ado, heres part 4, Sakura encounters a dark haired man.


Part 4

Closing the door silently behind her, Sakura made her way into the still night. She waited in her living room after Karin and the baby retired into her room after dinner, she desperately needed to clear out her head.

The village had settle in for the night, the usual busy streets were now empty, except for few wanderers. Humming quietly the young medic made a turn left, towards the country side, she wouldn't have to worry about running into anyone on these roads. All fellow Shinobi's lived within the city, only the civilians reside in the country side.

Kicking rocks along her way, the pink women gazed up at the moon, as the clouds danced around it.

These last two years of peace have been good to the village restoration. The villagers have been working together with Shinobi's to rebuild the community back up. No matter how hard it got along the way, the people kept their heads up never letting their smiles falter. And the main reason behind those smiles was one ball of sunshine, that bounced up and down helping with whatever or whoever he could with a blinding smile. Naruto had became the ray of light for a bright future, for every person in the Land of Fire.

Naruto finally got the acknowledge he had been craving since his childhood. Seeing him shine so bright under the attention, warmed Sakura's heart, she hoped his resting mother and father were also basking in the glow of their son, also she hoped the late white Sannin was overjoyed for his all grown up godson. He wasn't far from his goal now, Sakura could tell he also wasn't far from having a new goal soon, considering how close he and a lilac eyed princess were getting. He would soon finally have a real blood family to call his own.

Many of their friends weren't far from taking the biggest step into adulthood; creating a family. Ten-ten was the first to announce she had taken the first steps, a small beautiful boy with light eyes was born the spring after the war had ended. Now every October you would find the weapon mistress in front a tomb with a small boy between her legs, and a big bouquet of violet bellflowers; for their unwavering love.

With some loss, others found love. Team 10 found a blossoming love in their darkness. Shikamaru he found the skies clouded in too many gray clouds to enjoy his cloudgazing, but after a strong gush of wind he found them clear up and a golden beauty stood by with a smirk. Ino had placed a smiling porcelain mask on her face in hope to conceal her true pain, but then a man mastering in perfecting porcelain masks came removing hers, she never imagined she would find a real smile behind his mask just for her. Choji in his pain lost the need to eat along with the fire he once had in him, he least expected a fiery bronze beauty slam a big plates of many exotic cuisines demanding him to eat, he could not say he found love in her food, no he found love in the fire he saw in her.

Seeing all her friends happily in love was a sweet victory for Sakura, knowing that the scars and demons they had gained from the 4th Shinobi War, didn't take away their right to true happiness. Kiba, Shino and Lee were enjoying the dating life and seemed contented with it. For Sakura she had been busy with the hospital and the children mental hospital to be thinking of dating. Also she wouldn't lie and say she wasn't waiting for a certain someone.

But it seemed like it wasn't necessary to wait. He found someone else.

It's not like she could have been any help to him.

As the medic made her way to a small creak by the road, she couldn't help but place a hand above her flat stomach. Being a Shinobi sometimes cost you more than you could ever will be willing to give up. But if it's in the name for your country, it helps ease the pain just a bit. And medical ninjutsu could only heal so much. That's the beauty of the world they lived in, you can have the strength to take a whole army down for the name sake of your country, heal a whole village after they were attacked by rouge ninjas, save the whole world along side with your teammates, but you could never be able to hold a precious life you created within your womb.

Sitting down cross legged by the creak, Sakura sat quietly listening to the soft melodies of the night.

She came here often when visiting her parents after they moved to the countryside. They left the crazy busy city to retire into the big fields of the countryside. In the hopes they could have huge space to entertain any future grandchildren when they came to visit. Sakura didn't have the heart to break it to her parents yet.

Feeling a swoosh of air behind her neck the medic didn't turn to the intruding guest. She didn't want to try and guess who had tracked her down to this spot. She only wishes to be alone at the moment.

The empty space beside her was soon filled. "I didn't think of finding you here."

Pulling her knees to her chest to rest her chin on them, she didn't turned to the body beside her. That smooth voice she could recognize it just about anywhere. "That was my point by coming here, I want to be alone Sai."

"Hm, well that's too bad."

She knew he had that same indifferent smile plastered on his face right now. "You're starting to sound like Ino-pig."

"Well I've read that it is quite common for couples to start acting or talking the same, it is because we're fully intimate." Gasping the pinkette turned in horror to the smiling artist.

"Ew Sai! I didn't need to know that! Gross please leave now, I'm traumatize." With glowing pink cheeks Sakura grumbled.

"Ah but you haven't heard the best part. You see early today I decided to visit Ino, to spend sometime between the legs of my beautiful angel." Sai dodge a punched aimed to his face. "Only to find her upset."

Lifting herself off the ground, Sakura wrapped her arms around her shoulders tightly. She faced away from the artist. "Sai I don't want want to talk to you about this."

"Why is that? I thought that's what friends were for."

"Yes, but there are times when some of us are not ready to talk about our problems yet. And as my friend Sai, you should respect that." Sakura squeezed her eyes shut, hoping Sai would understand and leave.

There was a silent pause. "I don't think I can do that Hag, not when this also hurting Ino."

"Go home Sai." Her voice came away in a whisper. Her plea fell on deaf ears.

"Why do you go so far for him?" She could feel his eyes burn into the back of her head.

Sakura gave no response.

"Don't you get tired of him always disappointing you?"

Biting her lip Sakura, she opted to stare at the scene before her, ignoring the persisting artist.

"Do you enjoy the pain? I didn't take you as a masochist Hag."

Closing her eyes, she tried to push away the ache in her chest.

"Are you always going to chase him like a lost puppy?" His voice came out sharp with irritation.

Sakura eyes began to burn with tears but she wasn't willing to let any them fall. She ignored the urge to retort.

"How much more are you going to take this? How far are you willing to hurt yourself just for his lies? Are you going to take every child he decides to drop at the villages gates? Are you also going to let him use you? Like some cheap slut he finds-

Sai caught Sakura wrist before she laid a slap on his face. His hand vibrated all the way to his toes with the intensity of her swing. Sakura eyes held nothing but fire while staring at the dull eyes of the male Shinobi.

"He would never." she hissed between her clench teeth.

Looking unaffected by the furious kuniochi inches away from his face. "He would never what? He would never stay here in the village? He would never ask you to join him in his travels.? He would never ask you to bear his child? Because he found someone else. So what would he never Sakura?"

Tears came streaming down Sakura cheeks, her cold stare didn't waver. Jerking her wrist away from the hand who held it. She inched closer till she was a breath away from Sai's face. Pure rage etched on her face as the tears continued to fall.

"I don't care what you say or what your thoughts are about me." Her voice cracked. "I don't need to explain why I choose to do for Sasuke." She growled and shoved a finger into Sai's chest. "Because I would do the same for Naruto, for Kakashi, for Yamato, and especially for you, Sai! You guys are my friends and my special family and that includes Sasuke as well. Not a single person can stop me from helping you guys in any way I can. Even if it means it kills me along the way because I love you guys that much and I only wish for your happiness."

Sakura moved back to wipe her tears angrily before continuing. "I know what I feel for Sasuke is way more than I feel for anyone else but if he chooses to be happy with someone else than that's fine by me. I want him to be happier than what this shitty life has given him!" Lifting her arms to emphasize her surroundings. "He lost his whole clan because this very village own council was to weak and conceited to stand up for the wrong doings his clan faced, because the second Hokage hated the Uchiha, he had a hand in the council distrust in the Uchiha. Then the one that was forced to take the lives of Sasuke's clan for 'peace' was his cherished older brother. Itachi was left with no choice if he wanted his brother to live, the only person he loved more than anything. So at the young age of 13, Itachi Uchiha hands were stained with the blood of his family clan, he had to fight his uncles who tried so hopelessly to keep him away from the family they hid away, he watched his own aunts hold onto their young ones begging him to not kill their babies, he also watched his younger cousins try so desperately to wake up their bleeding dead mother. Then he had to kill his own mother and father. He then had to see eyes he cherished more than life stare up at him as if he was a monster. Do have any idea what that does to a child mental health? NO, no one does but only Itachi Uchiha."

Fisting her hands, Sakura looked away. "This village failed Itachi and Sasuke. But they also failed Naruto, Kakashi, Yamato, You, and so many others. And now we finally are in a place where we can move forward and fix these mistakes from happening again. All thanks to Naruto, he and Kakashi finally got the council removed and now are both working together for the better future for this village."

Turning around to give Sai a small smile. "I can only wish to help Sasuke in anyway I can. I know loving someone can sometimes hurt and I have known this since years ago. I knew loving Sasuke would never be easy and I knew that maybe one day he would never return my feelings. I made mends with that idea along time ago, so now it has finally happened, he chose someone else. . . I'll be honest it hurts so much more than I believed it would. But no matter what I can't hate him for it. I-i wasn't what he wanted." Sakura voice cracked as she shook her head to hold back her oncoming tears. "And that's fine because he doesn't owe me anything. I only wish nothing but happiness for Sasuke-kun, he will always be my precious friend. I just want him to stand with team 7 again like before. We can heal together. We can be a family again."

Looking down at her hands Sakura could only hope Sai understood her feelings she just admitted to him. She had been keeping them in for so long that the moment she felt her mouth open, she just word vomited everything she could all at once. She smiled, she could finally breath without feeling like she would break at any second.

Sai stayed silent, soaking in her words. Sai knew it all to well how it was to be raised to be nothing but a disposal weapon with no feelings for someone else gain. But he didn't have a family like Sasuke as a young child. So he didn't know the pain of it to be all taken away from you in one night. So no, he couldn't understand what the young Uchiha went through life. His thoughts about the village wasn't much. He never really believed the system that he grew up with was wrong until he met Naruto and Sakura. But if he was honest he still didn't completely understand all the wrongs and rights of the world, so he couldn't give much a personal opinion about it. He just knew that no one should ever be forced to repress their emotions, this was what made one a valuable person in the world.

He also could see that just like Naruto, Sakura would give everything up just for her teammates. He also wasn't dumb enough not read between the lines Sakura spoke, to see that there was more to her relationship with Sasuke, more than any of them knew. He was sure everything Sakura had just said about Sasuke's clan was something he shared with her in private.

He would respect her choices, she already has set her mind and he would no longer intervene.

"Are you really okay with that?"

Sakura paused for a moment and looked up to the sky and smiled sadly as a lone tear slipped out. "I will be one day." She gave a paused. "My heart can be shattered into million of pieces and I'll just put it back together, it might not be same but I know I can go on. I won't break so easily. Cha." She turned to him and gave him a heartbreaking smile.

Her last words shocked Sai, he knew Sakura was strong but he knew she was driven by her emotions. He had been a witness to it a lot before, but he did remembered how broken she looked after he told her about Naruto's feelings. But on their way back home from that failed mission, he remembered how she was back to her old self. Sai couldn't help now but wonder how many times has his pink hair friend heart had been broken before. How much has she endured alone without ever uttering a word? He guessed she wasn't that much different from Naruto. More like she wasn't that much different from the rest of team 7.

Sai came beside her and pressed his shoulder against hers but looked out to the small creak. Sakura accepted the gesture. "And just because it hurts right now doesn't mean I'm going to run away from it. I'm here to be a support to him if he needs it. That also means I'm here for you guys as well." she said smiling.

They stayed quiet taking in the night and each other company.

Sai turned to look at the face of the peaceful medic. "I'm sorry for stepping out of line earlier. I had no right to say those words to you. I used a tactic I read in a book, of how to get a response out of someone, I now see that was wrong. I apologize."

Turning her head to look into Sai eyes, Sakura smiled gently back at him. "I know. Don't sweat it, you only said back what has been dancing around my head since this afternoon. Your words hurt me but only because I finally heard them out loud. I forgive you Sai." She leaned in and laid her head on his shoulder.

Sai couldn't help but not feel right, she had forgiven him too easily. He only had understood he used a nasty method to get her to react and talk about her feelings, after he saw her tears. He knew well how Sakura usually kept things bottled in, he had seen the pain it usually caused her. He had only hoped to be of a help to her, like she had been a help to him many times before. He was still struggling on what was okay to say to someone and what wasn't. Looking down at her, he didn't know what he could do to try to convey how truly bad he felt about his words he chosen earlier. Opening and closing his mouth, Sai clenched his fist and decided to stay silent in fear he might make it all worse.


Additional Notes: I know know that was harsh of Sai, but someone needed to say it. She also needed to hear it. And I hope you can kinda can understand Sakura feelings a little more, she hurting, she lost her love but she wont let that break her down, She a strong woman. Well that's what I see of Sakura.

Also if some of you haven't already guessed it, Sakura is sterile. (Sasusakuhart- you guessed correctly!) It is a small sacrifice, sakura has to live with. The constant healing her body has endured caused her to be sterile, ill explain more into it later on in another chapter.

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