Title: What's happened…has happened (4/?)

Author: gafan20

Pairing: Callie/Arizona

Rating: PG-13 (subject to change)

Summary: Sometimes things happen that we have no control over and we must learn to accept what has happened because fate always wins in the end.

Disclaimer: All characters belong to Shonda Rhimes/ABC. I do not own anything. Any similarities to real life situations/persons are purely coincidental. Not for profit; for entertainment purposes only.

A/N: I thought I would try and make up for my lack in updates by posting this tonight. Thanks for reading and the reviews. Hope you enjoy.


(Arizona's POV about two years ago)

As I sit here trying to come up with words to express how truly sorry I am to her, I can't help but think that maybe it's too late. Maybe because of what happened there can never be another chance, a future. Maybe I blew any chance of a forever. But I had to go...well I didn't have to but I mean it was the Carter Madison grant you just don't turn it down. It was about the bigger picture, changing lives, tiny human lives that would otherwise never see a pediatric surgeon. I mean that's why we become doctors right? We want to change lives, save lives. She is a doctor she knows this, for god sake she was in the peace core. How was this any different? Okay maybe this situation was slightly different considering we aren't in our early 20's anymore with no care in the world but still this was a once in a lifetime opportunity I had to accept it. I'll admit the way I went about the whole situation was wrong, very wrong. But what choice did I have, she didn't want to go and I couldn't let her come after that realization. So I had a choice to make stay or go, a future with her or three years of saving lives, making a difference without her and any chance of forever with her. I know I made the wrong choice then but I'm coming back now and I am choosing her, everything will be fine. She will be mad at first but she loves me right? She will forgive me eventually and give me another chance...she has too.

After making my way through the airport the same airport where we stood yelling back and forth like teenagers then ending our relationship and walking away I can't help but feel a sense of hopelessness. Replaying that night, I don't know how she will be able to forgive me. We both are at fault but I definitely out faulted her when I turned my back and walked away, flew a whole world away without saying one word to her.

As I make my way outside and see my best friend waiting for me a feeling of relief pours over me, at least one person will be happy to see me. I walk over to her smiling from ear to ear. She is smiling back but she has almost a look of worry in her eyes, the look people have when they know they have to tell you something but don't want too because they don't want to hurt you. As doctors we experience this feeling a lot. So I know this look. I try my best to ignore it for now but I have a sinking feeling that things are never going to be as they once were.
I reach where she is standing and embrace her in a hug. "Teddy it is so good to see you" I say, realizing how good it feels to be home with the people I love.

"Hey Ari, it's good to see you too" she says in a whisper. What could be so bad that its causing her to look like her dog just died? Oh my god could Calliope be hurt? I quickly snap out of my thoughts.

"Is she hurt, please tell me she is okay" I practically yell at her as the tears begin to form.

"She is fine, perfectly healthy. Why don't we get going, I have some stuff to tell you." she says with her smile disappearing almost instantly.

And there it was the feeling of hopelessness coming back stronger than ever. Something has happened and I can just feel the reality of this whole situation hitting me like a ton of bricks.
We get in the car and as she starts to pull out she must have noticed my worried and panicked stricken face because she gently places her hand on my leg and says. "Arizona, just breathe okay. Please just breathe and let me talk."

"Okay" I barely get out


We have been driving in silence for the past ten minutes and I can see her trying to find the words, trying to form a sentence with those words. This most definitely isn't going to be good.

"Okay first off its great to see you and I am so happy you are home. This place hasn't been the same since you left."

"Teddy" I scream, wishing she would just spit it out already and quit with the small talk.

"Arizona please I will get to her just let me finish." I reluctantly silence myself and agree to let her finish.

"After you left and we began talking you made me promise you one thing, to never tell her anything more than that you were okay and happy with the work you were doing."

"Teddy I..." I start to try and defend my actions but with no avail she continues on...

"I didn't agree with it but I went along with it because it's your life and your choice...anyways she was a mess the first week after you left. I mean she looked as if someone came up to her and sucked all the life out of her. If it hadn't been for the Christina quitting issue I honestly think she would have stayed in that hotel room forever. Mark couldn't even get her out of it..." she continues to say all the while making me feel stricken with guilt. Yes I was just as miserable as she was but I had a full load of work with opening the clinic and new surroundings while she had a week with no job, no home and all the time in the world to relive the horrible demise of our relationship.

"Arizona are you still with me?" she ask worried.

"yah please continue" I say not really wanting to hear anymore but knowing I have no other choice because I'm the one that created this new reality I find myself in.

"She finally picked herself up with helping Christina, got a new hair cut and was at least back to the somewhat normalcy of everyday life, except she wasn't really there. She was just going through the motions. A few months after you left we were all at Joes celebrating Shepherd's grant. I had just been on one of my not so awesome internet dates and told her to go to Africa. I told her to go and tell you that you're an idiot and to be glad you'll never have to go on a first date again. She looked at me shocked and said she wasn't going to Africa. But then asked me what I had been hoping I could avoid, she wanted to know if you had asked about her at all." she says taking her eyes off the road for a second looking at me with a gloom look. Now I am officially freaking out. I now have a feeling that me telling her to move on and be happy is going to become an actual reality and not just half empty words falling out of my mouth that I never imagined would be our reality even when I walked away.

"Oh" the only semi word I can manage to get out knowing how this is mostly likely going to end.

"I did as you asked and told her that you threw yourself into the work and have been extremely busy. I think that may have been the final clue to the realization she had been trying to avoid, you weren't coming back and you didn't care a whole lot about what had happened..." I interrupt her now with anger lacing my words, "I did too care, I was a mess, am a mess..." I scream at her, looking towards her with tears starting to form.

"Arizona calm down. See this from her point. You left her standing in an airport. You completely took her life and tossed it upside down. And then on top of all that you make me lie to her and tell her your all rainbows and sunshine without her. So happy that it's like you completely forgot she existed. I would be upset too. "She says pulling the car over.
"That night she realized she had to start all over again and well she didn't have a clue on how too. Mark being Mark suggested a palate cleanser..."

"What?" I say, slightly confused.

"Sexual sorbet, as Baily termed it."

"Please tell me she didn't" I stutter out afraid to hear the answer. I hear her inhale deeply before she begins to speak again.

"She tried to hit on a red head that had been eyeing her all night. I tried to talk her out of it knowing that you loved her and missed her as much as she did you but she wasn't hearing it"
A red head seriously how do you go from a blonde haired blue eyed goddess to a red head. She must have been too drunk to see the mistake she was making.

"Turns out she was only interested in her haircut and not her. She left that night alone but you have to understand she now had a new purpose. She was determined to move on as she thought you had." She says pulling me out of my rambling thoughts.

"Okay so she didn't sleep with the red head?" I ask with a huge smile on my face. Maybe this wasn't going to be so bad. Maybe there is hope. Maybe the universe is on my side for once.

"No she didn't sleep with the red head but..." she says looking out the window.

Oh great the amazing word "but" and here it comes all the consequences that I will have to face due to my actions. For ever action there is always a consequence you can never avoid it there can never be one without the other. They are forever united. Now looking up I notice that we are parked across the street from the hospital.

"I wanted you to know and understand what it's been like on this side of the world because while you were away some things have changed. You may want to prepare yourself for this..."she stops mid sentence and holds my hand as her eyes guide mine to look in the direction of two people walking out of the hospital who stop at a bench near the entrance.

The man has grey peppered hair and I can only assume it's the world famous man whore Mark Sloan. The woman has her back to me. She seems to be looking through her purse for something. She looks breathtakingly beautiful even with her back to me. Her hair is a lot shorter than how I remember it but she makes it look so hot. Mark is trying to help her. He looks concerned and very protective of her. He leans over to help her but she immediately from the looks of it snaps at him causing him to jump back slightly, which I secretly find hilarious. Teddy is still holding my hand tightly like she doesn't want me to move an inch. But there is my beautiful girlfriend who I haven't seen in three months I need to escape this car. I need to feel her arms around me. I need to taste her lips upon mine.
As I start to squirm in my seat trying to pull my hand from Teddy she grabs on tighter. As much as I love my best friend I really love calliope more and need her more in this moment.

"Just wait a few more seconds Arizona." She pleads with me.
I nod at her request never taking my eyes off of the black haired beauty in front of me when all of a sudden I feel my hand being clenched tighter at the moment calliope is about to turn around. Like she is preparing me in some way, for what I can't imagine. My calliope looks beyond healthy and strong. What is she trying to prepare me for what could be so bad that I have to watch from afar and be prepared for. It's clear she isn't happy with Mark so it can't be that those two are dating. Which was my ultimate fear but it looks as if she really can't stand to be around him right now like she is trying so hard to run away from him but he won't let her. So what could be so horrible?

It looks like she found what she was looking for and is getting ready to turn around. I feel myself tense up, not knowing why but knowing that something is coming. She turns around slipping her purse over her shoulder and continues to walk with Mark towards the street. When all of a sudden I feel my breathing stop, my hands shaking and a single tear roll down my cheek.


"She's pregnant?" I ask taking a deep breath and trying to calm myself down hardly being able to get those two words out of my mouth.

"Yes" Teddy say's apologetically. Yep the universe is definitely not on my side.

"When, how, who, why?" I ask through the tears now coming like the Niagara Falls down my cheeks.

"Are you sure you want to know this?" she ask

"Yes" I demand coming off more harshly then I wanted. My eyes still on her and her pregnant stomach as she crosses the street and heads into our apartment building with...him. Yes of course it's always been him. He did this. I know it. The way he looked at her with concern and love. The way he was trying to protect her from the simple frustrations of misplacing your keys. It was him...

"She is about three months pregnant. I'm sure you have already figured it wasn't long after you left. Just like I'm sure you know who the father is by the look on your face and the now broken bones in my hand. "

"I'm sorry. I didn't realize I was still holding on to your hand. So he is really the father. Are they together together because they didn't look like it I mean she looked pretty upset with him and I know they use to fool around before so is that what it was I mean they can't be together..."

"Slow down Ari your rambling. No they are not a thing. It was the sexual sorbet. They were both upset. Callie over you and Mark over Lexi. It was a huge woops not planned at all. And yes she is mad at him. This pregnancy hasn't been the easiest for her. And if you ask me she is still in love with you. So it's making having a baby with him hard to be overly happy especially when he is around her 24/7. Don't get me wrong she is excited and happy that she is having a baby but wishes you were the one suffocating her with your worried concern and protecting look every five seconds and not him. Are you okay?"

Am I okay? I don't know how to answer that. I mean the women I love that I came back for slept with someone else, with him. Mark Sloan of all people. And is now having a baby with him. I mean on one side I guess I should be happy it was him and not some random person. Because with him at least I know it was just sex. It doesn't mean anything to either of them. It's the best case of just friends with benefits you could ever imagine to find. But still she is having his baby. And here I sit after just flying the whole night to get back to her, tears still flowing freely trying to be okay with this so I can get my life back, our life back.

"Arizona" she practically screams trying to get my attention now for the second time pulling me out of my thoughts.
I look at her taking in a deep breath and closing my eyes for a moment. Still trying to process everything I've just learned. I open my eyes and smile at her. "Can you take me back to the airport? I ask her. She looks at me with tears in her own eyes.

I turn and look out the window back at the apartment complex contemplating my need to escape this situation. As much as I wish I could rush up the stairs to her pleading my love, I just can't, too much has happened.

"I have a flight to catch." I say stronger than I expected myself to be as of right now.
For every action there is always a consequence good or bad it doesn't discriminate. The choices we make today will most certainly affect the outcome of tomorrow.


As she is driving through the streets of Seattle taking me back to the airport so I can get on a plane and fly 20 hours to go back to a place where I don't belong, I begin to long for my Calliope. A feeling so strong that my heart begins to pick up its pace, while my hands begin to tremble and in that instant I know that I can't runaway again. I have to stay. I came back for a reason. A reason that is bigger than my insecurities, I love her. I need her.

"Stop the car, NOW!" I scream at the top of my lungs.

The car comes to an abrupt stop on the side of the road. Teddy places the car in park and is waiting for me to say something. I take a deep breath and look at her.

"I love Callie, and Mark you know is human and clearly has good jeans because he is both pretty and smart. And I want to have a kid but with Callie, I'm not sure I can handle having Callie's kid with Mark. So can you say something to me that will make me want to have Callie's kid with Mark?" I say abruptly

"Ari, I don't know if I can give you a reason to be okay with this whole Mark's baby thing. I can't tell you to go back. I can't tell you that what you two have is special and worth walking through hell for. I can't force you to go back and fight Ari. It has to be your choice and something you want."

"I can't runaway again. I have to go back and make this right. I love her and although it will not be easy I have to try and make this work. So…take me back."

"Thank god" She says letting out a sigh of relief. "I really thought I was going to have to slap you or something to prevent you from leaving again." She says with the straightest face I have ever seen.

"I'm glad I have such a good friend in you Teddy that you would beat me up to prevent me from making another huge mistake." I say laughing.

"So back home huh?"

"I like how that sounds. Yes back to my home, where I belong with her." I say smiling from ear to ear. Because although I know it will be a long hard road back to any sort of real happiness for us, I haven't been as happy as I am now in months.

As she begins driving back to where we quickly sped away from just a few minutes earlier, I can feel my nerves getting the best of me. I left her, broke her and now she is pregnant. This complicates things and I now have no idea how she will feel and act towards seeing me standing in front of her. I quickly reach for my purse on the floor and frantically start going through it.

"What are you looking for in their Ari, it's not Mary Poppin's bag of tricks you know. You can't just pull out a quick resolution to all this." She says laughing

"Your funny, I'm looking for something. She will most likely walk away from me, or slam the door in my face before I can even get out two words. I mean I did walk away from her in an airport leaving her standing there crying. So I'm not exactly sure that I'll get the welcome home hug and kiss that I'd like. She will need time to process. Yes, here it is." I say, pulling out a white envelope. "I wrote this while I was in Africa and if she won't let me talk then I guess this will have to do."


It's now dark outside as we pull up to the apartment complex. She puts the car in park once more taking the keys out of the ignition and grabs my hand.

"You can do this Ari, just take a deep breath and be prepared for a lot of screaming and yelling." She says with a slight smile crossing her face.

"I know, and thank you Teddy for everything. Wish me luck." I say as I reach for the handle on the door.

"Ah you don't need it, she loves you. No matter what remember she loves you."

As I get out of Teddy's car I can feel the cool Seattle weather crash into me. It feels so refreshing after being in a sunny no rain climate. The stars are out full force tonight and I can't help but to wish on one. Just as I am approaching the door of the building a man jumps out at me scaring me half to death.

"No way in hell Blondie!" He says as stern as possible.

"Excuse me" I say, perplexed by the nerve of this man or shall I say little boy.

"I saw you with Teddy earlier watching us, I was hoping you would stay consistent in bailing but obviously you chose not too this time since you're standing here right now."

I look at him shocked at how blunt he is being with me right now. Becoming more impatient and upset with him I take a few seconds to calm myself before I begin to try and walk around him because as much as he would like to believe he can stop me from seeing her, he can't. I won't let him.

As I take the few steps around him to get to the door he immediately corrects his position, placing his arm in front of me and then placing his whole body in front of me again says in a harsh defensive tone "There is no way you are going up there and upsetting the mother of my unborn child."

By now I was beyond the point of losing my patience with him. So when I hear him say the mother of his unborn child I snap. Stepping closer to him I bring my hand back and punch him dead center in the face. As blood starts gushing down from his nose my first instinct is to go for his man goods with a swift kick up but as I bring my foot back I am being swiftly pulled back by two hands.

"Arizona you don't want to do this." She says while pulling me a good distance away from the bleeding man whore who slept with my women. The woman who I love and who happens to love me back.

"Yah Blondie, I think you broke my nose." He says while trying to stop the bleeding

"I can see we didn't have a good first greeting you two…" She begins to say before being rudely interrupted by no one else other than him.

"Hey Blondie here punched me. I didn't do anything" He says as he is trying to stop the bleeding.

"Didn't do anything huh? You call taking advantage of your heartbroken best friend nothing? I say yelling trying to get close enough to break something else.

"I did not take advantage of her, she wanted it…" He tries to say before Teddy begins to talk once again.

"Hey both of you stop now! This will get neither of you anywhere. Mark you were just as wrong to try and stop her from seeing Callie as she was for sucker punching you. We can either do this like mature adults or I can go back to my car and let her break your other appendage like she just broke your nose. But last time I heard if you break it twice, it could cause permanent damage and I don't think you want that now do you?" She says and I can't help but let go of a small laugh.

He stands there blood still dripping down his face looking shocked that Teddy had just said what she did.

"Fine" He mutters out like a child who just lost an argument with his mother.

"Okay good, Ari can you try and play nice now?"

"Yah, I suppose I can try for now…"

"Good, now do you want to explain to us why you won't let her up there to see Callie?" Teddy asks.

Mark shifts his weight obviously uncomfortable with this situation. His shirt is full with blood and his nose I am sure is broken but he kind of deserved it. I mean he did sleep with my Calliope and on top of that got her pregnant. He is lucky Teddy showed up when she did because if she hadn't he would definitely no longer be a man whore anymore, that's for sure.

"I will not let her go up there and upset Callie, not now, not tomorrow or 5 months from now. She left her. She broke up with her in an airport and walked away never looking back…"

"You have no right to judge me…" I begin to say looking him straight in the eyes knowing that he has every right to prevent me from seeing her as much as it hurts me to admit it to myself.

"Let him talk Arizona" Teddy says

"Like I was saying you left. You bailed and left her broken and a mess. You weren't here when she wouldn't get out of bed, or when she would drink her sorrows away. You weren't here. I was and I saw how much you hurt her just like George and Erica. And I know that there are two sides to every story but she is my best friend and now the mother of my unborn child. I can't just sit here and allow you to go up there and do that to her again. She deserves better than getting dumped in an airport." He finishes saying taking a step back obviously scared that I may lash out at him again. Although I am furious at him for getting her pregnant and preventing me from seeing her I have to respect him for protecting her and the baby.

We stand there for a moment in complete silence as I try to calm myself down so I convince him to move out of my way because it's become clear to me that unless I have his blessing in all this he will not budge.

"First off I am sorry I punched you, and I am even more sorry that I broke it." I say apologetically towards him. "Secondly I know how badly I hurt her. I know that what I did is unforgivable but I love her. I am in love with her and I am back and not going anywhere ever again. I came back for her and I am standing here fighting with you to let me go proclaim my love for her even after seeing that you got her knocked up because you can't keep it in your pants for longer than what…two seconds." I say bitterly. Taking a deep breath to calm myself once again so I can convince him to let me see her I continue… "She may not forgive me, she may not want me but don't you think she deserves the right to make that decision for herself?" I ask him

"I know you love her and that it wasn't your entire fault but I have to protect her. I have to keep her and our child safe. So if that means I stand out here all night making sure you can't get past me then I will because I know how she will react when she see's you standing at her door. I know she will lose it and she can't right now. I won't let her fall again not when it took so much to pull her back up. I'm sorry Arizona but I can't let you got up there." He finishes saying with sorrow and regret present on his face.

"You can't do this Mark. She will never forgive you for this. Do you get that? She will hold this against you till the day she dies."

"Yes I know that. I know what I am doing and I also know the consequences of my actions but it's the right thing to do at this particular moment in time."

"Mark, come on" Teddy says looking as shocked as I am right now that Mark would actually do this.

"It's okay Teddy, I deserve this. I am the one that left. Look I understand that you don't want my presence to upset her but do you think that you could at least give her this and let her decide if she wants to see me?" I say pulling out the envelope and scribbling a time and place down. I look up to a more than shocked Teddy, probably wondering why I am giving up so easily. But Mark is right, her seeing me could have negative effects on her and the baby and I will not hurt her again and I will not begin to hurt this baby. I stretch out my arm with the envelope in my hand towards him. He hesitates for a moment before smiling and accepting it.

"I think I can give her this for you and let her make the decision on whether or not to see you but I swear to god Arizona if you hurt her again me pressing charges for this broken nose will be the least of your problems." He says in a serious tone but then relaxing into a smile.

"Thank you Mark and I promise you that I will never purposely hurt her ever again." I say smiling back at him before walking back to the car with Teddy. "Oh and Mark you may want to ice that nose of yours." I say over my shoulder laughing.


We get in the car and Mark quickly disappears into the building. Teddy starts the car and before putting it in drive she looks at me confused.

"Why did you just let him stop you from seeing Callie like that? And how are you not rushing in there now that he is gone?" She asks confused

"As much as I don't like him right now and wish you wouldn't have stopped me from kicking him where he deserves it, he is right. I would upset her and it wouldn't be good for her or the baby. I lost my right to fight against him when I walked away from her. He is her best friend and he is protecting her and taking care of her which is something I haven't been doing. So I am on some level grateful that she has him in her life. Anyways if he doesn't give her that envelope and tell her the truth, she will never forgive him. I know Callie and she holds grudges till death. I now just have to be patient and wait."

"What did you write on the envelope?"

"A time and place to meet me tomorrow"

"Oh, do you think she will show up?"

"If she's still is in love with me half as much as I am in love with her than she will show up even if it's to yell at me in person. She will show." I say while silently praying that she at least is mad enough to show up.

As I sit waiting patiently on our park bench overlooking Seattle I can't help but question if she will show up or not. I arrived an hour early just to prepare myself for what could be a lot of yelling and screaming directed towards me. After we left the apartment building last night, we headed to Teddy's apartment where she said I didn't have a choice but to sleep at. I spent the whole night tossing and turning with the realization that I was in the same city as her, close enough to see and hold yet it felt like I was an ocean away still. I couldn't stop my mind from replaying the last few seconds we shared together. Her threatening me not to get on that plane was a last attempt to make me see what I was willing to lose. She was begging me to choose her, "If you get on that plane, if you go without me we are done. Do you hear me we are over?" And with that I had the nerve to say what I did. We are standing in the middle of an airport screaming at each other, we're already over." How could I not have chosen her? Now it seems so simple, so easy.


I wrote on the envelope to meet me at our bench around noon if she would just please listen to what I had to say. She will show, I know she will. I just have to be patient. As it gets closer to noon, I can feel myself starting to get more and more nervous.

Noon passes and it's now 1:15. I have to say now I am a little worried that maybe I was wrong about everything. Love or no love my actions were not in any way honorable in that airport and maybe she has moved on. I begin to tell myself that maybe she got called into the hospital and is running late or maybe she is stuck in traffic. Any excuse that could possibly be legit I am coming up with until I snap back to reality and realize that it is now 2:30 and it's been over two hours.

As tears begin to form at the realization that she really isn't coming the sky opens up with dark clouds circling me and the rain begins to pour down onto me. I sit there in the pouring rain begging and pleading with god to just give me one more chance with her when I hear a car pull into the parking lot.

When I get up and turn around any sense of excitement I began to have hearing the noise is lost in a rush when I see Teddy holding an umbrella looking at me with a worried and apologetic face, unsure of what to do. I stand there frozen in time at the realization that she is not coming and I've lost any chance I once had with her the moment I walked away from her in that airport.

"Arizona…" I hear her scream my name.

I stand there in the pouring rain silent and numb for what seems like forever, when suddenly the words I didn't think I could say come out of my mouth breaking my heart in two.

"She didn't show Teddy, it's over for good." I say looking up into her blue eyes. She puts her arm around my shoulders and begins to lead me to her car. As she gets me in the car and herself placing the umbrella in the backseat she pulls me into a hug.

"Ari, maybe she was running late, or something happened, or maybe she didn't get your note." She says into my ear trying to stay as positive as possible, throwing out excuses for her just as I had done a little while ago.

"No, she doesn't want anything to do with me and I can't blame her after what I did." I say through my tears.

"Well maybe you can just give her a few days to grasp the situation and then try again, you can't give up." She says pleading with me to try again.

"No, she made her decision and I have to respect that. I can't put her or the baby in danger by trying to force her to listen to me. I won't do it. I love her too much and I love her baby too much to do that. If she doesn't want me in her life anymore than I have to respect her decision." I say shocking myself at proclaiming my love for her unborn baby. Now the tears are falling harder at the realization that I love her baby, what should have been our baby but is now her and Mark's baby. With that I know there is only one thing left for me to do.

"Teddy, I have to go back to Africa." I say

"I know…I guess we should probably get you showered and packed so you can catch the red eye." She says with tears now falling from her eyes

"Yah, I guess so." I say as we drive away in the pouring rain.