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Bride to be

Chapter 4: Changes

"Bella I want to come with you. How can you possibly think I can let you go alone?"

"For the last time Rosalie, you are not coming with me. I have to do this alone and you coming will no help." As soon as I said that I regretted it, I knew she just wanted to help. Rosalie being Rosalie was just trying to look out for me. She could tend to be overprotective sometimes. But now I knew that I can't have her with me all the while and I should stand up for myself. I didn't want to live in the world's pity. "You know you could help me with unpacking right." I asked her and saw her face brighten up, so I continued, I don't think I will be able to manage everything by myself. As soon as everything is over I will catch a flight and be next to you and we will be roomies." I tried giving her a reassuring smile but I know she wasn't fooled. "Ok sweetie. Take care of yourself for me." With that she gave me a small wave and left.

My parents and I left for forks. We reached there and everything went as planned. I had tears in my eyes all the while but I knew I had to be strong and be a good host as Cheryl had always taught me. I had prepared and arranged for everything. And when the time came when I could see what should have been my dear family for the last time I could not hold it together. Tears started flowing effortlessly once again and I just tried calming myself. I didn't want to be forced to give a speech since I was not ready and I wouldn't be able to give one. I was anxiously waiting for the whole thing to get over. I wanted to run away from here. I was in no capacity to take I'm so sorry for you, you deserved better. I wanted to shout at them I know I deserved better but stayed quiet and replied thanks to all of them.

Soon the funeral was over and after a small meeting with the lawyers I would be ready to go.

The meeting with the lawyers was not tentative. They handed me he wills of the black family and they had given up all their fortune for me. I found letters which they had written for Jake and me together and separate ones for each of us. They were all handed over to me. I nodded wordlessly to all what they said and said thanks and I left from there.

I hugged both my parents' goodbye and promised them I would visit soon though I knew I might not be able to keep up that promise. I got on that plane towards my new journey. College. But like all other students my age I was not excited nervous or scared. But I just felt empty.

I remembered how Jacob was trying to force me to go to college since he thought I had potential unlike him. He made me a promise saying that he would agree to the garden wedding which we were supposed to have a few days back and I would have to go to college with him. I was excited then but blank now. I was going now mainly since I wanted to keep up my part f the promise and fulfil his wish. And also I wanted to get away.

I reached Hanover around 5 in the evening and rose was there to pick me up. I decided to stay in the dorms since it would be easier. Rose and jasper took a three bed roomed apartment for themselves. "You know..." Rosalie started, "... you could come and live with us right. We have a 3 bedroom house and it would be better that way. Imagine how much fun we could have. Late night parties, alcohol and I know you might not be ready right now but after a couple of weeks you could start dating boys. You never dated and it would be a great experience for you." I just looked out the window and didn't reply. I was not in the mood for an argument now and I knew rose had completely come prepared for a little argument. "Bella.... yoo-hoo.....anybody there??" I knew she was about to knock on my head so I moved away and continued looking out the mirror also sending her the silent message that I didn't want to talk about it anymore. "Fine, be that way. But this discussion is not over miss."

I finally reached my dorm. I didn't have any interest in making new friends so I had taken a single room dorm for myself.

My classes started the next day and I was on with my schedule. Every day I would get up go to the school dining hall have y breakfast attend classes meet Rosalie go to a nearby coffee shop we like and I would have a chocolate latte and rose would have a black. As every week would pass by and a Friday would come rose would drag me out but I would end up spending time in the balcony or outside waiting for rose. Then I would spend the night at her house and Saturday night I would be back in my room. Sunday I would spend my day lazing around and finishing chores.

My mom would worry about me and everyone tried convincing me to move on but somehow I was not able to just get past Jacob. Every time I would go n a date which rose would set me up with I'd end up getting piercing memories of how Jake and I were and I would be in the verge of breakdown. I was physically incapable of talking to a male without breaking into tears. Except for jasper, my dad and the teachers I never tried talking to any of the guys. By the second year all the boys gave up on trying to take me out and I got pretty much ignored by everybody except for rose and jasper. I would sometimes feel guilty that were not able to have fun because of me and I would force them to go out but they wouldn't budge so for their sake I would go out and smile and do all the pretences to make me look happy but every time I would come back home and cry myself to sleep. After the first year the crying stopped but the pain didn't go.

I spent my all my years in Dartmouth the same way and before I knew it I graduated with a degree and a job offer for twilight publications. The job needed me to go to Chicago and I was not ready to go back home so I took the offer and moved to Chicago. Little did I know that rose and jasper too got jobs in Chicago and tagged along and I had a sneaking suspicion that was because of me.

Rose got a job as an automotive designer and jazz as a history teacher. Rose made it clear that I was to stay with her and jazz would be getting his own house. I called my mom and told her we completely moved in and are unpacking from tomorrow. She sobbed and told that she could not believe how four years got over so soon and how her baby girl was growing up and then she moved on to how it was time for me to move on. I knew next was going to be the lecture how Jake would also want this for me so I told her I had more unpacking to do and I cut the phone. I get about two to three lectures that 'it's time for you to move on' every day and today was no better.

To say I was not surprised that four years passed would be a lie. I had tuned out so much when rose asked me a few months back if I was ready for the graduation I was shocked and when I asked her what graduation she was furious telling me how a girl didn't know her own graduation which was the next day and how much I had tuned myself out that it was unhealthy and I should start leading at least a normal, single boring life if not move on. She even went to the extremes of buying me a smoky gray cat. This was why I now had a pet grey. I know it sounds a little stupid but I dint find any other name for it and grey seemed nice. And grey was one of the things other than rose and jazz who made me smile occasionally.

I started working from the next day and it felt great to start of new week with a new job. "Welcome Isabella. You don't know how great it feels to have you here my dear." Aro my new boss greeted me. His sincere smile brought one of my own in return. He gave me a quick tour and introduced me to my new staff members. I dint get all the names but some I could remember. Then he bought me into an empty cubicle and stopped. "Alice should have been here by now. She is always 'fashionably late' as she calls it. That girl can never show up on time. She is always 10 minutes late. If she were not that good I would have fired her by now or maybe not. That pout of hers is irresistible. Don't tell her I told you this or she will take complete advantage not like she already isn't." He said and started chuckling to himself.

Like just on cue a small petite looking girl came in. "Aro you are always are here to welcome me. You are too sweet for a boss. Be careful or people will take advantage."

"Believe me dear people already are. Especially these really short fashionably late girls who have energy radiating out of them constantly."

"Well anyway, who is this. Is she Isabella my new cube mate?"

"Actually please call me Bella,...." shit, I dint know her name.

"Alice. Alice Cullen. I work n the fashion section and you must be working on the literature section."

"Yes"

"Well its nice meeting you Bella and I can tell we will be great friends. Just you wait and see." She beamed at me and I couldn't help but smile back at her. Something about Alice just made me feel a little warm inside. Aro then ushered us to work. I was proud of myself.

I now had a job a good friend and a best friend and her brother who was like a brother to me too. I silently prayed for Jake hoping that he too would be happy where ever he was and assure him that I was fine.


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