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Chapter 4

Julian still didn't want to go see the show, but he was feeling guilty about not being the boyfriend that Renee deserved. He didn't have a problem with Broadway, he just despised RENT. He never understood what was so special about a bunch of druggies with AIDS singing about their problems. But regardless of what he thought, it was Renee's favorite show and he owed it to her to see it with her.

Julian and Renee's relationship was complicated. They didn't really love each other, no matter how many times they said it. They both knew that the words were shallow. They got along and always had a great time together, but there was just that something special missing between them. Love didn't matter in this relationship for them because they weren't together for love.

They were together for 2 very simple reasons: publicity and sex.

When an actor snags a hot and sexy model the press eats it up. Since they were both hot in the media all the new publicity brought in more money. They were constantly seen out on the town. They shopped together, they had lunched together. They were always seen so happy. The public loved them together. Basically they became the new IT couple.

The second justifiable reason for them to be together was the sex. Renee was a beautiful woman who liked sex just as much as Julian. Just because was wasn't in love with her didn't mean he didn't like her enough to have more than a one-night stand. He knew that this wouldn't last forever either. He did want to find love, unfortunately he wasn't completely over his first love, Logan. Like every man, he couldn't go without sex, so his relationship with Renee was enough for him because, hell, he isn't going without sex until he finds someone he loves.

As the two of them sat in the cab together, -when on vacation, both he and Renee preferred to remain low profile, and a limo was anything but- he thought about the direction his life was heading. Julian was just living day by day, with no real meaning or goal. He had no reason to get up out of bed, to eat breakfast, and to do any of the other usual daily tasks that people did. He just did for some reason. But he had began asking himself what his purpose was, and where he was going and why he was doing what he was doing. Why? Why was he doing this? Why was he with Renee, wasting not only his time but hers as well? And why the hell did the same vision of a boy with blonde hair and blue eyes never leave his head?

He pushed all of those thoughts out of his head and helped Renee out of the car. Both of them were silently thankful for the fact that it was night time because it made it harder for people to recognize them. They saw a few people give them more than just a passing glance, but they didn't say or do anything more.

"Thanks again for coming. I know you didn't have to, and that you don't really want to." Renee almost whispered as they were walking in to find their seats.

Julian looked down at her and smiled lightly. Renee really wasn't a bad person. Maybe a little spoiled, but not bad.

"I want to be here with you. I love you."

Every time Julian told Renee he loved her, he wanted to mean it. He looked for depth and meaning in the words. Sadly, he never found any.

Even though they both knew it meant nothing, she responded with, "I love you too, Julian."

They took their seats and waited silently for the production to begin. When the curtain began to rise, the whole audience, including Julian, burst into applause. He was determined to find more in this play this time around. Maybe the reason he could never grasp the meaning of it before was because he wasn't looking hard enough. He was going to give this show his undivided attention.

When the show began he was at full attention just like planned. The only problem with this was that the actor that was playing Roger was particularly distracting and he couldn't figure out why. He felt like he had seen him before, and when he sang Julian swore that he had heard that voice before. He didn't know anyone on Broadway did he?

He finally realized why this guy looked and sounded so familiar during a scene that was set during the day. The lights made it easy to see the green of this actors eyes. It was such a beautiful green. Julian couldn't believe what he was seeing. There was no way on this planet that Julian would walk into a Broadway production and Logan Wright be on stage.

Right in front of him stood the very man who had refused to leave his mind for years now. He couldn't wrap his mind around it. He narrowed it down to two possibilities. Either, he was dreaming. And if this ended like most of his Logan dreams he was guaranteed to wake up with a monster hard on. Or two, fate had dragged him to this dumb show for a reason and he had to do something to figure out what that reason was.

Renee clearly noticed Julian's reaction because she leaned over and asked, "Are you OK?"

"Yeah."

He know it was a short response and not a very believable one considering he was still trying to remember how to breath, making it fairly difficult for him to speak.

"OK," she replied sounding unsure.

That was one thing he absolutely loved about Renee. She, unlike most women, didn't try to pull the truth out of him. If he ever replied with a statement she knew wasn't completely true, she would let it go anyways. Julian had never been more thankful for that quality than he was now.

How he sat through the whole show was unclear. He couldn't take his eyes off of the green eyed performer the entire time and all he could think about was what he was going to do about all this. He finally came to the conclusion that this wasn't all a dream because if it was how could he remember most of the play? The fact that Renee was there helped him reach that conclusion as well.

Renee and Logan were never in the same dream.

So this was reality. What now? What do you do when you are put in a situation like this? One thing is for certain, you don't walk away from it. He had to talk to Logan after the show. But what would he say? That didn't matter, he would make something up on the spot. He just knew that he had to do something.

After this show had dragged itself on for hours, everyone stood to applaud. Julian stood, just slightly slower than the crowd. He looked to his left and Renee was standing applauding, clearly very pleased with the show. That's when he realized that he had to find some way to get her home first. He did not need his girlfriend standing there when he was going to attempt to have a conversation with one of his best friends (that he was still completely in love with). This conversation was bound to be awkward enough without adding that to it.

As the two walked out together Julian stopped her and turned her to face him.

"What?" She asked, with a questioning smile on her lips.

"Nothing, I just… I have something I need to take care of."

"Oh? What is it?"

"It's nothing, I just have to talk to someone. I'll meet you back at the suite soon. I promise."

"Okay…?"

She turned to walk away and got into a cab. Julian held the door for her and looked up at him.

"You're sure your okay?" she asked, a worried expression painting her face.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Really." He tried to give her a reassuring smile but it didn't seem to convince her of anything.

"I'll see you in a little bit," she said

"Okay, be careful. And I have my phone on if you need me," and with that he shut the cab door and watched it drive away.

Now onto step two: figure out what to say to someone that you've been hopelessly in love with and haven't seen in forever.

People were still filing out of the theater and considering Logan was an actor, it was probably going to be a while before he came out. Julian knew he needed to keep a low profile so he took a seat with his back to the building wall and decided just to wait there and hoped no one would notice him.

He sat in that spot for what seemed like twenty years. Arguing with himself on what to say. He almost didn't notice when the tall, blonde headed actor walked out from the theater and onto the New York sidewalk.

Julian stood up, way faster than he should have, and said the only word that could come to his mind at that moment.

"Logan?"

The man turned around at the mention of his name and looked at Julian, clearly trying to figure out who had called his name. And that's when he saw his eyes. Julian couldn't remember the last time he was able to see those amazingly beautiful eyes this close. He also never thought he would never get this opportunity again. Julian was so glad that he was wrong.

"Julian?" he said, almost disbelievingly.

Julian could finally let out the breath he had been holding and shrugged his shoulders.

"Yeah… How are you?"

He began kicking himself mentally. How are you? Really? That's all you could come up with?

"I'm good, what are you doing here? Do you live in New York? Because I'm pretty sure most movie stars like to stay close to work, in L.A." Logan said with a slightly amused expression.

Finally Julian found the ability to smile, even if it was small

"No, I uh… I live in L.A. I'm just on vacation here for a little while."

"And you decided to come and see RENT? You never liked RENT," he said, even more amused than before.

"I don't like it, I just thought I might try something new. My life is becoming horribly repetitive these days," he said with a comfortable smile.

"And how was it?"

"It… wasn't as bad as I remember it," he replied, breaking his gaze from those bright green eyes for the first time in the conversation and looking down at his feet.

"Well, I'm glad. But, did you wait out here this whole time just to see me?" Logan asked.

"Sort of, yeah. I was just wondering if you wanted to do something tomorrow? You know, to catch up. It has been a while," Julian said shyly.

"Tomorrow.. uh, yeah. Sure. You want to get coffee?" Logan pointed to a Starbucks that was located conveniently right across from where they were standing.

"Yeah. Yeah, I'll meet you here at 10?" asked Julian.

Julian could only think of how stupid he must sound fumbling out his words like a child, when Logan was able to say them so calm and collected.

"Sure, that sounds great. I'll see you tomorrow morning then?"

"Yeah, see you."

And just like that the amazing guy that had completely ruined Julian's life was back. And Julian was having coffee with him, tomorrow! Julian really hoped this wasn't a dream, because if it was he was seriously going to shoot himself when he woke up.

"Hey, I'm home" Logan said as he walked through the door of his apartment.

"Hey," Keith came out of the hallway pulling him into a tight embrace and planted a small kiss on Logan's lips.

Logan really did enjoy the fact that Keith was a little shorter than him and had brown, messy hair. He always had a thing of brunettes.

"How was the play?" Keith asked, walking into the kitchen to heat up Logan's dinner that he had ordered for him. Keith never cooked, because whenever he did it usually ended in disaster.

"It was good," Logan replied, taking a seat on the bar stool. "But I have some bad news. You know how you wanted to go shopping tomorrow?"

"Yeah," said Keith, not looking the least bit troubled. Just looking very content.

"Well I have to do something for work. Something about practicing for the next show coming up, I'm not really sure. I have to be at work at 10, and it's supposed to be an all day thing so I don't think I can make it. I'm so sorry." Logan said looking extremely guilty.

"No, that's okay. I know you have to work. We can go shopping Sunday, it's no problem," Keith said with a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes.

"Sunday for sure," said Logan.

Keith took the food out of the microwave and handed it to Logan. Logan was starving so he dug right in.

Keith giggled at the way his boyfriend ate like he was still a 17 year old boy, which only happened when he was truly hungry and hadn't eaten all day.

"Well, I'm tired. I'm going to head off to bed. I love you," Keith said walking over and planting a kiss upon Logan's cheek and walking back into the bedroom.

"Night. Love you." Logan responded with a mouth full of food.

That night, after Logan had showered and gotten ready for bed, he tried to figure out one thing. Why did he lie to Keith? It wasn't like he was doing anything wrong, he was just having coffee with an old friend. But at the same time, he did feel guilty about blowing Keith off to do so. There was just something in Julian's eyes that made him lose the ability to say no. He was excited for tomorrow. More excited that he had been in a long time. Why he was so excited he couldn't quite figure out, but it didn't matter. It didn't matter that he had lied to Keith about working, because it wasn't like he was cheating. But as Keith's arm wrapped itself around Logan's waist, he got a feeling of guilt that made him think that his meet up with Julian tomorrow meant more to him than he realized.


Well the first Jogan meeting... I really hope that wasn't too disappointing!

Like I said before, I love the show RENT and have absolutely nothing against it!

I also hope you are getting some kind of good vibes from Renee and Keith because when I write them they are not intended to be villians or to be overall bad people in any way, shape, or form.

Thanks for reading. Please review and comment. And Tori, calm your nipples... I can only update so fast and I hope this was worth stopping the reading of the current fic you are in the middle of cuz I am about to bug the shit out of you til you read this. Love you!

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