A/n 1: Guys, did you know that you're amazing? Some of you have already added me to their favorite stories/authors, though this story isn't finished yet! Wow! I'm happy, really!

A/n 2: Yeah, 4th chapter is ready, I can't believe it! Anyway, I'm sorry for this chapter – too short, with angst that I didn't want to write, but still… I guess you can't write BL stories without angst, right? lol At least, it was necessary, so don't become upset ;)

Chapter 4. Everything begins over again

Otoya was turning over and over and over in his bed for a long time, thinking about everything that happened to him, till he had come to a shocking conclusion - he likes Tokiya. Otoya had very few people close to him - his mother died when he was a child, his father…well, he even didn't know him, so he was raised in the orphanage. Before he entered the academy, he had had many buddies whom he could hardly call "friends", but not a "close friend". When Otoya first saw his roommate, Ichinose Tokiya, he decided that he'd try to become his friend. For Otoya it wasn't difficult to find common ground with almost everybody, but it turned out that Tokiya was a hard nut to crack; from the first day of their acquaintance he put up an impenetrable wall, fencing himself off the rest, including Otoya. And the latter had nothing to do but just watch him, trying to know him just a little more. Yes, he didn't give up - it wasn't in his nature. He continued to hope that he could get on the right side of his ideal and perfect in almost everything roommate, whom he began to admire from the very first day. Recently Tokiya had become friendlier, and Otoya was totally over the moon. He felt that they had become friends, and that he was often the only person who was aware of where Tokiya was and what he was doing. And, most importantly, he often knew what was on Tokiya's mind: his thoughts, sometimes even his rueful feelings. Everything was all right, except the fact that…Otoya wasn't satisfied with this friendship, of which he had been dreaming before. Admiration and affection together turned into…a kind of love. Otoya didn't know that feeling, and couldn't say that this was it. At school, he liked a girl, but it was completely different... The feelings that was filling Otoya now were far stronger and deeper, and this made him feel frightened. With such troublesome thoughts he unwittingly fell asleep.

When he opened his eyes, the sun was completely lighting up the room, and Otoya instinctively understood that he had overslept all that he could oversleep. 'Except dinner,' red haired guy muttered, looking at his watch, 'everyone must be in the canteen already'. Quickly slipping on his pants and shirt, he flung out of the room, casting last glance on the Tokiya's neat bed. That guy had never overslept in his life, Otoya knew it for sure.

The canteen was noisy and fun as always. Otoya immediately recognized the familiar faces and joined his friends, sitting down next to Natsuki and Shyou and finding himself being directly opposite to Tokiya. Otoya wanted to talk to him, but he obviously wasn't in that state to have a talk, because he wasn't looking at his red haired roommate at all, focusing on the contents of his plate. Otoya felt a painful prick somewhere near his heart, but just shrugged, deciding not to pay attention to such nothings. Next to him there were daily rumbles, if you can call it that: the source of these rumbles was mainly Shyou, actively resisting yet another attempt from Natsuki to feed him with the spoon. Otoya inwardly chuckled, remembering that not so long ago Shyou wasn't against harassment from Natsuki. Otoya, too, would hardly mind if Tokiya...

Bing!

Everybody turned their heads to Otoya, who was blushing to the roots of the hair and quickly hid under the table, trying to find a dropped fork. When he got out from under the table, they continued their conversations, and Otoya sighed in relief.

"Hey, Tokiya, today you're taking the rap for all," Jinguji Ren, sitting next to blue haired guy, suddenly said.

Otoya immediately became alarmed.

"What are you talking about?" asked Tokiya in a level voice, looking at Ren.

"Today you are going to the interview, then it seems to be a photo-shoot for one magazine... I don't remember its name... Well, for which we have had our photos taken at that time you refused to go with us." saying all this, Ren put his hand on Tokiya's shoulder.

"Is it necessary?" Tokiya nonchalantly shook off Ren's hand from his shoulder.

"Yes, I think," Rehn said softly, approaching Tokiya, "We just escaped being killed, because we hadn't dragged you with us."

"Hey, Ren, let go of him," Masato gave mouth suddenly. Haruka looked worried, too, because of the tension in the air. Ren half-heartedly sat back, casting an angry glance on his roommate.

"All right, I'm going," Tokiya said with a sigh.

"To-Tokiya," Otoya, who had been just watching before, finally said, "You don't have to go! You have worked so hard lately, and these journalists again will…"

"I don't need your care, Ittoki." Tokiya said sharply, and everyone unwittingly stayed put, not expecting to hear this tone. Was it a comeback of the old Ichinose Tokiya?

Otoya remained motionless, staring at his plate. Tears were deceitfully gathering and could roll down his cheeks at any moment. Why now, when he's already decided he wanted to take a step towards him and try his luck, why all it has started again? Again, this frigid tone, piercing chilling look of these blue eyes... Otoya jumped from his chair and said only "see you" to his friends, and then jumped out of the canteen.

Nataly_Sleyter: if you're crying, I'm crying with you, too, if you're not, don't mind me… Just stay tuned, cause next chapter will be the last and you'll be rewarded for your patience!