Chapter 4 :
Honesty :
For the next 3 weeks Jane avoided Maura, she actually stop going to class and had to fight hard not to call her. The problem wasn't that she didn't like her but that she was actually very found of her. After considering it for days she decided that she had nothing to offer her and that she would probably end up hurting her badly, so she decided to get her off her system. Well at least she tried, because not seeing her made her think about her even more. She was actually so distracted at work that her partner started to worry.
"Don't tell me you're still thinking about that medical student?" Officer Morales asked concerned for his young partner.
"I'm sorry, I know we're on the job and I should be focused, I just can't stop thinking about her, I miss her..."
"Well have you tried going out and pick up some hot chick, I'm sure a night of passion will get her off your system." He joked.
"I tried but I lost all desire to seduce and when a woman comes at me I just reject her. What's happening to me Mike?"
"I think you might be in love ."
"Come on, don't be ridiculous, that kind of shit doesn't happen to me, never! And besides she's way off my league, you should see her house, it's bigger than the white house, we're from two different worlds."
"Oh, I see, is this why you decided not to go after her?Because she's rich and you think you have nothing to offer her?"
"Yes, I mean the girl is used to go to places I can't even dreamed about on my salary you know, she's used to the best things in life."
"From what you told me she doesn't care about money, she seems to like you for you, so what's the real reason you're avoiding seeing her?"
"ME! I'm the reason! You know me, I'm a player, I had slept with so many women that I can't even remember all their names, but I've never dated any of them. Maura is a lady, she deserves to be treated as deserves someone who's willing to commit to her and who is able to commit you know."
"I see, well if you never try you'll never know if you can commit to her, I know you want to right?"
"Of course, I'm adventurous I would like to try to have a committed relationship with her, but I don't want to take the risk to hurt her in case I go back to my old habits you know..."
"How about you tell her the truth about your past and you let her decide if she wants to give you a chance? I mean she's an adult you should at least give her the opportunity to make the decision by herself."
"You're right, I think I owe her an explanation, but it's been 3 weeks, I'm not even sure she's going to allow me on her property."
"Well try, our shift is over in half an hour, go see her and try alright cause I don't want you by my side in dangerous situations thinking about her alright?"
"Alright, thank you."
"You're welcome."
Jane truly cared about Maura and didn't want to hurt her feelings, she wanted to be with her but knew that Maura deserved better. Even if Jane had been with a lot of women she never actually dated one of them. Her relationship with them usually needed right after she was finishing having sex with them. With Maura it was different, she liked her a lot, and didn't want to her hurt by using her like she used other women before, but on the other hand she didn't how to date a woman, especially one who came from such a different world.
So that night Jane drove to Maura's mansion and to her big surprise the guard let her in.
After spending a good 15 minutes at the door rehearsing her speech Jane took a deep breath and finally knocked at the door.
"Jane, what a pleasant surprise." Maura grinned.
"May I come in?"
"Sure, I'm glad to see you're not dead." Maura mocked letting Jane in .
" I'm sorry Maura…I…"Jane mumbled following her to the living room.
When they arrived Jane realized that Maura had been studying, there was books and note pads everywhere.
"Please sit , don't mind the mess, I'm studying for a test next week." Maura politely offered as she sat on the couch.
"Thank you, well I wanted to apologized, I know I screwed up, going MIA for 3 weeks..." Jane said looking straight into Maura's big brown eyes.
"Did I do something wrong during the game?"
"No, it was perfect, I actually don't remember the last time I had so much fun, I'm just…"
"You're just not attracted to women."
"Oh yes I am trust me." Jane inappropriately smiled.
"Then you're not attracted to me."
"I am, and that's the problem."
"I don't follow.." Maura said narrowing her eyes thinking that those psychology classes were really a waste of time and money.
"Well, I'm physically attracted to you, that's for sure, but I also genuinely like you. I really enjoy your company, listening to you telling me crazy stories about dead people, I think you're the most brilliant, the smartest and most adorable woman I know…"
"So what's the problem?"
"The problem is, I…how can I say this? I love women, but I don't date them."
"I dont understand."
"I'm not the relationship type, I see a woman I like, I chase her, seduce her, sleep with her and then got rid of her as fast as it takes for me to zip my pants." Jane let out waiting for Maura's reaction.
"Oh I see." Maura nodded.
"But the thing is, I don't want to do that to you, I like you a lot, and that's unsettling, I usually don't develop feelings for the women I' m attracted to. I just don't want to hurt you."
"I understand."
" I mean you're a princess, you deserve someone who treats you like one, someone who respects you, who takes you to nice places, who you can see a future with, not a emotionally retorted player like me."
"For someone who's usually so confident about herself, you're fast to put yourself down Jane."
" I'm just realistic, not that I wouldn't want to try, but I just don't know how to be with you, I never dated any one before, especially someone like you."
"Someone like me?"
"Yes I mean, you're freaking rich, I'm sure you don't even enjoy the same things as I do, so I don't even see how I could date you."
"Well I certainly enjoy different things then you but it doesn't mean that I don't want to learn about the thing you love, we watched a baseball game remember?It was the first I ever saw, you taught me the rules and I enjoyed it and I have been watching other games."
"Really?" Jane smiled happy that she somehow helped Maura to discover something she likes.
"Yes. I even found myself cursing at the screen. But it's not the same without you."
"I think I would pay to see that."
"Look Jane, I was born privileged, yes, but the thing my parents taught me was to be open minded and never judge people because they were born less fortunate or were raised in a different culture. I enjoy your company, I think you're the most interesting person I ever met in my life and I would love for you to teach me more things about your world."
"That's very sweet of you Maura, but for your own good you don't wanna be with me trust me."
"How about you stop insulting my intelligence and start letting me make decisions for myself?" Maura chucked rising her voice feeling her face turn red.
"I'm sorry, I'm willing to try my best if you want to give me a chance." Jane mumbled grabbing Maura's seeing the anger on her face.
"Alright, I will be waiting for you to court me then."
"Court you?Really?"
"Yes, I mean you said you have quite a lot of experience in that field, experience that I don't have.."
"You've never been dated a woman before?"
"I have, but not as many as you, I have high standards."
"Well then let me take the lead on this then. Dr Isles would you do me the honor of going out with me tonight?Or any other night?"
"Well I'm afraid I have to study tonight, we have a test next week and I need to be ready."
"I could help you study, you know quiz you…"
"It's on congenital heart disease, I'm not sure you're going to like it."
"Don't worry about it, I'm sure I would enjoy hearing the yellow pages if you were the one telling them to me."
"Jane…" Maura smiled blushing.
After two hours of studying Jane and Maura were sitting on the living room floor, with books all over the floor around them.
Jane had been the perfect study partner, she listened to Maura, asked her question showing a genuine interest, which amazed Maura.
After all that hard work the two women decided to relax and Jane started to massage Maura's bare feet.
"So anyway, when you told me you have been with a lot women, why did you mean by that?" Maura innocently asked.
"Do you need a number?" Jane replied as she gently rubbed Maura's feet with her thumb.
"Well if you don't have the exact number can you give me an approximation, are we talking about a two or tree digits number?"
"Look Maura, I could write you a list of all the women I have been with, and I could also write you a list of the women I actually liked and on this list there would only be one name, yours. "
"I know I'm sorry, I mean you're very attractive so I couldn't expect you to be lacking experience you know."
"I'm not proud of my past, well actually I was but it was before I met you, I really like you Maura and I want to try but you need to trust me when I say that my past is my past and you're my present and i hope my future…"
"Alright I trust you."
Right at that moment Jane looked into Maura's eyes and knew it was time for her to make her move. They were on the floor, Maura's legs were on her lap so she slowly leaned over looked deep into her eyes and pressed her lips against Maura's. She didn't move for about a second because she expected Maura to reject her, but she didn't so she moved closer to her, cupped her face with her right hand and continued to kiss her . She could feel that Maura's chest was rising and falling faster and faster , so taking advantage Maura's excitement she gently pressed her tongue against her lips. Maura who could barely breath opened her mouth and welcomed Jane's warm tongue. As they were kissing, their tongues literally dancing together in a perfect synced ballet and Maura's head started to spin.
"Wow, she sure as experience, and God that italian blood makes her so passionate." Maura said to herself.
The two women spent another hour kissing and cuddling. Jane was very aroused but managed to restrain herself, she knew Maura wasn't ready for more and that even if she was she wanted them to take their time. So she did her best not to touch Maura in inappropriate place limiting herself to Maura beautiful face , arms and her back fighting hard not to grab her ass . Maura who didn't have that much experience was keen to explore Jane's body and let her hands wander on her arms, belly and back not thinking for a second that it drove Jane's crazy and that it made it a challenge for her not to rip her clothes of.
"Oh God, I think I better go her hands on my back makes me want to rip her clothes off and just make love to her right here on that floor. Come on Rizzoli put yourself together, she deserves better than this." Jane said to herself feeling shivers down her spine as she felt Maura's fingers streaming down her back.
"Alright it's getting pretty late an I'm up for an early shift tomorrow, but I can take you out for dinner afterwards." Jane offered breaking off the kiss.
"Oh no it's alright you're probably going to be exhausted after chasing criminals all day , you need your rest." Maura replied trying to catch her breath.
"It's alright, I'll just take a quick nap. And besides if we only go out when I'm not working or when it's slow at work, we'll never see each other."
"Alright, when are you taking me?" Maura asked clapping her hands visibly excited.
"That's a surprise, and don't even think about using either your charm or those psychology classes to make me talk. I'm a trained police officer remember." Jane joked as she stood up grabbing her jacket.
"I know I know, I like surprises."
So Maura accompanied Jane to her car feeling happy and her heart filled with hope .
"I really enjoyed myself tonight…" Maura wandering smiled her hand on the zipper of Jane's jacket.
"So did I. good night." Jane said wrapping her arms around her waist giving a tender goodnight kiss .
Maura spent the rest of the night thinking about how good it felt but also worrying about Jane's past. She obviously wasn't expected her to be a virgin, but she wasn't prepared for what she learned tonight. She wanted to trust Jane and to believe that she could change because she knew she had true and sincere feelings for her and that she was willing to try. Unfortunately Maura was scared that all Jane's good will wouldn't be enough to make her change radically, and knew that she would have to make sure that Jane didn't have any reasons to go back to her troubled past habits.
On the other side of town Jane went to bed feeling butterflies in her belly and that was something she never experienced before. It was a mix of happiness excitement and fulfillment. Maura and her spent over an hour kissing and cuddling but even if she wanted to she didn't even try to get into her pants. For the first time Jane had feelings for a woman and wanted to learn more about her, to know her inside out so she could satisfy her even more. Also she couldn't stop thinking about Maura's comment about not having much experience.
"She told me she dated women in the past so she's not a virgin, but at the same time she seems awfully shy and not confident about those things. It's weird she's the one who first came on to me hard. Maybe she's just shy, try not to think about sex, it's better if you take your time , you need to be sure of your feelings and of hers as well before taking that step." Jane said to herself as she was lying in bed thinking about her new girlfriend.
Jane fell quickly asleep that night trying to find the perfect first date. She knew Maura was used to beautiful and expensive places, but she also knew that she was aware that they didn't share the same tastes or bank accounts. So Jane thought of the perfect romantic date that would blow Maura's mind and make her heart melt without burning her credit card. She knew Maura wasn't judgmental about money and that she would rather go someplace significant for Jane and romantic rather than a fancy place where Jane wouldn't feel comfortable.
So guys are you happy that Jane grew a pair?Things won't go easily of course drama is coming!
