Hey guys, I need your opinion, should I start wring in a different perspective, like right now I'm using I or me. Should I start writing in 3rd person? For this chapter I'm going to continue to write in 1st person, but I want to know for future chapters. I don't know if you'll notice but I'm altering the original perspective to make it easier to write. And I know it's been a long time, school has started again so some of the chapters may not come quickly. But I'll try to every Friday or so. Sorry in advance! So just do what you guys do on here and Thanks for reading!

I ran into Ops looking for Nell. Just as I reached her I heard Hetty clear her throat. Oops, guess I forgot about the case. I turned around to face Hetty and saw her usual stoic face looking at me. Well there's nothing in the Hetty rulebook that says I can't confirm my deepest fears with a fellow colleague…I think.

"Oh yeah, uh, hey Hetty. We went to the crime scene and got some information on the dead Petty Officer. We also found a black piece of paper or something and I was just about to tell Nell about it." I said scratching my head. I have a feeling she already knows exactly why I'm going over to Nell, or had some general idea at least.

She continued to stare at me and she simply nodded and said "Alright , I'll leave you to it." And with that she just left.

I turned back to Nell; I threw the evidence bag at her "Here analyze it or whatever you do. Now please tell me whatever I remembered was wrong or fake or just something." I'm exasperated. I'm confused. I'm delusional. I'm just wacked.

I looked around to make sure Hetty wasn't back and Deeks was still downstairs talking to Eric.

"Ok Pixie, spill. Confirm my worst nightmares." I squeezed my eyes shut, and waited for the worst.

"Oh relax Kens, it wasn't that bad."

"Nell, I confessed to something I can never ever speak of again."

"By confessing, you mean stating the fact that you are in love with your partner and don't wanna live without him. And how you were gonna call him and propose to him."

I stared at her. I know about the first part about my apparent feeling for him, but not the calling or proposing. Oh No. I literally froze where I stood.

"Nell, tell me I didn't call him. Tell me I didn't make a fool of myself." My entire body was shaking and shivering from this incredibly humiliating situation. How am I gonna face his beautiful blue eyes again. Ugh, suck it up. You've taken down terrorist cells and you can't handle looking at your partner without your knees weakening. Come on.

"I would never let you do that to yourself Kensi. I simply calmed you down and told you to talk to him about it when you were sober. But you were far from sober at the end of the night."

I ran my hand through my hair and sighed out in relief. I pointed my finger at her and said "This goes absolutely nowhere. We never speak of this again."

She held up both hands in defeat, one empty and one holding her tablet and smiled and cocked her head to the side a little.

"Alright, I won't! Hey guess what?"

I folded my arms and narrowed my eyes, she most definitely seems perky. "What?"

She had a look of triumph on her face and looked absolutely accomplished. "Do you remember who we met at the bar that night?"

I scrunched my face in thought. I don't remember anything. I had hazy memories of someone familiar but I couldn't remember his face.

"No, who? Tell me it's not Deeks."

"Oh no, we met Callen."

"We did? Oh my God, did I say something stupid to him about Deeks? I didn't mention any proposal did I?"

"No no, you were too busy flirting with some other guy at the bar." She waved it off like it didn't even matter. Ironic since I supposedly confessed my love and then went ahead and flirted with some random guy, what am I going to do?

"Ok, well what about Callen?"

"Well he and I kinda hit it off."

I looked at her in surprise. "Really? Wow this is exciting. Did ya'll sleep together?!"

"Of course not. I'm a good girl."

I just looked at her for a second.

"Alright yes." She said "I couldn't help it, even if Eric likes me; I think I may like someone else."

I laughed; she didn't know how obvious this was to everyone else.

"So, when are you and Callen gonna officially announce you guys as a couple? Wait you guys are a couple now right?"

"Weeeeell."

"Nell!"

"I know, it's just, we decided to go on a date tonight and talk about it. You know with work interfering and all."

"Well at least you're talking about it. I jumped straight to the proposal."

It was her turn to laugh.

In my defense I shouldn't have to worry about this. I'm supposed to be focused on the case. I smiled at her and told her to text me if there were any developments in the case or about her and Callen.

I was just about to walk through the double doors when Eric walked through and briskly walked past me. "Hey Eric." I said as I walked ahead. "Kensi." Was his only reply.

I think he may have heard that last little comment about Callen and Nell. Let's hope it's not a big deal.

I was looking at the ground when I collide with something rock hard and warm. Other than that I felt sparks and a sudden tingly-ness in my tummy. Great, just f*cking great.

"Ready to hit the family's house Princess?" I looked up sheepishly at his face. His rugged face was peering down at me and his sparkling blue eyes looking at me softly. I looked in his eyes and down at his soft plump kissable lips, I looked back at his eyes and saw he wasn't looking at my eyes anymore but just a little lower. What if he loved me too? Whoa, I did not just think that did I?

I suddenly realized how close I was to him and quickly backed away. I coughed and "cleared" my throat. "Yeah, sure. Let's go. And don't call me Princess."

"Whatever you want Princess." I rolled my eyes and walked past him down the stairs to hide my smile. My heart was all jumpy like I ran a marathon. Maybe I was in love with my goofball of a partner. I can't think this way though. I have a job to do and it has to be taken seriously I can't just mush my personal and professional life together.

But he'd be worth it.

"Uh Kens, can you wait for a minute, I gotta hit the little Deeks room. And then grab another cup of coffee."

Well most of the time.

It's not that long and I apologize, it's hard to start managing so many things. I'm working on it though!