DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING TWILIGHT

Chapter 4:

JPOV

It's been five years since I had last saw my family.

Was it cowardly the way I left?

I ran and never looked back.

I wanted to turn the car around on more than one occasion but I couldn't.

I wanted to the turn the car around and go back for her. I wanted to turn around and fight for her.

I wanted to tell her the truth about my feelings for her.

He just had to ruin everything by confessing before me. Once he did that I knew I didn't stand a chance anymore.

I had to leave before I did something I regretted.

He just made me so angry and I knew that I could never have a chance with her now. She could no longer become mine now that she was with the Golden Boy of Forks.

It's time to go home now. I've been away too long. It's time to get back what once going to be mine.

The last heard everyone had relocated to Seattle after I left. Rose, Emmett, Bella, Bree, Alice, and him they are all in Seattle.

From my knowledge my sister's wedding is tomorrow. I feel so bad knowing that she put off getting married just to wait for me to come home. I wanted so bad to tell her that I'm not coming home.

Every email, text message, and voicemail, I got. I listened to them and read them; I just didn't have the courage to reply.

But I have the courage now. I plan to go up to Bella and tell her I love her and I will do anything to be with her.

I will do anything means necessary to get my chance with Bella.

I'm at this hotel, the hotel that Rose's wedding will be taking place.

I wouldn't be a Hale/Whitlock if I didn't have a flair for dramatics.

I looked in the mirror as I fixed my bow tie.

I had on the standard black and white tux on, I had my usually wild hair tamed and slightly smoothed back with a curl hanging on my forehead.

I'm ready.

I wonder what everyone will think once they see me. Five years is a really long time. Everyone could be completely different than I remember.

That doesn't matter, all that matters is getting Bella to love me like I love her.

I look at my watch and see that it is almost 2:30 PM.

Showtime Jasper. Remember don't let anyone see you until it's time. Stand behind people and crowds and don't say a word. Be calm and don't freak out when see Bella.

"Ok let's go. I can do this." I whisper to myself.

I walk out of my hotel room.

I made my way down to the Donatello ballroom and snuck in with the bustling crowd.

When I entered the ballroom I was amazed at what Rose had done for her wedding.

It was winter wonderland themed kind of wedding.

I don't know how to describe it as anything but white and bright. They had splashes of color like in the flowers and stuff.

I always knew Rose was going to be an ice princess. I chuckled as the thought passed through my head.

I found a pretty big pillar that I could hide behind. It was the perfect place. It was right next two exits, it had the perfect angle and I could see everyone and everything.

It took everyone about 10 minutes to settle down. I looked over the crowd and saw my mom, aunts uncles, grandparents, cousins, friends from high school, everyone was there. Everyone but me… technically.

When the lights deemed and casted a light, cool glow, the ceremony started then.

The bridesmaids and groomsmen went first. Alice was the first bridesmaid to go, and then it was Kate, then it Tanya, and the last one to go was the maid of honor which was Bella.

Oh Bella.

She looked, what did some people say, oh ravishing. Her dress was completely different from the other bridesmaids. While the other bridesmaid dresses were on the silvery side, her dress was a beautiful gold that went perfect with her pale skin.

When everyone stood and waited for Rose with bated breaths, I stood there looking at Bella. She looked like she did five years ago. Albeit she is a little older, taller, and fuller she still looks the same. Even though she always had a good body, now it looked like the body of a woman begging to be touched.

When Rose walked out my breath caught in the back of my throat. She looked amazing, exquisite even.

She looks like mom. She looks just like mom. From the hair down to the toes she was just like our mother.

Her dress was the whitest of white with a beaded sweetheart neckline, embellished midriff; it was a layered ballroom silhouette, she had on a queen styled necklace, tear drop earrings, and her finishing touch a tiara.

She looked like a real princess.

She was beaming as she walked down the aisle. She walked alone, no one walked beside her. I was supposed to walk her down the aisle, but I can't. Not yet.

The wedding was beautiful to the say least. When Rose and Emmett gave their vows there was not a dry eye in sight, even Pastor Webber had tears.

Though I'm happy I just felt like I lost my little sister. She's 26 now; she has a husband now which means she doesn't need me to be her protector or confidant anymore. I feel a little empty inside knowing that my baby sister isn't my baby sister anymore.

When everyone leaves the ballroom where the wedding was held they move to the ballroom where the reception is being held. I was once again amazed at the work Rose has done for her wedding. The ballroom was very icy. There was fake snow littering the ground and still falling from the ceiling. Everything was silver, white, and gold. The cake was about 7 layers of glittering goodness, and the inside was probably mostly layers of chocolate and vanilla with a secret layer of red velvet.

Once again I stayed near the back where I could see everything.

When Rose and Emmett walked in you could practically feel the love they have for each other radiating off of them. They were beaming at each other like the other was the only in the world. It made me smile knowing that my sister was with someone that she loved and loved her the same back.

Everyone was dancing, laughing, having fun, and just being happy. I mostly kept my eyes on Bella. I saw her dance with everyone but him. Matter of fact, I haven't seen him at all. I wonder if he's even at the wedding. I need him to not be around so that I can set my plan in motion.

I want so badly to dance with Bella, but not now.

After Rose and Emmett did their first dance as husband and wife, it was time for speeches. First up to make speeches were the bride and groom, and once again not a dry eye in sight. Next were the parents. Mom couldn't even finish her speech she was so emotional. Next was the maid of honor which is Bella.

When Bella got on stage she had her flute of champagne and a microphone. You could tell she had already had a few to drink because the flushed cheeks and the constant giggling.

She took a deep breath and cleared her throat, "Hey everybody. Most of know who I am, so I'm going to do an introduction. Let me just say that I have known Emmett since I was barely a day old. All through my childhood I could always count on Emmett to make me laugh and happy. Growing up everyone thought that it would be Emmett and I to get married, but I quickly squashed that. Emmett is my Emmy bear, my teddy bear, and the big brother I never had. It was always Bella, Emmett, Alice, Bree, and sometimes Edward. So when Rose and her brother Jasper, who could not be here with is, moved to town when I was five you could tell that I didn't like it. Their moving here changed everything. Emmett had a guy friend he could hang out with; Alice had a friend who could actually be a girl with her. I felt alone and out of place, but Rose being Rose even at a young age she was pushy and stubborn as hell", everyone laughs a little. "She wouldn't let me be by myself. She urged me to go outside to play, to get dirty, and to cause hell around town. People see Rose as the beautiful girl with platinum blond hair and perfect skin, and that she hated getting dirty. These people don't know Rose. Rose can tune up and get greasy with car oil with the best of any guy. I think that was what made Emmett fall for her. A girl that knows her way around an engine and has the looks of a Victoria Secret Angel supermodel at that, she was perfect for him. She made my brother happy. She's my best friend. I always considered Rose to be my sister but now she really is my sister. If you want some funny Rose and Emmett stories wait until my second speech. So to Rose I say thank you for taking my goofball of a friend and brother and making him settle down, but mostly thank you for making him happy. I love you girly," she says as she blows a kiss and wink to Rose. "To the happy and beautiful Mr. and Mrs. Emmett Aaron McCarthy." She finishes with happiness and mirth in her voice. Everyone cheers and claps at the end of her speech.

When she walked off stage she left the mike on a chair by the stand. I took this as my opportunity to go up there and make myself known.

I silently creep to the stage and grab the mike.

"Hello everybody", I say lowly. I looked to the table where Rose and wedding party sit and saw her turn her head slowly to face the stage. "I am the bride's twin brother Jasper Whitlock. It has been quite a night, very emotional if I say so myself. I cried a few times at the wedding. I didn't know Emmett even had the ability to so serious and loving and romantic. I guess when it comes to my sister he would do anything for her or be anything for her. When I found this out I couldn't even be mad at my best friend dating my baby sister. I knew Emmett would never hurt my sister. So many times I wanted to kill Emmett for kissing her in front of me, and saying he loved her in front of me. I wanted so bad to be mad at him for taking advantage of my sister, but I realized that he wasn't taking advantage of her and that her loved her. I was always the one to protect Rose, we were all each other had at some times. I guess I grew up being to over protective and possessive of my sister, but I mean can you blame me? Look at how beautifully amazing she looks. When they said 'I do' at the alter and had their first kiss as man and I wife, I felt like I had just lost my little sister. It felt like she didn't need me to protect her anymore, to hold her as she crawled in my bed at night when the thunder got too loud, to protect her from the monsters under her bed and the real ones in the world, she no longer needs me to come to her when she needs someone to talk to, when she needs a shoulder to cry on. When I left 5 years ago, I knew she would be in good hands and didn't need me anymore. Emmett I hope you make my sister the happiest girl on earth. Dress her like a princess but treat her like a queen. Give her everything I can't and be there for her. I wish you all the happiness in the world. To the new, beautiful, happy Mr. and Mrs. Emmett Aaron McCarthy." I looked at Rose and saw tears streaming down her face, "I love you Rosie."

I jump off the stage and start to make my way to the door.

"Jasper" she called out.

"Jasper" she cries out.

I turned around to see her racing towards me with her hands full of her dress. Right behind her was my mom, Emmett, and Bella.

"Jasper I can't believe it's you." She breathes out.

I lift up one side of my mouth to show her a quirky smile, "You think I would miss your wedding day? Never."

She rushed at me with all her dress and jumped on me and gave me a bone crushing hug.

"I missed you so much Jasper. Never leave me like that ever again."

I hugged her just as tight back, "I'm leaving again." I looked up at Bella. "I have something to stay for this time."


A/N: I know. I know. I know you hate me. Everything with school and life has been hectic. To top it all off I was sick out of my mind. I had a fever too close to the danger zone and had to be rushed to the hospital. My son was also sick and I had to take of him while I was sick and also while I was recovering. It was very hectic.

P.S. A Flair For The Dramatic is an album by one of my favorite bands Pierce the Veil. Awesome band.

Thank you everyone who has stuck with me through this. The speeches in this chapter are similar to the ones given at my sister's wedding. Well the first one is kind of the one I gave and second one was given by our older brother.

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