James,
I miss you terribly. Harry's first day wasn't the best. everus took twenty points from Gryffindor.
Harry's friend Luna was taken to the hospital wing.
She hurt her ankel. Something tells me that she
didn't actually hurt her ankel though.
I can see love in her eyes. I don't know if Harry feels
it back for her or not. I don't know if I made the right
decision teaching at Hogwarts this year, hun.
I hope everything's alright at home. Don't over work
Muffits.
I love you,
Lily.
Lily sighed as she attached the letter to her owl and headed for the owlery. Muffits was their house elf. As she walked towards the owlery the train ride went through her mind. It felt so...so...
He
"Professor Potter." Lily nearly jumped out of her skin when she bumped into Severus Snape. How come they had to keep finding their way back to each other? She knew she would see him, but she thought she figured out how she was going to deal with him before she came to Hogwarts.
"Professor Snape." She said back bluntly.
He looked at her through her colds eyes. He was trying so hard to keep his tough composure going, but in front of Lily he just couldn't do that. No one else was around. "I'm sorry I subtracted points from your house." He told her quickly.
Unlike him, Lily did manage to keep her tough composure. "If you'll excuse me, I've written a letter to my husband and would like to send it to him now." She said as she cut around him. "Harry attacked the Slytherins. You had all the right to take points from Gryffindor and give him detention." He added.
Severus didn't walk away from her. Actually, he followed behind her and suddenly his right hand was swiftly around her waist. Lily froze in her spot. He had some bravery to be touching her, especially if James ever found out. James!
"I know it's difficult seeing me again," Lily told him. "Our lives have...have," she stuttered as his hand went down her back to her ass "Changed so much since back then. I have a seventeen year old son. I'm married. You're not a part of my life." She told him hurriedly and moved away from him.
"Our son," Severus corrected. "It can be proven Lily. I love him and he thinks I hate him. It's about time he knows the truth." Lily shook her head. "Yes, Lily, it is. You don't even love James." Severus said as he snatched the letter from her and tore it into pieces. Lily let him pull her close this time and held her breath as he whispered to her, "I haven't been close to any other woman."
"James," Lily said his name, but Severus put his finger to her lips.
"I saw it in your eyes. The same look was there when you saw me last. Don't deny it." Severus told her.
"I'm with James. Harry has believed him to be his father all of his life. Don't take that..."
"Harry!" "Mr. Potter!" Lily and Severus said at the exact same time.
Family's together at last, Severus thought but he knew too well they wouldn't be sticking around.
"Don't you think you lost your house enough points today?" Severus asked.
"Sorry sir. I wanted to write my father. Professor Dumbledore told me I could do so if I was fast." Harry explained himself.
Lily looked at him, thankful that he didn't question why they were lingering in the owlery of all places. She took this as a chance to explain what she was indeed doing there or had planned to do. "I was just about to send your father a note myself. The wind took it over the window though." She explained with a nervous laugh.
Severus looked from Harry to Lily and back again. He wanted oh so badly to tell Harry the truth. Over the years, Harry should have been writing him not James. How would Harry react if he ever did find out that he was his father? Would he give him a chance? Severus nearly growled at himself. He couldn't tell Harry the truth. He couldn't do that to Lily. He only made three promises in his entire life-1. He would let James raise Harry. 2. He was a death eater. 3. He would never let anyone hurt his son or Lily.
"I wish you brought Hermione or Ron out walking with you at this time of night." Lily told Harry. "Or even that girlfriend of yours." She added.
Harry and Severus turned to her. Harry's face was questioning and Severus looked like he could kill. He didn't want anyone dating Harry. Harry's focus had to be on killing his master and he was going to make damn sure it was!
"Mr. Potter, there's no time for that foolishness this year. Your life is on the line and you're off dating Miss Weasley? This is the year that you have to kill you know who and you're going to get yourself killed!" Severus snapped at him.
"Like you'd care," Harry said back.
"Harry!" Lily shouted at him. "Severus, wait," she said when he turned and started walking away.
Harry ignored the two of them and walked over to his owl. His personal life was his own damn business. The school wasn't going to stop him from seeing someone if he wanted. His parents wouldn't even get the opportunity to stop him now. He was an adult and he was living his own life. His mum could follow him wherever she pleased, but he wasn't going to let her have control over what he did.
"What girlfriend?" Harry asked as he tried to tye his letter to a fussy Headwig. "Shush girl." He said to her as he patted her.
"Umm..." Lily tried to remember the girl's name she had seen him with earlier. "Lucy?" She said questioningly. "No, Livia....I think it was Livia."
"Luna Lovegood?" Severus suggested.
Harry looked away from them when Luna's name was brought into this. He wasn't with her yet, but he wished that would changed. Poor Ginny Weasley's heart would break if he asked Luna Lovegood out.
"Yes sir?" Came Luna's soft voice full of curiousity. How did he ever know she was there? She was up sneaking through the hallways by going around statues. She actually even had Harry's invisibility cloak on to cover herself until then. She dropped it from her head while she mumbled under her breath.
"Luna!" Harry exclaimed. "You're supposed to be in the hospital wing. Your ankel." He said as he looked down at her feet. Luna bit her bottom lip when he mentioned her ankle. "And my cloak!" Harry was unable to believe Luna stole that.
"I was only burrowing it," Luna told him simply. "You let your other friends use whatever they want. Am I not a friend Harry?" She asked with a puppy dog face beginning to form on her face. Harry looked away from her only because he couldn't stand that look on her face. Severus clenched his teeth. He didn't like love sick puppy dogs and he didn't want to see Harry fuck up the chances of saving the world. "Have it!" Luna said as she shoved the cloak angrily into Harry's arms.
"We're friends, Luna. It's just I wouldn't have expected you to take something without asking first. Plus, what in the world are you doing out of the hospital wing and sneaking around the corridors? It's the first day and already you're..."
"What are you doing here, Harry?" Luna interrupted him. "You're supposed to be in the common room. It's after curphew."
"He had permission." Severus informed her. "You'll be serving detention as soon as you're out of the hospital wing, Miss. Lovegood. As for now I suggest you be getting back there." He informed her as he lifted his hand and pointed his finger to the hallway.
Harry looked after Luna in confusion. What in the bloody hell was she doing? The first day and she was already wondering around secretly. The girl made him wonder, but he was falling for her anyway. She was like him, different than everyone else, and he loved it.
"The letter, Mr. Potter," Harry looked up at Professor Snape. He had completely forgotten about sending Hedwig off to his dad. He nodded and walked back over. Hedwig flew off after giving her orders.
"I'll see your later Mum, Professor," He said to the two and nodded before starting to head off.
"That's Professor Potter in the school. She's not your Mum in here. She's not going to mother you when something goes wrong. You're seventeen and you're in the real world." Professor Snape told him strictly.
Once they were alone again Severus moved towards Lily again. She didn't bother pulling away. She knew he would keep at her. "I've missed you." She finally whispered to him. "You even saved James." Severus stared at her coldly. "Don't remind me." He muttered wondering if she knew how much he regretted saving James Potter's life. "Harry and me would be dead if it wasn't for you."
"Never say that. You wouldn't have died no matter what I had to do." Severus told her.
Lily looked up at him nervously. "I..." She paused and looked away but Severus lifted her chin back to him with a finger. "I didn't come because I wanted to teach." She confessed quietly. "I want to get to know you again. James is nice, but he could never give me what you did. He didn't save me or Harry. " She whispered feeling extremely guilty.
Severus ran his hand to her cheek. He gently leaned down and kissed her full on the lips. Pulling away just a little he said, "he couldn't, Lily. As much as he tried, he would have never been able to defeat my master."
"Don't call him that!" Lily snapped at him. Severus's other hand found her waist and rested there reassuringly. "He's a monster." She told him as tears welled in her eyes. "And he's going to kill our son." She whispered.
Severus opened his mouth to say something, but closed it again. There was really nothing he could say. Harry was likely going to die that year. The boy didn't have enough strength to kill a man. Severus didn't even want to kill anyone, but he definitely had.
"Lily..."
"I know what's going to happen. I knew all his life. You don't have to lie to me." She interrupted him.
"I don't think he will be able to defeat him right now, but Lily we can train him this year. We need his mind focused on it though and a relationship with Miss Lovegood isn't going to help at all." Severus told her.
"He should be a regular teenager. I'm sick of this. It's not fair, it's just not fair!" Lily said through clenched teeth and Severus reluctantly pulled her close to him.
"I want your permission to tell him the truth, Lily. I think it would make him stronger and I could work with him on this from there." Severus said but Lily shook her head. "Lily, you're going to lose him if not." He told her.
Lily took a deep breath. Harry, Harry, Harry. He was all she could think about. She would give up her life for her son. She slowly forced herself to nod. She would tell James and after that, if Severus was still alive, Severus would tell Harry. Whether Harry liked it or not, his life depended on him known the whole truth.
