Forgotten Passion
Chapter 4
"Run for your life"
Candy was still in her bed thinking about Terry and that kiss. A kiss that had awaken a passion in her body she had no memory off. She had to restrain herself so she wouldn't go back to Terry's suite and make love… but it was the hardest thing in the world for her at that moment. It was now very early in the morning and she couldn't sleep; every time she closed her eyes, she was reliving the kiss. So she called Annie.
- Oh Annie, I don't know what to do! Said Candy.
- Candy calm down, said Annie.
- How's Anthony?
- He's fine; he's playing with Leslie… what happened with Terry?
- He kissed me…
- It's not the first time he kissed you.
- It's the first time he kissed me like that, it was just out of this world!
- You're making me jealous, said Annie laughing.
- It was fantastic Annie!
- So what are you complaining about?
- I'm being cautious…
- Candy, from what you're telling me, that kiss was magnificent, why not let yourself go?
- Because I don't remember!
- Candy, Terry is telling you what happened.
- I want to remember on my own, Annie, or it won't feel real… this is too important…
- Do you want him to leave you alone?
- Of course not!
- There you go!
- I don't remember what happened between us, Annie…if what he's telling me is the truth, why did we separate?
- Why don't you ask him?
- It won't be the same… I need to remember… I need to know why it didn't work out…
- Candy, what does your heart tell you?
- To trust Terry…
- So…?
- So… the first time he chose Susanna, the second time, I don't know what happened, all I know is that I woke up Mrs. Anthony Brown with Anthony Junior in my arms! I need to know what I'm getting myself into this time around… I'm missing big chunks of my memory for me to forget I've slept with Terry! And I was engaged to Anthony! How could I have done that to him?
- You loved Terry more…
- And he was married! What am I? A slut with no morals?
- Come on Candy don't be so hard on yourself… I'm sure there's a logical explanation and you'll get it when you get your memory back…
- I want to come back and see my baby…
- The photo shoot is over and the runway was a success so you can come back whenever you want…
- I'm going to make arrangements to come back…
She thought about Juliet and Terry… She was going to miss them. But she wanted to see her son.
- All right honey, your baby is here having fun… but I'm sure he misses you…, said Annie.
- I hope he won't be too upset I was gone… ok, let me get ready and I'll call you to tell when I'm going to get home…
Candy wanted to disappear before she could see Terry. Luckily, there was a plane leaving in a couple of hours and if she hurried, she could catch it but in coach. She rushed and left the hotel in a cab. She had to leave Paris before she ends up in bed with Terry without knowing how she got there… She completed the formalities, she was now on the plane and missing Terry and Juliet already… but she missed her little Anthony more, and she wanted to see him more than anything. There was a movie on the plane, one of Terry's. At least she could look at him on the screen. Another woman sitting beside her started talking.
- Isn't he just gorgeous? He's my favourite actor… I wish I could meet him. I would've pursued him like crazy until I get in his bed!
Candy looked at the girl and smiled. Women were willing to do anything to get into Terry's bed. All she had to do is say yes, and it would've happened… but she was scared of the intensity of her feeling for Terry, despite her memory loss, the feelings were very violent. Candy closed her eyes and she had dreams about Terry, until she arrived to Chicago. She took a cab to her apartment. She had an apartment despite the fact that she could live in the mansion for free. Candy wanted her privacy far away from the Great Aunt Elroy who was always on her case and who seemed to dislike Anthony's son. She would leave her son in daycare and pick him up after work. Albert and Archie had told her that it wasn't safe for a single mother to leave alone, but she wouldn't listen to them. Thousands of mothers do so everyday. She left her luggage inside her apartment and then she went to the mansion to pick up Anthony. The butler opened the door.
- Miss Candy.
- Hello Winston.
- Welcome back Miss Candy.
- Is everybody there.
- Yes, it's almost dinner time, please come in, Miss Candy.
- Thank you Winston.
Candy got in and she walked to the living room where everybody was sitting and having a drink before dinner.
- Candy! Said Annie standing up to hug her.
- Hey Annie!
- Welcome back!
- Hello Candy, said Albert smiling.
- Hi Albert.
- Hello, French girl! Said Archie smiling.
- Archie… where's Alistair.
- His plane took him to Florida…
- I'm sure he's glad to be in Patricia's city, said Candy.
The Great Aunt entered the living room looking at all of them.
- Hello Aunt Elroy, said Candy.
The Great aunt didn't respond, she just nodded and left the room.
- She loves! Said Candy laughing.
- Gee, you think? Said Albert.
Every body was laughing.
- Are you staying for dinner?
- With the warm welcome I got from the great aunt? Not!
- Come on.
- I just came to pick up Anthony.
- He's asleep, said Archie, you can take him tomorrow. Why wake him up?
- If Anthony is really asleep, the thunder won't wake him up, said Candy. I miss my little boy, I need him.
- Of course, said Annie. Let's go get him for you.
She went upstairs with Annie.
- So, you ran…
- Well I…
- You were afraid to sleep with Terry? Come on Candy what's the worst that could happen? You find yourself loving the great sex.
- Annie!
They burst out laughing.
- His daughter could get too attached to me…
- She needs a mother and Anthony needs a father.
- What are you saying?
- I'm saying if you still love him, just be a blended family!
- Annie, you're crazy! Terry is an actor, he just wants a fling.
- If he wanted just a fling, he wouldn't have introduced you to his daughter…
Candy remained silent. It would be so simple if she could just be with Terry… But her mind was just a blur…. They got to the kids bedroom and Candy walked to her son's bed. He was sleeping like an angel. His baby blond slightly curly hair on the little blue pillow. He had round rosy cheeks. Candy picked him up and hugged him gently after kissing his forehead. She felt better with her baby in her harms. She had tears of joy. Annie gave her the baby's bag and they left the room. They went downstairs.
- Candy, said Albert, you're sure you don't want to stay for dinner?
- I ate on the plane, said Candy, don't worry about me. I just want to go home and sleep. Thank you so much for looking after him, Annie.
- You're welcome anytime, said Annie smiling good night.
- Good night everybody, said Candy smiling.
- Bye Candy, said the others.
Candy left with her baby. She had a little car with a baby seat. She got home put him to bed and he didn't even blink. She was right, her baby was a heavy sleeper. She got ready to go to bed.
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Meanwhile in Paris. Terry woke up gave his little girl a bath and called Candy's suite. There was no answer. He thought she was probably in the bathroom getting ready. He ordered breakfast for Juliet and him.
- Daddy, did you call Candy?
- Yes, I did, but she wasn't answering her phone.
- Maybe she's still asleep… we probably made her tired last night.
- Maybe, now eat your breakfast.
- Yes, daddy…
When they finished their breakfast. They tried Candy's room again and there was still no answer. Terry had a bad feeling, so he called the reception and they told him that Candy had checked out.
"She left! Great! I chased her away! Now Juliet is going to miss her…why did she run? We could've make it work this time around…" He thought
There was a playgroup for children in the hotel, so Terry sent Juliet there. That would give him a few hours before he could break the news to her that Candy had left.
"Freckles, why did you leave? I would've never forced myself on you! I just needed a little more time, to convince you, like the first time…"
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After a night of making love, they were both in the bathroom taking a bath and having fun… they were kissing so much, that they got out of there 3 hours later. They ordered room service and had a very late and heavy breakfast. Then they made love again. Candy stood up to get dressed. Terry was looking at her.
- Freckles, we need to talk.
- Terry, please, let's not ruin what we have with talking, let's just have fun…
- Candy, we need to think about the future.
- I didn't ask you for anything… I just want to live the moment.
- Candy…
- No Terry, please…
- Just live the moment, and what you go back to Chicago and marry Anthony?
- That's a thought.
- After what happened between us?
- Why not?
- You came here, met me gave me your virginity and now you want to go back to Anthony?
- Terry, I don't know what I'm going to do…but I have to go back to Chicago eventually…
- Why did you give yourself to me?
- Well … I wanted to know what it was like…
- With me?
- Yes, with you, the former love of my life…
- Candy, I'm offering you a future with me.
- Terry, don't make promises you can't keep like the first time.
- This is not like the first time, this time I have no secret…
- Unlike the first time, you kept Susanna's accident from me… do you know what it did to me to find that out during the intermission from the mouth of some gossiping women? I wanted to see her to tell her not to use her injury to hold on to you…
- I…
- And getting to the hospital, finding her room empty, finding her on the roof and saving her realising that she had actually got her leg cut off… seeing you come and get her, seeing the pain in your eyes… You took her in your arms and left me there on the roof… did you know how hurt I was how lonely and useless I felt.
- You had just saved Susanna's life, you weren't useless, Candy… I'm sorry I left you there, I didn't know what to tell you… carrying Susanna; she was so light, but it felt like I was carrying lead, because I was now linked to her for good…
- Terry, leaving you to Susanna was the hardest thing I've ever had to do… I still can't believe I actually did it…I was dying inside when you caught up with me on those awful stairs… I wanted to stay with you so much… I tried getting over you… Anthony was great, but marrying him doesn't feel right… because he's not you!
- You got me now, Candy. Marry me… let's be together…
- You remember in the bible that prophet who went to see that woman who treated him so good, he told her she was going to have a child, because she was childless? She told him "man of God, don't lie to me. Did I ask you for anything?" I'm telling you the same thing, Terry; did I ask you for anything? Don't lie to me…
- Candy, this time it's real. We're going to be together and we're going to have our children…
Candy was crying looking at Terry. He was saying everything she wanted him to say. But for some reason, she was still hesitating… it seemed to good to be true…
- Terry, no please, leave me alone… I don't want you to disrupt my life again.
- This time it's real Candy… marry me, not Anthony come on Candy… say you'll marry me…
- Terry I want to marry you more than anything… the last time I let myself believe that we were going to be together for good… I got burned…
She was crying.
- Don't cry my love, I'm here and we're going to be together forever.
Candy was thinking that as long as Susanna was alive, she would never have peace with Terry, and they had a little girl, which meant that Terry would have to keep contact with her… Terry took her in his arms and kissed her tears away.
- I love you and only you, he said, please give us another chance… I've never felt what I'm feeling with you with another woman…You're the best sex I've ever had… I want to make love to you everyday…
- Terry… maybe you only desire me, maybe it's just lust…
- With you? No… if anything, with you I'm actually making love for the first time in my life…because you're the only woman I've ever love...
- Oh Terry, I love you too, she said crying, but…
- Candy, life is full of risks… let's do this…
Candy looked at him. She had given herself to him and what she felt was beyond her expectations. She wanted him everyday too…it felt right, so right…so real.
Feel - feel - feel -
I feel so real
I feel so real
I feel so real and I owe it all to you.
Oh
I feel so nice with you here by my side.
If I just do the best
that I can do it seems that's enough for you.
The little things mean so much
a smile or a joyful touch
That push that keeps me going strong to know that I belong
and I feel so real
I feel so real
Love is such a wonderful thing
the angels sing and freedom reigns
Freedom from the chains that hold us back from harmony.
I'm right here on my knees to thank you
for the air that I breath.
I thank you for the life that you have saved
That's why I've got to say:
Feel so real
I feel so real
Feel so real
feel so real
feel so real
Feel so real
feel so real
feel so real.
Candy, who was in Terry's arms, lifted her head and kissed him.
- All right Terry, I'll trust you again, she said.
- I love you Candy
- I love you Terry
They made love to seal their deal, their new future together. After that they became inseparable. Terry was spending every single night in her suite, they would spent their days together. It was paradise. They were going to be together for the rest of their lives.
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Terry closed his eyes. Candy was gone, so he was going to go back to America too. He made the arrangements to take the next plane out of Paris. Juliet came back from her playgroup.
- Daddy, can you call Candy now?
- Honey, Candy had to leave very early this morning, her little boy needed her.
Juliet's face became pale, she was extremely sad and tears started pearling in her eyes.
- She left? Like mommy left?
- No, not like mummy, your mummy is in heaven baby… but don't worry we can call her and we can go see her when we go back to America…
- When are we going back?
- How about tonight?
- That's great daddy! Can we go see her right away?
- Well we live in New York, she lives in Chicago…
- So?
Terry smiled looking at his daughter. Everything is always so simple for children.
- So, we'll see what we can do…now can you help me pack your stuff?
Terry called for room service and two maids came to help them pack their luggage. A few hours later Terrence Grandchester and his daughter was in first class going back to the United States.
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Candy went back to work at Annie's agency and she would pick up Anthony from daycare and go back home. She would sometimes go to the mansion to have dinner. It had been two weeks since her return from Paris and she missed Terry and Juliet so much.
Albert would come and see her some evening to make sure she was fine.
- Albert, you don't need to come and check on me all the time.
- I worry about you…
- You don't need to… I'm fine.
- What happened in Paris?
- Why are you asking me that?
- I know you… something happened to make you come back so quickly.
- I missed my son and I wanted to be with him.
Which was the truth; she missed Anthony, but it was torture for her to leave Terry and Juliet too… life was complicated!
- Come on Candy, said Albert.
- Well all right… I saw Terry.
- Oh…
Albert turned around and he walked to the living window. Candy looked at him surprised.
- Albert, I've never asked what happened to me… Apparently I've met him in Paris and we had a fling or a thing, while I was engaged to Anthony and he was married… Do you know anything about that?
- I only know what Anthony told me…
- What did he say?
- That you had to do some soul searching before the wedding, you went to Paris, you met Terry…
- And…?
- You came back to marry Anthony…
- That's it? Are you sure there was nothing else?
- That's all I know… that's all Anthony told me. He was very secretive. He didn't want to tell us that you've been with another man before marrying him… he loved you he was protecting you…
- Even though I was slut and I gave my virginity to another man? Oh my God! Said Candy upset.
- I'm sorry Candy; I didn't want to upset you. You must've had your reasons for doing what you did…
- This is so confusing…
- Did you ask Terry…
- He told me some things, but I'm refusing to believe it… how could I've cheated on Anthony with a married man on top of that!?
- I don't have any answers for you little one, said Albert hugging her, whatever you did, you know you can come to me for anything right?
- I know that. Thank you so much Albert…
- I love you.
- I love you too, dad! Said Candy hugging him back.
Albert stayed for a while then he left after making sure she was fine with Anthony after dinner.
The next day, Candy came back from picking up her little boy from daycare and she arrived in front of her apartment and she saw a man wearing a hat and black glasses. She got scared at first, who could be waiting for her in front of her door like that. The building is supposed to have the latest technology in security. She had her little boy in her arms with some grocery bags in another hand.
- Can I help you? She said.
The man turned around.
- Finally! Where the hell have you been? Said Terry.
- Well hello to you too! Said Candy.
Terry approached her and he took the baby and the groceries, while Candy looked for her keys to open her apartment door… They all got in. Terry walked to the kitchen with the grocery bags, still holding the baby in his arms. Candy looked at him.
- Terry, this is Anthony, said Candy, Anthony, this is Terry, say "hi".
- Hi! Said the baby laughing.
- Hello little man, said Terry with a smile, he looks like you with .
- Thanks, said Candy smiling.
Candy gave Anthony a chocolate bar, he was all happy, but he got very dirty eating it. She was putting the groceries away.
- I came to see you for Juliet, he said.
- For Juliet? Said Candy, is that so?
- She misses you so much, she wants to see you …
- I just came back from a day at work…
- Candy please, Juliet got attached to you more than I could've imagined!
Candy looked at Terry. She wanted him to say that he had missed her too.
- So I came here to pick you up, so we can go see her together…
- In New York? She said.
- No, here in Chicago. My mother has a mansion here…
- Your mother? Eleonor Baker?
- Yes, she had an accident on set, so she's taking some time off moving making…
- Here in Chicago?
- Yes. I have a job directing a theatre Hathaway purchased not too long ago…
- The fact that I live in Chicago is just a pure coincidence?
- Of course not, Candy. Juliet loves you, I want you and my mother loves you too. I'm sure she would love to meet your son and Juliet is eager to see him too… if you don't come with me tonight, she's going to have a nervous breakdown. Please Candy… you ran away.
- I didn't ran, I just needed to see my son… I missed him.
- You could've said goodbye, or ask me to come back with you…
"No I couldn't, because I was running from you..." thought Candy.
- I'm sorry, said Candy, I didn't mean to upset Juliet.
- What about me? You think I wasn't upset to find out that you disappeared on me?
- Well you have a weird way of showing it, yelling at me when I arrived, she said with a soft voice.
Terry looked at her. He put Anthony down and he walked to the kitchen and hugged her hard. Then he looked for her lips and kissed her softly and gently, since Anthony was there.
- I miss you Freckles, he said softly.
- I missed you too…
- Now can we go see Juliet? Or honestly, I will bring her here to be with you, because I cannot take another night of her crying for you!
- All right, said Candy smiling. Let me go get this little fellow clean first.
Anthony had chocolate all over his face and his clothes. Candy took him and went to the bathroom. Anthony like most babies, hated getting water on his face, so he screamed his lungs out. She washed his hands then she changed his clothes. Then she took him in the living room and gave him to Terry.
- I thought you were strangling him by the way he was screaming…
- He just hates getting his face washed, said Candy, I'm be right back. Let me go change.
- You look fine.
- I'm not meeting your mother in this outfit, said Candy going to her room.
She changed and put on some dressed pants, a white silk shirt with a blazer on top. She had her hair in a bun. Terry looked at her.
- You look old, he said.
- Gee thanks! Said Candy.
He approached her and took her bobby pins off her hair and it fell on her shoulders.
- What are you doing? She asked stunned, Terry!
- Now you look your age, he said smiling, now let's go. Or my mother is going to have a nervous breakdown baby sitting Juliet if we don't get there soon.
Candy picked up a few toys and put them in her bag and followed Terry outside who had Anthony in his arms. He was smiling and talking to him and making funny faces. Anthony was laughing out loud. Terry had made another conquest. Why wasn't she surprised?
