Chapter 4
This chapter is going to be in Rachel's POV. I'm doing this so my readers can get a feel of how Rachel is thinking and feeling. Especially after the last chapter. I don't own Glee.
I'm not the most popular person at this school. Far from it even in spite of having the star footballer as my boyfriend. It doesn't bother me too much though. I may only have a few friends but they are good friends, true friends, and that is more than I can say for most of the people in this school.
When I walked into school one morning, my best friend Kurt was waiting for me. He waits for me every morning, usually with my other best friend, Brittany Pierce but, due to the fact that she is on holiday, it's only Kurt at the moment.
"Hey gorgeous." he greeted, giving me a kiss on the cheek. "How are you on this fine morning?" he asked happily.
"I'm fine. You seem rather chirpy this morning. Oh, my dads have asked me to invite you to dinner at my house tonight. You know how much they love you." I said, laughing.
"Consider it done. And the feeling is mutual, your parents are everything I want for myself when I finally settle down. A loving, legal marriage, a nice home and good jobs and not forgetting, a beautiful daughter."
"Yep, and they're aware that your idolize them. I think that's why your invited around so much, they get a free confidence boost every time the see you. Anyway, you never answered my question, why are you so happy?" I asked him again.
"Nothing major. I'm just having a good day so far." he told dejectedly. This may not have sounded like a big deal but, as you may have already caught on, Kurt is gay and this causes him to get a lot of ridicule for it. For him to be having a good day was very good.
"Why do you sound so sad then?" I asked him, worridly.
"Because I know it isn't going to last. I'm not that niave and neither sound you be darling." he said, slinging an arm around my waist. No sooner had he said this that we saw the unholy trinity walking towards us, Tina Cohen-Chang, their leader, leading her two team mates towards us. What was worse, they have slushies in their hands. As they got closer, I gripped on tighter to Kurt and closed my eyes as I was covered in ice-cold slushie.
"Good morning freak." Mercedes sneered in my ear as she walked past. God, I hated her.
"Told you." Kurt whispered bitterly before leading me back to my locker so I could get my spare clothes. Then he took me to the bathroom.
I wasn't slushied again that day, thank god, and now I am sitting in my safe haven, Glee club. Even though I'm still not the most popular person, it's something that I love to do so this is the one place where I put up with it.
"Rachel?" I turned and sat Quinn Fabray sitting with her boyfriend.
"Yes Quinn?" I asked tentatively.
"Artie and I were wondering if you wanted to come out with us tomorrow for a double date?" Quinn was a friend. Not a great one but a friend nonetheless. Not like Brittany or Kurt. We had more of a love/hate thing.
"That sounds like fun. Ask Finn though but I'm in," I told them both enthusiastically. They both smiled and nodded. Mr. Schue came in seconds later and informed us of a new student that would be joining us. I kind of stopped listening after this, however, when he walked in, I started to pay full attention. He was gorgeous. He had a full head of black hair and full lips. He wasn't that tall from what I could tell, maybe only a couple of inches taller than me. He was wearing coloured chino's, cut just above the ankle and a coloured, fitted shirt with a bright coloured bow tie. His hair was parted to the side and gelled. He was perfect. I then remembered Finn and regained my composure. This wasn't like me. I am a good girl and I was going to try and be a good girl.
"Come on then, give me the gossip." Kurt said, as he plonked down on my bed next to me. We'd just finished dinner with my daddies and we'd gone to my room to have some privacy and to talk.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, trying to hide a blush.
"That new guy that started in Glee today…..what's his name?" he asked, tapping a finger to his chin.
"Blaine." I said automatically, and instantly winced.
"See. I knew it." he said, smiling.
"What do you mean?" I asked, trying to feign innocence.
"I know you and I know that you have been thinking about him all day. Otherwise, you wouldn't have told me his name so quickly." he said, with a knowing glint in his eye.
"I have a boyfriend. I don't care if I fancy Blaine. First of all, I don't know if he fancies me, and second, I'm not the kind of girl that breaks up with a boy so they can date another boy straight away."
"Listen honey, I love Finn, he's my step bother, but no-one would blame you if you broke up with him."
"No way!" I said, appalled. "I love Finn. That's it. I don't want to talk about this anymore. Let's watch a film instead."
"But, you're into her, right?" Puck asked.
"Of course I am. How can anyone not be? She's gorgeous. She has the longest legs I've ever seen and her body is perfect even if she decides to hide it under all those clothes."
"We get it, you like her, he said laughing.
Kurt and I are standing behind Blaine, Sam, Puck and Artie and I'm trying my hardest not too blush. Kurt keeps nudging me in the side to grinning like a Cheshire cat. Ever since we'd had 'that' conversation a couple of days before, Kurt had kept bugging me about it, mostly making silly faces at me whenever we saw him walking the hallways and I had tried to ignore both him and Blaine. It was starting to wear me down though.
"Told you that he liked you." Kurt boasted as we walked into the choir room. Before we sat down, I looked up and smiled at Blaine who was a few rows up behind me.
"Ok fine, but it doesn't change…." I then heard a high pitched scream coming from the door. I turned towards the door and saw Brittany. I ran to her and hugged her tight. I'd missed her so much since she'd been away.
"I'm so glad you're back. How was your holiday?" I asked her excitedly. I then looked behind her. "And where is Jesse?"
"He's at home, recovering from the jet lag so he'll probably be in tomorrow. I couldn't wait to see my best friend though so I wanted to come in for Glee."
"Oh, that's clever. Coming in for Glee but missing the rest of the day? How can you stay so smart if you're missing school?" I teased.
"It's a gift I guess." she giggled. "Come on, let's go and sit down. I want all the gossip from Kurt."
Glee wasn't that interesting. I heard Blaine sing for the first time though and after hearing him sing, it was only going to become harder for me to resist him. His voice was exquisite and I just knew that our voice would blend so well together. It turned me on when I heard him sing.
I sang too, I always sang but this time I sang with Brittany too. Sort of a welcome back for her.
Brittany:
Hello, hello, baby, you called
I can't hear a thing
I have got no service
In the club, you say, say
Wha-wha-what did you say?
Are you breakin' up on me
Sorry I cannot hear you I'm kinda busy
Rachel:
K-Kinda busy, k-kinda busy
Sorry I cannot hear you I'm kinda busy
Just a second
It's my favorite song they're gonna play
And I cannot text you with a drink in my hand, eh
You should've made some plans with me
You knew that I was free
And now you won't stop calling me
I'm kinda busy
Brittany:
Stop callin', stop callin'
I don't wanna think anymore
Rachel:
I left my head and my heart on the dancefloor
Brittany:
Stop callin', stop callin'
I don't wanna talk anymore
Rachel:
I left my head and my heart on the dancefloor
(Background singers) Brittany:
(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: Stop telephonin' me)
(Stop telephonin' me) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: I'm busy)
(I'm busy) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: Stop telephonin' me)
(Stop telephonin' me) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: Oh!)
Can call all you want but there's no one home
And you're not gonna reach my telephone (Rachel: Ohh!)
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sipping that bubb
Rachel and Brittany:
And you're not gonna reach my telephone! (Rachel: Oh!)
Brittany:
Call all you want, but there's no one home
And you're not gonna reach my telephone (Rachel: Hey-hey!)
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sipping that bubb
Rachel and Brittany:
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
Brittany:
Boy, the way you blowing up my phone
Won't make me leave no faster
Put my coat on faster
Leave my girls no faster
I should've left my phone at home
'Cause this is a disaster
Calling like a collector
Sorry, I cannot answer
Not that I don't like you
I'm just at a party
And I am sick and tired of my phone r-ringing
Rachel (Background singers):
Sometimes I feel like I live in grand central station
(Tonight I'm not takin' no calls 'cause I'll be dancin')
Dancin' (I'll be dancin')
Dancin' (I'll be dancin')
Tonight I'm dancin' (Tonight I'm not takin' no calls; 'Cause I'll be dancin')
Brittany:
Stop callin', stop callin'
I don't wanna think anymore
Rachel:
I left my head and my heart on the dancefloor
Brittany:
Stop callin', stop callin'
I don't wanna talk anymore
Rachel:
I left my head and my heart on the dancefloor
Brittany:
Stop callin', stop callin'
I don't wanna think anymore
Rachel:
I left my head and my heart on the dancefloor
Brittany:
Stop callin', stop callin'
I don't wanna talk anymore
Rachel:
I left my head and my heart on the dancefloor
(Background singers) Brittany:
(Stop telephonin' me) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: Stop telephonin' me)
(I'm busy) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: I'm busy)
(Stop telephonin' me) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh (Rachel: Stop telephonin' me)
(I'm busy) Eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh
Can call all you want but there's no one home
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sipping that bubb
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
Call all you want, but there's no one home
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sipping that bubb
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
Background singers:
My telephone
My-my-my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sippin that bubb
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
My telephone
My-my-my telephone
'Cause I'm out in the club and I'm sippin that bubb
And you're not gonna reach my telephone
Brittany:
(We're sorry, we're sorry, the number you have reached is not in service at this time. Please check the number or try your call again)
At the end of the lesson, I told Brittany and Kurt that I would see them the next day. I also told Quinn and Artie that I would see them at Breadstix later that night and I gave Finn a kiss goodbye. I then waited for Blaine.
"I know." I told him promptly as soon as we were left alone. "I know that you like me. And I need to tell you that you're wasting your time. I love Finn and that's the way it's going to stay." I told him warningly.
"You like me. That's enough for me." then Blaine left before I had a chance to say anything. God, he was infuriating sometimes.
I didn't see him for another couple of days after I tried to convince him that I wasn't into him. Not that he'd listened to me. He was still convinced I was, I obviously didn't hide my feelings as well as I thought. The next time I saw him, he was pulling me into an empty classroom and he was after the same thing from me. Although this time I couldn't keep up the pretences anymore. So I told him the truth. I told him it didn't matter though and I still loved Finn and that was the way it was going to stay. I walked out before he could try and convince me otherwise. He probably would have succeeded. It didn't help that every single second I spent with him - alone, no less - all I wanted to do was jump his bones.
"Hey babe." as soon as I stepped out the door, Finn was there. I tried to regain my composure as seeing Blaine had left me feeling nervous and confused.
"Hi." I said, giving him a smile and a small kiss.
"Are you ok?" he asked questionably. He took hold of my hand and furrowed his eyebrows.
"I'm fine Finn. Why would anything be wrong?" I said in a rush. He didn't look convinced. 'Get ahold of yourself Rachel! You're supposed to be an actress!' I mentally scolded myself. Thankfully my boyfriend was a little slow so he didn't notice.
"Okay babe. Lets go to lesson." he said, giving me another kiss on the lips and leading me in the direction of my first class. When I got there, I went and sat in my usual place next to Kurt and Finn went to sit at the back of the class with his football friends.
"Did you have a good time with Artie and Quinn yesterday?" he asked, as soon as I'd sat down.
"It was good. We had a nice night. We went for dinner and then we went bowling. Artie and Quinn are such a nice couple. I never really noticed before." I gushed.
"I hope I haven't lost my best friend?" he asked. He was smiling though, so I was pretty sure he knew the answer.
"Yeah right, you and Brittany will always be my best friends. We'll still be visiting each other when we're old and grey." I giggled.
"That's the idea." he smiled.
I saw Blaine again at lunch. I was sitting with Kurt, Finn, Jesse and Brittany and he was sitting with Artie, Sam and Puck.
"Stop making it so obvious. You keep staring at him and Finn is sitting right next to you." Kurt whispered to me when I stared at Blaine one too many times.
"Sorry." I apologised quickly and turned back to the conversation.
"So, Rachel, I heard that you and Finn went on a date with Artie and Quinn yesterday. How did it go?" Jesse asked.
"It was great. We went to dinner and then went bowling. It was nice to hang out with other people from Glee club." I said, smiling widely. I was about to carry on about my 'date' when I saw Brittany's face fall. "What?" I asked her.
"Do you prefer Quinn to me?" she asked, her bottom lip wobbling.
"Seriously? You've got to be kidding me. You're my best friend. I'm always going to prefer hanging out with you than anyone else. You are Kurt are my best friends." I repeated passionately. "Tell her Jesse."
"Brits, you have nothing to worry about. No one can get in between you and Rachel. Trust me, I've been on the outside for almost four years." he told Brittany sweetly, chuckling.
Brittany seemed to accept this explanation and gave Jesse a kiss on the lips, just a small one but I could see that it was filled with fire. "I love you." Brittany mumbled against his lips. This seemed to give Finn some ideas.
"Do you know, I love you too." Finn whispered to me.
"Me too." I told him truthfully. I wasn't lying to Finn. It was just that I was confused. I didn't no what I wanted. I was comfortable with Finn and I loved him. He made me laugh. Blaine stirred something in my loins that I'd never felt before, even when I first started dating Finn and even though I didn't want to admit it, passion was winning out over love for me at the moment.
"You are the greatest thing to happen to me in a long time." he said affectionately and gave me a passionate kiss. The kiss was fiery and I could feel it all the way in the pit of my stomach. Talk about passion. Just when I thought Finn and I were out of passion and goes and does something like that, sending my theory straight out of the window. Fuck!
"Guys, some of us are trying to eat. Finn, stop trying to eat her." I heard Jesse bellow at us. Kurt and Brittany started laughing and I giggled into the kiss but continued to kiss him. "I'm going to go and sit with the guys. See you later babe." Jesse told Brittany. He gave her a peck on the lips and then left.
"You've got rid of him now, you can stop." Brittany said with a sigh.
"Sorry Brits. It wasn't my intention to get rid of Jess." I told her truthfully, using my nickname for Jesse.
The rest of lunch consisted of clothes, hair and make-up. A subject that bored Finn to no end. I tried my best to not think of Blaine but at one point I looked over at their table and saw him with the unholy trinity. Mercedes was draped all over Puck and then I saw Sugar trying to drape herself all over Blaine. I don't know why but it disgusted me. I wanted to go over there and pull her off of him and tell her that no-one was allowed to touch my stuff. Then I realised what I'd said. Blaine wasn't my property, I'd turned him down. I hardly ever felt jealous and right now, with the way I was feeling, all I wanted to do was go over there and drag Blaine to an abandoned classroom and have my way with him.
"Rachel did you hear me?" Brittany pulled me out of my thoughts.
"Sorry, what?" I said apologetically and tried to hide my blush.
"Me and Kurt are planning a girl's night in. Have a facial, a mani-pedi and then have a movie night. What do you think?" she asked excitedly.
"That sounds like fun. What about doing it this weekend. We could use the whole day that way. Go out shopping first and then have our spa and movie night. What do you think?"
"Yes!" Kurt said loudly. "I approve that idea."
"Great. I can pick you both up if you like?" I asked.
"Thanks Rach." Brittany said brightly.
Mr. Schue had organised an assignment for us - the 80's. None of my team mates seemed interested so I tried to give them a pep talk. A pep talk that fell on deaf ears as per usual so Blaine got up and had a go. When this didn't work, he volunteered us both to sing - together! This was going to be a challenge. As the music started, I instantly knew what it was - Don't you want me baby - he'd clearly planned this. Singing together made me realise how well our voices blended together. I used to think that Finn and I had the best voices when it came to duets - At least as far as being the two leads are concerned - now it seemed like Blaine would be better suited to that role. He turned me on so much during the song and I hated that he could make me wet just by singing.
By the end of the song, I knew what I wanted to do, so when the lesson finished, I said goodbye to Finn, who went to football practice, and waited outside of the room for Blaine. Before I even had a chance to tell him what I wanted, he got in there first, telling me that I deserved to be with someone I wanted to be with because it was my senior year.
"Shut up for a minute and actually listen to what I wanted to say. Please." I interrupted.
"Go on then."
I then procedded to tell him about when I'd seen him at lunch and felt so jealous of Sugar and how I felt like she was touching something of mine. I neglected to tell him about wanting to take him to an empty room and fuck his brains out. Mainly because the mere thought of it affected me in more ways that one.
One: it wasn't like me to talk like this. I#m not a sex-crazed person. I might not have been a virgin but I never talked like this about someone I wasn't dating.
Two: he might have actually agreed to me doing something like that. That isn't something I needed to know because I may not have been able to stop myself if there was a next time
"Wow, I kind of like this side of you. It kind of turns me on." he said after my speech. I wouldn't have admitted it to him, but it made me wet to know he was turned on by me.
"Shush." I instantly scolded to hide the fact that I was turned on too just by being near him. "When we sang, it only made the attraction stronger for me." I said, gradually moving closer and closer to me.
"There's just one problem then, isn't there?" he told me.
"Finn?" I whispered, getting closer and closer. "I no, but I can't help myself." I then reached up and kissed, without even really realising what I was doing, but I instantly made it passionate. It took me a little longer than I'm ashamed to mention before I realised what I was I doing. I intended to stop myself right away but I then realised that I didn't want to. Never mind being able to feel Finn's kisses in the pit of my stomach, I could feel Blaine's all the way down to the bottom of my toes. I started to roam his body with my hands both over and then under his clothes. Only on the top half even though my body was screaming at me to go lower. His 'friend' that was sticking out certainly seemed to agree. He was squeezing my hips so tightly so I knew, had his friend not stuck out to say hello and made it all the more obvious, that he was turned on more than he was letting on. He then started to kiss me jaw line before moving onto my neck and I couldn't help the noises of pleasure of delight that escaped my throat. It was over all too soon however, when he pulled away. I tried to catch my breath and touched my lips. I realised that they were swollen and I could still feel his lips on mine.
"I want you. But I want Finn too." I realised when he asked me what I was doing. I couldn't deny it any longer.
So, this is a little longer than my other chapters but to be fair, I had to fit all three chapters into it. I hope you enjoyed and I hope it gave an insight into Rachel's thought. Next chapter will be back to Blaine's POV most likely and unless it is asked for, I may not do another Rachel POV chapter. R&R
