My OC is only in this story so I have a character to have complete control over…

Chapter Four - Big Girls Don't Cry - Completely Kyou/Kagura with another flashback! I love Flashbacks!

Kagura looked down at the pools of water that formed from the rain that had just dropped from the sky. It matched the girl though made her a little jealous after she had been taught that big girls don't cry even if she wanted to she couldn't break a promise to her mother. She phoned her mother just after college and she said that she shouldn't be upset over Kyou and remember that tune that she sung to her when she was younger.

The sky was dark, cloudy and around her was mist. Her gray eyes were now hard and full of misery and sadness. The concealment of tears caused her eyes to go red as she tried so hard to not let them drop. She looked over to one of the sakura trees that were in the park - the tree that she talked to Haru under and the tree that the truth came out under.

Kyou was now very desperate he called around to the main house and they said that Kagura had left after a phone call that made her act really weird. He looked around and found himself in the park. He didn't know how he got there or what made him decide to go there but he found himself there all the same. He wanted to apologize to her. Even if what he said was the truth he still felt totally rotten and hated himself for her - this was new for him seeing as he wouldn't have usually care about this; about Kagura.

When he saw the girl sitting on the bench with the look of confusion and sadness he felt completely heartless and terrible. He ran a hand through his orange hair making it messy; he for some reason didn't like it when it was perfect… weird though. He ran up to the bench and skidded to a stop and looked into her eyes…

"Kagura." The only word he could muster with the exhaustion taking the rest of his words.

Kagura didn't seem to realize that Kyou was there. Lost in thoughts and lost in mind. She dropped her body so she would lye on the bench. Kagura never heard Kyou so she never knew that he was there. She wanted to cry even more and now wanted more than anything Kyou to hold her and say that he was sorry and maybe just maybe tell her that he loved her but that was not going to happen… she had remembered the talk she had with Kisa… the talk about how she was feeling after Kyou dumped her - Kisa was so nice and caring - Kisa was like a sister to Kagura even if she was her cousin.

Flashback

She knew about Kyou's hideout on the school rooftop for ages... she just didn't know when to approach him. Sure at the cafe she totally hadn't expected that to happen or for that to happen. She thought he would have just left after she started crying. Kagura remembered when she climbed up on the roof about an hour ago - it was cold and looked like it was going to rain but she only wanted to see if he was there and when he wasn't she couldn't help but stay up there. Kagura didn't even know what she would have said if he was there - but she did know that for some reason. She was able to control her anger.

Kisa - Climbed up the ladder carefully, she had been looking for someone to talk to and so she had come to where she could see everyone. Upon reaching the top of the usual place she went her dark gaze landed on Kagura. Walking over she sat down beside her timidly.

"Are you okay Kagura?" the young tiger asked.

"Oh, Kisa... yeah I'm fine..." Kagura replied surprised to see the other Souma. Her reply was a little lowly toned but she hoped Kisa heard it. It was rather windy. "How are you?" Kagura hoped that her eyes weren't puffy or red any longer. She wouldn't know what she would do if she was asked why she was crying.

"No offence...but you don't exactly look okay Kagura-Chan" the young Tiger replied. The emotion of sympathy along with confusion swept over her facial features. Kagura wasn't herself and she knew that. But she wasn't sure whether she should pursue and see what it was that was wrong.

"I'm alright, I had a little shock... that's all." She said moving brown strands of hair out of her dim brown eyes. Little, it was hardly little... more like big.

"I won't pry" she replied calmly and looked out to the playground "But I can listen if you want to talk"

That was one thing Kisa was good at, listening - mainly because she didn't talk that often. Ginger strands of hair blowing in the way of her deep brown eyes. Watching the sky, relaxed.

"That's just what I need!! Someone that's good at listening!" She smiled. "It all started when I talked to Kyou at the cafe." Her gaze at the mention of the cat's name strolled outwards at the playground.

Sitting, cross-legged, to face her the Tiger nodded and motioned for Kagura to carry on. This may of been the reason Kyou was rather annoyed earlier. Clutching her furry tiger key chain tightly in her left hand the girl's brown orbs followed Kagura's gaze and then returned to her as the ginger bangs blew softly in the wind.

"Well he ran away at first... I followed him... I only caught up with him after he fell over the fire hydrant..." She gave a small laugh. "I went to see if he was alright, I pinned him down so he wouldn't run away and he told me that if I never attacked him he wouldn't run away so I helped him up. Then he took me back to the cafe." It was funny when he fell over though - the face fault...

"What happened at the cafe?" Listening, piecing things together in her head, brown eyes closed and she thought about it, her ears still listening. Her headache was just about to get worse. But she'd put up with it - to help a friend.

"We started talking, he asked me how I'd been, I said that I had an interesting chat with Haru and helped Tohru with her skating... then asked him how he was. His reply was normal until he was interested about the chat that Haru and I had." Kagura replied. "I said that we talked about stuff and he shouted at me - so I told him about what Haru and I talked about."

Her eyes dimmed even more - this was where it got strange...

Moving one hand from her lap to timidly touch her arm, in comfort Kisa frowned in confusion.

"It's okay Kagura-Chan… I'm here"

"Well he never shouted at me about what I said but he rolled his eyes and said 'Kagura I do like you... But to be honest with you I don't like you I that way and personally I think we are better off just as friends'" She said to Kisa.

"That was when I felt really bad and matter how much I wanted to hurt him, I was able for once to control my anger... but I did start to cry."

"Oh Kagura-Chan…." Kisa said gently that was the reason, Kyou seemed a lot more angry that usual during his fight with Haru...well, Black Haru, and that must of been the reason. Either that or Kyou's temper wasn't improving. Deep brown eyes watched her friend closely as ginger bangs blew about in the wind.

"The thing that shocked me the most was that he then hugged me and I said about how much Haru was wrong about what he told me and he then said 'Kagura I do believe that I loved you at one point but that time has passed I also think that I'm not really ready to be in a relationship right now' and kissed my forehead." Kagura said. She looked back at Kisa. This was probably not what she wanted to hear.

"And… how are you feeling about it?" Despite whether the girl wanted to hear it or not she couldn't bear to see her usual happy friend sad, she didn't like anyone being sad...or angry. And so she was going to attempt to help...if she could.

"The thing is I don't know what I feel... I want to cry and I want to kill him. Yet that was the first time he made me feel happy again - the first time in a while that he treated me like he treated me like we were younger." Kagura said when her concealed tears started to slide out from the corner of her eyes.

"I only wanted to make him happy. I felt like I had to make him happy - but I wanted to be happy too, and I feel like I can only be happy with him." She said.

Kisa paused for a moment

"I bet Kyou feels really bad and he wants to be friends Kagura-Chan." she said hopelessly "It'll be alright in the end, it has to be" She nodded, her belief being that everything had to be alright in the end, it had to be. Cause darkness and sadness can't rule your life forever.

"You know, I hope your right." Kagura said wiping tears away. "Yet, I guess you probably know best..." The younger girl shook her head.

"Not always, but I give advise it's up to you to decide whether to take it or not. Don't worry about it Kagura-Chan. Please? I can't bear to see you sad" Kagura pulled Kisa closer to her and gave her a small hug.

"I'll listen to your advice, Kisa." She said looking up to the sky that looked like it was going to start raining from. Hugging the depressed girl bag the young Tiger looked upwards and shook her head as something wet fell on her nose. Rain. Kisa hated rain.

"Thank you Kagura-Chan"

End Flashback

Kyou saw the sadness in her face and he honestly felt sorry. This was a rare occurrence for him. Have course it could have had something to do with the rain... it always sapped him of his energy, yet somehow he managed to speak.

"Kagura... I... I'm sorry. I didn't realize I was being so heartless... you know how I am, I don't think about things before i say them... I'm a bastard... please forgive me." Kyou said this weakly and he kneeled before her he knew the chances of her forgiving him were very slim... he wanted to scream but he couldn't muster the energy. He knew it he was heartless... yet he wished the things he had said could be undone. "Kagura..." He said again and stared into her face wanting her to respond he was desperate for it

For that one second she listened to what he said. Basically all she wanted to do was scream and hurt him but her energy was drained by the running she had done and the talks she done with Kisa. She blinked again.

"Kyou." She mumbled softly.

It was then that Kyou realized how much she loved him. He hated himself for it... for what he had done to her. It was then when his sadness his happiness and his anger all came out at once... he wept... he couldn't help it she had acknowledged him... that was all he needed. Not to forgive himself but to realize her love for him.

"Kagura... please forgive me." He said his tears falling down his face mixing with the rain falling onto him. He sat on the ground no longer looking at Kagura's face but staring at the ground. He was ashamed... ashamed of his tears. He knew she wouldn't care but he hated himself for crying in front of her. No matter what.

"WHY SHOULD I FORGIVE YOU?" Kagura asked in shout as she got up and pushed him out of the way but with it she fell on top of the crying cat - it wasn't fair that he got to cry and she didn't. The boar hit him until her beats got softer and she felt both of them being held tightly as she began to sob into his chest. "I'm sorry…"

"Why? I deserved it." Kyou said almost with a smile. He didn't know why but he just wanted her in his arms and that's what he did, leaving her hands he held her tight trailing down her back. "I'm sorry."

"I forgive you." She said. 'I love you.' She thought.

They were soon both sitting on the bench. He was happy that he forgave him but he now had to find away to tell her his true feelings, the thoughts that she deserved what he said to her were gone and now he had to tell her…

"Kagura, can we go to the estate? It's raining and I hate the rain." Kyou said softly - the softness in his voice shocked her as she nodded as he then got up he reached out his hand for her and let her hold his hand as he led her to the estate.