Stephanie Meyer owns all the characters, but I want to borrow them pretty please. There is one awesome line from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. Kudos to anyone that can pick it out. Thanks to all who reviewed and favorited this story. Keep it up!!! I really want to know what you think. Plus it makes me write faster. Definite mature content ahead. Not for the faint of heart or underage readers.
Jacob POV
"Now would be good," I replied. We stood up and gathered our picnic items. I was glad that she couldn't hear my racing heartbeat. I had just given Bella her first real kiss. I felt a little swell of manly pride at the thought of how she responded to me. A girl always remembers her first kiss right? I had no hope that she would leave him and truly be mine. I just wanted her to remember me. An eternity was a long time to exist. What if she forgot that she ever knew me? Or that we were ever close? I hope that by fulfilling her request, I could give both of us lasting memories. I offered her my hand and she twined her fingers through mine, cheeks flaming red. As we walked I glanced over at her in wonder. How could she go from being a fiery vixen almost grinding on my lap, to blushing at something as simple as holding hands? I chuckled softly and her head whipped around to face me.
"Are you laughing at me?" she asked, dropping my hand. "Yes," I replied instantly, "but not for the reason you think. You're doing that blushing thing again, and I think it's adorable." This caused her to flush an even deeper shade of red. She offered me her hand this time and I took it. We walked the rest of the way home in silence.
Thankfully, Billy had vacated the premises when we returned. I vaguely remembered him saying he wouldn't be back until after dinner. I took the picnic stuff in the kitchen and told Bella to make herself comfortable in my room.
Bella POV
I walked into Jake's room filled with nervous energy and anticipation. I hadn't been in here since Edward had come back, and things had changed. His boyhood bed had been replaced with a beautiful king-sized bed. The headboard looked to be hand carved. I walked forward to get a closer look, but the pictures on the bedside table caught my attention. One was of him and his parents. Billy had been very handsome as a younger man and Jake's mom was gorgeous. I could see both of them in Jake today. I looked at him in the picture. He was so different now physically, but his eyes were as kind now as they always had been. I sat the frame down carefully and picked up the other one smiling immediately. It was a picture Charlie had taken of us here one day. We could not have looked more different from one another, but we were hugging each other fiercely and beaming at the camera. Jake had always loved me so much. I was suddenly filled with doubt. Could we go through with this? Jake walked in at that moment. He looked at the picture in my hands, and the stricken expression that must have been on my face.
"Hey," he said softly. "What's wrong, Bells?"
"Are you sure that we should do this?
"Are you?" he countered, looking at me with concern. I looked again at the picture in my hands, setting it down and weighing my words carefully. "I think so," I replied. "I am giving up so much to be with Edward. If I do have to give up my friendship with you, I want this time we have together to be mine. Something I can hold with me for all eternity." He took two steps and wrapped his arms around me, and I buried my face in his chest.
"I am, you know," he said into my hair. I pulled back slightly. "You are what?"I asked.
"Yours," he said simply, and my heart melted. He bent his head to capture my lips in a chaste kiss that was filled with the sincerity of his words. In the long silence that followed, he walked over and shut the blinds against the sun. It was about 2 o'clock and I had to be sure to be home before the sun started to set. Alice was covering for me, but I didn't want to take any unnecessary chances. It suddenly felt like losing Jake would be the worst thing in the world. I sat down on the edge of the bed and he quickly sat beside me. "So what do we do first?" I asked nervously.
He grinned. "How about we set up some rules?"
"Rules?" I echoed.
"Yeah we are going to have to have like limits and stuff. I don't want to do anything you are uncomfortable with." That was Jake. Always thinking of me. "Okay," I said slowly. You start. He thought for a moment. "When we are together, you are mine. We won't talk of anyone else." "Done," I agreed without hesitation. The less I thought or spoke of Edward the better this would go. I thought for a second. "No marks," I said. I would have a hard enough time getting away with this without having to explain a hickey to Charlie or you know who. "Done," he said grinning wolfishly. "I will control my animal instincts." He paused briefly before continuing. "As your instructor, you have to do what I say without question. Can you handle that?"
I considered this carefully. "How will you know if you're going too far?"
"We'll come up with a word that either of us can say if things get too out of control. Something that's totally random that would completely break the mood."
"Okay," I said nodding. "Sunflower." He looked confused for a second. "That's what I'll say if it gets to be too much." "Sunflower it is," he replied. He looked at me intently. "I just have one more," he said without breaking eye contact. "What?" I asked entranced by his dark eyes.
"That you let go with me. Don't hold anything back from me. I'm not breakable. I understand what this is and I'm not trying to change your mind about things. I know now how much you have to hold back with him. Don't be self conscious. These four walls are a safe zone for you. I just want you to be free with me." I could see the sincerity in his eyes along with desire and most of all his love. Freedom. Jake wanted me to be free. I felt myself relax at that and my heart burst with emotion. "Thank you," I whispered. "For everything." He nodded and leaned in to kiss me again. The room spun and I reached out to cling to him. My hands reached for the hem of his shirt and he pulled back briefly to discard the offending item. Once his chest was bare to me, I kissed a trail down his neck and back up to his lips again. I wound my fingers in his hair and tugged. He let out a groan that caused moisture to pool between my legs. For the first time in my life, I was free to explore and the magnitude of his gift to me hit home. I continued charting a course down his body. I traced his flat nipples with my tongue and then dipped lower to his delicious abs. I felt a sense of feminine pride at the litany of praise pouring from his mouth. He suddenly pulled me up roughly and I was secretly glad that he wasn't treating me like I was fragile.
"You're way overdressed," he said in a husky voice that made my insides liquefy, and proceeded to dispatch with my jacket and shirt. He paused and then slowly removed my bra. I was laid bare before his gaze and I fought the urge to cover myself. I looked up at his face and he met my eyes.
"You are exquisite," he said in an awestruck voice. I watched as he dipped his head to my breast. He almost black eyes held mine and he swiped one erect peak with his tongue. Then I was lost again. I threw my head back and got lost in the sensation Jake was creating with his mouth. His strong hands fumbled with the button on my jeans and I rushed to assist him in removing them. He pulled me closer to him and I wrapped my legs around him like we had at the beach. The rough denim of his jeans rubbed me between my legs and I felt another rush of liquid there. I heard a quick ripping sound and then my panties joined my other clothes on the floor. He halted his assault of my nipples and raised his head to mine. His tongue teased my lips and then he pulled back slightly.
"Do you have any idea how fucking good you smell?" I was caught off guard by his uncharacteristic use of graphic language, but it turned me on that I had caused him to forget his manners. I was suddenly feeling the need to be out of character as well. He asked for me to be free, I thought, so here goes nothing. I pulled back from him and laid my back against the headboard. I spread my legs invitingly and met him with a challenging grin.
"Why don't you show me?"
Jacob POV
I almost lost it right there. Bella was laid out before me, her normally alabaster skin flushed a delicate pink. Her legs were spread and I could see the moisture glistening from her sex. I could feel myself hardening almost painfully. These jeans would have to go. I shucked them off quickly, my eyes never leaving hers. Then I crawled back up until I was eye level with the most intimate part of her. I hadn't been lying when I said she smelled good. My mouth watered and I ached to taste her. She hadn't said the safe word yet, but I still looked up for permission. She nodded once and I took a nice slow lick.
Bella POV
My eyes nearly crossed from the sensation. Jake's mouth was so hot and his tongue was rough against my aching folds. I didn't know what to do. I grabbed the sheets. I panted. I cursed and nothing mattered. Nothing mattered except for Jake's mouth on me. I could feel the same heat from last night boiling in my belly only it was a thousand times magnified. I was rushing toward something huge and I wondered if it would be my complete undoing. I felt Jake pull back and heard him whisper "Let go, Bells." At that, he sucked my little nub into his mouth and I exploded. I was soaring and anchored at the same time. I fisted his hair in my hands, pulled his face closer to me, and rode out wave after wave of ecstasy. I screamed his name and tears pricked behind my eyes. When I came down, he held my quivering form in his arms.
"Are you okay, Bells?" he asked with real concern. I laughed and he looked confused.
"Better than okay. That was amazing!" I said and he relaxed. I wrapped my arms around his neck and planted a kiss on his lips. I could taste myself there and I felt a fresh rush of desire. Something poked my hip and I looked down. Poor Jake was worked up into quite a state, and I fully intended to take care of that. I met his eyes for a second. "Can I see?" I asked and he nodded his assent. I pulled his black boxer briefs downward and his erection sprang free. Now I don't have much experience when it comes to men, but I could tell he was far and above average size. It had a dot of fluid on the tip and I leaned closer. Jake had just been very acquainted with my girl parts, and I very eagerly wanted to give him the same pleasure. I swept the drop of fluid with my tongue and he gasped.
Jacob POV
Ohmygodohmygodohmygod was all I could manage in my mind. I had a very naked, very horny Bella in my bed and she was currently licking me like an ice cream cone and making excited noises in the back of her throat. My brain had officially turned to goo and I focused on her pink tongue that was slowly traveling up and down my ever hardening member. She suddenly wrapped her lips around the tip and a choked sound escaped my lips. I was trying to keep my hands down and let her go on her own. They were clenched so tightly that my knuckles had turned white. She looked up and me with her dark brown eyes and stopped her ministrations for a moment. "Jake," she said in a repeat of what I had said earlier, "let go. I'm not some porcelain doll. I know you would never hurt me. I don't know if I'm doing this right. Show me how. Please."
I could do this, I thought. The advantages of being in the pack were that we could all hear each others' thoughts. I was relatively inexperienced in my own right, but luckily the rest of the guys had more to go on. I had heard and seen more than I cared to about their intimate relationships. I reached my hand up and wound it in her hair careful not to pull any harder than necessary. I slowly guided her up and down murmuring praise and encouragement. She was a very quick study and I soon returned my hand to my side. Emboldened by my praise she pushed her head down further and I couldn't stop my muttered curse.
"Fuck!" She made a noise of pleasure and did it again.
Bella POV
I heard Jake's curse and my excitement intensified. I repeated the motion hoping to get him to say more and was not disappointed. He was raising his hips to meet me now and I could tell that he was close to something like I had been. He started trying to move me away, but I wouldn't hear of it. I wanted the full experience and I was prepared to accept everything he had to offer.
Jacob POV
I tried to move her. I could feel fire racing through my body like a freight train and I couldn't stop it. She was swirling her tongue around and around and looking up at me with those wide brown eyes. That was my undoing. Those eyes. I felt myself erupt, and she never stopped. I was more in love than ever.
Bella POV
After his breathing returned to normal he pulled me to his chest. I could feel his heart thudding and for a while neither one of us spoke. "You are incredible, Bells," he said breaking the silence. I was trying to think of something to say when my stomach growled. We both laughed and the spell was broken. We redressed and headed to the kitchen for a snack. We sat around the table and laughed and talked and kissed and it was perfect. I had been prepared for things to be awkward afterwards, but it was like we went right back to being us only with this amazing experience. I definitely had to find a way to keep him in my life.
Once we finished eating, I got to my feet reluctantly. "I better get home," I said. "I have to get dinner ready for Charlie." He walked me out to my truck in silence. Once there, I turned and raised my face for a kiss. We kissed deeply, longingly by my truck and then I hopped inside. "Bella," he said suddenly. "I understand the rules, but don't let it be a long time before I see you again." "It won't be," I promised and I knew that it was true. I wanted us to make as many memories as possible before it came time to say goodbye.
As I drove from LaPush, my head filled with the events of the day. Jake's lightheartedness was infectious and I felt better than I had in weeks. Of course, it could have something to do with the bone melting orgasm I'd had less than an hour ago. I stopped at the drugstore for lavender shampoo, body wash and candles, remembering Alice's earlier advice. I got home, threw my clothes in the wash, took Jake's picture and note to my nightstand hiding place, and headed straight for the bathroom. After I was satisfied all evidence of this afternoon was scrubbed away, I exited the bathroom and heard the phone ringing. I ran to answer it.
"Hello," I gasped into the receiver. "So, you're at home now?" Alice answered on the other end.
"Hi, Alice," I said warily, "How's Paris?"
"Everything's great Bella, I was calling to let you know that Edward will be there in about an hour. Go along with what he says. Did you buy your lavender stuff like I said?"
"It's all taken care of. What am I supposed to go along with?"
"You'll see. Have fun tomorrow. Talk to you soon." I heard the line disconnect and wondered what Alice was up to now. I ran upstairs to get dressed and came down to start Charlie's dinner. I was just taking the roast out of the oven when I heard a knock at the door. I took off my oven mitts and laid them by the stove.
I opened the door and found myself face to face with a dozen red roses. Edward's handsome face appeared from behind the bouquet. "Surprise, my love," he said handing me the vase and leaning in for a kiss. I returned the chaste kiss, and my heart sped up, but it paled in comparison to the response I'd had to Jake earlier. I ushered him in and sat the vase on the countertop. "What are the flowers for?" I asked. "I'm just sorry that we couldn't spend the day together," he replied, frowning at the last remains of the sun going down. "Oh, no problem," I replied. "I was able to do some things I had been meaning to get around to doing." He came up behind me and wrapped his arm around my waist. After spending the entire day surrounded by Jake's warmth, I shivered and pulled away. "Sorry," he murmured into my hair. "Sometimes I forget how cold I am." He looked so heartbroken that I pulled him back to me. "You just caught me off guard is all," I said reassuringly. I turned back to the stove and he took a seat at the table.
"Oh, before I forget," he said taking an envelope from his jacket, "let me give you this."
"What is it?" I asked, taking the envelope and opening it. It was an American Express Black Card embossed with my name. I looked at him questioningly and he shrugged.
"Alice told me you are going to need things for the honeymoon and I thought you would like to pick them out yourself. I launched myself into his lap and he wrapped his arms around me. I kissed him on the mouth and my tongue darted out to lick his lip. He eyes opened in shock and he pushed me away harshly.
"Bella are you insane?!? You know we cannot. Think of what might happen. What if I lost control?"
"So what," I countered. "You are going to change me, who cares if it's sooner or later?"
"I do," he said. "What's gotten into you? I thought we agreed to wait."
"You agreed," I shot back petulantly. "I'm sick of being at arm's length with you." I turned away and he came to stand beside me. "Bella," he started, "let's not fight. I feel like I have done something to displease you. I'll leave, and we will talk about it when I get back."
"Back from where? Where are you going?" My abandonment issues were rearing their ugly heads tonight.
"Hunting with Emmett and Jasper. Alice is in Paris and we need to keep Japer occupied. We'll be back on next Saturday. Forks' usually cloudy weather should be back by then." He came and pressed a kiss to my temple. "Have fun on your shopping trip," he said and then he was gone. My phone rang again instantly.
"Hello, Alice," I said. "Why am I standing in the kitchen holding a black card? You know I hate shopping."
"I do," she replied musically, "but I had to find a way to get rid of him and there is nothing like mentioning a shopping trip to get rid of a man."
"Why were you trying to get rid of him again?"
"Geez Bella, I have to give your experiment time to work. How are you going to decide with Edward hovering around? I told him that absence plus a limitless credit card definitely make the heart grow fonder."
"Alice, why are you helping me do this?"
"Because eternity is a long time to wonder what might have been. I'll call tomorrow Bella. I love you."
"Love you too, Alice" I hung up the receiver and picked it up again. I dialed a number that I had known my whole life.
"Hello," Jake's deep baritone answered.
"So, I was wondering," I said without saying hello, "what are you doing tomorrow?"
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