~Nothing gold can stay~
A/N: Just a little...filler chapter of some sort (that's why it's short). Actually, it's more like a chapter showing how the hell I've come up with this stupid fic in the first place :c Anyway, it's short, so I hope you all aren't that disappointed! D:
Chapter four: Nothing gold can stay
Nature's first green is gold
Her hardest hue to hold
I stood outside of Lavi's room, hand halfway up to the door, frozen in mid-air. It was trembling, and not only that, I was sweating, too. He…couldn't possibly still be awake at this hour…could he? Swallowing nervously, I knocked on the door lightly, almost half-hoping that Lavi wouldn't answer. No, I have to do this, I thought adamantly, I have to apologize to Lavi…
There was no sound of movement from inside, and I took a deep breath, pushing the door open; it was unlocked. "…Lavi?" I called softly, feeling around blindly in the darkness. I froze when I heard a soft snore to my right. My hands groped around, and I felt a bed in front of me. Luckily, there was a lamp close to there, so I clicked it on, surprised to see the redhead laying on the bed, asleep.
Her early leaf's a flower
But only so an hour
A book lay in his hands, still open to the page he had been reading. I watched Lavi's sleeping face for a long time while I sat on the bed silently. His face was completely empty of that look of grief he usually had on it. It was just…serene…even happy, almost. He sighed softly, gripping his pillow tightly. I ran a hand through his bright red hair, "I wonder what you're dreaming about, Lavi." A gentle breeze flipped the pages of the book that Lavi was reading. I reached for it, picking it up from under his hand. There was a poem printed on it.
Trembling again, my tears were about to fall again. "You meant Allen, didn't you?"
Lavi merely stirred on the bed, mumbling something under his breath. I set the book down again, making sure to keep the page open for him, and quickly ran out of the room. I leaned against the wall, feeling suddenly exhausted. Hot tears slid down my cheeks. I couldn't help Allen that time…It's all my fault… I've hurt Lavi, and now I'm not even strong enough to stop crying. I wiped the tears from my eyes hastily. I'm pathetic, aren't I? I'm useless, powerless, weak and--
"What are you doing here this late at night?" a voice cut through my thoughts. I looked up, surprised to see Kanda standing there with his arms crossed, the usual look of disdain on his face.
Then leaf subsides to leaf
So Eden sank to grief
I smiled through my tears. It was painful. "Oh, Kanda-kun! Haha, I was just about to go to my room…Good night, anyway!" I turned around, about to leave, until I felt Kanda's hand grip around my arm, keeping me behind.
"Don't joke around, Lenalee," he growled, his eyes narrowed, "was it about Lavi?"
He was right on the mark. "O-of course not!"
"Che," he released my arm, and I turned around to face him. "Even though the truth is painfully obvious, you still try to hide it…Idiot." As Kanda pronounced that last word, I felt his arms wrapping around me. It didn't feel awkward at all, more like I was being protected, comforted.
When the surprise of it wore off, my entire body started to tremble, and the tears came out again. My chest heaved with the effort, and I said through hiccups,, "I-I…couldn't do anything…All I did was sit by and watch everyone get hurt…I'm t-tired of doing that…" I hiccupped again, "L-Lavi's blaming everything on himself…C-can't he see that we're all s-suffering? We all miss Allen…He can't just k-keep the burden all on himself…"
So dawn goes to day
Nothing gold can stay.
A/N: Okay, okay, so it was short!!! SO WHAT. Anyway, this poem is called "Nothing gold can stay", an awesome poem by Robert Frost. I originally found this poem from a book I read called "The Outsiders". Pretty awesome book, too. J This entire fic was inspired by this poem, so you'd better appreciate Robert Frost. :D
