After all the responses from the last chapter I decided I better keep up on this story as well, so here's how I'll work it. I'll probably write a chapter behind the episodes that are aired so the Rocky Horror episode won't be done until next week when the new ep comes on. That is just so I can look ahead a week and decide if that is where to break off from the show, since I have no real idea for where this is going besides Quinn getting to know Rachel from afar. Also if you have any ideas on how to describe Rachel during the episodes, and want to try and help me out, feel free to share because that is by far the hardest part of writing this story. Thanks for all the support and reviews, keep them coming, I love to hear what you think :)
Cassicio-I'm soooo glad you recognized the song! I am currently in love with it also, it's just really beautiful and hopeful that not all christians believe that God doesn't appreciate imperfection...Hope you like the new chapter.
SoreashaAdams37-Haven't read your story for a while (liked it though), only because I try not to read any fics while I write, it's distracting and makes me feel inadequate which makes it hard to come up with anything. But anyway you're right it is hard to twist things in your favor. Especially when it comes to scenes that weren't in the episode because I have to come up with stuff that won't interfere with the actual episodes...at least for a while longer. Good luck with yours, I'll catch up on it soon :) and also a Faberry kiss would make my year, does that make me lame?
tarebear23- Thank you, I love to write Quinn. As you know from reading my other story I find her intriguingly complicated :) Hope you like this, don't want to have wrecked your fave episode lol. FYI- I am actually working on the next chapter to my other fic right now so look for it within a day or two (fingers crossed).
Hmmm…so I read somewhere that Chord Overstreet's storyline was changed to pair him with Quinn when everyone saw how much chemistry he had with Dianna Agron, and I just don't see it. Don't get me wrong they are cute together, and I personally think he's one of the most adorable guys I've ever seen for some reason, but I like the way he interacted with Kurt better than Quinn…
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Quinn was torn when she heard about Puck. She hated that everyone automatically thought he was stupid and felt an urge to stab Finn with her pencil. She watched him with Rachel and wondered how everything always seemed to end up with him swimming in Roses. She rolled her eyes and hoped he got poked by a thorn.
Sam was cute. Even Quinn couldn't deny that he was definitely pleasing to look at. She was startled for a moment at the thought of finding Sam attractive. It had been so long since she had noticed anyone besides a certain tiny diva and she felt a tiny rush of relief that turned to further irritation at Finn when he seemed a little bit too eager in welcoming Sam to Glee. Quinn held back her smile at Sam's joke, he was adorable in a goofy way and she felt a stab of sympathy for him, this school was going to eat him alive. Quinn went back to tapping her pencil and tried to pinpoint the exact moment she began to think that Rachel's over eagerness in raising her hand was also adorable.
She listened to the excitement over Breadstix and tried to fight her confusion as her gaze shifted between Rachel and Sam. It wasn't as though she was trying to decide who to sing with, it was pretty much a given that Rachel would be singing with Finn and she didn't even want to do this stupid assignment anyway. Even though she knew she would probably skip this one (What would Schuester do? Fail her?), Quinn felt her heart sink a little bit as she looked around the room and realized that there wasn't a single person there who might have been willing to sing a duet with her if she had wanted to do the assignment.
Quinn changed into her jeans and a hoodie after cheerleading practice that day and found herself sitting at a table in a dingy room, across from the only person she knew at this moment was as damaged and empty as she was. "I'm surprised you came." He said.
Quinn was silent for a moment. "Do you need anything?" She asked quietly not able to bring herself to meet his eyes.
"Please, like your coming back to this dump."
"Puck."
"Look it's okay, alright. I get it." Puck's face was hard, but Quinn knew that he was trying to hold back his grief. He looked at her like this every time they were together, like he was in pain and she was sure that her eyes would mirror the same thing that was in his if she could ever bring herself to meet them.
"I know you do, but it doesn't make it any easier."
"Yeah. I get that too." Quinn watched Puck wring his fingers around each other. They sat in silence and he pulled his hands away when she reached over to comfort him. Quinn pulled back into her own chair and sighed. "Thanks for coming Baby Mama, I thought Rachel would be the only one."
Quinn's heart skipped when Puck mentioned Rachel's name and she smiled wondering how the brunette really believed that she was selfish. "Rachel?"
"Yeah she mostly lectured me about Glee club and shit, but she brought these vegan cookies and they were actually pretty fuckin' tasty. The deliciousness distracted me from choking her." Puck paused and shrugged. "She's pretty crazy, but sometimes it's nice to hear that at least one person thinks you're not a screw up."
Quinn smiled softly. "Well, now there's two of us then." She offered.
He smirked thankfully as she got up and called after her. "Hey, it was an accident you know. I wasn't trying to rob the place. I was pissed and didn't realize it was in reverse. The store owner made all that shit up. And if you tell anyone about that I'll make sure to let everyone know that you're not really the bitch you want them to think you are."
Quinn smiled sadly, in some ways Puck was perfect for her, "See you when you get out." Quinn left, leaving him slouching in his chair looking thoughtfully at a spot on the table in front of him.
For a number of reasons Quinn panicked when Sam tried to kiss her. The first being the intensity in his eyes when he held her gaze, another being the flash of Rachel's face behind her own eyes as they fluttered closed for half a second before she backed away from him. Quinn stuttered out excuses as she left a puzzled and apologetic Sam staring at her retreating form.
She sat off by herself at Glee club that day and tried to keep her gaze from wandering toward Sam. She should be relieved that a part of her had wanted him to kiss her, relieved that after everything that had went down last year she was still capable of human feelings, but she had run. She hated the feelings that had crept up on her the few times that she had talked to Sam. She hated the fact that there was still a part of her that was Weak. Quinn Fabray didn't need anyone. She made good grades, stayed on top and when the time came she was going to blow this stupid little town and never look back. She didn't want to leave anyone behind who made her want to look back.
Quinn steeled her self when Rachel walked into the bathroom and regarded the girl with an air of practiced indifference as she talked about the duet with Sam. Quinn felt her eyes roll affectionately and decided she needed to get he hell out of there before her practiced indifference morphed into a smile. It was only when she was at the door that she realized how out of character Rachel was being and turned on the diva accusingly. Rachel was cute when she was lecturing and being all intense and it took all of Quinn's muscle control not to smirk as she thought of different methods that would shut her up. "Fine. I'll sing with the new kid, if it will shut you up, stalker."
It wasn't until after her date with Sam that she realized that Rachel had fixed the competition. She had gone home smiling, said goodnight to her mother and was laying in bed thinking about the diva when it hit her. Rachel Berry would never choose such an offensive song for a competition, winning singing competitions was probably all Rachel thought about. Quinn tracked her down the next day before Glee, finding her in the auditorium with Kurt.
She hung back for a moment when she heard the laughter and she felt her heart warm at Rachel's laugh and smiled wondering when she had gotten so used to her body's reactions around the brunette. She continued watching them, obviously rehearsing for something and having fun doing it as Rachel laughed again and flashed Kurt a genuine smile. It was oddly warming watching the two diva's with all of their defenses down, just being real with each other and she found herself smiling in happiness for Rachel that maybe she had found a friend for a moment, even if it probably wouldn't last.
Quinn finally willed herself out of the shadows, knowing that if she let herself she could admire Rachel for hours at a time, and headed toward the stage. Both performers were startled when Quinn cleared her throat and set her hands on her hips looking at Rachel pointedly. "I think it's ready, Rachel. I'll see you in Glee. I trust you remembered your costume." Rachel nodded and Quinn watched Kurt straighten up and walk out of the auditorium with his usual arrogance.
"Why'd you fix the duet contest?" Quinn decided to get straight to the point.
"I don't know what you're talking about Quinn. I would do no such thing." Rachel turned from the blonde and began gathering her books and sheet music.
"You're a good actress, Stubbles, but you suck at lying. Why did you fix it?" Quinn asked in her head bitch voice.
Rachel rolled her eyes. "Fine. I'll tell you. I wanted to do something nice for you." This caught Quinn of guard and she lifted her eyebrow at the girl when she finally turned to face her. "I wanted to do something nice. I tried to do it by talking Finn into letting Sam win the competition to boost his confidence so he wouldn't quit Glee. At first I thought I was being generous, but then Finn pointed out that I was only doing it so we would have enough members to compete this year."
Quinn tried to let Rachel speak and bit her lip to keep from snapping at the girl to get to the point. "Finn decided in order for him to win he couldn't sing with Kurt, he had to sing with you. No offense, but I think he would have had a better chance with Kurt, he doesn't tend to go sharp." Quinn almost smiled at Rachel's honesty, but kept her lip trapped as Rachel continued. "I saw you leaving the choir room one day before you guys got in the fight, and you were smiling." Rachel paused here and ducked her head with a shy smile. "I thought it was nice that you weren't alone for once. Remember when we did the Mash ups last year? You had fun. I assumed that you were having fun doing the duet with Sam, you smiled like you enjoyed him and he's new and needed a friend. That is the reason that I talked you into going back to him. It is oddly nice when you smile, maybe because you don't do it enough." Rachel ended thoughtfully.
"We have to stop meeting like this, Berry. People might start to think we're friends." But Quinn said it with a smile and motioned for the smaller girl to walk to Glee with her. They didn't arrive together because Rachel had to stop and change into her costume. Quinn had found out that Rachel and Kurt were singing a duet together that day and Quinn found herself wiggling in her chair in anticipation f the performance.
The divas sat comfortably next to each other and as they sang Quinn thought that what Rachel had done was the nicest thing that anyone had ever done for her. Rachel had noticed her, how unhappy she had been and how much she had needed someone to make her smile, even if she had not been able to see it herself. She had understood that Sam was new and awkward and unlikely to make any friends on his own (because let's face it he might be sweet and cute, but the kid was weird). She had given them both a friend when they needed it most and, doing it in secret, had asked for nothing in return.
Quinn found it sad that no one around her really understood how amazing the girl in front of them was, including her boyfriend who had no idea how lucky he was to have her. She kept them together. Even if none of them liked each other, she knew that they all loved Glee. She gave them all the strength to remember that high school wouldn't last forever so every once in a while they could be better than they're reputations. Rachel was more than any of them gave her credit for. No one ever bothered to look past her eager selfishness to see that the Rachel Berry who was singing a duet with a boy that made it his business to ridicule her every single day, was in fact wholeheartedly generous.
