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MEANT TO LIVE

Chapter 3- The role that we play
Song:I don't want to talk about it (Rod Stewart)

A/N:Contains a sex explicit scene. You're warned

"Sirius, James you should've been down ages ago, your mother is going bonkers"scolded Mr. Potter at the two teenagers who were currently on James' room.

"Dad, do you mind?!"asked James ushering his father outside the room, he was still in his underwear.

"James Potter I want you down in five minutes"his father said severely. But he got no response, instead the door was practically slammed in his face. Honestly he had tried to understand James' bad humour and deal with it, but sometimes the boy could exasperating, besides Sirius being serious wasn't easy to cope with either. He had told his wife not to get worried, that it was stage, that it was normal after Elizabeth's death, but truth be told he was starting to get worried too.

"Prongs, are you nervous of seeing her?"asked Sirius skeptically

"No" said James "I don't even know or care for that matter if she comes"

"Oh, but she is" said Sirius darkly "She's Remus date" And although Sirius wasn't actually mad at Remus, on the contrary Remus was mad at him because of the whole Snivellus incident, Sirius stood now by James' side.

"Hey Moony" said Sirius as he walked to his friend's bed in the infirmary.

"Hey Padfoot"said Remus smiling weakly

"I'm so sorry for what happened yesterday" he muttered

"Don't worry, I understand besides you guys won't always be there for my transformations, and I have to get used to it"

"No.."said Sirius hoarsely "Remus, I did something stupid" This was going to be so hard, he had no clue about yesterday and how he had almost turned him into a murdered.

"Sirius.."said Remus more sternly

"I told Snape about you, I told him to follow you...I wasn't thinking"

"You did what???!!!"yelled Remus

"I'm sorry" said Sirius looking down "No harm was done, James saved Snape"

"Stupid, bloody fool" roared Remus "Why would you do something like that??!!"

"I...my temper got out the best of me"

"No, Sirius. I can't believe you...You. GET OUT!!"said Remus his face about to blow up.

"I am sorry, please Moony"begged Sirius

"Leave" he said. And Sirius walked out.

He had tried to approach Remus after that, but he was still mad at him. But when James and Remus had fought, he had shielded behind it, and stopped being friends with Remus altogether. Of course he knew Remus was actually right, and that Prongs was a complete jerk, but he couldn't afford to lose another friend.


"Lily, dear you look stunningly beautiful" complimented Mrs. Potter. She was glad, that Lily had agreed to come to the party, she didn't knew the specifics, only that his son had ended things between them, and that they didn't talk anymore.

"Thank you Catherine" said Lily smiling "And Congratulations, everything is just splendid."

"Indeed Catherine" agreed Remus.

"Well thank you ,I wish you two enjoy yourselves" said Mrs. Pottter smiling. Then she excused herself to continue greeting people, and do her job as the hostess.

"I like what you did with your hair" said Remus chuckling. Lily had gone from perfect bouncy curls, to long straight hair and from light colored dress robes, to a shocking yet beautiful deep red. As Mrs. Potter had said she looked stunning, she wasn't pale anymore, and most important of all she wasn't sulking.

"I know, I was tired of my curls" she said "You don't look too bad either"

"Would you to care to dance?"he asked extending his hand.

"Oh yes, a great deal"said Lily laughing but accepted his hand. Just as she was dancing with Remus she met with a pair of hazel eyes. Her first impulse was to look away and ran but she didn't instead she held his gaze defiantly. She had decided to come to the ball to prove a point to herself. That she could do whatever she wanted and not care about what James said. She might love...might have loved him but he wasn't going to let him affect her not anymore...or at least show him.

Lily was late for her Potion's lessons, so she ran desperate to get on time, but when she rounded the corner she didn't noticed Severus Snape and luckily for her she crashed with him, sending both of them to the floor.

"You filthy mudblood" Snape roared.

"I am sorry"mumbled Lily, and started picking her books quickly.

"Stupid bitch!!"spat Snape out. By now several 6th years had gathered around, to see. Lily didn't say anything back, she just looked down and continued getting her stuff together. But Snape pushed her to the floor again and laughed along with several slytherins. Lily tried to hold back the tears, she hated being humilated. Sirius and James came into view and James instantly got out his wand

"Apologize!!" he said through greeted teeth slamming Snape into the wall and pointing his wand to his neck.

"Pott head you can't play the bitter ex-boyfriend and pitiful saviour at the same time"He said smriking "Make up your mind" Lily watched in awe as well as the rest of students how James released Snape and mumbled sorry to Snape, then he looked down at Lily and glared and went into the classroom. Lily felt like punching him but she was far too humiliated to...he had looked at her as Snape did, as if she was filth.

If he had been cold and indifferent before, ever since then he took a turn for worse, glaring, looks of disdain and hate was all she received from James. She hated him for making her go through this. So she was the one glaring this time, she loathed him...


To say that James was not feeling well would've been an understatement, he had to endure looking at the redhead beauty dance with Remus, and flirt with other guys. She looked breathtaking tonight and he wasn't the only one to notice, she had been asked to dance by practically all the young men in the ball. But what he disliked more was that whenever their stares met, he saw nothing more than disgust and hartred from her.

Since he had first layed eyes on her he noticed something different, she didn't looked sad or troubled as she had had for the past month, she seemed to be enjoying herself...and it killed James. He guessed that somewhere really deep inside him, he didn't wish to see her happy without him...

Although her being completely happy was the reason he had ended things between him

"Did you know Charles proposed to Annabelle" said Lily beaming. They were alone in the common room cuddling "And Frank and Alice got married this summer"

"Yeah, well probably Charles and Ana will wait until graduation"said James carelessly, and brushed off a lock of hair from her face.

"I don't know I guess so..."and she laughed a little "Did you knew Alice is pregnant already..."

"Really?"asked James surprised it fel like it was just yesterday they were all kids growing up

"Yes, she wrote to me last week. She had to give up auror training and she was happy to do so... after all she had worked, being Headgirl, top of her class...she's going to be just a mother"

"Is it wrong?"asked James unsure where this was headed.

"No...of course not"said Lily laughing "I mean if you had asked me about a year ago, I would have thought her stupid and a bloody fool for giving up her life and dreams. But she's deeply in love with Frank, and that I can understand." and she blushed.

"Oh" said James surprised. And after a moment his brain seemed to process what Lily had just said, she was in love with him, and willing to give up anything??!!!He couldn't let her no..

"So you would give it all up to for the man you loved?"James asked with a trembling voice. Lily blushed even more if possible

"Well no, I mean yes, I..."she couldn't explain. And James gulped, Lily was in love with him, and he was madly in love with her.

To a normal person this would be a blessing. But James knew better, at first he had tried to deny his feeling for Lily. She was his friend and she was too special. He had refused to act on them, despite his friend's encouragements, but somehow he couldn't stop himself from being around her, he loved making her smile.

He wasn't blind and he started noticing Lily warming up to him as more than a friend, that made it ten times harder . But Lily had kissed him, unaware of the feelings she was releasing. His mind was overpowered by his own heart, but he had never expected her to fall for him, as he had for her. No, she was supposed to enjoy their time and together and sooner or later realize there was someone better out there for her, and they would remain friends...

But Lily had to screw things up, she had to go and fall in love with him...and make his dirty little heart wish come true.Damn her!!! He wouldn't have any of it, he had to end their relationship. He had screwed up already but not this time. She wouldn't be happy with him, he knew it.

He didn't even thought about it twice, because if he did he might have convinced himself to keep her and never let her go...


"Sirius" purred out the gorgeous blonde in front of him as they entered his bedroom. Sirius kissed her on the mouth to shut her up. He prefered them that way. Sirius pushed her roughly towards the bed, and started trailing kissses down her neck, while she played with his hair. Then he started sucking up on her shoulder and felt her shiver. He returned to her mouth, and their kiss broke until both of them were panting.

The blonde grinned at him and pushed him, placing herself on top of him. She started unbottoning his shirt, as Sirius sat, so he could unzip her dress, she let the dress fall to her waist, and reveal her silver bra, Sirius made an attempt to unhook the bra, but was pushed once again by the blonde. She started caressing his pecs with her lips, going down with each kiss. When she came all the way down to his waist, she unbuckled the belt and slipped her hand inside his boxer briefs.

Sirius moaned, as she started stroking him, but he knew he couldn't last long , so he changed places again pushing her dress roughly to the ground and ripping off her panties to bury himself inside her. He could feel the wetness surrounding him, and his breath became frantic.

"Faster!!"the blonde said "Oh, Siiriuss"

"Sirius" she said between breaths "Ooohh," but no sound escaped from his mouth, it opened several times, and soundless moans seemed to emerge.

"Siiii.."he thrust harder, they were reaching their peak She dug her nails and bite his shoulder

"Liz.."Sirius moan escaped her lips. The blonde didn't seem to notice, she was too caught up with all, but Sirius did and he pushed her away quickly reaching for his boxers and his clothes. Suddenly he was angry with himself, he threw the dress to theblonde, and he stormed out of the room and into the bathroom. He needed a cold shower.

"Damn!"muttered ELizabeth the container of her potion had just broke and spilled all over the floor. "Lily go, I have to stay and clean this"

"Are you sure?"Lily asked

"Yes you have prefect's meeting, go"said Elizabeth pushing her out of the classroom

"Miss Stern, you didn't think you would leave the classroom without cleaning" said Slughorn chuckling

"Oh no, Professor."said Elizabeth going back to mess.

"Very well then I'll be at my office"said Slughorn, dissapearing behind a door.

"Hey beautiful"said a voice behin her.

"Handsome"she said smiling

"Yes that would be me"he said getting closer. He took out his wand "Evanesco"

ยท"Thanks love" said Elizabeth and kissed him. The kiss turned into a complete snogging session. Sirius lifted her and placed her in the desk, he was about to fullfill one of their fantasies, to shag in a classroom. They had a whole list of places at Hogwarts...

"What is the meaning of this??!!"screeched Slughorn

"Miss Stern!!!Mr. Black!!" said Slughorn red as a tomato "Detention both of you, tonight!!"

He had to serve his with Minerva, this was the fateful detention Lily blamed on him among other things...What Lily didn't know was that he blamed himself, the moment he saw her dead on the floor, he knew it was his fault if only he had been there for her, to protect her, she wouldn't be...dead.


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