;I…ahh who am I kidding, I have no authors note. Just going to get on with the story loll.
I stare at them through the glass for a few seconds before they all start clapping and hollering for me. I get this feeling in my stomach as I look at Kendall and see him giving me thumbs up with a big smile on his face. I think their butterflies? I walk out and am engulfed in a huge hug from my brother.
"Ashley, you were amazing! I can't believe you can sing like that! It's incredible. I couldn't be more proud of you." James let the hug go and they all congratulated me.
"Thanks guys, now go! I want to see you guys sing!" I push James towards the door, but Kendall stays with me for a second.
"You really were amazing Ash." He quickly kissed my cheek before running after the guys into the studio. Kelly saw the scene and gave me a big smile. I smiled back and focused my attention to the boys singing their new hit 'If I Ruled the World'. I had heard it on the radio a few times, but I never fully listened to it. It was way too painful.
I watch them with a big smile, how they all got lost in the songs made me think I had been selfish for wishing they were home.
I walk out of the studio and go sit in the orange lobby outside of the recording studio and outside Gustavo's office. The tears start falling and I can't stop them so I bend over and my head on my knees with my hands on my head. I was crying so I didn't even hear the door open and someone come out after me.
"Are you alright Ashley?" It was Logan. Logan was always the serious, but funny one. He was also my therapist along with Kendall.
I bend back up and wipe my tears fiercely so it would look like I wouldn't even look like I have been crying. "Yeah, I'm fine. Just needed a breathe."
"You know, we have been friends for as long as I can remember, so I know when you're lying. Tell me the truth Ashley. Please. You know you can trust me."
"I just feel so selfish. I have spent the last 2 years hoping for you guys to walk through the door and save me from the hell that was my life. But it never happened. And now seeing you all so happy in there recording I realized I was being so selfish." I confessed to Logan still crying. His face went to sympathetic and pulled me into a hug as I stained his shirt with my tears.
I calmed down after a minute and pulled away. He pulled the hair away from my face and wiped my tears. "Ashley, what do you mean 'the hell that has been your life'?"
I guess if I could trust anybody in the world, it could be these guys and I know Logan wouldn't tell them unless I told him too or I was ready to tell them. "After you guys left, mom was home less and less. She married that loser and ever since then he has been making my life a living hell. He abused me, he hurts me. Logan, I felt like I had no way out." I lifted my sleeve a little so he could see only a little of what I have done to myself.
"Ashley! Why? Why didn't you call? We would have taken the first flight out to come back and get you..."
"I can't believe I let this happen to my little sister…" Me and Logan turn at the sudden appearance of James. "I am so sorry Ashley…" He had tears in his eyes and was leaning onto Kendall, who looked equally as sad and guilty as the rest of them.
"Guys, go home for the rest of the day. You all need to talk. I will see you all tomorrow afternoon." Kelly said popping her head out with a sad smile.
"Thanks Kelly. Come on Ashley." This was a conversation I wasn't ready for.
When we get back to the Palm Woods, we head right up to my room, knowing that Mrs. Knight was in their room with Katie.
"Okay I want to know what the hell is going on and what happened back home!" James said as soon as I shut the door.
"After you left, mom started working more and more to the point she was barely home. David, her new husband then, would get mad and take it out on me. He would drink and drink then come home, if mom wasn't home he would take him aggressive out on me...Every night. With every time he hit me, would be a nice cut the next morning. I'm so sorry James!"
He pulled me in a hug as I cried again and stroked my hair. "I am so sorry Ashley. I should have been there or at least taken you with me back here. I am such a horrible brother."
"No you're not James. You didn't know and I refused to call and tell you. I love you and you're the best brother ever."
"This has been quite the eventful day. We are going to head back and we'll see you later Ash. Call if you need anything." And with that, James, Carlos and Logan left to their room. And Kendall was still here.
I take a seat at the island table while Kendall stands on the other side with a glass of water. He was just staring at me.
"What's going on Kendall? Why are you looking at me like that?"
"I just can't believe everything you have been through at such a young age, and you can still be beautiful as ever."
I blushed fiercely "Thanks Kendall." I shyly looked at my hands that are intertwined on the island.
"I am going to be honest, you look really sexy sitting there like that and I really want to kiss you right now." Kendall said setting the glass down on the table.
I get up and walk around the counter with a sudden boast of confidence. I walk right up to him and put my face close to him so our lips are millimeters apart. "So kiss me."
When he brushed his lips to mine, something went off inside me like fireworks on the 4th of July. I kissed him back and it became intense extremely fast. He deepened the kiss and I put my arms around his neck bringing him closer to me. I couldn't believe that I was making out with Kendall Knight, the guy I had a crush on since I was 12 years old.
He set his arms around my waist and I push whatever book I set on there earlier, off. He grabs the back of my thighs and lifts me to set me on the counter. I run my hands threw his shaggy blonde hair and remove the beanie that was resting on the top of his head. The kiss deepens even more, which I didn't even think was possible and our hands are wondering all over each other's bodies.
We pull away due to the lack of breath and just stare at each other. This has become more intense than I ever imagined on my first night here, not that I'm complaining at all.
I run my hand over his hair again as his hand is running up and down my thighs, and because I was wearing shorts, he was touching bare skin.
I unbutton the plain shirt he was wearing and remove it, tossing it to the side. He slowly puts his hands under my shirt and lifts it over my head and also tosses that to the side. I had a cami on under it. When he saw that he slides the strap of the cami down my shoulder and kisses it softly. I throw my head back and bite my lip to hold back a moan. He kept putting slow and gentle kisses on my neck and shoulders.
"Oh my god Kendall, if you don't kiss me now I swear I am going to explode." I pull his lips back to mine and start our battle of dominance again. He lifts me off the counter and carries me to my room. Nothing is put away, so it's a disaster. But I didn't care. I was about to have sex with the guy of my dreams, Kendall Knight.
He opens the door and kicks it shut with his foot. He slams me against the wall roughly making me let out a loud moan and then bring my lips back to his. I remove the grey wife beater he had on underneath the button up and as the kiss becomes more intense we hear knocking on my door.
We slowly pull away and he puts me down as we both quickly put the clothes we random threw around fixed our hair and clothes and tried to even out our breathing before answering the door. Kendall takes a seat on the couch and turns the TV on to make it look like we were watching TV instead of ruthlessly making out in my bedroom.
I open the door and I see Logan standing there. "Hey Ashley, we need to talk." I open the door wider to allow Logan to enter. He walks in and stands by the island.
"Okay, is it okay if Kendall stays here?" I ask as Kendall gets up and walks over to us.
"Yeah, he can hear this. Look, James is really torn up about what you told us earlier. He feels horrible and feels like this is his fault. All he keeps saying is 'we shouldn't have left you' or 'we should have taken you with us'. He says he knew his mom wouldn't be around, he just didn't think she would keep him around."
"Oh god. I knew I shouldn't have said anything. I didn't want you to feel guilty for it. I should have called and told you, but I didn't." I looked up and Kendall as he rest a comforting hand on my back.
"No I am really glad you told us, but James... I don't know if he can take this without wanting to jump on a plane back to Minnesota and beat the shit out of that guy." Logan said looking at his hands "I think we all actually want to go and beat the shit out of him."
"I agree to the extreme on this one Ash, we all love you, James especially." Kendall pitched in.
I started to feel loved again, the way I did before they left.
"Guys, hang on 2 seconds okay. I am going to go talk to James. I have an idea." I said walking towards the door.
"Okay."
I walk to 2J and knock on the door. Carlos answers. "Ashley! Thank god, come in and talk to your brother."
"Yeah, is he okay?"
"He is pretty upset, but I got him to calm down a bit." Carlos said walking out and headed to what I assume to be my apartment.
"James?" I headed to his room and walked in.
"Ashley? What are you doing here?"
"Just came here to tell you I am moving here James. I am not going back to Minnesota."
R&R~Please. PM me with ideas for this story and my The Nine Lives of Chloe King Story, My Life With A Baby33
Rissa;*
