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A/N: haha it's me again. I'm here to wish all of you a happy new year Happy 2006: Þ (cos it's too late for Christmas). Once again thank you to all those who read my story. Special thanks to those who reviewed, added me or my story to your favourites or alerts (especially Firenze2000, thankies for reviewing twice and spending your precious time to read my story). Same old phrase, please R&R coz it motivates me to move on. Thank you for reading all these and now let's get on with the story…(sorry for the long wait. Here's the next chapter. Enjoy and hope you guys like it : Þ)
Chapter 4-Nevermore
"Calm down, Beast Boy, don't panic. Think carefully, where would she be at this point of time?" he asked himself, trying to straighten out his thinking. He shut his eyes tight and tried to find his answer.
'Why did I forget about that!' Beast Boy slapped himself on the head when he hit the bull's eye. He picked up the strangely-shaped mirror with four red glowing eyes, which was lying on Raven's bed. He held the mirror in front of him, closed his eyes and felt himself sucked into a black vortex.
The ground was pink in colour. The skies were pink and the trees were. Everything was pink and nothing but pink surrounded Beast Boy. He knew he had landed in Happy's territory.
"Hello Beast Boy!" said a happy voice "Do you want to play in my funland?" Beast Boy turned around and saw the pink-clad emotion smiling at him, pointing at the entrance of a theme park. It read "Happy's Funland: The place where you always feel happy!"
"Sorry Happy, I'm not here to play. I'm here to find Raven, is she here?" Beast Boy replied, disappointing the pink emotion.
"Yes, she is here" Happy said as the smile on her face faded. "She ran past me and didn't even bother to greet me. She was crying when she came. I know she cares a lot about you, did you make her angry?" Happy asked.
"Well, Robin was kinda hard on her so she……where is she?"
"She went this way" Happy pointed "I'll bring you there" Happy led the way and Beast Boy followed, hoping he would find Raven. As they reached a rocky terrain, they saw Brave and Rude carrying someone.
"Raven!" Beast Boy cried as he ran towards them. She looked like Raven, but she was not Raven.
"Timid" whispered a crestfallen Beast Boy, looking down at the grey-clad emotion. "Why is she unconscious?"
"When we found her, she was lying on the ground, unconscious" Brave replied. "Don't worry, she's just exhausted, that's all." The green-clad emotion continued, seeing Beast Boy's worried expression.
"When Raven uses an emotion for too long, that emotion will get exhausted. Timid hasn't got a rest since morning" chuckled Happy, looking at Beast Boy's puzzled face.
"Is eating the only thing that Timid is not afraid of? She is damn heavy" complained Rude, the orange-clad emotion as they put Timid on a boulder, letting her rest.
"Erm do you girls know why Raven can't control her powers?" Beast Boy asked, directing the question to the three emotions. Happy and Rude shook their heads. Beast Boy turned to look at Brave, who didn't answer his question.
"Of course I don't know, but I know someone who does." Brave said, looking over to a library.
"Thanks!" Beast Boy called out as he went to find Knowledge, knowing that she'll provide him with answers.
Beast Boy walked between rows and rows of bookshelves, filled with hundreds and thousands of books. He finally found the bespectacled, yellow-clad emotion sitting in the centre of the huge library.
"Knowledge, Brave said you would know why Raven lost control of her powers. Would you mind telling me?" Beast Boy asked directly, not wanting to beat around the bush. Knowledge looked up and handed him the book she was holding. She opened the book and pointed at the image, which was moving. Beast Boy looked closely and realize that it was depicting the scene when they found Raven "hurting" Silkie.
Silkie, I'm trying to help. Concentrate, don't let your wild instincts take over. Beast Boy heard Raven's thoughts and the next thing he saw, Raven's face was rammed into the wall.
"That's the answer," said Knowledge, closing the book. "The impact had caused Raven's Chakra to crack. The chakra helps to maintain body, mind and soul, keeping them in perfect balance, so that nothing goes wrong. Now that it is damaged, the balance is disrupted, Raven's powers are therefore out of her control." Knowledge explained, saying it in a as a matter-of-fact manner.
"I knew it, Raven was not hurting Silkie, she was helping him!" Beast Boy let out a big smile. "Erm, then do you know how we can heal her Chakra?" Beast Boy changed the subject as Knowledge shot him disapproving looks.
"Sadly, that's the only thing I don't know about Raven" replied Knowledge, adjusting her glasses.
"Sorry to interrupt, but Timid's up and I think she knows where Raven is" Happy said cheerfully as she came from behind a bookshelf.
"Timid, do you know where Raven is?" Beast Boy asked softly, not wanting to make her cry. Timid nodded weakly and stood up so fast that she nearly fell. Brave wrapped her arms around Timid's shoulders, supporting her frail body.
Timid led them to a large pit and stopped. "Raven's down there." Timid pointed to the pit. Beast Boy looked into it and saw nothing but darkness.
"You better not go there, it's dark" cried Timid, who placed her hand on Beast Boy's arm and quickly drew back, afraid that he had been angered by her actions.
"I have to, Raven needs me. Don't worry, I'll be fine." He gave Timid a wink and plunged himself into the darkness.
"Aaaaah…" Beast Boy cried as he got engulfed in darkness. He rubbed his butt, easing the pain when he landed with a thud.
"Raven, where are you?" Beast Boy called out, unsure of where to go as he couldn't even see his own hands. A beam of light appeared from out of nowhere and Beast Boy decided to follow it. Raven was sitting in the light, her legs drawn up to her chest.
"Raven!" Beast Boy shouted as he ran towards her, relieved to find his Gothic queen.
Wham! Beast Boy banged hard into an invisible barrier. He looked closely and realized that Raven was enclosed by six glass-like walls, forming a hexagonal shape around her.
"Raven, let me in!" Beast Boy pounded hard on the walls trying to break them.
"Just leave me alone! Why do you even bother? Nobody ever does!" snapped Raven, raising her tear-stained face.
"Raven please, I want to help. I trust you, I know you didn't hurt Silkie. I know you did not purposely throw the T-car at Cinderblock. I believe whatever you say!" he pleaded, but Raven ignored him.
"No, Raven! Don't hurt yourself!" Beast Boy pounded harder as he saw a flash of silver. Raven took out a ceremonial dagger. She raised the left sleeve of her leotard and made a slit on her wrist, ignoring Beast Boy's pleas.
"Raven please, don't hurt yourself!" Best Boy banged hard onto the glass, making his hand ache.
"Why shouldn't I?" Raven let out a mock chuckle. "It would be a blessing to the world if I'm dead."
"Why do you always think no one care about you? I care Raven, I need you! I can't live without you!" He cried out, tears flowing down his green face. "I love you!" The glass shattered. Beast Boy rushed to Raven, who quickly backed off. Beast Boy wrenched the dagger from her hand and threw it aside. He wrapped his arms tightly around Raven, afraid he would lose her if he didn't.
"Go away!" Raven cried, pushing him away. Raven's efforts to get out of his grip only ended up tightening it. Beast Boy pulled her trembling body close to him, hoping to ease her pain.
"Why save me? I'm just a heartless demon. I can't feel, I can't love, Beast Boy!" Raven yelled at him, still struggling to get away from him.
"Raven you're not heartless, you feel. That's why you cry, that's why you feel hurt." Raven finally stopped struggling and sobbed into Beast Boy's chest. She leaned close, hoping to get every ounce of comfort from him. Beast Boy lifted her chin and looked deeply into her fearful violet eyes.
"You're not a demon, Raven. You are my angel, my queen. It pains to see you hurt."
"But Beast Boy, I…" Beast Boy placed a finger on her lips.
"My heart only beats for you, Raven" Beast Boy pulled her closer to his chest so that Raven could hear his heartbeats. "So let me love you Raven. Let me take care of you. Let me be part of your life." Raven nodded, touched by every word Beast Boy said.
Beast Boy released his grip on Raven and motioned her to sit on his lap. Raven complied, placing her head on his chest as Beast Boy tucked her head under his chin. Beast Boy held Raven's wrist with both of his hands and lifted it to his mouth, careful not to touch her cut. He stuck out his tongue and slowly moved it up and down her wound, swabbing it with his tongue. Raven blushed as his rough and wet tongue played on her wrist.
"That's the way animals care for their injured mates" joked Beast Boy, putting Raven's hand down gently. Raven smiled.
"Go Beast Boy, you made Raven laugh at your silly jokes" grinned Beast Boy. Raven wanted to laugh at his silliness but frowned when she saw his knuckles bleeding.
"Your turn to care for your injured mate!" joked Beast Boy, sticking out his right hand, which he had used to pound on the glass wall. Raven gave a wan smile and followed what Beast Boy had done for her.
Beast Boy couldn't stop staring at Raven. She was so gentle and kind, not to mention her beauty. His heart raced when he saw Raven licking his hand affectionately, her tongue swabbing his wound gently, careful not to hurt him.
"Did I hurt you?" asked Raven, wondering if she had done anything wrong when she found Beast Boy staring at her.
"Just looking at your beautiful face" Beast Boy answered. He caressed her right cheek with his left hand, eyes never leaving her face. Raven blushed, not knowing how to react.
"You remind me of Malchior" Raven said softly, her smile faded when she spoke his name. "He was always praising me, telling me how clever and beautiful I was." Beast Boy quickly pulled her into a hug with his left arm and kissed her eyes.
"Forget about that jerk Raven." Beast Boy said softly, rocking her slightly. "He's now trapped in a book and can never hurt you again. Forget about the past, Raven. Let me be your present, let me be your future."
"Just don't lie to me Beast Boy" she whispered timidly.
"I won't Raven, I promise." Beast Boy assured. "Now let's go back, the others must be worried."
"But Beast Boy, I…"
"I won't let anyone hurt you ever again Raven. I will protect you even if it costs my life."
"Really?" Raven asked, eyeing him hopefully like a three-year-old child.
"Really, I promise"
Beast Boy and Raven are finally back to the real world, in Raven's room. Night had fallen as they had been away for hours.
"Raven, you can now feel emotions right? I mean without losing control of your powers?"
"I'm not sure, but nothing has blown up so far."
"Only one way to find out!" Beast Boy grinned. Not giving Raven a chance to react, he leaned forward and sealed Raven's lips with his, taking her breath away. Raven blushed as his warm lips brushed past hers, a strange sensation tingling through her body.
"It's late Raven, go to sleep." he yawned.
"Wait! Please stay Beast Boy. I…I want to be with you." Raven pleaded, hoping he won't leave her.
"Of course I would like to stay. Just waiting for my queen's orders." Beast Boy grinned, wrapping his arms around her waist.
