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Previous Chapter…

I dropped my phone in shock. "Hello? Hello? Edward? I'm going to drop this. Bye!"

She placed the tray on the bed. She sat on my lap and kissed my cheek. She whispered, "Happy anniversary…"

I pulled her to face me. She smiled and kissed my nose.

I wanted to scream. I am happy but this is insane!

What the hell just happened?


Chapter 4. Dream or Reality?

EPOV

I stared at her with my mouth hanging open. Could I be that creative to make up a graphic nightmare that scared my ass and wits out of my body? How could I think of her, my angel, as a limp lifeless body? How could I…

My moment of serious pondering she lightly slapped me repeatedly.

"Earth to Eddie Baby… Come in Eddy Baby…" I jumped and because of my reaction she jumped to. I was totally unaware that she was trying to get my attention. Wait? What did she just call me?

"What did you just call me?!" I was puzzled. She knew I never liked being called Eddie. I feel it is so… Well never mind, you would never understand.

She gave a cute pout and gave an innocent look. "What do you want me to call you? Eddie-Weddie? Hmm… Wait! Eddie-Plum. I have a better one! Eddie Pie! So what do you think about−"

That is where I stopped her rambling. I knew she was trying to get my attention. I pulled her close and pressed my lips against hers. As we kissed, I recalled what worries me earlier. How foolish of me! It is all a dream and if not, she shouldn't be here.

I let her settle in my lap. I lightly brushed my nose on her ear lobe. She giggled. I know it was one of her tickle spot. I wrapped my arms around her and let myself feel serene and complete in her presence.

Silence filled our presence.

"Edward…" She started off unsure.

"Yes love?" I remained my eyes closed and let my chin rest on her shoulder.

"I have to go..." She tried to stand up but I held my grip firm so that she couldn't leave.

"I don't want to." I teased her playfully.

"Edward." She started to get annoyed.

"Hmmm?"

"I really have to go, I need to pick up a few things at the store." My eyes snapped open.

"NO!" I nearly shrieked. I pulled her closer to me and I held her tighter.

She raised an eyebrow at me. Her expression was a mixture of surprise, annoyance and most of all, worry.

"No…no…no…" I buried my face on her neck.

"Edward what's wrong? Are you okay?" She shook me. She tilted my chin up and brushed my cheeks softly. It was wet, I didn't notice that tears were flowing freely already.

"Love, please. Don't go." I pleaded, interlocking my hands with hers.

"Edward, what happened? Why are you so scared?" She never let the eye contact between us to break.

"Please. Just do it for me."

She slightly nodded and pulled me towards the pillows. She hugged me, letting me rest at her shoulders. Her arms were wrapped around me, to give me a sense of comfort and security I guess. She was worried but I'm glad she just took my statement understand me. Honestly, I don't know what made me react that way.

I closed my eyes and let myself relax. What should I tell her when she started asking questions? Should I say, "Bella love, I saw you die of a car accident which I don't know whether it was a dream or reality and now that you're alive, I don't want you to go out and let yourself killed?"

I smirked. Yeah. She will believe me for sure, great! The voice at the back of my mind retorted.

She started humming a tune. It was my lullaby that I sang to her when she has bad dreams. I guess she's using my own style of comfort to calm me down. I tried to let my mind alert. I wouldn't sleep. The tension is too great. I will just stay here and listen to my angel sing.

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I woke up groggily. The room is getting dark and the bit of sunlight has been fading slowly. I stared at it for a while.

I stood up reflexively when I thought of Bella.

Why didn't she wake me up?

I made my way down the long staircase.

"Bella? Bella?" I searched everywhere, the kitchen, the living room, the garden and every part of the house where she could possibly stay.

"Where is she?" I said to myself. I took the phone and dialed Alice.

It rang and somebody answered it. The other line was silent so I chose to speak first.

"Alice, do you know where Bella is?"

An uncontrollable sob became my answer.

"What's wrong Alice? Are you hurt? What happened? Answer me please." I began to plead.

Something is wrong and I knew it or do I?

"She's gone. She's gone. She's gone." Then her voice broke down and returned to sobbing.

I am confused. What is she talking about?

"Who's gone Alice? Calm down." I tried to comfort her but she was still frantic.

One word made me ran. "Bella."

I dropped the phone from my hand. I ran upstairs to get a pair of pant and a shirt. I knew where she is, how could she do this to me?

I ran downstairs and decided that I'm going to sprint to the hospital. I have no time to deal with a stupid cab man, I have to get there quick.

In the streets, I saw that people were staring at me. I wouldn't bother, now isn't the best time. The only person that caught my attention was the old man in the shadows. He was familiar and he was wearing a black hood.

I have no time to stop even though I want his explanation for giving me an antique watch.

I passed the alleyway and I looked back, the old man is gone. I wanted to stop and search for him but I don't have time to ponder why he disappeared so I moved on.

I reached the hospital and entered as fast as I could. The nurses were trying to get my attention, shouting my schedule for the next day. It was so annoying that I ignored them and threw the papers they were trying to show me.

I reached the inner entrance of the emergency room and there I saw Alice. She was curled up and still sobbing.

I stopped and panted heavily. I felt that I am going to collapse but I can't. I looked down and held my knees to keep me from falling. I have to be strong.

A hand was slowly rubbing my back. I glance up, it was my father pain-stricken.

"We did everything that we could…"

I ran inside the emergency room and saw a bed with a body covered with a white blanket.

My tears started to flow freely. I paused. Can I handle this?

I felt my knees give in and I fell on the hospital floor. I didn't lose consciousness, I was just exhausted.

How could I let her do this? I knew this was coming and I didn't do anything! What kind of husband am I? My angel is now lifeless, pale and covered with blood. I didn't protect her like I promised the day we first got together.

I am awful! I've been given a chance to change this but I didn't do anything. Instead, I made myself believe that this is impossible.

I closed my eyes to breathe deeply.

I felt two people trying to stand me up. I opened my eyes, it was Carlisle and Alice.

Using the remaining strength that I have, I stood up. I walked towards the bed slowly.

My heart started to thump irregularly and as I approach, its beating became faster and faster.

I reached the bed and I slowly touched the covers. I am waiting for people to shout, "YOU'VE BEEN PUNKED!" or something like that.

"Edward! Wait!" Alice stopped me. She grabbed my hand away from the covers.

She continued on. "Before you do this, she wanted to give you this…"

She took my hands and placed a leather black book with gold lining on it. It was beautiful.

Why is she giving me a present when my wife just died? Is she joking?

I think she noticed the argument that I have been making in my head. "It is not from me, it is from her."

She made a small pause and glanced at the body covered with white blanket. "Before she died, she told me to give you this. She said she was sorry that she didn't take your advise. She said that she will always love you and she will always be with you."

I began to sob uncontrollably. I am a man but this is too much for me. I just lost the reason of my existence.

I turned to face the bed and lifted the covers.

I stared at it.

There she was, pale and lifeless. Until her dying breath, she was still thinking of me. I caressed her cheek that would never blush for me again, her lips that would never smile again, her eyes that would never twinkle with joy anymore and I would never hear her angelic voice again.

Everything is too much for me.

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I can't remember how I got here. Maybe Alice had taken me home, I can't honestly remember. I am only aware that I will never let this journal go.

I opened the lamp and sat on a desk and opened the book.

The introduction surprised me, it was in Bella's handwriting.

My dearest Edward,

Let this journal relieve your happiest memories.

Share your thoughts, your dreams and your plans.

It will always listen like the way I listen to you.

I will be here for you always.

Forever yours,

Bella.

I wiped the tears that are starting to stream in my face. I will follow her last wish, I would write here.

I wrote until I felt that my hand is hurt and shaking, until my eyes were too tired to keep themselves open.

After my last entry, I fell asleep.

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I heard a knock on my door. I fell asleep on my desk.

My heart started to thump erratically. "Bella?"

The door opened. I turned around preparing myself for what I am going to see.


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