Sammy Finds Out (and so does the Demon)
Disclaimer: I have no claims to the show Supernatural, the characters or themes, I just like to play with the characters, tease, torture, caress and the rest!! Don't shoot the writer!
You don't have to read "The Truth about Dean Winchester" and "Elkins" as they are respectively parts 1 & 2 of this trilogy, but it really would help.
CHAPTER 04Previously: Note: How dare dad lay this on Dean no wonder he's been acting strange, I guess being told that you may have to kill your own brother can do that to you!!! Guess I don't need to continue this journal though I would like to know why I can't remember writing some of this and what I have forgotten from being a kid???? Nice to know Dean is not under the control of a demon lol man maybe Dean is right I think too much.
Dean was mad, mad as Hell and getting way past annoyed. How dare Sam do this to his baby. Dean decided that Sam was being childish, and so he would be childish too, I mean four flat tyres on the impala was a no-go area in fact the impala was a no- go area and finding Sam's wallet at the scene of the crime as Dean put it was the last straw. So he was about to accidentally give his little brother a taste of itching power he would never forget, we are not just talking pants here but shirts, vest, underwear, in fact every single bit of clothing the boy had, when Dean found it, buried at the bottom of Sam's underwear collection even beneath his beatles albums which Dean viewed as a tragic waste of money. What did Dean find and spend the next half hour reading, and deciding what to do - Sam's Journal. As he read though it, Dean realized that very soon Sam would link up the dots and discover the truth Dean was determined to now hide from him, so Dean decided to do again what he had done so many years ago when Sam would not let him go on any hunts, when Sam would worry all the time, when Sam's grades where slipping because he was only paying attention to know where Dean was, he Dean Winchester would make Sam forget.
Now when young dean first thought of this, as a solution, he had worried that it might go south for the winter, so instead of just plowing in and doing it, Dean took about a week to ask first his dad John, and then Bobby, and Jim if there was any other way, but also if they could back him up and make sure everything went according to plan. At first they where against it and worried about Dean for suggesting it, but Jim looked at how Sam was behaving and realized that Dean was doing this out of Love for his brother knowing that Sam's behavior was not alright in any sense of the word. So Jim agreed much to the shock of Bobby and John, in fact he backed Dean in his idea and together they set about a plan on how to do this. Eventually it was decided that instead of removing the memories of Dean's disappearance and of the Elkins/vampire meeting, Dean would give Sam a subconscious order to shelve the memories and cover that with a vague memory of a great time at pastor Jim's, you know fishing, hunting, picnics, i.e. the usual things that Pastor Jim let them do when John was on a hunt. Of course John was shocked to discover that training was not the high priority at Jim's house that it was when the boys where with their father and John promised to remind Jim that training had to be done first and above all else, which Jim got reminded of every time he got left with the boys after that. In fact John went so far as to make a training schedule and got Dean to promise to keep to it, but that's another story.
Anyway Dean did realized that his earlier subconscious order to Sam was still working when he read that Sam could not remember writing some of the journal entries, so Dean figured all he had to do was reinforce the order a little and then everything would be ok. Dean decided to do this while searching the sewers, of course they had started off searching together, but when the search was finished and they had found nothing, Dean suddenly spun Sam around and locked eyes with him. Then he begun speaking softly and slowly burying the memories of writing a journal, burying the memories of the little things Dean did that got noticed by Sam and implanting the suggestion that they would no longer bother him at all. When dean had finished he told Sam that they had started searching from opposite sides of the campus and that Sam had found nothing and could return to the motel room and rest. Now Dean had decided that he could still not allow Sam to get away with hurting his baby so he decided he would confront Sam with the evidence (his wallet), saying he had found it on leaving the sewer instead of before, and then go from there. Of course he could not tell Bobby that he had fooled around with Sam's memory so he was a little glad when Bobby did not press him on separating when in the sewers.
You might be fair in thinking that that would be the end of the story but things are never that simple in the Supernatural world and for Dean the really problems started when Sam decided that he would try to make up for the fight caused by the trickster by cleaning and sorting out the weapons in the back of the Impala, while Dean was at a Bar earning some cash and digging up a date. Sam knew that Dean would not be back tonight so this would be a nice surprise for him. It was while he was taking a few weapons in for cleaning when he saw a journal he did not recognize, yet was written in what was his own handwriting, or at least looked like it, so he decided to take it in with him. On opening the journal and starting to read, Sam realized that he did not remember writing any of this, in fact he thought it might be a clever trick by Dean to teach him a lesson some time in the future but that thought did not make sense. It was when he read his own notes about his memory problem that some unbidden memories started to float to the surface, one of which was being infront of a burned out wreck of a building, in the back of the impala crying his heart out, but he could not remember why he was crying. On a Impulse he jotted down in the Journal the sketchy memories that came to him over the next 2 hours while drinking several cups of coffee from the hotel room coffee maker. On reading them back Sam could not believe some of the entries, one or two are listed below.
Memory 1: Crying my eyes out in front of a wreck of a building, looks as if it was hit by a bomb. I am not alone but I can't see Dean anywhere, then I realized that I see my father and Jim - Dad is on his knees crying - Note: Must be wrong Dad never cried???
Memory 2?: A telephone booth but I can't get my feet to move towards it. Then I see Jim hit Dad. Note: This is weird Jim never hit anyone???
Memory 3: Eating Coffee ice-cream with Dad and Dean but Dean is having vanilla and I am kidding him about drinking coffee but not eating it. Note: Elkins is with us, but I never heard of Elkins let alone met him at that age.
Memory 4: I feel so weak and cold, but Dean is there and he's so angry. Then suddenly Dean kills a vampire girl who is talking to him. I look at him and his eyes are glowing green and his mouth looks funny, then everything goes black. Note: I don't understand is this a new version of a vision??? We first met vampires with Gordon didn't we??? I must ask Dean about this...
After writing down everything that the flashes of memory showed him, Sam realized it was about eleven and he was tired, so putting the Journal on the sideboard, he went to bed, and dreamed.
Next Chapter: Sam figures it out and confronts Dean.
