A/N Next chapter of Because of you getting posted early thanks to the wonderful people who all reviewed, favourited and followed my story.

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Previously On...

Because of You, I Never Strayed Too Far From The Sidewalk

"Dean hello" Castiel replied, smile already in place across the other man's face as he faced his boss making Balthazar grip his fingers tight into fists, wondering just how quickly Castiel could have forgotten about him when they had only been talking just minutes ago.

"Dean, I would like you to meet someone" Castiel continued that second, Balthazar feeling a quick smirk make its way onto his face as he sat down again this time next to Castiel as Dean sat himself across from the two, Balthazar smirking to himself at how Dean seemed to be almost scared to find out who this new guy was.

Well good, Balthazar thought to himself as he slowly wrapped a arm around Castiel's waist holding him close as Castiel continued.

"Dean, this is Balthazar. Balthazar I want you to meet my boss, Dean Winchester and Dean Winchester, this is Balthazar Roche, my boyfriend."

Chapter 4

My boyfriend, my boyfriend, my boyfriend.

Dean could only stare straight ahead, not trusting himself to speak as Castiel's words left his lips, had Castiel really just said that or was he imaging things again.

Blinking his eyes a couple of times to wish away the tears that were wanting to flow from him, Dean instead forced his mouth quickly up into a small smile, reaching his hand out to Balthazar's to shake who instantly shook his back, saying he was pleased to meet him to which Dean could only reply in the same kind, trying to understand just how exactly he had missed the fact that all this time Castiel had a boyfriend and he hadn't seen it at all, how could he have missed the most important fact.

Forcing another smile onto his face, Dean took a couple of deep breaths to himself, staring straight at Castiel and Balthazar who seemed to be lost in conversation for a couple of seconds before with a final word, Balthazar slowly kissed Castiel on the lips, Castiel replying back to the kiss and wrapping an arm around Balthazar's waist before pulling away and Balthazar stood from his seat, heading back to the counter, Dean doing his best to glare fully at the man before turning his attention back to Castiel who was staring at Dean with a confused look on his face almost as if he were unsure of how Dean was feeling.

"Dean, are you okay?" Castiel asked quietly, reaching a hand out, ready to touch Dean's but Dean pulled right away, not wanting to feel Castiel's hand on his own when that douche-bag Balthazar had just had his hands over Castiel. It made him feel in a word dirty.

"Dean?" Castiel asked again, his head titling again in confusion at how different Dean had seemed to be acting ever since he had found that Castiel had a boyfriend, was Dean homophobic.

Pretending to look at his phone for something to do, Dean jumped from his seat in the next second like it had shocked him, picking up Jo's baby-chair in the next and calling a stupid excuse of how Sam was coming over to babysit today so Castiel wasn't needed before running for the exit, careful to save his tears for when he was back in the car, Jo all buckled in and ready to go as Dean sat in the car park, letting his tears flow and thumping his hand against the steering wheel a few times trying to understand how he could have been as stupid as to imagine that someone like Castiel could really be single or at least attracted to him.

Thumping his hand against the steering wheel once more, Dean surprised himself as he broke into another wash of tears, the images of Balthazar pulling Castiel close and kissing him invading his thoughts and making Dean feel stupid.

He had been silly to think that Castiel could ever have been anything more than an employee, even stupider to think that Castiel would ever be into a low-life single father like himself, he didn't exactly scream relationship material and this just added another nail on the head, Castiel was with someone else and had been for a long time by the looks of it, he was stupid to think that anything more could really have happened between them.

Turning his keys in the ignition, Dean almost screamed in agony as the beginnings of REO Speedwagon's, Can't Fight This Feeling started to play away in the car, Dean wanting nothing more than to die right there and then, every word mentioned in the song was correct for himself about Castiel.

He couldn't fight it anymore. He Dean Winchester was in love with Castiel 'Freaking' Novak and had been ever since he had met the man only weeks ago.

Wiping quickly at his tears to make sure that they wouldn't be too noticeable, Dean turned down the sound on his stereo, blocking out the voice of REO Speedwagon, turning the ignition over again and putting his impala in reverse as he backed out of the Starbucks car park, his mind already moving onto heading home and thinking about how exactly he was going to tell Castiel something that would stop the other man from continually asking him what had been the matter with him and why Dean had run out of the coffee shop without rising any suspicious questions from Castiel.

Trying to forget about that for the moment, Dean plucked his phone from his pocket, already seeing a myriad of texts from Castiel asking him what was wrong and where he went to and why he had taken off in a hurry, if he was okay.

Pressing delete on the messages, Dean pulled up his call list instead, searching down the list for the one name he knew he could phone at his time in need and know that he wouldn't get any judgement from.

Hitting call, Dean listened to the phone ring a few times before being picked up by voice-mail and Dean waited for the beep informing him he could speak and he started to talk into the phone hearing his voice crack a few times through his one-sided conversation until with a single word, Dean hung up, stopping at a side in the road as he felt the tears build up again and instead of trying to deny it like he normally would, instead he let the tears loose for once, hitting the steering wheel again for good measure and letting loose the cry's that he had been wishing to unload ever since he had met Castiel Novak.

It was just all for the wrong reasons.


Five Weeks Later

"Dean! I'm back" Sam yelled out into the already quiet living room as he dropped his keys into the dish bowl by the front door, kicking his shoes off as he went, already plodding into his older brother's room as he knew that just like it had been for five weeks straight, Dean would be still be in his bed, curled up and refusing to eat or drink, refusing to do anything other than just lay there and look at the ceiling like it was all his fault and refuse to answer anyone's texts or phone calls for fear that it may be Castiel.

Stopping in the doorway to his brothers room, Sam placed his body against the frame, eyes already filling with worry as he saw Dean lying in a heap of blankets, knees curled up to his chest and a small shiver escaping him every so often as he cried, Sam not really knowing what do as he had never seen his brother like this.

Sure he had had his grievance when Lisa had died but he had had to move on and deal with the fact that Lisa was gone and wouldn't ever be coming back and that he now had a small baby girl to look after, another mouth to feed, someone else to look after apart from himself.

This time around however, Dean was behaving as if he would have if Lisa had died and the baby had too, he was grieving for all the right reasons and acting like he didn't care that anyone could see him crying, he just didn't care about anything at all anymore.

"Dean?" Sam called out softly, despite knowing that Dean would just completely ignore him and continue to cry into his pillow, almost like he was the only one in existence who could be feeling this bad.

When Sam was once again met with silence from Dean, he turned on the spot, heading into Jo's old room, he had moved the youngster out to stay with Bobby whilst he tried to get Dean to try and at least speak or leave his bed, maybe even eat something but so far, nothing had worked and he was slowly loosing control of how what else he could truly do to really help out his brother.

When Sam had received a missed call and voice-mail from his brother almost five weeks ago stating that he had fucked it all up with Castiel and that he wasn't good enough for the other man, Sam had instantly left Stanford without telling anyone where he was going and he hadn't returned for those five weeks now once he had finally seen the state that Dean was really in.

In a word, Dean was completely head over heels in love with Castiel, his friend and because of the fact that Castiel had a boyfriend, Sam had seen the two of them sitting in Starbucks, laughing together and kissing, Balthazar for some reason had seemed a lot more into it than Castiel, maybe it was just his imagination but Castiel didn't seem to be just as into the whole kissing and groping thing that Balthazar seemed to prefer, Dean didn't know what to do with himself, he had taken to curling himself into a small ball and wouldn't leave his room.

Sam could still remember how the day after he had gotten to Dean's house how Dean had received a phone call and took it quickly, his whole face going white and then throwing the phone back onto the night-stand, a fresh wave of tears in his eyes that had worried Sam more than he thought possible.

After a couple of days, Dean had phoned Castiel up quickly to just inform the man that his services were no longer required and had hung up straight away, not wanting to hear any reply from Castiel, a sure sign that had Sam more worried than he thought humanly possible.

What could have caused Dean to start to behave like that?

His brother had been so good before that one phone call, who had it been from?

For the next couple of days Sam tried his hardest to get Dean to talk or leave his bed, even making him a full apple pie that he knew Dean could never turn down but Dean did indeed turn down the pie in question just by shaking his head, not even removing his head from his pillow, nor even fully moving his head from side to side fully, just a short backwards and forwards.

On the fifth day of the fifth week, Sam finally had had enough.

That morning he had awoken to Dean's screams from the room just next to his, how he could hear Dean thrashing around on his bed, screaming at the top of his lungs, almost like he were afraid to move any further or make less noise.

Sam had gotten up just as he usually did and padded down into the kitchen, flipping the coffee maker on as Dean's screams died down into soft whimpers and Sam could do nothing but close his eyes against the noise knowing that even if he did try to talk to Dean about it, he would get no word from Dean in return.

His hand shaking slightly as he poured the coffee into one of Dean's old cups with a little batman symbol on it, Sam eventually got the best of the coffee into a cup and raised the mug to his lips, taking a small sip and not even bothering to wince as the roasting liquid ran down his throat before he turned to the toaster and placed two bits of bread into it, his eyes widening when he took in the picture attached to the fridge that he was sure he had never seen before.

It was a picture of Dean and Castiel a few days after Castiel had started working for Dean and Sam had quickly taken the picture to annoy the crap out of Dean who had an arm wrapped around Castiel's shoulder with a loving look in his eyes and if Sam was correct in thinking, the same look was reflected back in Castiel's own eyes as Castiel leaned against Dean, his own arm swung around Dean's waist.

Just as he tried to think more of what this could possibly mean, Sam felt his phone start to vibrate on constant in his pocket, informing him that he had a phone call.

Pulling his mobile out of his pocket and placing his phone down onto the work-top, Sam could only stare down at the phone in disbelief as his eyes took in the name sprawled straight across the top of the screen informing Sam as to who was phoning him right now.

Castiel.


A/N Hey guys, another Cliffhanger here but don't worry, things will start to make sense soon as to why there are so many cliffhangers. Hope you are all still enjoying and don't forget to review with your thoughts and what you think might happen soon.

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