Here's the 4th chapter guy's, damn i'm on a role with this, I mean seriously, i'm writing these fast. So, as always *Inhales deeply* (Insert annoying worthless ass self promotion here.) please review like/fav/follow if you like the story, if you follow and fav you'll get an email when I upload another chapter for story for those that don't know, thanks for all who have supported me and as always ENJOY!
A very displeased pink haired teen was opening the door to his penthouse and practically slammed the door shut, then stormed off to his room with a rather pissed off expression I might add. He face planted into his pillow and kept muttering "damnit, damnit, damnit, damnit, DAMNIT!" With the last one he screamed it and punched the wall, thus making a hole in it. Natsu removed his face from his pillow and looked at the newly formed hole in the wall and said "Well shit."
Just then Igneel busted through Natsu's door "What the hells goin on here?!" Igneel glanced at Natsu's fist firmly placed into the new hole in the wall. Igneel grew less tense and sighed as he started to run his hand through his red locks "Wanna talk about it?" Natsu just laid there and stared at his father with a 'Are-you-fucking-kidding-me?' expression on his face. He then removed his fist from the wall and sat up right, crossing his legs and said "Fine, but your not gonna like it."
Igneel then walked towards Natsu's bed and sat next to him "So, why are you this pissed?" Natsu's bangs where covering his eyes, his head was slanted, it looked like he was staring at a part of his room where the white carpet met the wall "It's my damn emotions." Igneel raised a brow "Lucy again?" Natsu nodded slightly, still looking mad, then he sighed deeply "I went to help her study and I heard she broke up with Sting and Gray and that she was crying herself to sleep every night. My emotions went like 'holy fucking shit this is your chance DO IT!' I responded by bombarding my thoughts with the only thing she gave me, pain." This time Igneel sighed "Natsu, why won't you chase after her like me and your mother told you to?"
"I tryed that already, then this, thing died," Natsu placed his hand where his heart would be and clenched his fist ruffling his tanktop "it won't stop making false hope, it wants her, I want her, but it's so damn PAINFUL!"
"Son, love is painful at times, you gotta experince the bad to get the good. Sometimes something might look bad on the surface, but deep down, if you get a good look at things, it ain't as bad as you thought, hell sometimes it brings somethin good."
"That's not what i'm talkin about dad, every time i'm with her, it feels painful. My mind and heart are constantly fighting over what to do, go after Lucy and feel more pain, or stop and let my emotions die and wither into nothingness and feel nothing like I should. But no, this thing just HAD to start beating again."
"Natsu, seriously, just chase after her, I chased after your mother and look how things turned out." Natsu face palmed
"That's your experience dad, not everyone's is the same, mine and yours are COMPLETELY different. I want to chase after her, but I don't at the same time, I just freeze every time I see a chance. I remember the pain she brought, and I don't want to be hurt like that again, I hate pain."
"So your afraid of feeling even more pain?"
"Isn't it obvious? Of fucking course I am!" Natsu sighed "For the record, i'm not gonna chase after her, I just needed to get pent up frustration out." Igneel rubbed Natsu's head like most fathers do and shot a wide grin "That's fine, you'll realize just how much you need her and chase after her sooner or later."
"Seriously dad?"
"Yes. Now I don't know about you but i'm hungry, want some takeout?"
"It better be chicken."
"Yeah yeah I know." then igneel walked out of Natsu's room, phone in hand calling who the fuck knows to order takeout since Grandine was working late.
Natsu then pulled out his smartphone to only be greeted with a bunch of fucking messages "What the hell guys?" there where only "You feelin better yet?" and "If you need to talk call me." then there's Gray's messages, "Oi, we need to talk, call me."
"Why the hell is he still in my contacts?" Natsu asked himself out loud. Then he laid down on his bed "I need to think of something to get my mind off all this...pain." Natsu's face sunk into depression as well as his thoughts, only being able to think about Lucy "I fucking told you to stop already emotions..." but it was in vain, as the thoughts didn't stop, they only intensafiyed. "Tch."
After that little episode Natsu ate the takeout his dad ordered and went to sleep, he just wasn't feeling right. On the next day Natsu decided he'd just practice basketball, that always got things off his mind, focusing on something else helps sometimes. So, Natsu threw on a pair of black shorts and his white tanktop grabbed his basketball and headed to the closest court he could find.
Once Natsu got there he started practicing alone, shooting, dribbling, and shadow ankle breaking, (It's shadow boxing except he's breaking peoples ankles instead, if you don't know what the term ankle break is, it's where when you have the ball and make someone fall on their ass.) Then a group of people saw Natsu practicing on the court he was at, there where multiple courts but Natsu chose the one in the far back so no one would disturb him, but that failed, since the group was now walking over to him.
Natsu continued to mind his own business and continue practicing, but that failed because the group of 5 where now watching Natsu pratice, so, he showed off a little by shooting a half court. After the ball hit the floor he placed his hands in his pockets, he looked at the group and asked "What do you want?"
"If your this good then how come your not playing any of the street matches?"
"I don't know, maybe I want to practice alone?"
"So your training alone, your training is so hardcore that you don't even bother with us? Like you can beat us."
"I don't think my trainning's hardcore I know it's hardcore, and I can beat all you in a 1v5, do me a favor and accept so I can kick your arogent face back into the dirt where it belongs."
"Oh? Cocky aint'cha? Alright let's go." (Like I said in the first chapter, I can't write basketball scenes _)
Everyone was panting except for Natsu, he just stood there and looked at the hunched over and panting like their life depended on it group of 5. Natsu had won the 1v5 347 to 0 in Natsu's favor. "How-the fuck-are you THIS GOOD?!"
"I just am." Natsu decided he was done with training at the public courts, so he headed to the school gym since anyone in the basketball team can use it to train whenever they want. After a while Natsu couldn't focus on training anymore, his mind just wouldn't stop flooding images and thoughts of Lucy in his face, or mind, or, whatever. So Natsu decided to head home, on his way back he grabbed a bite to eat from mc donalds or something. When he was walking he saw Gray with Lucy, Gray with Lucy. "Tch, so she lied to me? Or are they just hanging out as friends? Wait why do I even CARE?!" Natsu sighed "Damnit I know why, I can't stop thinking about her, her perfect smile that can make my heart melt, those perfect chocolate orbs that look like they can rival the stars in the galaxy, her vinilla strawberry scent, her silky blond shoulder length hair,and her voice, oh God her voice, I just love hearing her talk, she sounds so, cute, she's just, perfect... and I can't have her..."
Then Gray bought her and Lucy some ice cream and she smiled, she fucking, SMILED! After a while of Natsu hanging out with Lucy for a while and falling for her, he can tell if she's genuinely happy, and from the look of that smile, she was. Natsu was just standing a bit away and watching the entire scene unfold, his bangs covering his eyes so no one could see what he looked like. Lucy finished her ice cream and noticed Natsu, standing there, and he saw what just happened unfold. Once Lucy noticed this her eyes widened and placed a hand over her mouth "Lucy you oka-" that's when Gray noticed Natsu standing there, bangs covering his eyes, fists clenched, but soon stopped, it's as if Natsu had truly died inside, and he just couldn't feel anything anymore. Lucy started running towards Natsu, when she was about 20 feet away from him, Natsu started running, Lucy swore she saw some tears glistening in the sunlight. "Natsu! Wait!" Lucy tried to keep up with the obviously heartbroken and betrayed teen, but as she kept shouting his name, he picked up his pace, until she could no longer see him in her sights, she collapsed onto the ground and started weeping a little "Why can't something go right for once?"
"I swear we all have a knack for wrong place wrong time. Come on Lucy, we still gotta finish shopping." Lucy wiped what little tears she had left and stood up "Yeah, let's just finish shopping."
Natsu on the other hand, just kept running "Why? Why? WHY!? WHY DOES SHE HAVE THIS KIND OF EFFECT ON ME?! WHY DOES IT HURT SO FUCKING MUCH?! WHY?!" Natsu kept moving through the crowds of people, slipping through tiny cracks people left. Natsu didn't know just where he was running off to, he just kept running, afraid that if he stopped, all the pain he's felt will just come crashing back into his face.
Natsu just wanted some peace and fucking quite for once this entire damn day, not some punks trying to act tough, not seeing, that, and certainly not anything at all, he just wanted to be left alone. So, Natsu went back to his penthouse since it was pretty damn late. Once Natsu got home he went straight to bed, no dinner, no socializing with his parents, nothing, he just slamed his face into his pillow and tryed to not let the tears that where threatening to burst out at any second come out. But that failed, and he ended up crying himself to sleep that night.
Natsu's phone alarm went off, without even moving anything but his right arm he turned his phone off, grogaly sat up with bags under his eyes, while looking half dead "Time to start another day in hell." then put on his white tanktop and black jeans then went to school, holding his backpack on his left shoulder while keeping his right hand in his pocket.
In school, oh damn Natsu got worse after seeing what happened yesterday. Lucy kept glancing at Natsu in english class, feeling guiltyer than she already felt. The life in Natsu's eyes COMPLETELY vanished, he didn't even look half dead half angry, just full on dead with his eyes half closed all the time. But he kept acting like he normally did, well, as normally as like just without any emotion at all.
"What happened Lu-chan? Natsu looks worse now."
"He saw me shopping with Gray."
"Oh, well, can't fix that right now huh?"
"I don't even know what to do anymore Levy-chan. Every time I see him, my heart just plummets straight into my stomach, I feel like crying every time I see him, i'm afraid to even make a move on him."
"You shouldn't be afraid to make a move on him Lu-chan, i'm sure that deep down, and I mean really deep down, that he still loves you!" Lucy sighed and glanced back at Natsu, who had his chin placed on his hand supporting his head while writing something down on a piece of paper, probably the English test.
"Don't worry Lu-chan. You'll get your chance to talk to him in a few days." Lucy sighed
"I hope your right Levy-chan."
For the rest of the day in school it just felt really reallllly awkward for the two. Considering that they had every class together and that they sat right next to each other in pretty much every class, except for art and English.
Once school was over, Lucy waited at the school gates for Natsu to walk her home. At first he didn't show up. Then 10 minutes passed, then 30, then and hour passed. By then Lucy decided to try another day and went home wondering if Natsu went home already.
The day after that was no different. Natsu never showed up at the schools front gates. This time Lucy waited an hour and a half for Natsu to show. Feeling sad that Natsu didn't show, Lucy went home alone, again. The next day wasn't much different either, Lucy waited at the front gates for Natsu, this time waiting 2 hours before heading home. She just kept feeling worse than she already did every time she went home without Natsu. Lucy kept thinking "What if he shows up at the front gates and i'm not there?"
The next day wasn't any different either, same as usual. Natsu looking dead in every class he was in, and overall looking dead. Every time Lucy saw Natsu like that, or just saw him at all, she felt like running, she wanted to run and keep on running until her problems wern't in sight, But she couldn't, it was partly her fault why this is all happening in the first place, she acknowledged that and kept on trying to face her problem. But she couldn't, and that made her feel all the more terrible in the process. Natsu not showing up at the front gate to walk her home. This time Lucy waited 3 hours before heading home, and when she went home, she felt like crying the whole way home, hell some tears even made it out from behind her eyes and fell down her cheeks.
Then on the next day she waited 4 hours, gripping her backpacks strap tightly and clenching her teeth, feeling like she was about to cry. She decided she had enough, and instead of just going home without Natsu, she started looking for him, while it was raining, and it was raining HARD. Lucy checked the english room, nothing. Then art room, nothing. She even checked his new spot on the roof of the school he eats lunch at, nothing. She was running around the entire school, she had searched the entire place until she had one place left, the gym. As she was walking towards the gym in the cold hard rain, she spotted the dome shaped building, and she saw a little speck of something running, no, not running, more like, jogging. Once Lucy got a little closer, no more than about 50 feet from it, she noticed it was a drastically fatigued Natsu. He looked like he was about to collapse on the spot, but he didn't, he just kept jogging in the cold and un-wavering rain.
Lucy just stood there in the rain, not even caring that she was getting soaked, she was probably going to have a cold later. Lucy couldn't see Natsu's facial expression for the life of her because his bangs where covering his eyes. But she did see how his mouth was positioned. It looked like something of extreme dread, that of emotional and physical pain at it's worst all at once. Lucy could vaguely make out what his eyes looked like judging from his mouth looking like that, his mouth was closed, but Lucy could see that he just wanted to clench his teeth in sadness, so he just kept it in a slight frown, not to intense looking, but if you look at it for a good little bit, it looks like that person has been through hell and back.
Then something happened Lucy couldn't bare to see happen. Natsu slipped because the floor of the outside of the gym was drenched in rain water. Natsu just laid there for about 10 seconds, then he sluggishly re-positioned his arms to push himself off the ground, moving his legs to force the center of gravity to his toes so he can stand up. But it didn't work, Natsu had just slipped again, having the right side of his face slam right into the cold pavement. He tried a couple more times to stand up, but once he failed for the 5th time, he sluggishly started to do push-ups. Lucy couldn't believe what she was seeing right now, she placed her hand over her chest and clenched her fist, like something had just stabed her. She then started to cry heavily, tears mixing with the rain as she continued to watch Natsu sluggishly do push-ups. How he was working through the fatigue was beyond her, then, Natsu's basketball coach, Aida Riko walked up behind her and placed an umbrella over both of their heads saying "It's sad, isn't it?"
Lucy asked with nothing but sadness in her voice "Why? Why is he doing this?" Riko just sighed, then walked right beside Lucy and began watching Natsu as she finally got up and sluggishly kept doing push-ups"I kept telling him not to work his body like he has. He just keeps practicing day in and day out, not even going home. He said 'I don't care if my body's gonna collapse on me, going through that kind of physical pain is better than constantly thinking about something I can't get off my mind.' I don't know what happened to make him like this, but it's destroyed him in every possible way. The only reason he keeps doing what he's doing, is because this is all on instinct."
"Instinct?"
"Yes, instinct. His brain is on autopilot right now. The reason why he hasn't collapsed yet or gone insane is because he brain keeps telling him to press on through the pain, afraid that once he stops, all that pain'll just come crashing right in his face. So he is constantly reminded of why he can't stop no matter how much pain he's in right now, because once he stops, he'll feel 20 times, actually I can't even scale how much worse he'll feel once he collapses, but it's gonna hurt like hell once he does. Come on, i'll take you home, you really don't want to see Natsu right now." Lucy just stood there, a river of tears streaming down her face along with the water in her hair that couldn't absorb it. Eventually she decided she had enough and said "Thanks." and started to walk home with Riko.
The next day Lucy just felt really horrible, she looked like she was on the brink of crying the entire day. She was trailing behind Natsu by about 15 feet, then Erza walked up to her, and saw that her bangs where covering her face as she was staring at Natsu with her head tilted down slightly. Once she finished noticing that, Erza walked up to Natsu and placed a hand on his left shoulder "Natsu..." all Natsu did was pick up his pace and walked fast enough to have Erza's hand removed from his shoulder and to where he was to far away for Erza to finish saying what she had to say.
Erza walked back towards Lucy and said "Just give him some time, i'm sure he'll be over this in a little while." Lucy was now walking with Erza to science class then Lucy said in an above whisper tone to where only Erza could hear "You haven't seen what I've seen, he's long gone, and he isn't coming back..." as she was saying this, her voice became more jagged, like she was about to burst into tears with just by saying Natsu's name in her presence.
Until it was lunch time it just felt wrong for Lucy to be around Natsu, yet it felt right at the same time because she loves him, and felt wrong because she had hurt him so much. At lunch, everyone tried to reassure Lucy that Natsu does in fact love her. Then she told them about what she saw the day before and what his basketball teams coach told her. A lot of people where beginning to second guess themselves on the fact if Natsu still loves Lucy. Only Levy and Gajeel and Gray seemed to be convinced, Gajeel was probably convinced because his beloved 'Shrimp' was dead serious that he is.
"Well," Loke re-adjusted his glasses then continued "if things with natsu don't work out you always got m-"
"Don't finish that sentence Loke." Loke just kept his mouth hanging open as if he where going to say something, but after a second he shut his mouth and didn't say anything, afraid that he'd get kicked in the gut by Gray if he said anything else.
Once the day was over, Lucy just went straight home, continuously feeling depressed and upset over what she had seen the other day. After a few days Lucy was debating weather or not to confront Natsu today, then she noticed that a certain pink haired male was absent, and has been absent for a while now. Lucy payed no mind to the fact that Natsu had been absent for a few days not. On the first day she thought he just slept in or didn't want to go to school that day. But once it was day 4, she realized something, Natsu never went home after school was over, he just kept practicing day in and day out.
On her way home, Lucy worked up the courage to call Natsu to see just what the hell is going on, no answer. She called for a second time, no answer, Lucy grew increasingly fearful as the seconds Natsu doesn't answer his phone flew by. Once Lucy had called for the 5th or 6th time, someone picked up the phone.
"Hello?"
"Natsu? Oh thank goodness you picked up, I thought-"
"Sorry, but i'm not Natsu, i'm his father, who are you?"
"I'm Lucy, and why do you have Natsu's phone?"
"Natsu collapsed 4 days ago and has been in the ER since Monday."
"What?"
WHY NATSU IS ACTING LIKE HE IS! Okay, so, the reason Natsu is acting like he is, is because he's been hurt by Lucy so much that he decided he's done. But he still loves her deep down, even if he sees a chance to go after her, he hesitates and doesn't do anything, afraid that if he chases after Lucy, he'll just go through even more pain than before.
So what'd you think of the chapter? Hate me for these cliffhangers yet? I know, i'm evil. Anyway, thanks for reading, i'm just gonna go pass out and wake up at 7 in the morning to be tortured for math so I can retake my final math exams, yes, exams, 3 to be exact, and to take an english final exam. But that ain't gonna stop me from failing and givin you guys the chapters you deserve, so see ya next chapter!
