The motorcade pulled into the White House. The driver opened the door for my godmom then rushed to open the door for me. Abby was waiting for me, she ran to me pulling me into a tight embrace.
"I know you don't like to be touched without permission but I've been so worried about you and your well being. Liv...please let me in. I care about you."
"I'll think about it." I wrapped one arm around her real quick and pulled away.
"Abby this is my godmother. Mom this is my…beat friend Abby." I knew she was beaming at me calling her best friend. It's not that I don't care about her, and don't think of her as a close friends it's just everyone I get attached to emotionally goes awat, hurts me, or just are miles away where the only time we see each other is on the holidays. Fitz was and still is a perfect mistake just like the baby I once carried. Our baby was a perfect mistake that changed our lives, forever. We walked to the residence my heart was running around in my stomach screaming like the world is ending. Hal opened the door as we approached. I told myself it'll be fine, that I would keep my cool and distant for my sake. I walked in first, Huck saw me first Harrison was talking to Fitz so, Fitz back was to me. Quinn said my name like I would run if she acknowledged my present. That got Harrison's attention and I knew he was waiting to hear her voice.
"Hi, everyone." Fitz slowly turned around looking at me like I was a ghost. No, he wasn't looking at me, he was looking at my stomach that carried our creation for a short while. I didn't believe in crying or showing emotion but I couldn't help but tear up. He started to come closer and I could feel my tears fighting me to escape.
"Stop." I whispered. I knew he needed me but I couldn't. He froze.
"I…I...I can't. Do this. I can't do it Fitz." I turned to leave.6
"You don't get to do that. To run away. Olivia…You promised me. Olivia you hid my child's death and you let me go through this alone. I needed YOU and YOU WEREN'T there! You're never there because you can't, what? Love me? You took my love and gave me nothing in return. Have you ever loved me?" I swirled around.
"Don't you dare do that! I'm trying Fitzgerald but need I remind you that I was your side, I got you when you were horny while that…that b*tch got you whenever. She can carry your children for a full 9 months and I can't even carry our child for 3 months. I always run because YOU ARE A MISTAKE. My best mistake I can't do something so natural for a woman while she can so, I'm going to fix this mess and your going to stay with her and have children and enjoy your life without me and my pain that comes with loving me." I let the tears soak my face.
"She's not my anything and you will not destroy my life because you can't fix yours. There's no happily ever after with her. If you don't want me just say it. I'm tired of the mixed signals so I'm going to end this. You can leave my life Olivia. Have a good life, Ms. Pope." We stood there staring at each other. My move. 'You can leave my life, Olivia.' was on repeat. 'Is this what I want?'
"No." I said.
"No?" He responded.
"I'm tired of crying and hurting. I am tired of laying alone and putting up a face for everyone. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of this life. Watching you prance around with Mellie and not me. I want you and Vermont."
"Livvie?" Fitz whispered.
"I want you and Vermont now. Not later, not after this. I want a fat chubby baby with you." I didn't care my team was hearing this I was tired of pretending and faking happiness that I didn't have.
"I love you, baby. Whatever you want you can have." I ran to Fitz, he quickly engulfed me in a protective embrace. I cried and I let him hold me because I couldn't hold myself.
"I want you, I love you too. I promise not to hurt you again." I mumbled into his chest.
"All I need." I heard him whisper into my hair.
I'm sorry for any errors.
