Dear Natsu,

I don't really know what I'm doing. And don't you go thinking I mean I don't know what I'm doing right now or anything like that, you idiot. I just mean, I don't really know. I know, but I don't. It's just frustrating! Like I kind of feel like I'm on autopilot, like I'm not really in control of myself anymore. I get up every morning and go through the same routine but I don't really… feel anything? I guess that's it. Does that even make sense? Probably not, huh? Ugh! I'm sorry, I don't even know why I said that, it's silly and I'm probably just being weird. Let's just forget I said anything, okay? Ha.

So anyway, umm, have you been anywhere interesting since you've been gone? I hope you're visiting some nice places, even if it's just some remote forests or something, I'd love to hear about them. Crocus is still beautiful and exciting, but it's not nearly as fun as traveling across the kingdom like we used to. There are so many places we never went, I just hope at least one of us can still explore them all.

Geez, there I go again. I'm sorry, I keep talking like you're never coming back. Go ahead, call me weird, I know, I shouldn't be thinking like that. Of course you will, it's only been a few months after all, right? I'm pretty sure, then again the whole time you've been gone has kind of just all dragged out and blended together. Yeah, still a while to go…

It wouldn't seem so long if I could at least send these letters though. I never thought it would be so hard to find someone with a trail of destruction as large as you! Oh! Is that part of your training? Not destroying everything?! That'd sure be helpful on jobs when you get back! Oh, right…

Well it's getting pretty late. I'll send these if I can.

Love,

Lucy


A/N: This one is short yet again. Lucy is still denying her emotions, though she is feeling fairly numb. She'll break though, she may be tough as nails but everyone reaches the bottom of the pit before they can start clawing themselves out.

Also, thank you so much to anyone and everyone who reads and/or takes time to review my work here, I appreciate you all and your words fuel my writing fire.

Special thanks to ForeverDreamer12 for being my first reviewer for these letters, I am glad that the intended emotions I am trying to convey are getting across!