Author's Note: Hey everyone! Here's Chapter Four! Schools starting to pick up a little- thank god for last semester of senior year!- but I found time to write for you all :) I hope you like this chapter! I wanted to continue but I like how it was a cliffhanger again! I wrote a one shot called Every Breath You Take- its a Brathan one.
Enjoy Chapter Four!
Only When I Walked Away
Chapter Four:
CHAD'S POINT OF VIEW!
"Morning babe." Nicky smiled noticing I was awake. "How long have you been up?"
"Most of the night." I shrugged. I couldn't sleep my thoughts just wouldn't rest. I was so nervous that he wouldn't like me that he wouldn't want to get to know me. "Don't worry about me though. How'd you and the next big football player doing?"
"She," Nicky corrected me laughing. "I think is going to be the next big soccer star with the way she has been kicking me all night long. Come here and feel." She placed my hand on her growing stomach. "Did you feel that?"
I nodded in response, "Its still amazing to think that she's going to be the last one."
"I think after five, we are safe to say we are done." She laughed. I loved her laugh, such a carefree laugh.
"I guess." I shrugged. "Besides the kicking, how'd you sleep?"
"Pretty well." She answered with a small smile. "How you feeling about today?"
"Nervous as I can be." I returned the smile. "I just don't know what to do, you know?"
"Remember when I went into labor with Lachlan and how you acted?"
-FLASHBACK-
"Chad?" Nicky wondered into my office. It was nearly midnight and here I was sitting staring at the computer screen at nothing important.
"What's wrong?" I could tell by her voice that something was most definitely wrong.
"Its time."
Those two words scared me to death. I wasn't prepared for this. I still didn't finish reading those books that Nicky has been begging me too since we found out. I didn't know what to do. Sure there was Maverick, but he was one when I met him and over the whole newborn baby stage. Now at three years old, Maverick was easier to handle.
"Its time?"
"You know time to go have a baby?"
"Oh." Was all that came out of my mouth before I fainted.
-END FLASHBACK-
"Just don't faint this time." She joked to me.
"Real funny Nick." I hissed. I wasn't up for jokes at this moment. In four hours I will be meeting my son for the first time.
"I thought it was." She shrugged hugging me. "Calm down babe, you're a great father to four kids already, four kids who adore you. I think Declan will adore you."
"Not after the way his family thinks of me."
"You were in college back then, young and naive. Don't hold it against yourself."
"Thanks for keeping me sane. I wish you could join me."
"I'll be there when it's all over. Plus I promised the kids souvenirs so I might as well start buying them."
"Don't spend too much. I know Adeline wants a doll as tall as her that's worth six hundred dollars."
"I won't, or I will try not too." She shrugged. "Go shower and I'll order some room service, Chad. We'll relax till you need to leave."
"Love you, Nicky." I kissed her forehead and rested my hand on her stomach. "and I love you, Lilah or Calix."
"Now you want Calix?" She stared at me shocked that I would pick such a name. I saw the name on her list for possible boys name.
"It means little handsome." I smirked. "Or we can do Stellan like you wanted if Adeline or Evie were boys."
"I'll think about it." She states as I walked into the bathroom.
The park was in full swing, it was during school break and it was after all Central Park, when I made it to where I was supposed to meet them. I arrived early to clear my mind a little. I still have to figure out how to tell my family- especially my kids. That will be the worse.
I felt the vibration in my pocket from my phone going off and pulled it out. Great I thought, it was my dad calling, just who I wanted to talk too.
"Hey," I answered pulling it up to my ear.
"Daddy," The voice giggled. I immediately knew who it was.
"Hey there Evie." I laughed. "How's hanging out with Grandpa Rex?"
"He's snoring, its naptime for him. Aunt Shannon's here."
"Oh really?"
"Yeah she's doing our nails, Daddy. Except for Adeline's. She won't sit still."
"Oh really?" I asked again. "They must look pretty, E."
"They're very pretty." She stated matter of factly. "Mavy and Lachlan are mean."
"Why are they mean?"
"They won't let me do anything. I can't even play video games."
"Go play with your dolls, Evie. I gotta go but I'll see you in two days okay?"
"Love you daddy."
"Love you too baby doll." I smiled ending the phone call.
Looking around the park he saw parents walking with their kids, kids playing with a dog but the thing that hit me the most was a father playing catch with his son. It broke me knowing that I could be doing that with all my sons if I wasn't being an idiot.
-Flashback-
"Soph?" I called her. I called her over a hundred times since that day but she has yet to answer. "Please call me back. Don't do anything stupid like head back to California. You belong here with me."
"Still no answer?" Rex walked into my room. I came home for the weekend, I needed a break from the hellhole of that school.
"Nope, nothing."
"What the fuck did you do man?"
"Something stupid."
"No shit." He pointed out. Rex would always tell me the truth even if it hurt me in the process. "Why the fuck did you let her go, dude?"
"Do you think I know that answer?"
"Well do something about it. Don't just sit here. Get a flight back to school and see her."
"She's probably gone already."
"You won't know until you try Chad."
"Ugh, your right."
"You pack, I'll book you a flight." He smiled at me walking out the room. I was going to make this right.
Seven hours later I was back in the city and back at school. Quickly I dropped my stuff at my apartment and made my way to her apartment.
I became very nervous staring at the door of her tiny college apartment. I finally had the guts to knock on the door.
"What do you think you're doing here?" It was her roommate, Hilarie this time.
"Please, Hilarie just let me talk to her. Let me explain myself." I begged.
"You have two minutes to talk to her before I kill you." She hissed at me. I've seen Hilarie this pissed off only one other time and that's how I knew she meant what she said. "She's in her room."
I moved down the hall towards the room with the music blasting. "Soph?" I knocked.
"How the fuck did you get in here?"
"Hilarie let me in. Please I just want to explain what happen. That's all."
"There's no need to explain Chad, your actions already let me know what happened."
I looked at her and she looked like a complete mess. Her eyes were puffy and bloodshot from crying, her hair was in a messy bun on top of her head, she wore a baggy sweatshirt the covered her body and yoga pants that hugged her lower body perfectly.
"I need to though. It wasn't how it seemed."
"Chad a freaking girl came out of your apartment wearing your clothes." Okay so maybe it was what it seemed.
"It was a complete mistake. Tyler and Brian wanted to go have one last crazy night before med school happens and it got a little too crazy. I don't remember anything that happened Sophia. I regret it completely. I just want us back to normal."
"There's no normal with us anymore, Chad. There's no us anymore. You ruined that."
"I want to help you with the baby. I don't want you to go to California. I want to be in its life."
"I'm not staying here and I'm not allowing you to put your dreams on hold." She said. Her eyes looked broken. I did this to her. I don't know how I could. Sophia is my everything.
"I am willing to do it for you."
"Don't you get it? There is no reason anymore. You have your life and I have mine now."
"Soph don't do this."
"I'm not allowing you to give up your dreams. Go be that doctor that you want to be."
"But,"
"This is my choice Chad."
"I want to be in the baby's life."
"Well you lost that choice. Now please leave." Sophia begged. "Please don't call me Chad. I can't, I can't handle it. Just let me go."
I gave in and listened to her.
-End Flash Back-
That was the stupidest decision I have ever made. I think back and tried everything to get to see her and the baby. I did whatever I could. I tried applying to med schools in California but it was too late in the semester to do so.
I looked up and that's when I noticed her standing there with him, my son. Gosh he was so big. She started walking over to me with that dimpled smile on her face and I got nervous.
"Hi." She said letting out a breath.
"Hi." I responded with a soft smile.
"Chad," She softly smiled, "I'd like you to meet your son, Declan."
End Chapter Four.
Next Chapter Will Be The Official Meet With Them.
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