I'm really sorry that I haven't updated. There were some important events that happened to me and they weren't pleasant. Besides, I have so many plans for this story that I don't know where to start. :D By the way I don't own anything: the anime , the music, nothing! I just own the characters I made up…

Chapter 4

Personna's POV

I woke up with the pilot telling us that we'll be landing in 10 minutes. Mikan was peacefully sleeping beside me.

I looked at her with regret.

Everyone had hurt her.

Even she, in her sleep with tears in her eyes said that she'll never show any emotion to anyone except her family.

I didn't want to wake her up but I had to.

"Mikan. Mikan, wake up."

"Mm mm …" She mumbled and hid her head under the pillow I had put under her head while she was asleep.

"Mikan."

"Mmmm , five more minutes." Then she shoved her head in her pillow, AGAIN.I sighed.

"Mikan!" I yelled and she was so startled that she fell from her seat and landed on her butt.

"Itai ! Personna-nii, hidoi !" She pouted.

And then, for the first time in my laughed freely. Not an ironic laugh, not a sadistic laugh but one that was full-hearted. Mikan also smiled and after a minute she also started laughing.

"It's not my fault Mikan! We're landing in 10 minutes."

"Hai."

We got ready to leave when I remembered something important.

"Mikan, since G.A. in America knows that you have the SEC Alice you have been transferred in the Dangerous Ability class. There are two more students in that class. They're brother and sister. The principal wants you three to form a band together. They will be waiting for us at our gate.

"Okay. Personna-nii?"

I looked at her with a questioning look.

"Hm?"

"Thank you. For being there for me." She then smiled for the last time at me before she but on her calm expression.

"I thank you too sister. For giving me a second chance."

I smiled too and then I also put my mask. And my cold expression.

At the gate, as planed, were waiting three people.

The sister, brother and the principal.

Mikan's POV

Wow, so many new things! There are so many different people!

Wait, calm yourself Mikan!

Remember, less emotions as possible!

When we got to them, I had to suppress the urge to gasp.

The sister and brother were beautiful!

The girl had straight black hair that reached the middle of her back, a soft shaped face and mesmerizing white eyes. She was wearing Goth style clothes that made her look cute but at the same time were saying "Don't mess with me."

The boy also had black hair but his was messy and his eyes were black too. He had a simple T-shirt, black jeans and Nikes to finish the look.

They looked like they were models from a fashion magazine and I felt myself like the ugly duckling surrounded by swans with my simple black skirt and yellow blouse.

"A, ! Nice to meet you, my name's Mr. White (a/n: Stupid but I didn't think that much for his name) and these are Alice and Jake – your new band mates Miss Sakura." He turned to me and the next thing I knew the girl named Alice jumped on me.

"Oh my god! You're sooo pretty! What beautiful long hair and sensitive brown eyes! I hope we can become great friends!"

She was so exited that she didn't see the ball of water over her head. At first it was small but with every word that she spoke the ball became bigger and bigger. After a second she stopped talking she was completely wet. Her expression turned like she was the devil himself and she slowly turned to her smirking brother.

"Jaaaake!" She screamed and murmured a few words under her breath. My eyes went wide as a skeleton hand popped from the ground and tripped Jake. Alice looked at me and when she saw my surprise she smiled an apologetic smile.

"I'm sorry that you have to witness our "brother- sister" fights and I'm sorry for startling you. I can summon zombies or "people from the underworld. My brother can control nature's elements:

Water, fire, earth, wind and thunder."

"Oi, zombie girl! Get your freak off me before he starts tickling me!" Her brother shouted as the hand started to find places where he has tickles.

"Shut up, idiot!" She snapped at him.

"Zombie!"

"Idiot!"

"Zombieee!"

I couldn't hold it anymore. I started laughing at the funny picture before me: Their faces were close to each other and their eyes were throwing daggers at their "opponent". Dark oura was surrounding them and the people around them were starting to get scared. I laughed for a good 2 minutes and after calming myself I realized that they were starring at me.

Jake's POV

When I first saw her I thought that she was the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.

Now I get the feeling that when she laughs or at the least smiles, the whole room brightens.

Normal POV

The group went back to the academy. On the way, while they were in the big limo Mikan was bombed with hundreds of questions about herself but, luckily, she turned the questions down and changed the subject. Soon the siblings started to answer the questions that they asked. The limo pulled in the parking lot of the school and the group entered G.A.

Everyone that they passed, were looking at them.

"Look, the "monster" group got another member. She probably can bore someone to death." Whispered a girl that was a typical "I think I'm the greatest thing that those losers have ever seen". The group around her laughed and started calling us names like "losers, freaks, ugly monsters and idiot minions" "What the hell?! Do they even own a mirror? And they can us ugly!" Mikan angrily thought.

"Don't worry, we get that often." Alice said and smiled sadly at Mikan when she saw that her face was calm but her eyes were filled with rage.

Mikan's POV

How dare they!?

They don't know a thing about us and yet they call us monsters?!

I calmed myself during the time we were going to the music room. The door opened to reveal a large and bright room filled with so many instruments!

"Mikan-san, could you play something for us?" The principal asked me and I just lifted my shoulders.

From the instruments I could play the violin. I started playing two years ago. I loved that instrument from the moment that I heard it playing its beautiful notes. The reason I was always late for class was because I snuck out every night to practice. At first I was horrible but at the next day I found in the library a book that had instructions on how to learn how to play. I immediately started reading the book and apply the information that I had learned on the violin. It took me two weeks but I was happy when I finally got to play a piece right. It was an easy one but I got it right and that was all it mattered. So, every night I would sneak out of bed and get on the roof under the moonlight to play. Sometimes I would even stay up playing until 3am in the morning just to get every note right. It was important to me. The goofy attitude that my "friends" knew was a part of me. Not the whole Me.

So now I knew how to play perfectly.

I even bought my own violin. No one knew that I could play something. One day I just went to town on my own and found the perfect one for me in the only music store there was. The violin itself was made out of maple and spruce and it was made personally for me by the owner of the store. The store itself was small and nicely arranged. The moment I stepped in it I knew that that was my new favorite place. The owner was a man in his sixties and was so nice to me. He took me seriously when I told him about my passion for the violin and told me a few details about it. He said that he too was attached to his violin and understood me. After that day I was there every second I could spare. I found out his name was Trevor Jackson and that he was a part of an orchestra as a violinist. He taught me a few more things about how to play better and even helped me to compose some pieces. Mr. Jackson taught me how to play the piano too but wasn't that concentrated on it as I was on the violin. After a few months he said that he was going to make me my own violin. I was so happy, when after a week, I was holding my new instrument. He gave me strings incase the ones he put break and a bow, on witch the bowstring was made of polyethylene fibers. It was the most beautiful violin I had even seen. In a small hollow hole in the side of the violin I saw a text written.

It said:

"From to my dear Mikan with love."

That man became a like a grandfather to me… He always had time for me even if he had lots of work. He let me help him and soon I was working for him. I saved money so I could have a special case for my violin and extra strings.

I was happy back then.

Until one day I heard of a fire in town.

The music shop that I loved had burnt down.

The man that was like my second grandfather, had died from the smoke.

At first when I found out my brain just … stopped.

It just didn't want to process the news. I had nothing to say. It was just… I can't explain it. My world rocked.

I remembered that that day I didn't come to school.

Instead I was in the middle of the ashes that once were my favorite shop.

Where I met my second grandfather.

Where I spent many happy days in playing and learning.

It was all gone.

Yes, there were many tears in my eyes…

Yes, I was sad…

But, I found a letter that one of the firemen gave me. He said that that it was in one of the drawers that wasn't burned to ashes. It was a letter addressed to me from Mr. Jackson saying that I had to be strong and that he didn't want me to cry if he dyes. It said that he will be always watching me from above to guide me and comfort me when I needed.

"The music will always be with you and when you play I want you to know that I'll be watching you from above."

He was always a happy man and I found it joyful to be around him.

I am happy that I had the chance to know him.

He was a great man and everyday I came to his grave to put some fresh flowers and change the old ones.

"Mikan?"

My brother brought me back from my thoughts.

Everyone was looking at me strangely.

My brother was looking at me with worry.

"Are you okay?"

With a simple "yes" I started playing the piece that Ms. Jackson and I composed.

A sad yet calming melody.

My eyes closed slowly while I was concentrating on the notes I knew perfectly.

(Type in YouTube "Sad Violin" and play for better effect…Again I DON'T own anything, but the piece is beautiful and I love the violin)

Personna's POV

When Mr. White asked Mikan to play something on her violin she just … sort of spaced out.

For five minutes she's been looking out of the big windows that covered the whole one side of the music room. The sun was shining brightly over the valley and fresh air was gently blowing around us.

Mikan's face was blank and her eyes were filled with sorrow and tiredness.

I couldn't hold my concern anymore.

"Mikan?" I asked with a stern voice so that I didn't show any emotion but she sensed the worry in my voice so she turned to me with a look that said "I'm fine now."

They asked her if she's okay and with a simple "yes" she started playing a piece she and her "teacher" composed.

I knew her story.

I knew how much the violin meant to her.

On the plain she told me about it after I asked her why she insisted to bring her violin case with her at all times.

The piece was really beautiful.

Gentle yet filled with emotions.

All I could do was to listen and enjoy the slow melody.

When she ended tears were seen in the principal and in Alice's eyes.

"Mikan- chan, that was … amazing." Said Alice.

Alice's POV

Not only is she beautiful and smart but she's really talented too!

During the piece I felt that she was showing her emotions.

Like… She was sad and lonely inside.

Like…She was insecure and broken inside.

Normal POV

After the performance, the principal asked us to play something. But first he wanted Mikan to know what Alice and Jake played.

"I play the drums." Said Jake.

"I play the guitar." Said Alice. She turned to Mikan.

"Can you play something besides the violin?"

Mikan said that she could sing.

Mikan's POV

I thought of a song to sing and when I was ready, I started.

("Evanescence – Missing". A beautiful song.

By the way there's a Nightcore version. Just type Nightcore - Missing and you'll find it. All Nightcore versions are great!)

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[Chorus]

Personna' s POV

She closed her eyes and started singing.

Her voice was calm and gentle.

Like her.

The face she put was good. She masters slowly control without my training. She was giving all she's got. In anything.

While she's playing the violin or singing she's in her own world.

Again, in the plain, she told me what music meant to her. Her eyes were sparkling.

The music takes her to another world that only she can explain. She told me that in there everything was fascinating. I guess even she couldn't find the right words cause I wouldn't call a new world "Everything was … sparkling! "

Yep, those were her words.

But… When she's singing you can feel what she feels.

The only way to express herself is singing.

Those feeling she's trying to hide deep inside are showing in her voice.

She may not realize it but she was still very hurt by the way her friends treated her.

At the end of the song only I saw a tear in her eye.

Mikan's POV

I hope no one saw the tears in my eyes. Even I didn't realize that I was crying.

After the song we had to play something together as a "band".

In my mind popped and idea and I asked Alice. She squeaked and said it to Jake. He nodded and we started.

(Evanescence – what you want)

Do what you what you want, if you have a dream for better
Do what you what you want till you don't want it anymore
(remember who you really are)
Do what you what you want, your world's closing in on you now
(it isn't over)
Stand and face the unknown
(got to remember who you really are)
Every heart in my hands like a pale reflection

Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe we can break through

Do what you what you want, you don't have to lay your life down
(it isn't over)
Do what you what you want till you find what you're looking for
(got to remember who you really are)
But every hour slipping by screams that I have failed you

Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe

There's still time
Close your eyes
Only love will guide you home
Tear down the walls and free your soul
Till we crash we're forever spiraling down, down, down, down

Hello, hello, it's only me
Infecting everything you love
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to learn forgiveness
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe we can break through

After we finished, Alice cheered and hugged me.

"I have to teach you how to play the guitar and Jake – how to play the drums!"

I just lifted my shoulders again.

"Okay, practice later, tour – now." The principal said and we all started walking around the campus.

The building was bigger than the one in Japan. It had four floors.

"The first floor is the "school area". The classrooms for all ages and the principal's office are one this floor.

The second floor is "the bedroom area". You can pick whoever you want to sleep in the same room as you. Of course there are dormitories for the girls and the boys." At that statement Alice looked at Jake and saw him smirking.

"The third floor is "the training area". On this floor you can practice your Alice in the simulation rooms and the "abilities classrooms" are here.

The final floor is the "playing area". Arcades, simulators, football, basketball and volleyball courts. There is a big library on the first floor for those, who prefer quiet.

The meals are given in the mess hall on the first floor and are at the same time as your old school and you're in the same class as Alice and Jake."

While he was explaining we were walking around the floors, the mess hall and finally we stopped at the second floor.

"Actually things are pretty much the same as they were at your school in Japan. I hope you have a great time here Mikan- san. I'll show 's bedroom. We have a special arrangement for you. Bye for now and have fun!" said the P. (I'm just going to call the principal P. because I'm tired of constantly writing "the principal …" …) as he was walking away with Personna-nii. My brother gave me one last look before following Mr. White.

"Come and see your new bedroom Mikan- chan!"

Alice took my hand and started to drag me to the end of the corridor. Apparently, my room was there. We stopped to the last door on the left.

We opened the door and I rouse my eyebrows.

Nice room.

Everything was first class. The bedrooms were two.

So, I was sharing a room with Alice.

"Yep, you're sharing a room with me! I've been waiting forever for a roommate!" Said an exited Alice and showed me every part of the huge apartment.

King sized beds and our own bathrooms, a huge kitchen equipped with the latest gadgets and a wonderful view.

Since the school wasn't even near a town and was in a valley there were many beautiful views of forests and waterfalls. My room mate said that this apartment had the best view in the whole school in my room.

My room wasn't painted and everything was left for me to decorate as I wish. The huge windows covered the whole wall of the room and the bed was positioned so you can watch the sky as you lay.

"Thank you Alice." I smiled warmly at her and she smiled back.

"You're welcome Mikan."

"We're going to have to make our own dinner here since you're new and Special Stars are allowed to eat here. That's why we have this kitchen. Let's get started shall we? Tomorrow is your first big day so we have to go to bed early.

"Okay."

That's how I spent my first night here. Making spaghetti, watching TV – especially the basketball game – I finally found another buddy to watch the game! Back in Japan I used to watch the games with Natsume and we played basketball everyday! …

Wait.

What the hell are you thinking?!

Stop looking in the past Mikan!

Okay , breath in, breath out…

I inhaled and exhaled and turned my attention back to the game. It wasn't one of those big games from The NBA but it was still a good thing to watch. Apparently Alice's as much as a fan as I am! Meaning – a big one! We decided that everyday we'll play in the big basketball field they have in the school. I wanted to become better.

Persona - nii came to our room to check how is it and informed me that his room was in the same corridor as our.

Now it was time to go to sleep.

We said our Good nights and after a shower to wash the stress from today, I went to bed.

As I lay there, looking at the stars, a memory of the times when Natsume and I were stargazing came in my head unwelcome.

Memories of him and my friends suddenly came crashing in my mind, playing in front of my eyes, reminding me of the way I acted back then:

Naive and childish.

That night I allowed myself to cry myself to sleep for the last time.

With a promise never to let anyone to see my true feelings and emotions to hurt me again.

End chapter 4 :)

Okay, I screwed up a lot in this story but that isn't an excuse. I'm sorry if you don't like it and I'll be glad to hear your opinion!

Jan e! :]