Edward was flung across the room, and crashed against the back wall of Bella's apartment. Carlisle ran towards Bella, and pressed firmly against the gaping wound on her neck. "Why did you do it, Edward? What is wrong with you? Don't you understand she is your mate!"

Edward stood up quickly, pain etched in face "I... Carlisle, I'm a different person now. The Volturi control me. They don't let me live unless I do what they say."

Carlisle shook his head "Why didn't you just change her, she wants to be with you, Edward. Be with you eternally!"

Edward just looked down at the floor, and walked out the door, before the door shut behind him he whispered "She is everything to me... I just wanted more for her... so much more."

Carlisle took out his medical kit, and started stitching up Bella's neck up, realizing soon that she would die of blood loss no matter what. Carlisle cradled Bella in his arms, holding her to his body. He took a deep breath, and bit her hard, he did not drink though, he released his venom into her body. Bella was unconscious so she did not feel the initial burn of the venom, though he stayed with her all night. Keeping her safe, and making sure she was as comfortable as possible. Carlisle decided he couldn't have her in the apartment anymore. He traveled to the house in Forks they had, and kept her there, in his study. Esme met him there to keep him company. He watched Bella day and night. Watched her at her worst, and debated what would happen when she awoke.

Alice and Jasper showed up when Alice realized what had happened. She took Bella's hand and wished her luck. Jasper sat next to her in bed, and kissed her cheek, which was drenched in a cold sweat. She moaned and sometimes whispered Edward's name. Carlisle couldn't believe that even after what Edward tried to do to Bella, she still loved him. She still needed him.

As Bella started waking up, Carlisle lifted her head up, "Are you okay my dear?"

She opened her eyes, they were blood red, and she was angry "What is happening to me?" She was shaking violently.

"Here, Bella, drink this." Warm blood, from a grizzly bear. She drank it quickly and then screamed "I want more!"

Jasper walked in the room, and Bella's eyes became topaz, she looked at Carlisle, "Help me... I don't want to be a monster Carlisle. I know what you did was to save my life, but I cannot take a human's life. Don't let me, ever."

A promise Carlisle intented to keep.

BPOV:

Emmett showed up a couple weeks after my change. I did not know how to be a part of society, I lost control of my emotions too quickly and walked a bit too fast. I couldn't help it, I did not have control over body's new skills. My emotions were constantly spiking from one extreme to another. Carlisle took me out hunting almost every other day. His theory was to make me used to animal blood before ever introducing me to what human blood smelled like. I couldn't go into Forks, until Alice saw that I wasn't a danger anymore, I was to remain in the comforts of my house.

I thought of Jacob...did he still love me? Did he even know what I was anymore... I wanted to see him, maybe I should call.

The phone rang and finally Jacob answered "Hello."

"Jake..." my voice was hallow.

"Bella!! What's going on? Are you okay? You should upset."

"I'm... i'm fine Jack. I'm in town"

"You are! That's really great!" I could tell he was excited.

"Yea, something really important has come up. Will you meet me open meadow, near the Cullen house, alone." There was silence on the other line, I could tell bringing up the Cullens made him fear Edward was back. "It's not about him..." i stated quickly.

"Anything for you Bells, you want to meet me now?"

"Sure, five minutes okay?"

He agreed silently and the phone was dead.

Alice was next to me "Are you sure about this?"

"He has to know, Alice... I have to know whether he still cares"

"Why"

I thought about it for a minute "Because... I love him"

She looked at me, seeing the desperation inside my eyes. She nodded and I was out the door in seconds. Running, the way all the Cullens ran, to the meadow. When I reached it, the suddenly memory of Edward flashed into my eyes, but I pushed it away. It was too hard to think about Edward. He wasn't Edward anymore, not mine, not a Cullen. He was a Volturi... he was one of them.

Jacob showed up within a couple minutes and scrunched his nose "Bella. I thought you said alone." He was on edge because of the smell I was giving off now.

I lowered my head "Jacob... we are alone. What you smell is me."

"But Bella... you smell like a blood-" he stopped dead in his tracks. I could tell he was fighting his emotions bad. "Bella...did they?"

"It's not what you think Jacob. If Carlisle hadn't..."

"CARLISLE!!" The words ran through the forest.

"Jacob, please, let me explain!" I wanted to cry, but immortals don't cry.

"Jacob, I would have died!" His emotions subsided, he was trying to figure out what I meant and if I was lieing to him, "Die?"

"Edward showed up... when I was at school..."

"And..." he said impatiently.

"He tried to kill me..." I moved my hair away from my neck, to show the great scar that ran down my neck, resembleing half of a broken heart, a jagged where his teeth sank into my neck and a huge opening where he ripped my neck open. Jacob's anger flared again "Is he with...them?" he said with great malice.

"No... he's alone now. I don't know where he is. Carlisle saved my life."

Jacob, I could tell he wanted to run and hold me, I could see that all he wanted was to touch me, but he forced himself to distance himself. "Jack... you don't care about me anymore?"

He straighted up, looking at me with great distain "You are one of them now Bella... your the enemy. Have you tasted human blood yet?"

"Carlisle promised me he would never let that happen."

Jacob scoffed. "Always the humanitarian isn't he?"

I was hurt, I wanted his acceptance more then anything, but to him I was nothing more then a monster. I lowered my head, and began walking back home. He grabbed my arm, and pulled me into a huge warm embrace. "Bella...why?" He skin was hot against my own coldness. He face was so close to mine. The pain within him was unbearable.

"I was going to die Jack... I didn't have a choice."

I could feel wet drips fall onto my cheek. Jacob was crying. He kissed me, hard on the lips, I kissed him back, but he soon shot away from me. "Your cold, Bella. Your lifeless, and your beautiful lips don't give when I kiss them. They are stone. You are stone."

I was ashamed. I felt like garbage, I ran off. Faster then he could have caught me. I ran back to the Cullens. I was nothing... immortal, and alone. This isn't what I wanted. I wanted Edward to be with me eternally, now i'm only eternally alone.