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"Turn it on!"
It was like breaking a dam. One hard stroke. And another. And another. And then the wall fell. The wall that was holding all of her emotions and feelings hidden from her. And it filled her mind and heart and soul with everything she buried deep inside her.
Elena's eyes filled with everything.
Everything.
Guilt. Grief. Loss. Fear. Shame. Pain.
And Elijah stepped back. He never witnessed something like this directly. And seeing it on Elena was more painful than he could even imagine.
She broke.
"Oh my god, oh my god," she whispered at first but then her voice broke free. "What did I do? And Jeremy! Oh my god, Jeremy!"
Her eyes filled with tears and she felt to the ground. Elijah was faster. He caught her before she hit the floor. He held her in his arms but it was difficult. She fought. She didn't want comfort. After everything she did. She tried to kill Caroline, her best friend. The things she said to her. And what she did to Elijah?
"No, no! Let me go, Elijah!" she still fought his tight embrace. "Let me go!"
"Calm down, Elena, it's gonna be okay. Please, just try to calm down," Elijah tried to comfort her. To calm her down. She was in agony.
"No it's not, it's not! Elijah, please, let me go!" she cried and he did.
She crawled away from him to the other side of the bed. She crunched her leg to her belly and hugged them. She started to swing. And she cried.
Elijah expected that Jeremy's death would affect her but this was too much even for him. Now he understood why Damon did what he did. He did it to protect her. To save her. Because he loved her.
"Elena, dear," he got a little closer. Just a little. He didn't want to scare her away from him. "Do you hear me?" It was like she was in another world. And he wasn't in it. "Elena, please, talk to me," he begged her now.
"He's dead, Elijah. My brother's dead," she whispered.
"I know," he said and got closer again.
"I couldn't protect him. It's my fault. I wasn't strong enough. And it was all for nothing!" her voice rose again and she got up and run to the chest of drawers above which there was a mirror. She looked at her own reflection; and she couldn't hold it in anymore. She broke the glass with her right hand. Elijah was behind her in a second. Slowly touching her arms on each side waiting for her to push him away. But she held still. Finding comfort in his touch. Finally. She started to expect what'd happened. She closed her eyes.
"That's it, Elena," he said with a comfort tone in his voice. "Just breathe. In and out," he guided her breathing even though she didn't need to breath. She was a vampire. And the creatures of the night don't need air to survive. But it was comforting and everything that would remind her that she's human; or at least used to be; was a good way to get her through everything.
"In and out," she finally calmed down. A little. The tears were still falling from her eyes but her body was now calm. He closed his eyes as well.
"Elijah?" at the sound of his name he opened them again and looked at her reflection in the few pieces that left from the mirror. "What am I supposed to do?"
He slowly turned her around and she looked up to him underneath her long dark lashes. She looked like a little girl who just realized that Santa wasn't real. He raised his hand and lightly stroked her cheek with his thumb. Along with it he caught one of the tears that were still falling down her face.
"Right now, you have to deal with everything. You had your humanity off, Elena. And now all of your feelings and emotions are coming back to you. In waves. And you're gonna have to deal with it," he said, his hand still on her face. "And I will help you, Elena. I prom-"
"Don't! Don't make promises," she put her finger on his lips. "The last person who promised me something failed me."
Elijah's face changed in confusion.
"He promised to never leave me again," she said and her eyes could tell that she remembered that moment very well.
He put his hand on her leg, "I promise you. I will never leave you again."
"Damon promised you?" he moved her hand away just a little bit. She nodded. "What happened? He left you?"
"Well, I guess not. I don't know," she ran her hand through her hair. "Everything is so confusing."
"I know, believe me," he said and she looked at him. "Elena? Do you trust me?"
She raised her hand to him and lightly touched his face with her fingertips.
He waited.
"Yes, Elijah. I trust you," she said and he invited her into a warm embrace. He held her tight. His hands were stroking her back and she just held hers close to her heart; closing her eyes in piece.
I'm sorry this one is short, but I will be uploading soon.
