The Sway of Hearts

Summary: I had not known what would happen if I had saved Shou. But right now, I'm glad I did. Seeing him better, I was DAMN glad I did. I think I might have loved him. But now I know I could not have loved him. Screw the world for making him my English teacher. Really, just bang the world right now and see how it feels. Not. Good.

Warning: Cursing, violence, and contains Yaoi or 'Boy's Love'. If that doesn't cut the butter for you then Yaoi is about two young men who share mutual feelings of love. Conclusion: G.A.Y. Fanfiction. X)

A/N: Gaahhhhh... Gomenasai... I have had recent troubles in my life and I haven't gotten to update my baby. Holidays, relationships, work, school... They are all kicking my ass. Me sorry! Xc I have made this chapter kind of sappy, hoping to make up for my lateness! On a better note, we are getting to the good stuff! :3 Hehehehe, so with all due respects, here is the new chapter! :)

Some reminders for ya! ~

San = basically a 'mister' or 'miss' honorific

Neko = cat

Baka = idiot/moron


Kurosaki's POV

I came into consciousness when I heard one of my sister's shower start. I blinked my eyes a few times, but keep them shut as I didn't really think about my day today. Still not fully awake, I thought of nothing in particular. Then something appeared. I felt that I had something to do today. I remember I got little sleep because I was thinking of... Shirosaki Shou! That's what I had today! The park meeting with Shirosaki-san. I came into contact with all memories of yesterday. The blatant joy that I felt with what was associated with the park. I thought about more of what I felt and decided I should probably write about it... Later. Now was to start my day.

I sat up with shut eyes as I shook my head, feeling the weight of my hair shake with it. I yawned without my consent and I opened my eyes. I could still hear the shower water running and figured I would go next. After I get more sleep... I shut my eyes and I laid back down.

Fuck. Try as I will, I couldn't go back to sleep. I keep feeling the memory of golden eyes haunt my every thought. I sighed. Stupid attraction. I didn't even know why I thought his appearance appealed to me. Maybe I was fascinated with the fact he was albino. I thought about it more when I heard the water from the bathroom shut off. I glared at the door through my sleepy eyes. That was my undeniable calling for the morning. Dammit. I didn't want to leave my comfy bed. I snuggled more before I kicked myself to get off my lazy, worthless ass.

I made my way to my door, stepping lightly, and opened it softly. I liked being quiet no matter where I was. I peeked out and saw Karin walking towards me with evident steam coming from her body. Her small head was covered with a towel as was the rest of her. She noticed me and half smiled before stopping.

"Ichi-nii, the shower is free." She offered with an uninterested tone that only a monkey couldn't recognize.

"Arigatou, Karin. Has Yuzu taken a bath? I can take one after, if need be."

"The hell? She is always first one to take a bath in this household." She rolled her eyes and carried on to her own room. I rolled my eyes. I was glad she was my sister because I'm pretty sure anyone else would have choked her to death for being so rude all the time.

I walked back into my room and gathered my latest towel and headed for the shower. I carried out all my morning duties and finally got to my shower. I turned it to my choice of temperature and listened to the repeating beatings. I headed in and felt the pelts of water continually run down my skin. I lifted my hands to run my hair back from my face as the water insisted it to go with the flow (pun, babe). I concentrated on myself melting into the sound of the splashing. I thought of a new journal entry to create. Hell yeah, now I have two I can put in my journal. The one with my strangled feelings surrounding Shirosaki-san, and now the feelings of pure blissfulness in the calming shower. I am on a roll!

I grabbed the shampoo and did everything needed for a nice, comfortable shower. When I was finished, I, unwillingly, turned off my shower and stepped out. I didn't fog up the bathroom, thankfully, and noticed my toned self. I raised my eyebrows at myself and smiled. Haha, I still had my tan. Damn. I grabbed my towel and dried myself of the now irritating water. I drew the towel around my hips and glanced around myself to see if my tan was even. Hot damn it was! I smirked and left the bathroom to head for some clothes.

I arrived and threw my towel over my chairs back and headed for my drawers. I grabbed everything necessary for a modest appearance to my family. I jogged down the stairs and headed for the kitchen. On the way, I noticed Karin and Oji-san browsing the board games we had. I reached the kitchen and popped in to find Yuzu setting up breakfast. I smiled when she smiled at my arrival.

"Onii-chan! Breakfast is almost ready. I hope you slept well!" She was just the happiest girl in the world. I laughed and hugged her waiting arms.

"Arigatou, Yuzu. I'll be waiting eagerly." I said with my eyes glittering. She just made my whole day. I bounced away and sat at the dining table. I looked at my table and thought back to the Kotatsu that Shirosaki-san had. That was fucking awesome. I wish we had one, damn it! Not a second later, Yuzu set out our breakfast and we all ate gleefully.

After our meal, we said our thanks to Yuzu and we set off about our business. I got ready to go to the gym, almost too eager to even go. I was getting nervous just thinking about our meeting.


I came home when I felt sore and tired from the gym. I wasn't in the mood at all to work out for I was ecstatic for my later plans. I was just jumpy and giddy with excitement. I made my way to my room and checked the time. I had a little under an hour before I had to leave for the park. Time to pick out what to wear... Shit, I didn't know what to wear!

I dragged my feet to my closet and, hesitantly, opened it. I stared at my abundance of clothes. I face-palmed myself and swept my free hand through my pants. I removed my other hand from my face and used it to help shuffle through the mass of jeans. I need help... I am not that good with fashion yet. I really need to get lessons from Inoue. I keep up my search when I heard my phone ring. I stepped out and gathered my phone from my back pocket and answered.

"Moshi, moshi." I greeted.

"Oi, nothing, Ichigo. Whatcha up to?" Grimmjow spoke. Oh! I could ask him!

"Nothing much. Ne, could you tell me what would be best for going out? Clothes wise. Not anything fancy, but a casual assortment." I replied thoughtfully. I got confused after I didn't hear him speak for a little bit. I was about to ask if he was still there but he stopped me.

"Uh, not sure. I need more detail. Where are you going?" I didn't know what to think but I spoke what my intentions were.

"I'm going to the park. Just something simple, I guess."

"Oh." He perked up. Then his tone dropped a little. "Well, whatever the fuck you want to. Unless, you're going with someone?" He seemed cautious yet firm.

I debated on whether I should tell him the truth. He didn't seem to like Shirosaki-san very much. But then it would be weird for me to ask what to wear without any reason. Damn. I'm in a pickle. Maybe... No, I'll just tell the truth.

"Well," I started hesitantly. "I am. Remember yesterday? Shirosaki-san asked if he could get to know his savior better. I agreed and just suggested the park. Can you help me?" I asked feeling a dark pit engulf my stomach as he didn't reply for a while like last time. Uhg, I felt guilty for some reason. And I don't like that. The fuck, Ichigo?

He spoke and I could sense his tone was vexed. It was slippery to say that was truth, but I knew for an unknown reason. "Yeah, I'll help. Wear your black skinny jeans and a band shirt that's black. I have to go. I'll chat with you later, ne?"

I was astonished that he had to go so soon. I shook my head and voiced my departure. I hung up and stared at my phone. I felt that was our most awkward conversation EVER. I blinked as if I was dazed and looked to my closet. Like an automaton, I gathered the instructed materials and proceeded to put them on. I blinked even more and righted myself with internal questioning.

Did I do something wrong? Say something to offend him? I rarely EVER offended him and that was difficult to do if I tried. We had such a laid back friendship, I don't know. Maybe he had something on his mind. I will call him tonight and ask how he is. I hope he isn't having family troubles. That gets to him sometimes. I sighed and checked the time; it was time to be on my way. I checked myself out and realized I chose my An Kafe shirt. I liked that shirt. But I felt something was missing. I turned slightly and grabbed a hanging choker. The choker was plain black with a rose hanging from the center. I smiled to myself and headed out, pleased. I raced down the stairs and said my farewells before jumping out the door.

It didn't take me long before the park was in sight. I walked along the edge of the road, balancing on the curb till I was directly in front of the park. I hopped off and headed in the entrance and I gazed around. On a bench was a tuff of white hair. Found you.

I walked over and I was just close enough to see his eyes closed, yet far away enough to not be noticed. I smiled and observed his face. His jaw-line: Cut softly yet it showed fantastically, his hair falling from it. His hair: It fell out of his face and spiked naturally. Shining from the sun that lived up to his last name's true meaning. His lips: Light like his skin yet it caught the darker side to show they were pinked. And soft. They looked so soft with their perfect roundness that would give shame to any-

Snap.

I froze as I saw Shirosaki-san bolt up from his relaxed state. My heart was thumping in my chest and my mind was still replaying the 'snap' sound. I found he didn't notice me and I looked down to see a small stick crumpled in to two. Turns out, I had been unconsciously walking forward when I was 'observing' him... Hah. I looked back up and I could see his gaze travelling elsewhere. I followed his line of sight and I saw a neko, playing in a pile of leaves.

I heard a giggle and I saw Shirosaki-san's shoulders shake a little. I felt myself smile at such an air he put on. It was sweet and gentle. I could feel a sense of wanting to know more about this man. Being more careful this time around, I stalked closer, making sure I was out of his line of sight. As soon as I was close enough to touch him, I could feel a childish emotion pull at me. Without thinking, I raised my arms and cover his eyes. I felt him tense and I quickly leaned down and whispered in his ear.

"Guess who?" I smiled at how childish I felt. Oh, so childish I am! I can't contain my inner self!

I feel him totally relax again. And to my surprise, he grabs my wrists pulling me forward so I can see his face fully and up close, upside down. He was smiling genuinely and his eyes were shining from the sunlight. Oh, his golden orbs. I blushed when I realized how close he was. I unconsciously pulled back looking at him kind of funny for I didn't have a brain at the moment.

"You know, Kurosaki-kun," I blushed at his soothing voice, "sneaking up on people isn't nice, ne?" I raised an eyebrow and gave him a cross look. I disregarded his comment on my childish impulse and noticed he let go of my wrists. I walked lightly round the bench and sat down. I crossed my legs and stared ahead, embarrassed. I found the neko we had watched earlier and had a question pop into my head. I spoke my mind.

"Oi, were you watching that neko?" I asked, not taking my eyes off the young neko.

"Un, I happen to enjoy watching simple things such as nature." I turned to Shirosaki-san and gazed at his wonderful face. We had something in common. We both liked nature. I stared more as I watched his beautiful eyes turn upwards slightly. He had such nice features and a just a nice demeanor in general. I found I enjoyed his company enormously. I wanted to know more about him.

Startled, I found I was looking directly into his eyes now. I could feel a damn blush rising to my stunned face. His golden eyes holding emotions foreign to me. I wasn't very good at reading others but I wanted to learn now. I wanted to know how he was feeling. I looked away feeling embarrassed that I thought that. I glanced at the ground then back at the neko. I couldn't keep myself still as I could see his eyes on my face. Heat was rushing up to my face.

In my random glancing, I noticed him take a stand and stretch gently. He spoke more softly as if to coon me into whatever he wanted. I uncrossed my legs and I stood up with him.

"Come, walk with me, ne?" I ran my eyes up to his gold ones and I felt snarky suddenly. I rolled my eyes. That was what we were here for, no?

"Hai, hai, Shirosaki-san." I turned and looked for the main walking path. I started off slowly, waiting for him to match my pace. I turned back to him and I see him smiling at me with teeth showing. He had such a nice smile.

"That's Shou to you." He said glancing down at me slightly. I considered that he has said for me to call him by his first name twice. I felt a tinge of heat run to my face. I'm not even that familiar with him! First name basis? Damn.

He matched my pace and I looked to his figure. I checked the clothes he was wearing and he looked sexy. He had on black undershirt that was adorned nicely with a white one that had rips and tears to show that he did have on a black shirt. His leg covered by some tight blue jeans and they fit snugly. And... I could see some stomach. Daaaammmnnn, did I like that little peek show. I felt myself smirk and then it dropped. He was thin, really thin. I wonder if that has to do with the attack. I must have affected his health greatly. I couldn't even imagine myself in the hospital for over a week. Not even for a day! It's bad enough I live in one, partially.

I glanced away quickly, feeling I had stared too much. I decided I should make small talk. My urge to know more about Shirosa- (Shou... -san?) was practically coming out my ears! On a different note, I'll go with 'Shou' for now. Maybe. I'll try it without the honorific first and lets see how that goes.

"Ne, Shou," I look to see if I can see a sign of any sort. Nothing. "Uh, I have wondered about the boxes in your house. Have you just moved here?" I asked, honestly curious. It was bugging me a while ago. Hah, that may have come out weird. Oh well. I sneaked another glance and I see him still thoughtful.

"Un, I just moved here from Kyushu. I have family there." He exclaimed with a touch of sadness. As if to get rid of it, he continued on becoming more happy. "On the bright side, I missed typhoon season!" He smiled and glanced at me. I smiled back and nodded. We are getting to that season. Soon, festivals will be popping up everywhere! September will bring much fun. And school!

"I see, that is cool. Kyushu, huh. Why did you come to Karakura then?" I said pushing for more slightly. I unconsciously put my hands in my pockets. My hands felt a little weird just hanging.

"I came back, actually. I lived here before and I reunited with some friends just recently." He smiled and he didn't go on but he turned to me instead. "Kurosaki, what about you? What kind of family do you have?" He asked sincerely. His line of sight was on me and I felt nervous again.

"Oi, that is Ichigo to you," throwing his words back in his own face. I shifted my hands in my pockets, a smile appearing on my face. "Well, I have two sisters and a lunatic father." I giggle. "One of my sisters is the cutest and sweetest girl in the world, while the other..." I half-smile to myself. "Well, she is a rude, boyish girl. But, I love them." I wouldn't trade those girls for anything.

"What about your father and mother?" My smile fell slightly. I could feel myself pulling up a fake smile. A smile with no happy eyes.

"My father is bat-shit crazy. He is like a hormonal teenager that can't seem to filter his stupid. My mother isn't around anymore." I paused for a second to catch my bearings. "She died when I was seven. I-I don't remember much of what happened though." I glanced to the grass and focused on its green color. Green was peaceful. The color of nature. Yeah. Nature is lovely that way, ne, Ichigo? HA! I'm talking to myself. Pffft!

I heard Shou's footsteps come to a halt. I looked back to see what was the matter and his eyes were glaring at me. Not with malice, but as if he was sending comforting emotions to me with just his eyes. I was astonished. My mouth opened slightly. I could see his comforting eyes looking at me in half-lidded sorrow. What...? I hardly recognize this man. His arm twitched and his hand found its way to my shoulder. His golden eyes seemed deep. I felt like I was surrounded by water in my chest. It sloshed as I took steady breaths. What should I do? I could feel his hand linger before in tightened and slid down ever so lightly. Then his hand tightened again.

"Ichigo." My watery chest sloshed. "I'm sorry to have asked you that. I am." His eyes still on mine. Holy shit.

"A-ah, it's fine. You couldn't have known." I said politely. What the hell was I suppose to say!?

Shou nodded and smiled. His face lit up and I felt lifted. What the fuck? His eyes no longer had that feel to them. I almost forgot about his hand. Almost. I leaned ever so slightly into it then I pulled back and started walking again. I felt better and supported. I wanted to talk more to him about it. I looked to know when to speak so I could hold the conversation.

"It was a long time ago and I've gotten over it. I've got a great father and lovely sisters. We've gotten through it together." I looked at his doubt-filled face and half-smiled. I patted his shoulder and remarked about his sour face, "Ne, Shou-chan, no need to worry." I then patted his head like I would a kid, giggling at my cutsey honorific for teasing him. "Haha, so, what is your hobby?" I deliberately changed the subject because of the white-haired man's dropping of happiness.

He didn't buy it. He gave me a hard look before replying anyways.

"Eh, I like going on walks, obviously. I, uh, I like watching sword fights..." He seemed embarrassed but he continued. "And manga with the genre 'Psychological' the most." He rubbed the back of his head as he closed his eyes and smiled at the sky. I was startled when Shou turned to me quickly.

"What about YOU, Ichigo?" His eyes wide with curiosity. Hehe, I was going to sooo fucking blunt. Hehe.

"Me? Well, I love to write journal entries for just about anything I feel. Hmm, I like watching couples and... I like working out. Lets me let out some steam when I need too." I smirked at his slightly troubled face. Hehe, fuck yeah, this is fun.

He opened his mouth before he closed it. Then he spoke up, "That, is... Uh, cool. If I may," he paused, "why is it you like those random, non-relative things?"

Well then. "Okay. Journal entries helped me when I was younger. Coping and stuff. I've just continued with it. I never really stopped it, for whatever reason. As for watching couples? I enjoy seeing other people happy which makes me happy. Oh, especially gays. They are just the cutest! Now-"

"Eh?" Shou interrupted to my musings which caught me. I glanced away as I bit my lip. Maybe... I shouldn't have said that. Would that make me too obvious? Shit, I didn't want him to know I swung his way! I grumbled to myself before I tuned back to reality. "Uh, why gays?" He questioned suspiciously. Asshole. He is doing that on purpose. I didn't want to go through with this.

"Um... Well, are you against that?" I asked sheepishly. If he said yes, I was going to punch him.

"No. Just curious. Why? As in, why gays?" He repeated. I glanced at him before dropping my gaze. I studied our surroundings and we had walked the whole way around and we were about to come back to our starting point of our 'meeting'.

"Well... Because I can relate. And it makes me happy." This time I looked at Shou full on.

He froze. Oh shit. I fucked up, didn't I? His expression was taken aback. My thoughts were jumbled up. I was slapping myself for saying it yet I was strong about myself. I was not going to be put down if it came to anything. I wasn't going to let people's opinions affect me. I will be strong and not let anyone bring me down. Not again. I felt extremely defensive if it came down to anything of that sort. I came back to my surroundings and saw Shou with a peaceful, yet, hopeful look upon his graceful features. He smiled and laughed.

Whaaa...? He was laughing? But I didn't even feel offended. His laugh was cheerful and happy. It made me smile. I watched as he clutched his mouth with one hand as if to smother the chuckling. Then Shou's laughing stopped as he took on a slight pained expression. My eyes widened as he stumbled off the walk way and laid down in the grass slowly, avoiding looking at me. I was confused and concerned so I followed quickly. I got a look at his face and it was void of any pain. His eyes were closed and he just laid there. I, REALLY confused, knelled down to look at him closer to see if he fainted. Then he smiled. His eyes opened and continued to go to a widened state. What the hell was with him! I don't understand him!

I gave him my most dumbfounded, lost face I could. EXPLAIN YOUR ACTIONS, MAN!

"Haha, oh, Ichigo. I'll tell you everything that is on my mind." He placed his arms behind his head and glanced up at me. I crossed my legs as if to listen to story, his eyes following them. "First, Ichigo, are you gay?" He questioned. I laughed and threw my arms up in the air in exasperation and wariness.

"What do you think genius?! Hey, everyone wave to Closet Ichigo. He just has a FEW things on his mind," I added sarcastically. I looked past him to the entrance of the park. Tch, what the hell am I getting myself into?

Shou giggled, "okay. Well, secondly, I forgot that I hurt myself when I laugh too hard." I gave out a 'baka' to that and stared him down. "And that leads up to why I was laughing. Hah, I also think you're brave revealing yourself to someone you just meet." I rolled my eyes, which looked back to the park entrance. "I wasn't sure so I wasn't going to say anything. Because, you know, I'm al-"

I cut Shou off as I gasped in shock. My eyes laid upon a very, very unexpected (and kind of unwanted) visitor. I stared at the shocking blue-green eyes of Grimmjow. He was looking intently at me before looking at what I was kneeling over. Or rather who. I felt displeasure but pushed it away. I now felt extremely awkward. Why has he been doing this to me lately? I just wanted to punch Grimmjow right now. I gave a rather bland glare his way and he started heading over. I had ignored Shou till he sat fully upright, careful not to jog his side. I glanced at his face and saw disappointment like it was written on. He looked at me expectantly and I just shrugged.

"I don't know what he is doing here." I said to the golden-eyed man.

"So you didn't know he was coming?"

"Nope. Not a clue."

Grimmjow reached us and looked between the two of us. I wasn't happy. He was interrupting my Ogling Day of Shou. If fact, I could feel myself slightly pissed, but I wasn't going to act upon it.

"Hey, Gimmjow. What brings you here?" Keeping out every ounce of irritation out. I wasn't about to let petty emotions get out.

"Nothing much. Just thought I would come to the park." He said with eyes in Shou's direction.

"Oh, well, we will be going now then, ne?" I directed towards Shou. I found myself staring into ever so slightly softening eyes. I stood up and helped Shou the best I could being totally aware of his injured side. He nodded and started off, me in tow. That is, before my tracks were stopped by the one and only hand on my shoulder! Hey! This brings back memories. I wonder if it will for Grimmjow.

I turned, removing his hand from my shoulder, and smirked with humorous malice on my face. I lifted my foot and prepped myself for a good kick in the balls.

"Ne, Grimmjow. Remember what happens when you grab my shoulder?" His eyes were as wide as saucers when he noticed my leg lift. He jumped back and cupped himself. "Oh? Seems you do..." My voice dropping octaves as I let him recall what happens when you fuck with me. I took a step forward in his direction and he shivered.

"O-oi, I'm just a poor innocent boy, Ichigo!" He solidified his balls for what he said. "Plus, you wouldn't REALLY hurt that part of me would you? You know you-" I cut him off with a sucker-punch to his jaw. He gasped and wiped his mouth, blood plain on his hand. "You little bitch! You actually hit me!"

"Well, yeah I punched your sorry ass. That is kind of what happens when you piss me off, Grimmjow-tan." Provoking him further with childish names. He bumped his chest against mine. I pushed back, my face inches from his. He scowled and turned away. Shoving his hands in his pockets and stepping away.

"Fuck you." His cheeks pinked as I got a glimpse at his face. Interesting. I smiled.

"When and where, babe?" He snorted and started walking away. He called back over his shoulder as he headed for the park entrance.

"Shut up, I just wanted to see if you were here for your oto-san. He wants you home by dinner, asshole." He paused and then continued. "Wow, awesome, Grimmjow. Thanks for letting me know! See ya, later!" He said, mimicking my voice. Asshole. I watched him go and wondering what a short, awkward time period. I thought back and found myself confused. I came out of my musings when I heard a snicker from behind me. I turned heel and saw Shou staring at me with amused eyes. I blushed slightly at how awkward and strange I felt.

"What?"

"Oh nothing. You two are just interesting." He said as his eyes bore into mine.


YAY! AFTER SO FUCKING LONG I'M DONE! Shit, I'm so worn. Well, my little cubs, is is time for Brian's bedtime. I'm sorry for any mistakes because I am a amateur. If my story doesn't feel right, please tell me! And I am sorry for the long wait. I promise the next chapter is on its way. Then this stupid cliffhanger can go screw itself. I am so excited for this story! KYA! I love both these couples... And I love jealousy to be involved. :3 Nighty-night!