Chapter 4
LPOV
"Leah! Leah! Can you hear me?" Yes. I thought, but I couldn't bring myself to open my eyes. Not yet. I know my brother and everyone else gathered around me were concerned, but I had hid this for too long. I worked to hard to push this out of my mind and out of my heart only to admit defeat now. How could I have been so stupid! I won't have long to to consider my my lack of mental intellect – or stability for that matter. Edward is hearing my every thought. How much time do I have until he rats me out? One little slip, like passing out, and my cover is blown!
They underestimated me. The whole pack did. Not in strength or competence, though that might be challenged now, but they underestimated my ability to control my emotions. I know, I had been more than angry, more than cruel to everyone when I lost Sam, but it caught me by such surprise I had nothing to do but react. The pain I felt was so intense, I had no other way of feeling. Then just as I start to get a hold of myself I go and imprint on a vampire. Well, half-vampire, but vampire non the least! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!! But that fact only bothered me for a moment, but then the fear and desperation hit me like a truck. I knew the facts of imprinting, I saw it happening all around me. The object of your imprinting was your hearts true match, your only true mate for life. But what if he didn't want me? What if he didn't want a women who "shifted" into a wolf? I was dirty, sometimes smelly, especially to his kind, rude, arrogant, and barely even a woman at that! I couldn't take another hit like the one I took from losing Sam, I wouldn't survive it again. So, for the past six years I have denied my heart and soul, denied my chance at happiness all due to fear. This fear that built up inside of me, festering, ready to explode, and now it had. I thought I would be fine living my life alone. I would never see him again, so my heart would be safe from ever feeling that kind of pain again. Until now. I don't know if I could deny myself again, but could he possibly want me?
EPOV
"Daddy, is she alright? She's not responding. What is she thinking? IS she thinking?" Renesmee probed as we all stood around Leah waiting for her to snap out of her little fainting episode.
"Yes, she's fine, I think. She's starting to come around." And she was, fine. I could her her thoughts now, not that they were truly coherent. Leah imprinting on Nahuel! I had to stifle a laugh at that thought, but it made perfect sense. Fate certainly has a twisted sense of humor. That, I knew from my own existence.
Only a few minutes had passed and Leah was moving around now trying to lift herself off the ground. "Jacob, Seth, help her inside." I ordered as the crowd still seemingly in shock sat motionless watching, or waiting, for something else to happen. They walked over taking her by the arms and helped her to her feet.
"I'm fine, I'm fine. Really. I'm not sure what happened." Leah, looking quite embarrassed, told the overly attentive onlookers as she walked in front of us towards the door. As she passed by me, she put her eyes to the ground, and then I heard her question that was just meant for me.
Edward, have they figured it out yet? Do they know?
They did. They had figured it out. At least the members of her pack had. I listened to the minds of my family, all but one. They didn't seem to understand yet. Carlisle was wondering if he should go in and offer his assistance. Esme was justifiably concerned. Emmett thought it was funny. Rosalie was thinking about the dirt on her new shoes, Alice was trying to see something, anything from the future, but our guests were making this task nearly impossible. Jasper was feeling the nerves and fear radiating from Leah. Renesmee was worrying about Jacob. Nahuel and Seth were equally confused about exactly what had happened. Then there was Jacob. Jacob was, what? Jacob was angry?
JacPov
Well damn! Damn! Damn! Damn! Leave it to Leah to steal my thunder! I knew she didn't mean it. I knew she wished that it didn't happen. I honestly felt sorry for her. I knew what it was like to harbor unrequited feelings. But then again we didn't know yet if how her feelings would be received. I couldn't wait to ask Edward how Nahuel would take the news that he was now the object of a female Werewolf's affection. Undying affection at that! My mind went from anger to disappointment to anger again, then I settled onto frustrated. I had been waiting so long for this day and now it was ruined. On to the next plan, but first I really just wanted to get Renesmee alone. It felt like it was so long since we had been together, only a few days, really, but it seemed like an eternity.
I
"No thanks Carlisle, I'm fine, really" Leah tried to sound convincing as she pleaded with the doctor to forgo his plans to give her a once-over.
"Alright, but if you change your mind, or feel faint again at all, please, don't hesitate to ask." Carlisle said as he and the wife headed out of the living room, leaving the rest of us standing, not really sure where to begin.
"We'll I guess we should introduce, everyone." Edward started. " Although, you all have really already met. Jacob, Seth,....Leah, this is Nahuel. You may remember him from a while back. He is going to be staying with us for a while." Everyone murmured hellos and settled into small talk This was great and all, lots of fun chatting it up with everyone, but I still hadn't really talked with Renesmee yet. She was sitting alone on the furthest edge of the couch. She looked beautiful, she always did. She also looked nervous.
RenPOV
Its going to be fine. Its going to be fine. I told myself over and over again, but I just couldn't get that dream out of my head. I looked over at him, standing beside Leah. My heart ached for him, I wanted to hold him in my arms, to touch his face, and comfort his mind. I loved Jacob with my whole heart, but I just couldn't shake the feelings that I had in that dream with Nahuel. I wanted so much to go to Jacob, but I didn't. I just sat there. I watched him run off, his heart breaking. I know it didn't really happen, but I still felt so guilty! Guilty for letting Jacob feel that kind of pain, and guilt for being so intrigued by Nahuel. I have to figure this out, I have to get myself under control, and soon. I knew Jacob was going to propose soon, I wanted him to, but not now. Not while I am so confused. There is only one person that can help me, I know she wants to, but can she?
