It's been a few days and I have to see a therapist about what happened that night and all the times before that, Amelia and Alex say that it will help me get better mentally and emotionally then my body will start to get better physically but I know that it won't help me to talk to someone who has no idea what I have been going threw.

As I waited for Alex to come get me to take me to my session but his been acting really weird lately and I haven't really seen him since my thoughts were cut off when Jo walked into my room.

"Hey I was tolled to come and take you to your session" she said as she start to prep me "wait where's Alex" I asked and she stopped and froze as is she just saw a ghost she didn't say anything but I could see that she was hiding something "Wilson where is Alex" I asked again she looked at me and tolled me everything that has happened in the last two days.

All I could do as sit there thinking about Alex and what had happened I felt bad but I felt bad for De Luca not Alex which makes me feel even worse because Alex is family and I should be on his side but when I think about the whole thing all I can think about is Jimmy and how Alex has tried so hard not to turn out like but this one mistake changes that. I decide I wanted to wait to see my therapist till after I get a chance to see Alex but I am getting discharged tomorrow and Meredith said I could stay at her place for a bit till I am completely healed and ready to get back on my feet my thoughts were once and cut off by someone coming in to my room.

"Hey you ready to go home tomorrow" Amelia asked sitting beside my bed looking at me "yes and no" I answer not actually sure if I am ready to leave the hospital it has kind of become like home to me. "you okay" she asked "you seen kind of distant" she asked looking at me "just I don't know if I am ready to leave this place I mean it kind of become like home to me, a home where I feel safe that I know that he can hurt me" I looked at her and she knew what I meant and she just nod.

Amelia left after a few hours because she's been at the hospital for 48 hours and was really tired but I didn't mind I needed some time to myself to think and figure what I am going to do with my life now. I picked up my cell phone and called the one person I know who could help me figure stuff out "Hey Amber how fast can you make it out to seattle".

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I want to Thank Siriuslylovehp for the inspiration for this chapter