[22:53:24] Puzzypower: so, how about that author's note?
[22:53:52] Jmj3: :)
[22:54:01] Jmj3: just tell people to read and review! ha.
[22:54:24] Puzzypower: yeah, that's a start at least! What should we tell them about the chap?
[22:58:32] Puzzypower: where did you go? I guess I'll just have to do this by myself now or what?
[22:59:07] Jmj3: nooooo. :)
[22:59:11] Jmj3: im just busy workin lol
[23:00:11] Puzzypower: arh, damned work - always gets in the way.. Aaaaanywaaay... We can tell our faithful readers that things certainly take a few turns this chapter!
[23:00:36] Jmj3: they may or may not get what they finally want too!
[23:02:00] Puzzypower: and Rose lays out some of her infinite wisdom
[23:02:18] Jmj3: cause she is the logical one in this story!
[23:02:46] Puzzypower: believe it or not! And- she's not the only one that lays out something either...
[23:03:04] Jmj3: hahahaha oh geeeez. let's just get on with it :)
[23:03:29] Puzzypower: yup! We don't own.. SM does. We just play in her doll house...
[23:04:12] Jmj3: cause its oh so amazing. Review my loves!
[23:04:55] Puzzypower: OR WE WILL WITHHOLD YOUR HEARTS DESIRE! *ROFL*
TEMLLOBS
Chapter 4
BPOV
I woke up in Jasper's arms, snuggling into his chest. That muscular, defined, totally lickable chest. Mmmm... The events from yesterday came rushing back to me. FUCK! I fucked Jasper – and what a fucking it was! Holy hell, I never had better sex. Not that that said a lot with the douches I dated in the past. But holy crap this was bad. Not the sex, mind you – the situation. How the hell would Edward react? How would Jasper act around me now? Was he expecting us to be more, or was it just a fuck?
My mind reeled at that, when I felt Jasper begin to stir. "Mornin' Sweetheart," he rumbled, "sleep well?"
"Yeah, I slept just fine. I just got a kink in my neck from lying on your arm all night. You?"
"Best sleep in years." Jasper was not a morning person, so his sentences were always short and clipped in the morning, until after he drank his half a gallon of coffee. He gave me a squeeze and a kiss on the top of the head, before he climbed out of bed and shamelessly headed to the bathroom, naked.
I got up and went to my own room to get dressed, hoping Edward didn't see me on the way – I just had Jasper's sheet wrapped around me. And I really wasn't ready for a confrontation with him right then. A glance on the clock told me that he already must have left for the hospital.
After getting dressed, I went to the kitchen, expecting to find the house a mess. But to my surprise, everything was spotless and Rose was sitting at the kitchen with a cup of coffee and the morning paper. "Coffee's on the machine. " She said, "And good morning, horny bitch!" She looked up at me, smiling broadly.
"Good morning – and thanks for the coffee and the clean-up!"
"Don't thank me – thank Edward. He did it all before I got up. He left half an hour ago."
Shit, now I really felt bad. He had cleaned up all of the mess all by himself, while his best friends were sleeping after they fucked like bunnies. What a pair of friends we were... And what a great friend he was! I wonder if he suspected anything. And how he would take it? I had to discuss this with Jazz when he became human again.
I took my coffee and sat down across from Rose. "Where's Em?" I asked.
"He left this morning, when we got up. He had to go to work," she answered, "now tell me – was the sex any good?"
"Holy hell, Rose – I've never had better! He is a genuine GOD in bed. But it shouldn't surprise me – he's good at everything he does. Now I just wonder, what the hell is gonna happen!"
"What do you mean, happen? You're best friends, you stay that way! Unless you want it to be more?" She said with a perfectly manicured eyebrow raised.
"I'm not sure. I love him, of course, but I don't know if I'm IN love with him, or if it's just in lust, you know? I feel the same way about Edward as I do about Jazz, so I'm fucking confused." I clutched my cup between my folded hands, feeling pretty fucking miserable.
"Hmm. You have to think it through then. For now, I'd just let things play out naturally. And make sure to test out Eddie-boy too, if he's willing! And I'm sure he is – you should see the looks he throws at you when you're not looking!" she winked at me with a broad smile on her face.
"You're right, I should think about this. And I won't say no, if Edward gives it up, that's for sure! Damn, that boy is absolutely fine!" I said with a laugh – Rose could always make me see sense.
"Good girl – just relax, and see what happens, okay?" Rose said, patting my hand.
Jasper came in to the kitchen then and went directly for the coffee machine. After making his cup, he came over and sat next to me, giving my shoulder a squeeze and pecking my cheek, just like usual. Huh? Well, I guessed things wouldn't be as weird as I feared after all. Now, I just had to wait and see what Edward would do…
EPOV
Watching Bella and Jasper that day weirded me out. Something went on between them, I just couldn't figure out what! Whatever it was, I thought Rose was in on it.
When they got up to leave, leaving me with everyone at the barbecue, it was odd. It was always used to be the three of us together when we closed up a party. Typically, we finished off all the alcohol before we went to bed. Alone. Why the fuck were they going together?
"You ok there Edward?" Rose asked me. In all honesty, I forgot she was even here still.
"Yep. Perfect." I replied with a very short tone.
"Dude, chill out. I was just asking a damn question." She said while taking a sip of her drink.
"You don't even know what is going on Rose. Don't tell me to chill out." I was getting pissed.
"What? That you clearly want her just as much as she wants you? That you're jealous as fuck that she just went in there with Jazz - to fuck I'm pretty sure."
"Damnit Rosalie!" I semi yelled at her while slamming my beer down on the table. "I don't need to hear this shit. If she wanted me even half of how I want her, she wouldn't have left with him!"
"Edward, I know you're pissed, I see that loud and clear. Have you ever once stopped to think that maybe, just maybe, she wants you both? I may be a tad bit tipsy, but I know what I see. She is my best friend! You two follow suit right behind her. I see more than you could imagine."
"Whatever you say Rose. I'm gonna head to bed. You guys staying here tonight?" Regardless that she pissed me off, my home was always open to her.
"Yea. We've both been drinking and I'd rather not risk driving."
"Ok. Just lock up would ya? We can clean everything up tomorrow." I said as I got up and started walking inside.
"Hey E?" I heard her call me as I looked back over my shoulder.
"Yea?"
"I love you. I promise things will look up. Just don't let yourself get so upset." She said to me with a smile and a wink.
"Thanks. Love you too." Regardless of how I felt, I knew Rose was right. Things would always get better; I would make sure that they did.
I was lying in bed almost a sleep when I heard a thumping noise. That was fucking ridiculous! Not only was I jealous, but now I was forced to hear them too? Fuck that bull shit!
"Oh fuck yes, Baby! Give me that cock! Pound my pussy!" For real? She was a fuckin' screamer?
"FUCK!" I yelled into my pillow as I covered my face with it. I didn't want to listen to this shit when it was him causing it! I wanted it to be me, motherfucker!
Thank God I didn't have to listen to both of them scream. I didn't think I could handle listening to them both. I kept hearing the thumping. Just a guess, I thought he was fucking her like there was no tomorrow - I knew I would. Who knew if you'd ever get the chance with her again!
I would give anything to be in there right then. And I meant anything, to be in that room right then. I could also guarantee that I'd make her scream louder than that.
I was too frustrated to even want to jack off that night. Sure, I was horny as fuck, but this was killing me; being forced to listen to it. It was going to be a long fucking day at the hospital in the morning!
~~~~~~~~TEMLLOBS~~~~~~~~
I didn't sleep a wink that night. Luckily, they stopped fucking and from what I could tell only did it once. I was tired, fucking grumpy, and horny as fuck. I needed to get laid, and soon.
When I got up, the house was still a mess and everyone was sleeping. I went to clean up it all up, chucking bottles down the garbage can to vent my frustration, and shredding the used napkins in anger. Taking it all out on inanimate objects made me feel remotely better.
Just as I was drying the last dish, Rose and Em appeared from the guest bedroom. I offered them coffee, but Emmett was in a hurry – he was late for work already. Rose accepted though, and gave me a peck on the cheek. "Remember what I said, Edward. It will all work out, once you get your head out of your ass!" I smiled a weak smile at her and took off to the hospital.
Once I was done at the hospital, I headed to the gym. I needed to get those frustrations out! If I didn't do it this way, I would take it out on either Bella or Jasper. I was known to do both in the past, and it was never pretty.
The end result was either me on my ass, or Bella not talking to me for days. Sure, Jasper and I were very close in size, but he knew my weak points physically and always went for it when I pissed him off. Bella on the other hand was your typical female and resorted to the silent treatment. I thought that was the worst thing anyone could ever do! I'd rather take a black eye!
After about two hours at the gym, I made my way home. I was sore, and wanted to hop into the hot tub to relax my body. I thought I may have over pushed it just a little. Getting in the hot tub by yourself is one of the loneliest experiences, which is why I headed into the kitchen to get a beer.
"You okay there B?" I asked Bella as I walked into the kitchen. She stood there; rubbing her hands up and down on her neck like it bugged her.
"Yeah, my neck is just sore from class today. Actually my entire back has been killing me today."
"Stress maybe? Are you stretching properly before and after each session? Lack of sleep? Are you drinking enough water?" I instantly went into Doctor-mode. What? I was a good ass Doctor and I refused to let my best friends suffer if I could help. Granted, I wasn't a full-fledged Doctor yet, but I would be!
"Edward, chill! It's just a neck ache. I probably slept wrong!" She looked at me as she said this, and I swear to you she was checking me out! Fuck, who wouldn't? I stood there in just my swim trunks with them hanging low on my hips.
"Sorry B. You know how I am and how I worry. I was gonna hop in the hot tub. Care to join me? You're short enough that you can get your neck in there and it'll help relax some pain."
"Sure. Let me go change and I'll meet your sorry ass out there. Just grab the beers and go!" She yelled as she walked to her room.
"Demanding little bitch!" I muttered to myself.
"I heard that fucker!" Jesus Christ did that woman have bugs around this place? I swore she heard every damn word we said!
Grabbing the beers, I headed outside so that I could remove the top and climb on in.
Once I was in, I decided to wait for B to turn the jets on. She preferred them to be off when she climbed in, I'm not sure why though. She always had those weird little quirks that I grew to love about her.
Watching her walk out here in her itty, bitty, teeny, dark pink bikini was one of the hottest things I'd fucking seen in a long time!
"Fuck B. You're fucking hot in that!"
"Shut up dick. You've seen it before." She blushed and laughed at me. Why the blush though?
"Just come in already. I want the damn jets on!"
She hopped in, and I literally mean hopped and splashed water all over me, I swore she was the world's biggest child at times. My first instinct was to get pissed because I hated being splashed. My second instinct was to simply just laugh. Which was exactly what I did. I started the jets and watched as she started stretching her neck in the water, no doubt trying to get as much relief as possible. And holy fuck I wanted to kiss, lick and bite her neck!
"B, you sure you're okay? You seem off today." I felt bad, I felt like I was coaxing her into telling me what happened last night.
"Yeah, just didn't sleep much and class was long today."
"Why didn't you sleep much? You left the party before everyone else did..." Yeah, the look on her face said flat out she knew that I knew what the fuck happened last night.
"Oh yeah. That… I don't even know E." She was stumbling over her words. She regretted it. Or at least that's how it seemed.
"Yeah. Didn't think I'd figure it out huh? I watched the two of you walk away B." I was raising my voice towards her, something I never used to do before, "Do you even have any idea what this does? It fucks up our entire fucking friendship! What; are you two together now? Am I going to have to listen to you fuck each other every night? Oh yeah, let's not forget that I was able to fucking hear you guys!" Yep, I was pissed.
"E calm down babe. We can talk about this." She said as she went to grab my arm. I instantly pulled back. I didn't want her touching me when I was that livid.
"CALM DOWN? Bella you don't fucking get it! I've wanted you for YEARS! I didn't act on it because I didn't want to fuck our friendship up! I knew J wanted you too but he shouldn't have touched you!" I went to take a deep breathe to get more out as she started in.
"Why Edward? Am I not good enough to be touched? Do I not deserve to have it too? I get what you're saying you fucker, and I get that it will change everything between the three of us! But fuck! It just happened okay!"
"You sit here and tell me how you've wanted me for years! But why the fuck did you never do anything about it? I can honestly tell you that your actions would have been fucking returned!"
Say what? She wanted me? Then why the fuck did she go for him?
"Bella seriously, you sit here and say that you wanted me but then you went and fucked him! Don't try to fucking say you didn't because I could hear you! And God did it kill me!" My voice was softening; I could never stay mad at her for long. Right then I thought it was mainly out of jealousy that I was pissed instead of truly being hurt. If anything, they should have invited me to go with them!
"I'm sorry E. I didn't think about it. I had been drinking, he's hot. I wanted him as well and he was the one acting like he wanted me back. Trust me, if it had been the other way around it would have been you fucking me."
"Let's just drop this before we keep fighting okay?" I said to her, hoping that it would just end. I didn't think she was doing anything but making me more and more upset.
"Fine. Just don't be mad at me okay?" She smiled at me.
"Can I just ask one thing?" I asked with a raise of my eyebrows.
"Anything, you know that."
"Was he at least good in bed?"
"Holy fuck E! I am so not answering that question! Why do you even wanna know? Competition, or do you want him for yourself?" She said as she splashed me again.
I grabbed her arm and pulled her towards me. "I only wanna know so I know what I have to do, to make it better for you."
I instantly felt her pulse pick up. Yeah, she wanted me. Her eyes went dark with lust, and she automatically licked her lips as if she was asking me to taste them.
"Just shut up and rub my back would ya?" She said to me as she sat herself in between my legs. Ungh, this was not going to be easy. She was way too close to my dick to not get any action.
I started rubbing her back and god damn her muscles were tight. Being in the water was not making it easy to rub her back. I was still pissed that she fucked Jasper, but I was trying my hardest to not take it out on her.
"Ughh. E that feels great." She quietly moaned. God I just wanted to touch her more.
That wasn't the first massage I gave to her. Through our lives she always told me I had amazing hands, and she loved the way I worked her body. I was sure she would love it even more once I could really work her.
It was in that instant that I needed to touch more. I rubbed her shoulders, and slowly glided my hands down her arms. God, her arms. Pathetic that something so simple was turning me on. Before I realized what I was doing, I leaned down and kissed her shoulder.
"E what are you doing?" She said as she pulled away from me.
"Sorry, I didn't realize."
"Realize what? That you were all of a sudden kissing my shoulder?" She interrupted me.
She was pissed, I could tell the instant she pulled away from me and by the look on her face.
"B, relax. I swear it was an accident." I went to grab her arm to pull her back to me, but she ripped her arm out of my grasp.
"No. I'm sure you knew what you were doing. You figured I slept with Jazz, so now you want to try too right? I'm not that much of a whore Edward. I'm not just going to jump into bed with you!"
"We're not even in a bed. We're in the hot tub. And I never said you were a whore! Never once did I even imply it!"
"You basically did when you kissed me thinking I would return it!"
"Not even the case B. But admit it. If I kissed you now, you would kiss me back. Admit that you've wanted your mouth on mine. Our tongues caressing each other." I was egging her on with hopes that she would react. I could tell by her face that she was imagining it.
"Admit to yourself Bella that you want me touching you. You want my hands all over your body, and that it was me making you scream instead of Jazz."
"You're wrong Edward! I love Jazz." Was she trying to convince herself or me?
"Oh I know you love him. But you love me more. Admit it."
"Fuck you, you conceited prick! You have no right to sit here and tell me who I love more! I love you both. I have never denied that."
I cut her off by putting my lips on hers. I was going to prove to her that I was right. That she wanted me just as much as she wanted him, if not more. Her hands went to my chest trying to push me away, but I gripped her tighter.
She wouldn't move her lips against mine. She was tensed up and rigid. I needed her to loosen up and enjoy this. I moved my hands down to her hips and started rubbing small circles on her hip bones. I got exactly the reaction I wanted!
She sighed and opened her mouth allowing my tongue to enter. I didn't know if that's what she was looking for but it was exactly what she got.
Her hands relaxed a tad, and she pushed me so that I was sitting on the step in the hot tub. I was shocked when she climbed up into my lap and threaded her fingers into my hair. I grabbed her hips and pulled her into me so that she could feel my hard cock through my shorts.
"Mmm E. We can't do this." She said as she pulled away from me.
"Yes we can. No one is stopping us." I said as I kissed her again.
She instantly rubbed herself down onto my dick, and it sounded crazy but I thought I could feel her getting wet. But it could be my imagination since we were still in the hot tub. I absolutely loved the feeling of being able to thrust up a little and meet the friction that was so desperately needed for us both.
I decided to be bold and grab her tits. HOLY FUCK. That encouraged her to rub faster. I felt like a 16 year old boy dry humping his girlfriend while his mom was in the house. I moved my mouth to her neck and bit down hard, and then smoothed my tongue over that part to give it an even better sensation. Moving her bikini top to the side, I pinched her right nipple while massaging the other tit with my hand. Again, it spurred her on even more.
"E don't stop, I'm gonna cum." God damn. I just wished it was my cock she was coming on.
"What the fuck? Didn't waste any time did ya B?" I heard Jasper say.
When the hell did he get here? Bella stopped moving, and buried her face in my neck out of embarrassment.
"Jazz it isn't what it looks like." I started to say. Typical line, right? What the fuck was it supposed to look like with her straddling me, her top to the side and you could clearly tell she was breathing heavily.
"Just shut it E. I'm out." He said as he turned around and walked away.
"Jazz, wait!" Bella called out to him. "B, let him go. You know he won't stay mad at either of us. Just let him go cool off."
The look on her face told me she was heartbroken. The question stood, why? Was it because she regretted this with me? That she hurt Jasper? Or that she didn't get off?
JPOV
What the FUCK? What the hell was going on here? I mean – she just fucked me the night before and a good fucking at that – at least I thought so. And then she just went off and sexed up E? I had no fucking clue how to react. I mean – we didn't agree on bein' a couple or anythin', and I honestly didn't expect us to be. But so soon? Just, I don't know, hoppin' to the next willing guy in line?
That was just not the Bella I knew and it left me fuckin' confused, I tell ya. My mind was reelin' with all that happened the last few days. I went to my bedroom and slammed the door after me. I had to cool down some before talkin' to either of them again.
E – my fuckin' brother from another mother – he never, NEVER, went for one of my girls before, and now he just had to take on B? Aw, shit, I knew he loved her. We both did, for fucks sake! But I was there first. She wanted me first. Why the hell did he do that? I felt fuckin' betrayed by both of them. Why did they turn away from me? I loved them both so much! My fuckin' best friends! And now also literally. Tears were seepin' out behind my scrunched eyelids, and let me tell ya, that shit just didn't fly with me – I never cried. Nuh uh, not me.
I sat down on my bed and grabbed my guitar; I had to let it out somehow. When upset; Edward worked out, Bella cleaned – Me? I worked on music. Strummin' on the strings, I tried to work out some lyrics that would fit my emotions.
"Had a life, like a dream come true,
They went and betrayed it,
I had no clue,
How does it fit?
When I love you.
I'm amazed,
The dream was gone,
That I had chased
What had we become?"
Shit, that wasn't working, was it? Soon I became lost in the music and fiddled around with the words and chords; calming down more and more.
Hell, I overreacted, didn't I? It's not like we had a commitment or anything – I'd fucked plenty of girls before without battin' an eyelash when they or I moved to the next in line. It shouldn't be different this time. And what really threw me for a loop was that it wasn't just jealousy of Edward bein' with Bella – it was also jealousy of Bella bein' with Edward!
When I saw them in the hot tub, makin' out, E all wet and sexy and with the damned sounds comin' from the both of them; I couldn't help but want to be the one grindin' on him, suckin' on his neck and feelin' his hard muscles against me. Feelin' somethin' else that was hard against me. And preferably to be with both him and her – her tiny little hands around my cock, my hands around Edward's. Holy crap, this faggot shit had to stop! Was I seriously contemplatin' bein' with E? Fuck my life.
I had no clue how to fix it, but I certainly had to. They didn't deserve me goin' off on them like that – they didn't do anythin' wrong – they couldn't have known how I was gonna feel about it. I had better go talk to them and straighten this shit out – sooner rather than later.
With determination I went up and opened my door, only to be met with two pairs of eyes – deep brown and clear green – and Bella's raised fist, ready to knock. Next thing I registered? E's fist. E's fist comin' against me and sockin' me right in the eye. Bella's scream. Then everythin' went black.
