I don't know when I lost my mind

Maybe it was every time

That you said, you said, you said

That I miss you.

(Miss You by Ed Sheeran)

My phone rings in the still house. Mother's gone. Again.

I answer.

"I miss you," she says.

She's been gone for weeks and weeks. I've been alone for weeks and weeks. But I'm used to it now. I'm older now.

Ever since Dad died, she took on extra missions, trying to distract herself from the pain. My face reminds her of his.

I guess there were worse things in life.

Or maybe not.

I understand why she moves on now. It's too painful to simply sit and stare at the pictures, to painful to think of the past and what could have been.

But, she's still not here to comfort me when I cry. She's still not here when the nightmares catch up to me in my dark room. She's not here when I need her.

The line goes dead as I drop the phone.

Each time she calls, I remember what it was like to see her smile. Each time I feel my heart being squeezed then torn from my chest. Each time she say's goodbye, I feel as though I could reach out, to comfort her just my holding her hand.

Each time she hangs up, I know I've lost my mind, but I can't seem to find it.

Each time she leaves, I hold onto the memories, thinking of the moment when Dad last left, and hoping to see her again too. Those nights, I cry the most. But she'll never know. I'm too strong to break.

I don't know when I lost my mind

Maybe it was every time

That you said, you said, you said

That I miss you.

Plot Summary: So after Cammie's dad dies, Cammie and her mom leave to a new life. But Cammie's mom is still very sad, and tries to drown out her sorrows by working really hard, therefore she is often gone. Cammie feel lonely and alone without both her parents. She worries her mom will become MIA.

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