FSD: My Ana

Chapter 4: Vanilla?

Not Beta'd, all mistakes are mine.

I admitted to Ana being jealous of Jose. I don't get jealous. I never have. But with Ana, it's different. I just couldn't bare to lose her again. Not this time. As she stood there listening to me rant on I closed the gap between us.

"Ana, can we please go somewhere and talk this out. I don't want to do this here. Not with everyone around. Please?" I begged her.

"Okay, you're right. We can't do this here. Just give a moment to say goodbye." She replied as she walked away from me.

Finally! I get her all to myself. She went right up to Jose. I saw her talking to him but I couldn't hear what was being said. He nodded to her as they gave each other a hug. She kissed him on the cheek and headed my direction again.

I grabbed her coat as we headed out. I held her hand as we walked down the street. There had to be a cafe close by. We came up to one. Mimi's cafe. We went in and ordered our food. We sat down as they were going to bring it to us. Ana looked at me as she waited for me to start.

My eyes met hers as I began, "I guess I should start at the beginning?"

"That would be nice," she replied.

Okay, I told myself. Here it goes. "I've done a lot of thinking while we were apart Ana. You leaving was probably the best thing you could have done."

"Christian, I..." She started saying.

"Let me finish. Please." I said. as she nodded. "As I was saying, I did a lot of thinking when you left. That was the wake up call I needed. Remember how I told you at my parents dinner no one has ever said no to me before?" She nodded. "Well, that turned me on more than you know. I'm used to getting my way Ana. No one has ever challenged like you do. Ever. This is new to me."

The waitress appeared interrupting me but brought our food and refilled our water. I waited until she left to go on.

"Ana, as I said before I have never done the girlfriend thing. I started in the BDSM stuff when I was 15, so for me to court a girl...is very new to me. I've never had to court anyone. When I had submissives, they just willingly submit themselves to me so I've never had to ask a girl out."

Ana really looked at me then. She asked, "Why now? Why are willing to try this 'vanilla' thing with me?"

Does she really have to ask that question? "Isn't is obvious? Ana, I'm so...smitten with you! I'm undoubtedly, smitten by you. I can't sleep. I can't function without you. When I emailed you about coming with you to Jose's opening...that was the first time I actually got out of bed and worked."

She stared at me stunned, like she couldn't believe what I what telling her. "Elena," as soon as I mentioned her name, Ana rolled her eyes. I wanted to correct her on it right then but I stopped myself. I reminded her, "She's just a friend Ana."

Ana sat back for a moment as she absorbed what I had already told her. Then she leaned forward again. "Okay, I am going to make a point to you Christian. You know how you feel about Jose, well that's how I feel about Elena or Mrs. Robinson. Though I have never had sexual relations with him," she pointed out.

Duly noted. "I get your point. Duly noted Ms. Steele. May I continued? Though I will have to mention-you-know-who." She nodded agreeing with me. "As I was saying, Elena had come buy several times and I was a mess. I even had a full beard as I had not shaved. I took to my bed and didn't want to get up. That's how bad I was Ana. I even went to see my therapist John. I told him all about you. Everything. Anyways, he was the one who suggested that I try this...our relationship and see where it goes. I know that the spanking was the last draw with you."

"Christian, if I may be honest here. That whole red room of pain scares me to death. I walk on eggshells with you. All those rules you wanted me to follow, then you say you get turned on by my non-submissive behavior confused me. I don't know which way to go anymore. I had no idea how much you needed to punish until…" her voice trailed off as she started getting emotional.

"I'm sorry about that. I really am. I guess I didn't realize...I was confused as well."

"Why?" she asked. "I don't understand."

"Because you didn't use your safe words, Ana." I replied.

"Oh…" she said quietly.

"Which brings me on to the next point. Why didn't you use your safe words if it was getting to be too much for you?"

Ana turned her head away from me. I hated it when she did that. "Ana talk to me. If we don't communicate and be honest with each other how can we get passed this?"

She looked at me replying softly, "Because I forgot."

What? After all this time that was the reason, she forgot? "How could you forget something like that?" I snapped suddenly.

"Christian it's not hard to do when you're being beaten by a whip!" She yelled out.

Here we go again. Everyone looking at us. I sighed, trying to catch my breath and calm down. Everyone else continued with their meals.

She said more quietly, "That whole red room frightens me. Seeing all those chains, whips, canes. It terrifies me."

"Okay. I will make you a deal. No more red room until you're ready, if you will ever be ready. We will only do the vanilla stuff," I say to her.

Her eyes then filled with lust. Her whole body language changed. Really? Now? I asked myself.

"So no kinkery stuff at all? I like some of it Christian."

I changed my tone as well as I asked huskily, "Really? Well, Ms. Steele, you just tell me what it is you want and we will go from there." I replied wiggling my eyes to her as she giggled. Now we're getting somewhere.

Ana licked her lips as her breathing went shallow. "I don't mind being tied up. Handcuffs are okay too. Just not any of the stuff you would use to whip me."

Damn! I'm getting hard just thinking of tying her up! Okay so none of the hard stuff, well not all of them such as my cock. I knew she liked that!

"Okay, I can deal with that. Would you be okay if I did spank you with my hand?" I asked my voice dripping with sexual tension as she and I looked intently at each other. Her breath quickened as soon as I mentioned my hand. Oh she does like that!

I remembered another time she liked my hand slapping her ass. It was when I had emailed her asking if she done her research on being a submissive. She emailed me back saying, 'It was nice knowing you.' I was like really? Hmmm okay two can play that game. So I popped over to her apartment, Kate, had said she gone out. I waited until she got back.

She had just returned from doing her laundry, she was listening to her Ipod. She turned and was shocked to see me there.

"Christian!" she gasped out, talking her ear plugs out.

I looked her straight in the eyes asking, "It was nice knowing me was it?"

She laughed, thinking I was amused. I had carried a glass of wine and ice cubes in her room. I pulled her close to me, pulling her pigtails out. I said, "Let me show you how nice it was."

Ana tried to put her arms around my neck but I had other ideas. I threw her onto the bed, as she bounced, I climbed on hovering over her. I pulled out my tie in my pocket. She knew what I wanted as she looked at me.

"Is this what you want?" I asked as she nodded and smiling.

I tired her wrist with it and then tied it to the bedpost. Next I stripped her of her pants, telling her to keep quite as Kate was still in the apartment. I then covered her eyes with her shirt using it as a blindfold. I stripped my shirt off, drank some water, then some wine holding it in my mouth.

Bending down I kissed her lips as I let the wine drip in. Grabbing a cube of ice I let her know what it was by letting her lips feel it. I used it all over her body as a way to get her in sensory overload. I then trailed the cube down her torso all the way down to her belly button.

"Is this nice?" I asked, surprising her by flipping her over and slapping that beautiful ass of her. I ripped a condom open, sliding it on as I then fucked her in that position. She pulled me out of my memory as she answered my question.

"Your hand is fine Mr. Grey. That I can deal with." Ana said, her voice now sounding as she was ready to go! I smirked back.

"Check!" I yelled my eyes never leaving hers. The waitress was quick. I pulled out my wallet and handed her a fifty. I know...a fifty, go figure.

"Let's go! I feel the need to fuck you. Hard." I say to her.

She and I got up quickly. We held hands as we ran to the car laughing. Taylor was waiting for us. Ana got in as I told him to go to Ana's as my place was further. He nodded. As soon as I was in the car, I kissed Ana as she and I went into a heavy make-out session.

I had laid her down in the back seat of the car. I whispered to her, "I missed you so much!" Her face was close to mine as I was on top of her.

She replied back, "I missed you too, Christian." With that we kissed. Passionately.

A/N: So...what are you thinking? Ana caved! But who wouldn't if you didn't have Christian after you! So next we have them going to her place. Will they make love, again, finally?