Chapter four

Near's eyes widened at the sight of the door. It was his door. His bedroom door.

I'd figure that Near's bedroom would be the safest place. It was isolated from the rest of the other dorms. The walls were thick and the neighbouring doors were about 10 meters apart. No one would be in their dorms; they'd be too busy frolicking in the new slate of snow. So I had no need to worry.

I looked back over my shoulder at Near. He was placidly holding my hand, he looked fluster and scruffy but said nothing, he knew what this meant. He knew what I wanted and there was absolutely no objection. I gave a smile as I twisted the door knob. Pulling him in.

I didn't waste any time immediately throwing him to the bed. Climbing on top of him, I lifted my shirt off, discarding it on the floor. He just watched me enticingly and said nothing. Even when I was unbuttoning his shirt he remained silent.

I took to his lips as I fiddled with my pants. Near rested his hands on my bare chest patiently waiting till I was in nothing but my black silk boxers. It didn't take long for us to be completely naked, embracing each other. Near laid down on his back as I mounted myself between his legs, lifting his hips into position.

''are you ready?'' I asked

Near gazed up at me with those grey colourless eyes of his and nodded slowly. Immediately I closed the small gap between us. Firmly pushing my hard cock into his tight entence. I rolled my hips around in him which earned a quiet moan. I laid motionless just for him to get used to the obscurely hard object that was in him. I felt him arch his back into the sheet but refusing to show any signs of pain which he was obviously injuring. I cast a look at him, perhaps we shouldn't. This may be too much for him. It's too soon.

''Do it'' I heard him quiver from under his breath which just made me want to melt.

This was all new, for the both of us and with anything and everything new, curiosity isn't far off.

Not wanting to seem weak I began to pump myself in and out, starting slowly then gradually escalating to fast. Near's eye lid flung shut as sweat began to show on my forehead.

''arhh Mello!''

''God ahrr!''

It was alright to get loud; no one was around so we could scream and moan all we wanted. The bed creaked and squeaked with every thrust and twist.

It was so good. It felt so good.

He feebly bucked up against me, moaning loudly. I dug my knees deep into the mattress. I wanted to be as far as I could inside him. My skin rubbing against his. My hips digging into him, his moans. My pumps were fast and hard, it hurt. But hell it was worth it.

''Mello!'' he shouted and I shouted his name back. My name, just a moan.

I rubbed against him and he returned the favour. Our bodies were wet with sweat and breath shallow and ragged. I thrusted deeper inside, hitting the spot where it made him sing. And every time I hit that note he'd look up at me and I would just look back at him with lustful eyes. There was no denying that he didn't like it, because he did.

I propped his leg over my shoulders, nailing deep. Near spred his legs wider, as I rolled my hips- wanting to be as deep as I could be in him. The pain eventually numbed as I forced hard into him.

"Oh fuck! Oh god Near! Ahh…"

I couldn't hold it in anymore, I just couldn't control myself no more. My body just lost it. I immediately erupted, arching my back as I came inside him; beads of sweat ran down the back of my neck. The pumps and panting slowed.

And throughout it all we never parted our gaze from each. He calmly played with my hair as I slowly pulled myself out of him; his leg limply fell to the mattress. Panting lightly, I crawled to meet his lips. I kissed him softly and tenderly till both our lips were sore with bruises. I trailed my kiss to his neck, lapping at the milky skin. Near held me tight, gently stroking my head, like a cat. I then dragged my tongue down his body to reside around his torso. He shuttered instantly, I glanced up at him. I admit seeing that pink face staring sheepishly back at me did look cute.

How did I allow myself to do this? - Why did you even allow me to do this to you?

I took him into my hands and fondled lightly, rubbing gently and rolling his sac in the middled of my palm. He gasped at the feeling, squinting from under his bangs. I continued to nip sweet kisses to his torso. Near groaned loudly. Teasing him like this was fun. Seeing him struggle and groan made me smile. When I decided that the boy had enough of me toying with him I lowered my lips. Dragging my tongue along his harden length. Dipping my tongue around it. He groaned again. But louder. It was as if he was saying 'stop playing and do it already!'

I then rolled my tongue over his erected head, Near immediately bucked into my mouth, but I held his hips down; pinning them to the bed. He pulled at my hair, lightly pushing my head down. I grinned and took him fully into my mouth, bobbing my head up and down. After moments of torture, I released his hips, letting him thrust into my mouth. I moaned, sending wonderful vibrations down his slippery appendage and instantly my mouth was filled. Near arched his back into the covers entangling his fingers in my hair. I swallowed sharply and not wanting to waste a drop I pulled myself up.

I took one hand and pinched the end of his head. Rolling it between my fingers; I wrapped my mouth around it, sucking powerfully. Lapping my tongue over his split till all was gone. Near clamped his eyes shut, bitting his bottom lip; fighting back a moan.

When I was done and wiped the last of his cum from the corners of my mouth I then quickly rubbed my cheek on his inner thigh, my hot breath against his pearly skin made Near quiver feverously. Kissing and tonguing my way back up. Dipping my tongue into his navel momentarily before continuing on my journey up.

He looked as red as a tomato, I smirked placing my lips over his before letting his small tongue slip into my mouth, having his tongue stroking the back of my tough felt so pleasurable. Well, everything we had just done felt pleasurable.

We pulled apart panting. I rolled over next to him. Embracing in the afterglow.

He snuggled close to me, with one hand placed on my chest feeling my heart beating rapidly still. Near leaned close to me taking my warmth. I stared up at the tiled ceiling, relaxing into the covers.

''ya know Near... after today we won't be able to look at each other like we use to''

''that's okay. I think I can manage that'' I felt him smile against my skin, as he nuzzled closer to me.

Lying there naked beneath the sheets with him didn't bother me at all. It was like all the hatred I felt had vanished. Disappeared. I don't know why or how, but it was gone. I laid there with him and for once I actually felt whole for the first time in my miserable life. It was if a piece of me had been returned.

''Mello'' he tiredly cooed.

''yeah'' I answered nuzzling my head lovingly against his.

''L's going to be happy that we finally managed to work together''

''Near-'' I pulled away ''L can't know. No one can know''

'' wha-what'' Near looked at me confused.

''when tomorrow comes, this. What we did. It didn't exist''

Because, really. If people found out, it would just be trouble...and L. I can't jeopardise my chances in become L, when it really come down to it Near is just an obstacle in my way, nothing more and nothing less. I can never call him a lover or anything close to that; he only registers as enemy... a worthless fling.

Sigh...

But how can I bring myself to such a conclusion when I know it's not the right one. I'm lying to myself.

Near's eyes turned cold and lifeless. A weird feeling washed over me, was it guilt? Was I guilty for what I felt for him? for what I'd done.

''I understand'' he said in his monotone voice of his, lying his head down on my chest. Wrapping an arm tightly around me. I held him too. If only this moment could last forever .haha- sure as anything I wished it could.

But every good thing comes to an end.

A/N: apologies for being so crude in this, I don't normally write like this...-remember this is my first lemon so sorry if it stink =-= a thousand apologies! Please forgive. Please forgive!