Hey Fellow Reader,
Ohh i got 6 reviews for chapter 3, i hope i didn't mess people up with it
THIS IS CHAPTER 4,
not chapter 3!!
Chapter 3 has already passed, so if you haven't read it ... READ IT NOW!! because you won't get this chapter without knowing what was in that note!!
Anyways yeah Cagalli's past
Umm...it's definately not in this chapter, and for a few more chapter, but i will say, it's a bad past and not very pretty. I have some way evil things happening to her in her past. Umm but she's not getting raped or anything like that, just to let you all no. I would NEVER let that happen to her. And it will never happen to her in any of my stories.
Anyways that's as much of a hint as i will give you. Her past is a major surpirse, and i want it to just bang. And there's a bad thing happening to Cagalli in this chapter as well. Athrun is showing his feelings yet again, and in the next chapter i think it will focus more on Kira and Athrun...and DUN DUN DUN...major cliffie ending
So for now read :) and enjoy
I felt my head spinning around as I left the room. I let go of the only person who ever cared for me after he went away. I felt like crying until I couldn't cry anymore, but even shedding a tear would be too hard on my black soul. I felt all alone at that moment, as if I was the only thing alive in this world.
As a part of the student body, I had to attend the soccer game happening. Of course if I didn't, the school would report my guardian and I would in trouble yet again. Before I had the excuse of going to Julie's classroom, but of course that wasn't happening anymore.
It was sunny outside, which surprised me, since I was outside an hour ago and it was raining. The grass was sparkling looking like green icicles and the scenery was pretty nice, so I could spend my time looking at that then.
The field was crowded with people, when I came out. I didn't really pay attention to the people much, and they didn't pay any attention to me either. I didn't even blame then actually; I haven't been near people since today. I walked towards the bleachers and took and sat down quietly. I really just really wanted some peace to end my day off, no more of those strange feelings I was getting that were burning my cells.
I closed my eyes, my hoods covering the sun from my face. I actually felt calm, even with the bombs of voices around me. I felt as if I could fall asleep at any moment, until…
I heard a screech of sound and sat up and covered my ears and looked up to see a teacher who I didn't know well, standing on some sort of stage with a megaphone in his hand, and the speaker still vibrating that awful noise.
If looks could kill, he would have been sizzling on the ground. He was Mr. La Flaga, the gym teacher and the coach for many of the school teams. I let out a sigh and sat back and saw him adjusting the sound waves and then speaking again into the megaphone
"Welcome students to our semi-final games of the tournament that decides which teams head to the championships this year," he started off
"Of course our players have worked exceptionally hard to get this far, giving away there mornings, evenings and even week-ends, let's give them a round of applause," he said pointing to the group of boys who were once sitting, now standing up to the rally of applause and cat calls.
I didn't even bother wasting my energy on clapping, since there was plenty of sound. I saw them all sit down and the rushes of vigour eventually die down. I kept my eye on a peculiar boy who looked really down and lifeless, and Kira trying to talk to the guy. I felt a bit worried about him, which I hadn't felt in a long time and kind of perked up to look at him a little closer. He seemed very depressed and seemed to be looking for someone. It took a lot for me not to get up and go to him, which was very strange of me. I didn't care about him nor did I had any feelings for him right?
I was in a bundle of confusion and stared down at my feet in a rush of confusion. I couldn't believe myself. I was actually confused about my own feelings. Well I hadn't really felt anything like this anyways. I rolled my eyes and looked back at Athrun again, he looked like he was uninterested in this game at all, and looked like he didn't have a speck of life in him. He looked depressed and kept on letting out breaths. I was feeling down just by looking at him. Kira and Dearka were trying to talk to him to set his sprit high for the game, but it wasn't working that well. I was getting pretty annoyed, and it was showing pretty well.
"Is this seat taken," I heard someone ask me
Without looking at the person and I shook my head and said "no," looking still at Athrun.
I felt the weight press beside me and I turned my head to look at the person and shrieked realizing who it was and falling down in the process grabbing attention.
"You," I said and met blue eyes
"Sorry," she said with an apologetic face on and took out her hand to help.
"Haven't you gotten the message," I spat and got up myself and stood up to move
"Not really, nor do I want to," Lacus said
I groaned and sat as the principal told everyone to sit down
"I guess you're stuck with us," I heard Stellar said sitting in front of me. I glared at her and leaned back on the bleacher not giving a care to the world and shifted my eyes back to the sapphire haired boy who looked contently at me. I flushed and looked down.
"I guess Athrun is back to normal," I heard Lacus say to Miriallia.
"Yeah, I wonder what happened to him, just a minute ago he looked like a ghoul," Luna said
I felt Lacus look at me. I let out a breath and said, "Is there something you want?"
"Yeah there is," she said quietly and resumed looking at the field
I looked up and saw the boys waving at the girls beside me, they waved back. I knew all off them were in love, it was kind of obvious. Now if only I could be free to love. But, there was one problem, I knew if people were in love, not if I was in love.
I saw our school cheerleaders all dressed in their skimpy uniforms and the pom-poms in their hands acting like…cheerleaders.
I didn't like cheerleaders at all; they were rude and well not nice people to be polite. I was kind of glad that the girls beside me weren't associated with cheerleaders.
"Oh look Lacus, its Flay," I heard Shiho say
Lacus giggled lightly and said, "Yes I noticed."
"Is she still attacking Kira," Luna said rolling her eyes.
"Now Luna, stop being courteous, attacking is an understatement," Mir said
I was trying my very best not to laugh. Flay Alster was that type of person, who would pry after a boy and do anything to get him, even if it meant to destroy her competition. (A/N now I have nothing against Flay…really…well kind off…ok I don't like her…but I wasn't going to mention her in this story, but I need a couple of villains in this story, and she's one of them…if there are people who like Flay, sorry that I made her bad)
I was looking at our opponent coming out of their bus looking well dangerous. They all looked as if they were on steroids and the coach, looked like a general from the army, all buff and as loud and Mr. La Flaga with his mega phone. I looked at Athrun who wasn't at all frightened by the umm…larger team, but instead had a strong and determined look on his face. I stared at him in wonder; of course that wonder part wasn't evident on my face. He was talking to Kira and occasionally looked in my direction.
"So are you going to tell us your name?" Mir said
"Will you leave me alone permanently?" I asked solemnly
She grimaced and said, "Sure."
"Crossing your fingers isn't going to help you," I said still keeping my eyes on him, since there was nothing better to look at.
"How did you know?" she asked questioningly
"Stop acting nice," I said
"We're not acting," Luna said
"Yeah, we just want to be your friend, if you hadn't realized that by now," Stellar said
"Am I not allowed to choose who I should be acquainted with," I said, "It's my life, so just leave me alone, in case if you haven't realized by now, I don't want to be in your language 'friends'".
I didn't bother looking at their faces, but I had grown so cold over the mere hour after I left Julie, that I couldn't understand myself. I felt walls closing me from all four sides and the temperature just kept dropping. I was cold again, and I didn't know if I would ever be able to become warm again.
"It's okay to let people in," I heard Lacus whisper immediately shocking me
I felt it all coming back and I stood up to leave, because I didn't want that again, not now, not anymore, I couldn't stand it.
"Letting people in, will drown me deeper," I whispered to her and walked down the bleachers grabbing curious looks from people, including a pair of emerald eyes.
I turned to glance at him one last time and he stopped and stared straight into me shocking me completely. He saw through my hazy eyes and I felt him doing it with just a simple stare. I turned my head quickly and stumbled and braced myself against a tree and quickly started walking to and unknown destination.
I felt my head pounding and the body quiver in fear after a long time. Those words that girl said and the reflection I saw in his eyes was too much for me to handle. It was like a hurricane of unwanted emotions that destroyed all that ice I covered in my heart, all that blocking which gave me so much pain, was gone within a moment. How could something so simple wreck all my efforts? I was starting to feel again, and of all things in the world, I couldn't let that happen again, not anymore…after all those memories of horror.
I felt someone touch my shoulder and I slapped it away and fell to the ground and sat there silently whispering "Go away," over and over again.
The person didn't say a word, but instead sat down beside me.
"You have nice eyes," he said
I hugged my knees closer and said nothing.
"Why do you hide yourself?" he asked again
I swallowed and said, "Why do try to know me?"
"Ask my heart, I just do what it says," he whispered
"Start listening to your head then," I said back
He laid his head on the ground in front of me
"I can't," he said
"Aren't you suppose to be at the game, just leave me here," I said coldly
He smiled and said, "I can't."
My eyes furrowed and I said, "Why?"
He let out a breath and said, "You never answered my questions."
"You don't need to know the answer," I said
He nodded, "That's where you're wrong,"
I quietly looked at the forest in front of me.
"I wish I could get lost into that darkness, not find my way back, and drift away into my end," I said with my closed
I opened them and immediately drew back since he was so close to me and heard him said, "No matter how lost you are, I'll find you."
"I want to get lost," I said clearing stating it
"Then let me get lost with you," he said
Now he was really starting to annoy me
"Go away," I said
"I can't," he said
"Yes you can," I said emotionless.
"How?" he asked looking at me bearing his eyes into mine, alluring me mind into a trance.
"Just…go to…the game," I whispered breathless
"But I don't want to," he said calmly
"Why?" I said, "You didn't know of my existence until today, and ever since this morning you haven't left my tail. I'm a no one, why even look at me."
"Haven't you realized yet?" he asked
"What," I said
"It was fate that made us meet this very morning, it's called destiny, I didn't know of you because you have never been around, but won't you call it strange that off all classes you could have been in for that very exam, it was that classroom with me and friends in it. It destiny, we were destined to meet, and not even you could stop that," he said
"Now that we have meet, just leave me alone than, we were destined to meet, I won't deny that, but that is it. Destiny hasn't planned anything besides that," I said standing up
He stood up as well and ready to follow.
"Just leave me alone Athrun…please, I don't want you to mess my life up," I said not looking into his eyes and turning around.
"But…" he said
"Cagalli," I said
"Cagalli," he said in awe
"Yeah, now please just forget you ever knew me, for my own good. Just let me live my life in peace. I don't need your influence in my life, because you're destroying me," I said sturdily
"Cagalli," he said in a kind of hurt tone
I turned and met his eyes with pure hatred, and said, "Understand that," and left the site.
I walked away slowly to the school bleachers where the game had ended with our school in victory as Kira shot the winning goal. I couldn't be anymore happier for him, but of course I wouldn't show it.
I saw Athrun walk to his friend, with a different emotion plastered on his face. I couldn't understand what it was. But he looked at me, but I was ready with a strong force and he smiled at me instead and resumed his business with his group. Confused, I turned around and started my treck to my uncle's home. It was about time that I headed back, to my life in reality.
But, there was a bright side about that moment…I had no homework.
I walked on the sidewalk home in solitude, the wind picked up and the air was getting cooler. I didn't blame it, since it was early November. The weather was getting chilly, and I forgot my jacket yet again. I considered myself pretty lucky. My immune system was prone to diseases which I had many chances to catch, yet I didn't. I also hadn't gotten the flu or the cold in the longest of times, but of course there was one disease I had. A disease I knew which had no cure. No one could melt an ice heart no matter how hard they tired, and mine's was solid permafrost, well until global warming came; my frost was starting to melt.
My hood was blown down again by the wind and my hair started flying everywhere in odd directions. My hair wasn't that long actually, and I hadn't cut it for a long time. It was only a bit below my shoulders.
Goosebumps started spreading across my arms slowly and I stuffed my hands in my pocket, noticing their pale appearance. I let out a breath and saw a hazy puff of carbon dioxide. Had it grown that cold that fast. It was quite strange. Looking up I saw that the sun had gone into hiding and there was a cold cover in the sky. I blinked and averted my eyes back straight and stopped in front of a stop light. I didn't know why but I had a strange type of worry in my gut, as if frogs were jumping inside that were high on one hundred cans of soda. The light turned green and I quickly walked across the short distanced road and I turned the corner into a desolate street and sat down grasping my stomach in confusion. I shivered and shook trying to block the pain I was feeling. And all of a sudden the pain stopped and I relaxed trying to gather myself. I had never felt anything so painful in my life, that wasn't related to my mental pain. Even the slashes of knives and torture weren't even close to the throbbing I felt just a moment ago.
I stood up reluctantly and staggered taking my first step and leaned on the wall as I regained my walking. There was something very wrong with me. Maybe I was going to die a bit early than expected?
With all these negative thoughts circling my mind I didn't know that I was walking onto a road and a driving my way. Luckily, for me the car's brake was good and the driver stopped in time, but I did touch it, and that woke me up from my mind.
"Are you crazy?" he yelled from the mirror. He couldn't see my face though.
"What?" I said mostly to myself and realized where I was and shook my head, saying "Sorry," and walked to the safe zone and sat down. Now I was trying to kill myself, what was wrong with this day?
I heard four doors open and close and pairs of feet walk up to me, Lacus, Shiho, Luna, Shinn, and Stellar.
"Oh my god! Cagalli are you okay?" one said
"You aren't hurt right?" another said
"And this stupid guy is sorry to," the last one said
I was still kind of shaking a bit, and I couldn't decide if it was the cold weather or the sudden shocks I was getting in one moment.
I sighed and covered my head my into my legs still thinking.
I finally remembered hearing voices and looked up to guess who? If you said my stalkers you are partly right, but no it was that group.
I sighed and covered my head yet again.
"I'm fine, No, and go away," I said and felt as if I was trying to going to sleep
"Do you want a ride home," Lacus asked
'I'd rather get a ride with Athrun,' I thought in my mind, but knew one that wasn't going to happen, and two I would never let it happen.
"No," I said simply
"But it's cold outside, and you don't have a coat, I think we should give you one," Luna said
I stood up abruptly pushing everyone a meter near me away, and said "What is wrong with you people? Why can't you all just leave me alone? Is that so much to ask for? It's simple just ignore and not talk to me."
I saw Lacus' eyes sadden by what I said.
"And don't try to get close. I know what's in your hearts. You all just pity me because I'm so cold and lifeless. And I agree I am, and I'm ha-happy like this. I don't have a problem with being alone. It's just who I am, so why don't all of you do a favour to yourselves and save your breath and time, and leave me alone, because your kindness and friendship isn't going to give you anything," I said sternly.
I turned around to start walking and they had all just stood still and absorb what I had just said to them.
At that moment Lacus felt a new change.
"She's right Lacus, all we feel is nothing but pity for her, so why are we bothering her?" Shinn said
"I agree with Shinn, this is nothing but a waste of time," Shiho said
"She's wrong that girl is so wrong," Stellar said
Lacus nodded, "She's not happy, that was clearly in her voice, there is a side of this story we're missing and she's the only one who can tell us. I don't pity her at all, but something beyond that. She is not an average person, who definitely knows how to act. I just want to uncover who she really is, because she's just deceiving herself and the world. She needs help, and I know we can do that. I don't know why but I feel connected to her in some way."
"I side with Lacus," Luna said laughing, "I think I'm starting to understand all of this."
"Okay, I'll help for now," Shiho said
"Shinn," Stellar said giving him a puppy dog look
"I still think we're wasting time, but fine," he said dejectedly but, earned him a kiss from Stellar and turned him into and neon bulb in red.
Everyone laughed and went to the back to the car and drove to their respected homes.
And just as the Shinn entered his home, I entered through the door to my dim life.
Yes yes yes
What will happen to Cagalli when she enters
Why were there frogs in her stomach lol...just kidding
And what was wrong with Athurn's behaviour. Has he admitted he loves her in his mind!! Of course Cagalli knows that she does, now Athurn move faster everyone's waiting for you to accept!!
and her past her past her past
It will come up eventually
So stay tuned
Till next time
Samera
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