This story isnt updated as often as the others because its difficult to get my head in this space again. Im such a happy easy going person and trying to revisit bad parts of my life isnt fun.

As I said this is an exaggerated account of something that happened to me. But it was all sorted out. Im just trying to write a good story that has some realism to it. I also suggest you go and youtube the songs I write at the top because it sets the atmosphere for the chapter!

Thanks for reading!

''Here we are and I cant think from all the pills hey

Start the car and take me home.

Here we are, and your too drunk to hear a word I say

Start the car and take me home''

The Pretty Reckless - Just Tonight

BELLA

I got through a week. I dont know how. But I did. I still needed my pills and rarely ate but I felt nearly ok. Alice and Rosalie are my best friends. Rose seems to have had a similar experience but shes not telling me what. Alice just wants to be happy all the time.

I was worried about the whole newspaper thing but I knew there wasnt any details, just that Id been jumped. Edward hadnt read them, according to Alice he likes to hear things first hand. I was glad if we were going to try and be friends I had to tell them all not a stupid newspaper.

''Bella!'' I turned around. I hadnt realised Id went into one of my trances. Rosalie was watching me. I smiled at her.

'' You okay? Thought you were away somewhere else there'' she said. I looked around and everyone at the table was watching me with the same concerned expression.

''Im fine, just tired'' I said.

''And hungry by the looks of it!'' Emmet said jokingly ''What are you anyway like 40pounds?'' Him and Jasper laughed and the others smiled. My heart almost stopped. Was I fat? Did they think I was fat? I felt the tears sting my eyes.

''I umm... Gotta go'' I felt the tears fall before Id even finished talking. I got up and rushed to the bathroom. I heard Rosalie scold Emmet.

''You insensitive twit! She was fucking fine until you said that! She went a week without crying'' Then the door closed. I was alone. Luck was on my side today. I sat in a stall and let the tears take over. I was almost hysterical when I heard his voice.

''Bella? Im coming in. Im locking the door. Im not going to hurt you, your safe with me'' his sweet voice said.

The door to my cubicle swung open and he knelt down to face me. I couldnt breathe properly and the tears wouldnt stop. I felt his hand brush some of the moisture away from my face. I gasped and went to jerk back but his words before he came in stopped me. I actually felt glad that it was him here and not any of the girls.

''Bella, I dont know what happened to you so I cant help, but know that as long as me and my friends are around. Noone will hurt you. Do you understand? We want to help, not hurt you'' He cupped my face in his hands and I lent into his hand and closed my eyes. My breath was still coming in jerky motions but the tears had slowed.

''Im sorry.'' I whispered.

''What for?'' he asked.

''Im sorry for forcing my fucked up self on you guys. Im sorry for all the shit you will have to put up with while Im here and most of all Im sorry that you all have to feel the weight of my problems. Noone should have to help me, Im not worth the trouble'' I choked.

''Shh Bella, your more than worth it. I havent known you long but I know your different and I know your going to be a huge part of our lives'' he smiled '' And I want to help you. We went through the same thing with Rosalie, look at her now. You will be fine'' He said sincerely.

I closed my eyes again and nodded. I felt his lips press against my forehead, just for a second then he pulled me up and wrapped an arm around my waist.

''What are you doing Edward?'' I asked, confused as to why he would want to touch me.

''Cmon its what friends do'' and he opened the door and we crossed the room to our table. Everyone was staring, but not at me. It was then I realised he wanted to take the attention away from my breakdown by giving them something else to think about. It was weird to think that people would think we were together but it was better than believing it myself or them knowing what had actually happened.

We sat down and he stayed beside me, his arm still around my waist.

''Bella Im sorry. You know what Im like. Cant keep my mouth shut'' Emmet said. His eyes were sad and I felt bad for putting that sadness there.

''Its fine, every group of friends has to have a dufus'' I smiled and he grinned back.

It felt good to have people that cared. But I was afraid of falling for Edward. I was too broken, I had nothing to give him.