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Chapter 4

A year had passed since I met Kevin.

"You knew didn't you ?" I yelled walking my way through the family house without knocking.

"San what ar-" I found Quinn in the kitchen.

"Cut the fucking crap Fabray you knew and you didn't fucking bother to tell me?" God I was angry I wanted to hit something so BADLY if only to relieve all the frustration building inside of me.

"What are yo-" she stoped mid sentence "oh" her expression changed she knew only a few thing could get me this mad and it wasn't hard for her to guess wich one was.

"Oh ? Is that all you have to say ?" I kept yelling trowing my hands in the air.

"I'm sorry I-"

"What's going on ?" Puck entered the room.

"She knows" she answered him.

"Oh" just like Quinn it was the only thing he could say, he turned slowly to face me, almost afraid of meeting my eyes. He open his mouth and closed like a fish out of the water.

I scoffed "You knew too !" it wasn't a question just a confirmation , of course he knew.

" San I-"

"You knew" I trow my hand in the air again, desperately. I couldn't believe it "fucking asshole" just like any siblings I have wanted to hit him before and actually did a couple of time when we were kids, but a this moment I really wanted to hurt him badly, I wanted to take off all my frustration on him and feeling his betrayal wasn't helping me a all. He tried to come closer to me but when I glared at him he immediately backed off and raising his hand in the air protective in front of him.

"I di-" I couldn't even listing to him to any of them.

"Save it Noah, I don't wanna hear it" I looked at Quinn "you are suppose to be my best friend Quinn and you just...fuck it how could you?" there were so many things I needed to let out.I felt the bomb inside of me could go off any minute and I wasn't sure the damage it could do.

"List-"

It was Puck speaking again.

"Shut the hell up Noah, SHUT UP, you are my brother,M-Y BROTHER, but no you choose to no say a fucking word to my all because that fucking bitch told you" I mention to Quinn with my hand still glaring at him.

"It wasn't like that San it's ju-" he tried to defend himself but I already had heard enough.

"How was it then ?" when he didn't answered I yelled again "fucking tell me Noah, how was it?" ha looked from the ground back to me and I could clearly see in his face that he didn't had nothing to say, at least nothing could have confirmed his words from just a few seconds ago.

"I-I.."

"Just what I thought.. fucking nice brother are , did she cut off your balls or-" the rest of my sentence died when Quinn slapped me across my face. It actually calmed me down and I was shocked when I saw High School Quinn looking back at me. I hadn't see that side of her since..well High school.

"Now you'll listing to me" she started hitting me hard with her pointing finger across my chest. I lost my balance for second in surprise and almost felt backwards but I manage to caught myself before it was too late "if you are gonna blame someone, blame your fucking ass self, you are the one who messed it up, like always, you are the one who can't keep it in her pants, you are the only one to blame" she didn't stoped to breath "haven't you fucking heard about condoms?" she asked incredulous, but didn't wait for an answer. "Don't you dare coming here yelling at us like it's our fault, she tried to tell you but you didn't care to listing, you broke her, used her like you have done with so many people before and after her" she pushed me backwards again with her pointing finger, standing uncomfortable close to my face I could she the fire in her hazel eyes. "your girlfriend cheated on you back in college , boo hoo poor you, GET OVER IT, that isn't an excuse for how you treat people and you fucking know that, you don't deserve to-"

"What's going on ?" I hear Beth's shaking voice behind me and immediately turned around to face her, I could clearly see the fear in her eyes and hand slightly shaking. When I saw that picture I truly regretted going there, it hurt to know that the fear and the tears forming in her eyes were because of me. I smiled at her the best I could and nodded to let her know everything was fine.

I turned to Puck and Quinn "It nice to know you got my back" I said more to Puck than anyone else in surprised at how calmly my voice came out. It had a deeper feeling to us and I clearly saw it in his face, he remembered it too.

I could clearly hear his childish voice and my own cries as I held onto him for dear life.

"Is okay little sis" he was rubbing my back slowly "they won't come back" he said confidently.

"N-no?" my voice was shaking from all the crying. He laughed out loud.

" Of course no, they know I got you back now , and they know I'll kick them really hard in the face" I laughed softly. I'm sure he picked that up in some gangster movie on TV. I rubbed my tears away with the back of my hand, and spoke up more confidently.

"I got you too"

"I know" he took my hand and we started to make our way back to our home from the little park in Lima "Oh...I have a new plan to steal mom's cookies" we smiled evilly at each other.

I shocked my head furiously to get rid of the memory when tears threatened to scape my eyes. I could hear him calling for me when I left the house without looking back.

I got in the car with a sigh, taking a deep breath before I spoke.

"Hey baby, you wanna go to Tommy's house?" I looked at Kevin who was siting in the passenger seat, he nodded and I tried to smile at him. He knew something was wrong and he knew it was better to just be quite till it blows away.

The directress of Kevin's school is Tommy's mom, they are in the same class and had been friends since the beginning.

I knocked at her door.

"Santana ? It's go to see you" she kissed my cheek and smiled at me. Then looked at Kevin "Tommy is in his room go ahead" she step aside and Kevin walked-ran inside. It wasn't the first time he came here , we had a play date almost every weekend sometimes they came to our house or we went to the park or to the movies, I think is safe to say Sarah and I were friends, she is nice and funny , and a beautiful married woman , who had wanted to get into my pants since the first time I met her when Kev started school last year.

"Hi Sarah" I gave her my most charming smile. "Sorry I didn't call..can he stay here for a few hours I..." I let out a sigh "I need some time"

"Of course, whatever you need" she said sweetly. the truth is my old self would have fuck her already, maybe a few times if she was good. But I have changed so much in the last year and all thank to Kevin. I have had a few dates and dated one of her for two moths but I broke up with her a few moth ago, it wasn't going anywhere and I was only with her because , she was good in bed and I'm human after all.

"Are you okay Santana, want to come in and have a drink?" she asked bathing her eyelashes.

"I need to be alone right now" she nodded understanding "but..rain check ?"

She hold my shoulders and smiled at me "I'll hold you to that " she waited till I nodded then she kissed my again.

"Tell him I'll be back soon please" I was already walking back to my car.

"Of course bye Santana" she waved my good bye.

I sat at the lake just throwing rocks at water , scaring the ducks away. I was as much calmer still mad a them but not furious like before, just disappointed, sad maybe. I know I wasn't fair but I'm their family they should have told the moment they knew but Quinn was right it was all my fault not that I was planning on apologize because they still should have told me. I have the right to know, right ?

It all started this afternoon an hour or two before I had to picked up Kevin from school. I was at work when my phone rang and I picked it up without looking who was calling.

"Dr Lopez ?"

Yeah..I'm the Chief Medical Officer of L.A's Police Department. Not exactly what I was going for, but an old college friend got me the interview, I got the job pretty easy. Months later Dr Jansess who was at that time the CMO said he wasn't needed there anymore that the department was in good hands and he could retired in peace, and the rest its history. Truth be told I was only planning in staying there till I found what I was looking for but its seems like I already had found it, so I never left. I truly love my job.

" Hi Santana"

"Oh hi Sarah , how are you doing?"

"I'm fine thanks, you?" I could hear her smile on the phone.

I looked down at the body I was working on "kind of busy right know , can I call you back?"

Her voice got more serious when she spoke again "actually I need to talk about Kevin"

"What's wrong ?" I was already worried.

"He got into a fight, he is fine don't worried, not a scratch can't say the same about the other two boys though" She chuckled softly

" It's just the first day school" I whinnied "I'll be there" I said resigned, there wasn't a escape to it anyways. I took the time I had till school was over to look over some paper work. I changed clothes and was soon walking through the school's hall.

The door to Sara's office was open she was sitting behind her desk and the two sets in front of her were occupied. The three of them turned to look at me when I walked in.

"Santana is nice to see you" Sara's was already by my side kissing my cheek she is way too touchy Jeez.

"Hola mami" the boy said with a charming smiled thinking that would get him out of stood up gave me a hug, that won't keep him out of trouble either. That's when I noticed the girl who stood up with him, and apparently I wasn't the only one who noticed cause Sara was looking between us and it was almost comically how her head went from staring at the little girl to staring at me and then started the process all over again, with her mouth slightly open and frowning like she was trying to read Japanese.

She finally smiled at me "you hadn't mention your had a daughter befo-" the noise at the door made her stop mid sentence and we all turned to look at the woman who has just entered the room. Our eyes looked immediately and the tension in the room was even felt but the two kids who walked backwards a few steps and looked at each other, like a time bomb was about to explode.

The blond blue eyed woman seem froze with her hand still half way to her mouth and the cup coffee she was supposed to be holding on the ground and most of the liquid inside spilled on her clothes I saw the hot steam leave her body from where to hot liquid had fallen, but she literally didn't move a muscle , she was staring right at me and I was staring right back.

"Mo-mom?"

The soft voice snapped the woman out of her frozen state, and she looked down at her clothes and the mess she had made and I saw how she instantly began to panic with a horrifies look on her face.

To be continued...

Such a cliffhanging heh ? I KNOW ! But thins will be explain soon!