*A/N It was suggested that I write some from Edward's point of view, and I'm toying with the idea. What do you think? I'm willing to give it a go, or would you rather it just stays Bella? Let me know. Also, thank you so much to every one who's f

reviewed, read and added my story to their favourites and/or alert list. I'm really unbelievably flattered and it's been my motive for carrying on. I'm still really new to this so thank you so much for all of the encouragement. J*

My eyes stayed shut but I knew I was awake now. My head felt like it was splitting open, and I became aware that I was on my couch. Suddenly it all came back to me, and I wondered what I was going to say. 'Sorry Edward, but you weren't around so I settled for Jake', or maybe 'I know I just took your virginity and all Jake but Edward's back so I don't need you any more'? I realised greedily that I wanted them both. And I was dying of curiosity to see if they were both still there, but also way too scared to want to find out. I was still worried about Charlie, and decided that, with that as my main priority, I needed to sit up.

I did so, and was instantly welcomed with a new surge of pain. I doubled up, my head in my hands with the room swirling around me again. I thought I was going to throw up.

"Jake -" I said quickly.

"I'm right here Bella." I managed to open my eyes and he was. I dared a glance at the rest of the room and saw that Edward was standing at the other side, glaring at me. He looked tormented. I didn't know what to say to him.

"Oh!" It was then that I felt the hurt and pain wash over me, the newly ripped open hole causing an unbelievable amount of pain. I couldn't control tears. Jacob tried to pull me to him but I pushed him away, needing to be on my own, and not wanting to hurt Edward any more. I just didn't know where to begin in this whole mess. "Just - just give me a minute." I muttered, wiping my eyes fiercely. I forced myself to look up at Edward, and I knew my eyes gave me away because I instantly felt Jacob stiffen.

"Edward. I don't know what to say."

"Hello Bella." He watched me carefully, never breaking his gaze.

"You didn't want me." I stated. His face scrunched up.

"It hurts that you believed the lie so easily."

"The - the lie?" I stammered, feeling like I was going to pass out again as the room began to spin. I clenched on to the cushion beneath me, my knuckles turning white I was holding on so hard.

"I can't believe you believed me so easily that I didn't want you any more. I left you because I thought you'd be better off with some one else." I chanced a look at Jacob who was smirking. Edward had also noticed this, and quickly added, "Some one human." I heard Jacob snarl slightly and instinctively moved away. My stomach lurched again and I wiped my eyes furiously, not knowing what to do.

"Where's Charlie?" I asked, trying to focus. I hated that Edward knew everything, with his annoying ability of being able to read everybody's minds - except mine, of course, but I could only imagine all too clearly how much Jacob would be enjoying showing Edward how we had spent our evening. I wanted to punch him, when just an hour ago I had wanted to lie with him forever, skin on skin.

"He left a message." Jacob stated, and I knew he must be slightly annoyed by my rejection and moving away. "He's going back to Sue's for a while. He was pleased that I'm here." He smirked at Edward, whose face still hadn't changed. I was unhappy to be given this information, because it gave me more time now, which I didn't want. I didn't want to sort through everything, and my eyes were battling to stay open, partially because I was crying so much, and partially because it had been one of the longest days of my life. I had nearly drowned, I had lost my virginity, I'd unknowingly had a vampire out for my blood right there with me, and Edward had returned. I lost grip on the couch and slid to the side involuntarily. Jacob caught me and helped me sit back up.

"She needs sleep." Edward spoke softly.

"I agree." I said, wiping my eyes, trying to see properly, with my lids fighting to shut and too many tears. "If it's okay, I'd like to go to bed."

"Of course, Bella." Edward murmured, finally moving, but still looking just as crushed. Jacob let out a huff and left me to support myself.

"Right. I guess we can talk later, Bells." He said, standing up and picking me up. He tried to kiss me but I leaned my head away and shut my eyes tight. He put me down on my feet and glared.

"Goodnight." I bit my lip and looked at them both, both beautiful in their own ways. I walked towards the stairs, and hoping they'd just leave, I added, "I'll be shutting the window."

I managed to brush my teeth but was far too tired to change, and Jacob's clothes were comfy enough anyway. True to my word, I shut my window. But then I gave in and opened it again a few minutes later, wondering whether or not either of them would come through, and knowing all too well which one I hoped it would be.