A/N: Hello again guys! Here's chapter fourrrrr
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN SWEENEY TODD!
The next week or so was bliss for Nellie. Aside from the fact of her horrible guilt she felt every time she saw her little boy recovering.
The little stolen kisses she recieved from Sweeney unexpectedly, behind the door, behind the shop. Anywhere she wasn't expecting, he was there, ready to grab her hand.
She bustled around, having to deal with the work that Toby wasn't able to do for her. It was about time to bring Toby some lunch.
"Mum?" Toby asked, sitting up as she walked in.
"Yes love?" She asked him, sitting next to him, setting the tray onto his lap.
"I feel terrible."
"I know love, just a little more time and you'll be feeling tip top shape again!" She smiled, still feeling horrible.
"No, I mean you having to do all of this. I should be helping you." He said sadly.
"Oh love! Now don't you worry about me one bit! I've got everything under control! Now, get some more rest, and eat up your lunch!" She smiled, ruffling his hair.
'Such a sweet little boy..' she said to herself.
"Alright mum. Oh, and one more thing." He said, and she spun around ready to do anything he asked.
"When can I get up and walk around? I am awful bored." He said, his sweet eyes burning into her soul.
She had harmed this little boy. Knocked him out cold. And he doted on her every whim. Poor thing...
"He should be walking already." A deep voice called, startling Nellie from her reverie.
"Oh! Mista Todd! Ready for lunch I suppose?" She asked. She'd noticed how lately HE was coming down for his meals.
He nodded, and she ruffled Toby's hair one last time. She stood up, and slipped her hand on his, patting it slightly. And she kept walking, smirking to herself. She knew how much that teased him. As she expected, the moment they were out of Toby's sight, Sweeney had pinned her to a wall, and kissed her.
But this kiss lasted much longer.
And it spread all over.
Her neck, her chest, her face, her arms..
It was almost desperate.
As if he needed HER.
"Nellie...nellie.." He whispered.
"Yes?" She asked, stifly a hoarse moan.
"I can't take it any longer..." He whispered, pausing, playing with her hair. She froze. What did he mean? Their relationship? Well, if you could even CALL it that.
"Take what, love?" She asked, looking into his dark, onyx orbs. So gorgeous. So bright. Not dull as they usually were.
"It's over. All gone.. Done with." He whispered, a little oddly she thought.
"What's over?" She asked timidly. He looked her straight in the eye.
"Lucy. Benjamin Barker." He said it strongly. As if he'd prepared himself to say it to her.
She almost burst into an undeniable grin, but tried not to.
"You mean, it's gone? Their gone?" She asked, hoping it was true. He nodded, still holding her tightly beneath his grasp.
"What now, love? Now that your free, where'll you be goin?" She asked, trying not to seem too needy. But he looked at her as if she'd gone crazy.
"Mrs. Lovett. I don't plan on leaving. And when we do leave, it won't be for a while, I'd thought." She stood still.
"We?" She whispered.
"We. Nellie. I want you. I need you. I'm ready for you." He said, hugging her tightly.
She lost it. She just couldn't contain herself anymore.
"Oh! Oh, Sweeney love! Oh you don't know how long I've waited! Oh darling, your free now, don't you see? Don't you feel it?" She asked, half sobbing half laughing.
She kept babbling on and on, about finally, and thank goodness, until he broke her ramble with his lips on hers.
"Love, shut up." He smirked.
"Righto." She giggled.
"Mum!" They let go almost immediately, thinking Toby had seen them, but Nellie laughed at their sudden movement.
"Yes love?" She called.
"...What's this?" She gave Sweeney a confused look. He shrugged his shoulders, and he walked behind her, into the sitting room.
Nellie walked in to see Toby holding a little book, with a huge locket on it, keeping it shut. Her eyes widened. Anger took over.
"Toby!" She snapped, slapping the book from his hands.
"You'll not touch what isn't yours." She muttered, putting the book behind her hands.
"I'm so sorry Mum, I didn't reali-" But he stopped when he realized what Sweeney had done.
Sweeney had reached back and took it from her hand. She spun around. Tears were already pouring.
"Sweeney. Please. Please. Not again." She whimpered.
He looked at the book first, reading her name on a nametag. Certainly not her handwriting. Looked so familiar... So..
"Lucy." He whispered. She shut her eyes.
He pulled a razor from his pocket slicing open the leather strap that held it closed. He flipped through the pages, his eyes growing colder, darker.
"Sweeney?" She whispered.
"My dearest Nellie. I am sitting here, having drank a whole bottle of arsenic, thinking about my life. It's quite messed up isn't it? I am leaving this so you know what happened. I am leaving Johanna in your care. If Benjamin comes, just tell him. Tell him I couldn't take it anymore. I do feel a little bit of guilt, but I know I am not fit to take care of Johanna in this condition. You always hit if off so well with her. She'll adjust. I will miss you dear, dear, Nellie. You were my friend when I needed you most. I hope you come soon, to see to Johanna. She is crying now, but I cannot move. I can't hold on much longer, and finally, maybe I shall be at peace. Goodbye Nellie. Love, your friend, Lucy Barker."
Sweeney thought he'd read it over a million times. For the first time in years, he felt the heat in his eyes. He was crying. Hot tears poured down his face.
"Why didn't you show me this?" He whispered.
"I thought you might take all your bloody time moping about it. Sweeney, I only did it because I thought you needed to move on, and not put any more mental strain on you. You were so cold and quiet then. I saw you warming up. I saw you breaking free, but I knew if I showed you this, we'd be back at the beginning. I am so sorry." She sobbed.
For once, he understood why she had lied to him. It was true, he would have moped and stayed in his room and been even more solemn than he'd already been. But not anymore. Not now. Not when he'd worked SO hard to be able to love someone again. He looked up at her tear stained face, and looked down at the VERY confused boy.
"It's alright." He whispered. But she'd heard. She ran into his arms.
"Oof." He let out a deep breath, as her body collided into his.
"Oh thank god." She kept mumbling into his shoulder. He looked back at Toby, who had an even more confused expression.
"It's gone Nellie. Really and truly, they are gone. I promise. I'm not looking back anymore." He said, so that only she could hear.
"Finally." She smiled.
He'd broken through his rough exterior.
She'd know there was always something good shining through, just trying to break through.
And he'd done it. He was ready to be happy again.
But she just didn't realize, he really, already was.
There you go loves! I just figured out that it actually tells you how many hits you get on this thing. Wow I'm slow. But I have actually gotten a bunch of hits from all over the world. I have a new found appreciation for It's letting me spread my stories for free. It it pretty amazing actually. Ok, enough with my sappy thank you ending haha, New chapter coming tomorrow I think! R and R!
