I didn't know if it was reality, or a nightmare. I was standing there staring at all of my friends letting a low growl escape my mouth. Why was I doing this? I saw them moving their lips, but I heard no sound come out. When I looked down I had my bow in my hand, and began to grab an arrow. "Stop!" I yelled to myself. "You can't do this to your friends! You love them!" I tired to stop myself, but my body did not respond to my commands.
I suddenly heard Satsuriku's voice in my head again. "Do not fight it; there is no escaping my hold on you. You know you want them all dead, especially Inuyasha. Do it, fire that arrow right at his heart!" she commanded me.
I could feel my hand slowly pulling back the arrow, getting ready to shoot the person I care about most. When I looked at his face he was panic stricken, and seemed lost and unsure of what to do. Tears began to stream down my face, there was noting I could do to stop this. "No!" I thought to myself. "You have to keep fighting no matter what." I tried to drop the bow, but I just couldn't move anything according to my own will.
I could here her voice in my head again, but this time it was less noticeable. I could feel my fingers again, but it was not much. I managed to drop the bow, and fall to my knees before I could hurt anyone. My whole body ached as though I had been beaten up, and my head was pounding.
"Your… your heart is so pure. How is this possible? Kagome, Inuyasha left you for another woman, an undead woman at that. You should hate every bone in his body. Kill him!" her voice echoed in my head.
I lost feeling again, and was overwhelmed with anger. The bow was now in my hand, an arrow at the ready. I had to tell Inuyasha to get away; I was going to hurt him. "G… Get away!" I managed to get out of my mouth before it snapped shut. I still heard no sound, but I could tell everyone was yelling my name. Before I could even process it I let go of the arrow and it few towards Inuyasha. It hit him in the stomach, and he dropped to the ground with a thud.
I was crying hysterically now, and regained all movement in my body. He laid motionless on the ground, eyes tightly closed. "Inuyasha!" I screamed shaking him violently. "Inuyasha! Please open your eyes!"
There was no response. I began to have a panic attack as I held him, and cried. Songo and the others all stood around me with sad expressions on their face. I suddenly felt overwhelmed with drowsiness, and passed out right there.
-Dream-
As I fluttered my eyes open I looked around. There was nothing but darkness everywhere I looked. I tried to walk but it seemed like my feet were glued to that very spot. "What's going on?" I whispered to myself.
Suddenly Satsuriku appeared in front of me. "Why do you fight the anger?" she asked with a puzzled expression.
"I don't know what you are talking about." I looked away from her crossing my arms.
"Look at me when I talk to you girl!" she snapped, and my gaze was flung in her direction. "You know exactly what I mean, you hold anger deep inside you, but you suppress it. Your heart is very pure, but when that anger takes over there is nothing you or anyone can do. Deep inside you wish for Kikyo to die again, but you never admit it to yourself." She was now walking circles around me with her arms crossed.
"That… that is not true! I would never wish for someone to be dead." I shot back at her knowing she knew the truth.
"I sense hesitation; you do hold anger deep within your heart. Don't worry, once I take hold of that anger you will be unstoppable and become my servant. Soon all these wretched mortals will be dead, and I will once again rule." She gave me an evil smirk.
"You will never win! We will destroy you!" I yelled at her with aggression in my voice. The only anger I felt right now was anger towards her.
"My dear just by hating me you have let anger into your heart even more. You will make a fine servant. You are dismissed, for now." She slowly dissipated, and I felt my eyes become heavy again. They slowly shut, and I was released from her grasp.
-Back to normal-
I could feel my body again even though it was not a good feeling. My limbs were weak and bruised, and my head felt like someone took a hammer to it. I could tell I was in Kaede's hut because I could smell her medicinal herbs. It was very quiet, and I guessed that I was alone. I slowly opened my eyes, wondering what I would wake up to. I slowly lifted myself up onto my elbows, and looked around. Hot tears started to fill my eyes when I saw Inuyasha in the corner, sitting in his usual spot.
"Inu… Inuyasha?" I stuttered trying to get up.
His eyes flew open with concern in them. He noticed me struggling, and flew to my side. He slowly laid me down again, and took my hand. "How are you feeling?" he asked.
"I feel like I have been beaten up, but other then that I feel fine. Where are the others?" I tried to get up again, knowing I would be unsuccessful.
He seemed to know I wasn't going to stay down so he helped me sit up, he sighed. "They are fine, but Kaede is treating them for minor injuries."
I looked down knowing I caused this, this would have never happened if I was in my own time. I began to cry. I could feel Inuyasha slowly wrapping his arms around me, softly stroking my hair.
"I… I thought I killed you! I thought I would never see you again!" I sobbed into his chest. I held on to his bright red robes for support.
"Well its over now, there is nothing to be afraid of. I'm here, and I am alive now would you stop you're blubbering?" he said softly, his chin resting on my head.
"You don't understand, do you? She still has control over me right now! She could take over at any given time, and there is no way I can stop it. No matter how much I fight, I can't break free. I don't want to hurt anyone else." I pushed away from him so I could see his face, tears still streaming down my own.
His face was emotionless as I said this. His hands were holding on tightly to my arms as he looked into my eyes. He could probably see the fear in my eyes, and feel my body starting to tense up. He finally broke his gaze and got up. "I will be right back." He told me, then walked out of the hut.
He left me sitting there, staring at the spot he once occupied. When I looked down at my body I saw that I was no longer in my uniform, I was now in the red and white priestess outfit like Kaede's. "How long have I been asleep?" I thought.
As I began to move the pain in my body began to escalate, and caused more tears to run down my face. I was kneeling, my body tingling everywhere with pain. I lifted up my sleeves to reveal blue, black, and purple bruises all up and down my arms. "They must be from the others trying to protect themselves." I thought to myself tracing the bruises on my right arm.
As I moved more and more I could feel every muscle in my body ach, and my head began to throb like crazy. I inched over to the wall so I could use it for support when I stood up. As I attempted too my legs felt like lead, they wobbled as I clung to the wall for support. It was hard to stand up at first, but then I got the hang of things. I slowly waddled my way to the door when Miroku walked in.
"We need to discuss some things." He said in a quiet tone, I saw that his arm was in a sling, and he had some bandages on his face. "I need to teach you how to control your anger, so she cannot take hold of it."
AN: So here is a nice long chapter! I really do hope everyone enjoys it as much as I enjoy writing it! Please review and tell me what you think.
